My Life Is Brilliant
Chapter 4: This Love I Clutch
A/N: Again, I simply can't express how much the reviews, favorites, alerts, and hits mean to me. This was originally a one-chapter story, but wow! I didn't think people would like it this much. I'm not even sure if you guys believe me when I say thank you, but it's the truth. I am very much thankful for it all. Special thanks to my beta Brokenshardsofmyheart99! And an extra thanks to my sister, who gave me a much better idea of where i was taking this story.
Disclaimer: See the last 3 chapters.
Yusuke placed the phone down and heard the faint click. Just as it had been before, he moved as if he had no will of his own. His legs carried him to the small closet by the door, where he took out his black, worn out jacket, and closed the door. It was when the door closed that he realized that he was not alone in the room. Two pairs of eyes were staring at him, watching him with indecipherable expression that masked what they were hiding. The look on the face with the garnet eyes almost made him retch. He now knew that this was not an innocent get-together with friends that had not seen each other. This was no longer a game for affection that he had as of recent figured out he was no longer in the lead. No, someone uninvited had come along and broke his already tarnished bond with the one he had sworn his love to. Without a single word to either face he exited the apartment, never turning back, even as he heard his own lover call out to him.
"Leave him be." A calloused hand reached out for the red-haired man's upper arm to hold him in place. Upon seeing the calm façade off from the man in front of him, he added, "I'm sure it's nothing wrong. Yusuke is probably angry that I interrupted you two."
Kurama lowered his head. "Perhaps, but it seems strange of him to do this." The words that he held back from his sentence wanted to rush out and drown him. Though he had rekindled his feelings for Hiei, there was still another piece in his heart that Yusuke had claimed long ago. "I should go after him," he said.
From the manner that Hiei had pulled him into his arms, he knew that the demon had planned on hearing those words. "Kurama, he will come back. Just stay here to wait for him… With me." The redhead felt intoxicated at once. The words were poured into him in the same way that drunkards drank their liquor. "He gets to have you longer than I do. Kurama, I want to show you how much I love you."
The kiss made him feel as if he no longer possessed a body of his own. It was saccharine poison that would kill him, but he could not force himself to push the man away. The hands that moved up and down his body elongated his pleasure, the love that he was so fixated on. Hiei's mouth fixed itself on his neck, and he knew that if Hiei had wanted to take his life right then, he would not have protested. The desirable mouth unhinged itself from his bruised neck, and took his lips. The tongue that entered into his mouth sent quakes of ecstasy within him. He wanted to collapse, to beg Hiei to take him, to forget that their love was not forbidden.
Sweat trickled down their bodies as they regained their breaths. Kurama raised a finger, traced Hiei's body with it, and licked it. Savoring the taste that he seldom had, he fixed his gaze into Hiei's eyes. "He will be back, you know," whispered Kurama, breath constant now.
Ruby eyes blinked. "Not tonight," he answered before taking the sheets they had thrown off the bed to cover them both. "He's busy, at least it seemed like it when he left without a word." As he brought Kurama to his chest, he kissed him. The kiss was ephemeral, but addicting as well.
"Do you think he knows?" The question was not asked without a quiver of the soft voice. They both knew how much was at stake if their relationship was made public. Kurama buried his head deeper into Hiei's warm body.
He felt his lover shake his head. "I'm not sure. Still, I'll make sure he forgets. As much as I want us to be together, I can't ruin your life," he admitted. "Do you know how much I love you, Kurama?"
His eyes widened a bit from how considerate the words sounded in his ears. "As much as my love for you?" he asked, feeling his cheeks blush. That one word always sounded strange when it came from him, he knew. All the time he was with Yusuke, he used it as little as possible. However, when Hiei came stepped back into his life, he had found numeral occasion where he had used it. He told himself that he was just testing and savoring it for when he was ready to say it back at Yusuke, with meaning. And now his thoughts on that had changed. No longer was Yusuke the owner of his heart.
Hiei laughed a little, trying to pretend he wasn't. "Perhaps. Kurama, I would do anything for you… Would you do that for me too?" The question remained unanswered, just as Hiei had expected.
"It's not your fault, Yusuke."
He remained gazing at the view of the city from the hotel room that he had acquired. "How do you know? I wasn't faithful, I left him alone so many times, and I took him for granted… Face it, I lost." He bit his lip, blood seeping out, and drawing a line downward.
"And where are you tonight?"
The question was unexpected, but it let him analyzed the decision he had made. "You're right. I'm not with him, but I didn't… Does this mean I still have a chance?"
A cup of tea was placed back down on the table that separated the two bodies. "With Kurama… It'll be difficult now that he has awakened his long-lost love for the obstacle that is in your path." The cup was picked up and dropped to the carpeted floor, tea scattering and being absorbed into the burgundy carpet. "You may still have a chance. A true man makes his own luck and fortune, you know."
Yusuke shook his head. "You're wrong about one thing," he whispered and looked up, "Hiei was never lost to Kurama. They both long to be with each other, but I can't just step aside and let them go to enjoy a nice and peaceful life!"
"Just as something as a mere teacup can be broken, so can a living being. It's the way you go about it that counts in the end, Yusuke."
Rain began to pour outside the room. Yusuke could hear the gusts of wind hit against the door, trying to get in and interrupt a nice conversation. "Yeah, I think I know what you mean." He got up from his chair and walked to the door, making a brief detour to step on the already broken teacup.
The icy rain pelted him as he stepped outside. "I'm not out of this yet, Hiei." He walked to his car, started it, and drove home. Now he felt sure of what he had to do, but something still felt off. Yet that didn't stop him.
A/N: I must apologize if there were any big mistakes in this chapter. My glasses broke and I am literally blind. Thanks for reading!
