Chapter 20

The next few days Sara fell deeper into a depression. She refused to see any of her friends and tried to shut out Luca except that Grissom made her see him and also made her see Catherine. Grissom had tried to get Sara to see a psychologist but it was no use.

"Come on Sara you have to eat something" tried Grissom

"What is the use" sighed Sara

She was sure she was going to die and the more she was in hospital the worse she got.

"Gil, we cannot possibly give Sara her chemo if she is like this as it will nearly kill her, she is far too weak" stated Dr King

"Can we possibly send her home" asked Gil

"Not like this, we can may be give her a date and see if that changes her outlook"

Grissom and Dr King both spoke with Sara about her condition and told her if things improved she would be able to go home next week. It did not help much as she just seemed to stay the same. The turning point came a few days later when Grissom was visiting with Luca

"Damn it Sara, he is your son and needs you, please look at him and hold him, why bother having him if this is the way you treat him" yelled Grissom

"I just can't, I am going to die anyway so why let him near me" sobbed Sara

"Well if you started fighting then you would see that you are no dying"

Grissom sat there playing with Luca when he started fussing and really crying and then burning up and before Grissom knew it he had a seizure in his arms.

Grissom picked him up and ran out the door trying to find some help. Sara sat there is shock saying over an over again

"Oh god, please do not let my son die"

Just then Grissom returned

"What is wrong with him"

"They are not sure, it could be due to him being a small or an infection, they are testing him for meningitis"

Sara just started crying

"Gil, I need to see him now"

Grissom returned with a wheelchair and took her to where Luca was. The doctor on call and looking after him was Dr Hart.

"Hi Gil, I take it you are Sara"

"Yes, please tell me my son will be ok" whispered Sara too scared to talk for fear of breaking down

"Well your son is ok, it looks like he has a nasty chest infection and is also suffering from what we like to call separation anxiety which is where the body goes into convulsions or you are physically ill which is why he had the seizure. Sara we are going to arrange for him to be placed with you and will see how he responds. We can keep him with you until your next chemo, when is that.

Grissom was about to say it had been postponed when Sara spoke up.

"It should hopefully be by the end of the next week but I need to see what the doctor thinks"

Grissom could not believe the turn around in his wife.

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That night Sara hardly slept as she kept looking at Luca and thinking how close she came to losing him. All the nurses kept coming in to look at him and telling her how lucky she was cos he was absolutely gorgeous. Dr Hart could not believe how well he was going and he had been discharged from her care but the hospital left him stay with Sara until the end of the week. Sara could not stop holding him either.

Dr King agreed that Sara could go home and have her next treatment done as an outpatient again. She had improved dramatically and they all put it down to Luca. Luca may only have been 3 months old but he was a very wise soul who had saved his mother.

Catherine agreed to moved in to look after Luca when Sara's next treatment began. Grissom was determined to be there to help her through it.

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Grissom headed back to the office to check on things before the treatment began. Sara used the opportunity to come in and see everyone and to show Luca off. Once they walked in everyone tried to get a hold but Sara refused.

"Come on give me a hold Sara" whined Greg

"Sorry Greggo but it took me a while to settle him and I really do not want to wake him up"

Grissom knew it was a lie but kept it to himself as Sara was back to being the mother she was and was making up for lost time and with the treatment coming up she was determined to get very last cuddle in.

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