Disclaimer- All recognizable characters belong to Mrs. Stephenie Meyer, whereas all new characters belong to me.
Chapter 3- Sickening
I sighed and leaned back against the seat of my convertible. It was gray and bleak outside so I was able to have the top down and my hair blow. The air smelled faintly of burning leaves, I remembered I'd always loved that smell. Although I couldn't remember why. Memories came and went, I never understood why my human life was so hard to remember. My sire had tired to explain it to me, but most of my childhood was forgotten and I hated that. I flipped the radio channels, finally landing on a Johnny Cash song that wasn't too bad. I hummed along, trying desperately not to think of where I was going. It was pretty unbelievable, that after twenty years I was going back to. . . Well I was going back there. At least I wouldn't run into any of the Cullen's. I drummed my fingers against the steering wheel, letting my mind go. He who must not be named Cullen had been right about the pain I'd be in while changing. It was almost unbearable. Multiple times I'd tried to just end it, but my sire always stopped me before the deed was done. And the insatiable hunger afterwards. . . I'd waken up and just craved blood, the need to just drink and drink and drink. I knew in my mind I shouldn't drink humans, but my sire pretty much forced me. Now I can't even imagine drinking animal blood, how disgusting. I cringed, just the thought alone made me shiver. How. . . Ironic. I looked at the passing road sign and narrowed my eyes; I'd arrived. Suddenly my phone rang. I picked it up and held it against my ear. " What's up?" I spoke into it.
" Hey, just seeing where you are." Travis replied. I rolled my eyes.
" Why do you care?"
" Ouch. You shouldn't speak to your beau that way you know."
" You're not my boyfriend." I flipped the phone shut and groaned. He wasn't my boyfriend! So why did he keep thinking he was? I mean, just because we slept together doesn't make us an instant couple. Hell, sometimes it doesn't even mean you're friends. The phone rang again, I flipped it open and growled. " What do you want?" I said.
" Geez, who bit your ass?" Lanina responded.
" Oh it's just you."
" Who did you think it was?"
" Travis."
" He called and pulled the boyfriend card out on you?"
" Yeah."
" Why don't you just admit you two sort of are going out."
" Because we're not." I replied easily. " And we never will."
" Because you can't let go of your past." She told me. I scoffed and almost hung up the phone, but didn't.
" I let go of my past a long time ago Lanina." I glanced at the address taped to the dashboard, then turned a hard right. I was going at least 120, and it felt good.
" No you didn't Noleen. I don't think you ever really will." I rolled my eyes and went to reply, but stopped when all of a sudden something caught my eye. The path to Edward's house. " Hey, I have to go." I snapped the phone shut and turned onto the road. The gravel moved beneath my tires, making the trip to his house only a little rocky. I took a sharp intake of breath, there it was. The house looked exactly like it had twenty years ago. I walked around, peering inside carefully. There were white sheets over the furniture, but everything else was gone. There were no paintings, no signs that anyone had lived there since the Cullen's had moved out. My mind flashed, memories ran back and forth through my mind.
"It's been almost a century that Edward's been alone. Now he's found you. You can't see the changes that we see, we who have been with him for so long. Do you think any of us want to look into his eyes for the next hundred years if he loses you?"
" You're part of the coven now."
" So you see, Hell's not so bad if you get to keep an angel with you."
" Do I dazzle you?"
" Frequently."
" Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars- points of light and reason...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."
Alice's laugh, Rosalie's glares and Esme's calm motherly looks filled my mind; making my crazy. Finally I couldn't help but let out a huge scream. I screamed until my throat begged me to stop. " WHY!" I yelled. " Why did you leave me when I needed you the most?" I fell to the ground, my head landing in my hands. Lanina was right. I hadn't come to grips with my past, and I didn't think I ever would. I needed him so damn much and he left me alone. Rain began to fall on my face, crying the tears I couldn't.
" Please, just let me die." I begged her, my sire.
" I'm going to do the next best thing." She whispered in my ear. " I'm going to let you live."
" No, please. . . "
" I'm going to teach you everything I know Isabella. You will be my creation, and finally I can be God. Although-" She stood up. The pain from her venom flared through me, making me scream. " You need to let go of who you were. So, your name now is Noleen. No more of this Isabella." She knelt back down and wiped away a tear that had fallen from my cheek. " You're being reborn Noleen, reborn into something beyond your wildest imaginations." And that was when I knew it, that I would never be the same.
That was when I knew I was going to be a monster. I stood up and cleared my throat, trying to achieve total numbness-like my sire had taught me. I walked away from the house, leaving my memories behind with it. I was on a mission, and when I completed that mission I was going to go back home. And I would hold myself together, no matter how bad the pain got.
I parked my car in front of the house. It was blue with white shutters; how quaint. " Okay Lin and Tai Choi, get ready to meet your maker." I mumbled, making sure my knives were in my leg holders. Sure, I could tear them apart with my bare hands, but what kind of monster did that? I smirked and got out of the car, walking up the narrow path to their front door. I could hear people inside moving around.
" Who do you think it is?" A girl whispered. I assumed it was Lin.
" I don't know Lin." A boy replied; I'd been right. What else is new? " You don't think we were caught to you?"
" How am I to know Tai?" I knocked on the door; everyone stopped moving. Suddenly the door swung open and my gaze landed on Tai; oh and he was a looker. My gaze moved up and down, he was clearly strong, with topaz eyes and black hair.
" My name's Noleen, I need to speak with you and your. . . Sister." I knew she most likely wasn't his sister, but hey. I didn't really care.
" Why?" He demanded to know. I smiled sweetly, making sure he caught my fang. His gaze dropped and he stepped aside.
" Glad you see it my way." I whispered and stepped inside. The living room was enormous, complete with wooden floors and a fireplace. Lin stood straight, her jet black hair swinging slightly. She also had topaz eyes. " Where's the rest of your family?"
" Out. They're hunting." Lin told me. I sat down on a green couch, making myself comfortable. I kicked my legs up on the coffee table and leaned back.
" Good, sit down." They did just that.
" Your eyes. . . " Tai began, not finishing the sentence.
" Yeah, I know. Let's just say my diet is. . . Different from yours."
" You're a human drinker." Lin spat, clearly disgusted.
" And a damn fine one at that." Tai wrapped his arms around Lin's waist and squeezed it tight. Assuring her everything was going to be okay. How. . . Sickening. " You two are in trouble, and not the kind you live to talk about."
Marienna- Well, my Bella, lol Noleen, is different then regular Bella. Let me explain, Noleen is full of bitterness and anger. And she has changed. Her sire taught her to pretty much be evil. She lost everything that she was, including her personality and everything that she'd been before she'd been changed and before Edward'd left her. Hopefully this clears things up for you :)
Defying-Gravity-Girl- Good unusual or bad unusual? lol.
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