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Chapter 16- It's all a little bittersweet
I finally got up and grudgingly went downstairs as soon as I saw the sun begin to rise. Travis was by the banister, a grin on his face. I scowled and rolled my eyes, this couldn't be good. " Oh love of my afterlife-" He began.
" No." I replied. He laughed and picked me up, swung me around, then placed me back on the floor. Meanwhile, I growled. I didn't enjoy all this lovey dovey crap.
" I'm in love!"
" You love anything with junk in the front and trunk Travis."
" Hmm, true. But it's real this time."
" What about me?"
" Well. . . I'll never have your heart Noleen, so I have to give up on you. Lanina on the other hand. . ."
" That's so disgusting." He smirked and shrugged his shoulders.
" You wanted us to be friends."
" Not what I meant Travis! What happened, how did this go about?"
" We talked and one thing led to another and we kissed. Then you came barging in and well- actually she slapped me and hasn't talked to me since. But I think she's just scared."
" Or she really doesn't like you and was caught up in the moment."
" I think you're jealous." I sighed and shook my head.
" Travis, you caught me. I'm actually madly, truly, and deeply in love with you. And I didn't mean for that to sound like the Savage Garden song."
" I know you do. But, you have to help me win her over." I glared at him, was he serious? I didn't see any amusement or teasing in his eyes, he was dead serious. No pun intended.
" No way. Uh uh. Charm her yourself." I went to walk away but he grabbed my arm and swung me back around to him.
" Come on Nol! You have to help me!"
" Did you forget I have a master vampire after me? Did that slip your mind somehow?"
" After we get all that settled, will you help me?"
" I may be dead then." He gasped and put his hand over his mouth.
" Don't speak of such a horror. A world with no Noleen would be a truly horrible world!" He joked. I couldn't help but laugh, and then swatted him away.
" I'll think about it."
" Thank you lover!"
" Don't call me that!" I yelled as I walked away. God he was so-o-o annoying sometimes. I sat on the couch next to Carlisle, Alice's necklace in my pocket. Or should I say, Alicia? " Hey Carlisle." I cautiously said. He smiled and turned to me, his eyes a bright topaz. He'd fed recently. Must have been when I was upstairs thinking. " What's up?"
" Not much, what about you Noleen?" He responded.
" Oh, not much. Hey. . . What's Alice's real name? Like, full name?" I needed to get all the information I could before trying to piece together this puzzle; it would help if I knew that Carlisle knew something.
" Mary Alice Brandon." His eyebrows furrowed and he looked at me questioningly. " Why do you want to know?" I bit my lip and smiled softly.
" Umm, just curious."
" I see. . . Well, that's her full name." I shifted in my seat and cleared my throat.
" And. . .How did you figure that out?" I bit my lip again and batted my eyelashes, trying to looking sweet and innocent. I don't think it was working. I hadn't done it in so long, I was a tad rusty.
" I don't remember. Again, why are you asking." I saw Alice out of the corner of my eye, she looked troubled. She probably thought I was going to rat her out. I turned my attention back to Carlisle and held up my hands.
" Just asking! Well, nice chatting with you Char, see you later!" I got up and walked over to Alice, a grin was plastered on her face.
" I told you I wouldn't tell anyone." I whispered. " Don't get your panties in a bunch next time granny." She giggled and nodded her head in agreement. Now, this was puzzling me too. How did Carlisle get a separate name then the one that was on the locket? Unless. . . My mind flashed. Nicholas had talked once about a family that was wanted by the master vampires. Something about something, I hadn't really been paying attention. But from what I remembered, there was a young girl he was fascinated with who- I gasped. Who disappeared around the same time Alice was placed in her mental institution. I looked at her, with her happy eyes and smile. She'd seen something as a human that had messed her up so bad she ended up in a rubber room with a different name. " Someone was trying to protect her." I thought aloud. I felt someone's hand on my shoulder and jumped around. It was Edward, of course it was.
" Who was trying to protect who?" He questioned me.
" Umm. . . No one, I was just rambling. I think the better question here is why the hell are you sneaking up on me?" I smacked him on the chest and pushed him away. " Didn't I tell you no touchy!" He chuckled and shook his head.
" Yeah you did, but I need to talk to you."
" Doesn't everyone?" I muttered. " Listen Eddie, I don't have time. I need to figure out where Nicholas is, before he decides to come kill me when he figures out where I am! See this awful situation I'm in?"
" It won't take long. I swear." I sighed and swept a hand through my hair, fluffing it out a little. I pursed my lips in frustration and let out a groan.
" Ugh, fine. Outside." We went to head outside, but I remember what happened earlier and stopped. " Wait, no outside. Upstairs." No Noleen, beds. " Wait-"
" Noleen, I'm not going to try to jump your bones, I just want to talk." I scowled.
" You know for someone who can't read my mind, you're doing an awfully good job with it." He smiled, with that cheesy grin I'd loved so long ago. " Just go outside and shut up."
