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Chapter 24- The guardian
I kicked a pebble into the small pond in front of me. I didn't know where I was; I only knew that I'd ran at least a couple miles before ending up in this little, quaint forest-like place. I was sitting on a log looking at the water, thinking about how much my love life sucked. He wanted to die. . . Was he crazy? Maybe he was mentally insane before he was changed and it came back. I mean, first he didn't want to change me. Now he doesn't want to get changed back himself. It seemed like something was out to get us! Trying to keep us apart. Maybe we weren't destined to be together. . . I groaned and kicked another pebble. Men suck.
A sudden noise ripped me from my thoughts. I turned around and took my gun out. Rosalie raised her hands in surrender and smiled weakly. I rolled my eyes and lowered my weapon. " What do you want Rose? To rub the fact that Edward doesn't want me in my face?" I said. She stepped forward and shook her head rapidly.
" Noleen, you and I don't always get along-" I scoffed and sat back down on the log.
" That's an understatement." I murmured.
" Whatever, the point is no matter what I think of you, my brother adores you. He loves you with everything. Anyone with eyes can see that." She sat down beside me, her hair waving in the wind.
" Obviously he doesn't love me too much." I whispered. " He'd rather die than change back."
" He's just being stupid right now. He'll change his mind Noleen."
" No he won't, he's as stubborn as a jackass."
" Oh come on! What happened to you! Kick his ass if you need to! Make him see your point!" Rosalie exclaimed. I looked at her in surprise and raised my eyebrow in question. She sighed and looked out at the pond; throwing a small rock into it." None of us want to lose him either. You forget, he's part of our family. He won't listen to any of us. You're out last hope pretty much."
" Oh really?" I smirked and stood up. " Say pretty please."
" Noleen-" She growled... But a sudden laugh tore us from our conversation. I whirled around, my gun raised. Mitchell smiled and stepped forward; his red eyes gleaming with amusement.
" Don't worry Noleen; I'm not here to harm you or your friend." He told me smoothly.
" Why should I believe you?" I asked. He shrugged his shoulders.
" Because if I wanted to harm you, I would've when you two were chatting." I stared at him; he seemed to be telling the truth so I put my gun away.
" Why are you here?" Rosalie questioned him. He looked at her quickly but then focused his attention back to me.
" I want an alliance with you Noleen." He stated.
" What?" I said incredulously. He stepped a little closer to me and held out a leather bound book. I took it and looked at it. " Umm, what the hell is this?"
" Inside you will find who you are. I shall be back to receive your answer." Then poof, he was gone. I studied the book, it was all written in Latin.
" What a freak." Rosalie spoke up, she looked at the book and scoffed. " What is that? Latin?" I shook my head and mumbled the cover.
" The guardian." I said. She peered at it and scrunched her face in confusion.
" You read Latin?"
" A little. Come on, I got a book to read and an ass to kick." She laughed and then we took off towards their house.
Carlisle's new library was nice; damn thing even had a fireplace. I sighed and closed the book. So far I'd gotten a page read. The Latin was giving me an imaginary headache. Whoever took the time to write the freaking thing deserved to. . . Die. All I'd gotten out of it was that there was some special human who if turned into a vampire would become the guardian. What the guardian did, I hadn't found out yet and I didn't plan on finding it out that night. I put the book on one of the tables and kicked my leg up. I stiffened when I heard Edward come into the room. I knew I should ignore him, but I wanted answers. " What do you want?" I snapped quickly. I didn't have to be nice to get answers, thank God. He walked in and sat down in front of me. His face troubled.
" Noleen-" He started. " I'm sorry. But I just. . . " His voice trailed off as if he were trying to find the right words to say in his defense. I swung my feet down and looked at him intensely, those bright blue eyes glared into mine. Like ice.
" No, I get it Edward. You're selfish." I smiled and stood up. " There's worse things to be I suppose." He looked up at me in shock.
" Excuse me?"
" Yeah, you're selfish Edward Anthony Mason Cullen. You are oh, so selfish because you have a family here who loves you and you're willing to give that up in hopes of seeing your dead parents in heaven. If you even get to heaven that is. You're willing to just throw them and me away. The woman you say you love so much. All for you to feel better about your soul and your very being. Well, I hope you get what you're looking for. And I'm sorry that neither I nor your family could give it to you. That you have to resort to death to be happy." He stood up, looking hurt. Well I hoped he was hurt, he deserved it after trampling on my heart twice.
" Noleen, that's not why I don't want to change back-"
" Oh that's bullshit Edward and you know it. You have a second chance at dying and you're jumping at it. You want to die because it's better than being some monster." He leaned forward and let out a cough, his body shook from the power the cough had. It was starting. . . Edward was beginning to die.
" Noleen-" He rasped as soon as he stopped coughing. " I love you but-" I stepped forward and punched the wall next to me, leaving a dent.
" Damn it! But what Edward! I should be all you need! WHY AREN'T I ALL YOU NEED!" I cried out. A dry sob came over me before I could bite it back. I didn't want to show him just how much this was killing me. " I would've done everything for you. Fuck, I still would! But you just. . .It's like all I feel means nothing. That only what happens to you counts."
" That isn't true?"
" No? Then tell me, why won't you change back?"
" I'm scared!" He yelled. I stumbled back a bit from the impact his words had on me. Scared? He let out a small breath and ran a hand through his hair. I walked forward and lightly touched his arm.
" Scared of what?" I whispered. He looked me in the eye and sighed. I walked over to the couch (yes the library had a couch in it) with him and sat down.
" I'm scared of becoming what I was before. . . Before I met you and. . . I'm scared I won't be able to control myself. I'm scared it'll be like I have to start all over again." He told me softly. I rested his head on my chest and rubbed my fingers through his hair.
" Edward you won't be alone. I'll be here for you, I swear. I won't let you hurt anyone." I kissed the top of his forehead and held him as another cough erupted from him. " Edward baby please. . . Please allow someone to change you back." I whispered. He looked up at me and nodded his head in agreement. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him gently.
" I want you to." He whispered in my ear. I pulled back and gazed at him.
" Edward, I'd love to but I can't."
" Yes you can. I know you can."
" No, I really can't. I'm not a vegetarian Edward. I drink humans. I will most definitely go to far, I know it."
" I'll only change back if you do it." He said, a little more forceful. I growled and darted up.
" GOD, why are you so damn stubborn!" I cried out. He laughed weakly and stood up.
" Because." He answered simply.
" Because isn't an answer."
" Just do it Noleen." I sighed and shook my head no.
" I can't Edward." Then I walked out of the room. This was beginning to get a little tedious.
Okay, hopefully y'all liked this chapter! I can't write long because I have to go, so again thanks for reading and review please! I love you all, mwah mwah. Thanks for the muffins and brownies and cookies! God, are you guys trying to get me fat? HAHA, jk jk. I don't think there were any questions so. . .
Until next time!
Faith