We walked outside into the rising dawn and sat on the wet, dewy grass. Millions of thoughts ran through my head. Why was it I always managed to get my life in peril? Edward cleared his throat and turned to me, tearing his gaze away from the sky. " "Before you, Noleen, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars- points of light and reason...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything." He finally said. My jaw dropped and I shook my head.
" No, you're not doing this Edward! You're not going to sit here and tell me how much you love me and expect me to fall head over heels again! You broke my heart!" I stood up and clenched my fists angrily.
" I know Noleen, and I'm so, so sorry. If I could take it back I would! I swear-"
" Well too bad Edward! Because you can't take back the past! What's done is done! We can't just rewind-" He stood up and put his hands around my waist, then pressed his lips to mine. I suddenly felt weak in the knees, he could still do it. Still. . . Dazzle me. He pulled away and looked at me with those beautiful topaz eyes.
" Tell me you don't feel anything Noleen, and I'll just stop. But I know you do. I know you feel something, anything." He whispered, his cool breath on my cheek. For a moment, I just stared at him, into his eyes. Maybe I could just go back to the way I was. Maybe I could- No. It would never be the same, never again. I shook my head and pulled away.
" I can't Edward. We'll. . . We'll never be like we were. I don't know if I could ever trust you again and-"
" That's not what I asked you Noleen. I asked you if you still felt something towards me. I asked if you still loved me." I hardened up and shook my head slowly.
" No Edward. I don't. I stopped loving you a long time ago. So just leave me alone." I said coldly. I saw his face break, just like mine did so long ago. And it felt. . . Wrong. I didn't feel the bittersweet revenge I thought I would, there was no sense of accomplishment running through me. Just deep regret.
" Fine. Consider me. . . Just a friend then." And with that he turned and walked into the house. Leaving me alone. I sank to my knees and let out a dry sob. I was so stupid sometimes, letting my damn anger get the best of me. I'd just turned away the only man I'd ever love. Ever. For all eternity my heart would belong to him, and I just let him walk away. And my pride was too big to rush in that house and declare my love for him. I wouldn't allow myself to do it. I heard the door open and someone walk over to me.
" Go away." I muttered, not looking up. Lanina crouched down and smiled a crooked smile. Her blonde hair fell past her shoulders as she shook her head no.
" Not a chance." She whispered and sat down beside me. She began pulling up grass. " What happened?"
" He confessed his love, and I turned him away. I'm an idiot Lan."
" Yeah, but you know that, so that helps."
" What am I going to do?"
" You are going to do what your little dead heart desires Noleen. Haven't you learned that? You may have said some stupid things, but if you really love him, you're going to be with him. There's no way you're going to just, let this die. You're not that stupid. I know you still love him Nol, and the past is the past. He said he was sorry and that he would take it back if he could. Sometimes. . . Sometimes you just have to let the past heal, no matter how hard it is, and forgive and forget."
" I suppose. . ." I sighed and laid down, looking up at the clouds. I was hungry. " Wanna go feed? I'm starving, maybe it'll help my mood."
" We just fed."
" No completely."
" True."
" So?"
" So sure, let's bring Travis along. He needs to feed too." I grinned as I got up.
" Sure, let's bring your boyfriend along."
" He's not my boyfriend."
" You guys were getting pretty serious."
" I was caught up in the moment."
" Oh really?" She held the backdoor open for me and growled.
" Yeah, really."
" Whatever." She was lying.
Mad4anime- I know that was her real name, but as you see, I'm kind of changing things around a bit. Er, a lot hehe.
saphyree- Yeah, I kind of have her have a lot of Sage's personality. But, I think Noleen is colder than Sage is. A lot colder haha. But she's not going to change much, a wee bit, but not much.
micah- no prob, and thanks for reading! Hope you liked this chapter!
dangerous blonde - that is too funny, good song haha!
animallover0109- no vicky didn't change her. She was changed by a british vampire, I don't think I have a name for her yet. She just always comes up as she haha. What Victoria did was rat out who Noleen was ( Bella), and where she used to live and such to Nicholas. Hopefully this helped your confusion a tad!
LucidNightfall-No, they're not going to fight over Noleen, simply because Travis knows she'll never love him like she loves Edward. Which is why he's trying to hook up with Lanina partly.
Eclipse-Lover- I am actually adding to Silent Lucidity, another one shot but this time in Bella's pov to answer some questions that were brought up. It should be posted in a couple days, so look for that :)
I hope everyone liked this chapter, I wrote it fairly fast ( 20 mins I think, maybe 30) So please excuse any grammatical errors, I think I have all the spelling ones okay, but who knows! Haha, thanks for reading and reviewing! Keep it up! haha. I'll keep writing as long as y'all keep reviewing, cause it makes me happy and pushing me to write as fast as I do I think. ( Listen to me bribing haha)
Until next time,
Faith
Ps- How did I come up with this? It just started off as a simple idea and as I keep writing it, new ideas keep forming and new plots come up! So, I'm glad everyone likes my idea as much as I did when I decided to write it!
