Thank you to everyone who has read this story. I hope maybe now I'll actually be able to write more of them. …And finish them. xD Hopefully I'll also like them enough to put them up here on . :3 I'll really try.
Here is the third and final chapter of this story. It's slightly longer than the others, but not by much. I apologize. I do hope you like it though.
THANK YOU AGAIN FOR READING! 333
Disclaimer: Do you honestly think I own Naruto? If I did it would be dominated by the Akatsuki and all their evil goodness! BWAHAHAHA!! …Enjoy the story.
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When I finally sat up, my body felt stiff. How long had I been lying like that? I couldn't remember. I flicked my wrist in a signal for my bird to being a slow descent. I knew I must have looked pathetic from crying for so long. When the tops of the trees were right beneath the bird's wings, I stood.
'It's not like it really matters that I left. I never wanted to be there in the first place.'
I leapt from the back of the bird and onto a high branch. I headed downward, jumping from branch to branch. As I went, I made one simple hand sign and muttered out, 'katsu'. Above me, there was a huge explosion as my bird burst into a massive flurry of fiery colors. I did not look up and admire my art as I usually did.
Everything in my mind was so blurry; I'm surprised I even made it to the ground. Once there, I leaned back against the trunk of the tree and sighed. I slid down to a sitting position and pulled my knees to my chest, resting my head on top of them. I just needed to think. I needed to figure out what was wrong with me; why I felt the way I did.
Above me, a single brave bird began to sing. I admired his courage to stay even after the explosion. I kinda wished I would have had the courage to stand up to Sasori-no-danna instead of running away like I had. It must have made me seem pretty weak. I continued to listen to this bird's song until I started to hear another sound off in the distance. Eventually, the sound grew louder and I knew what it was. My name was being called…and it was him.
"DEIDARA! Answer me, dammit!""
I growled quietly. "As if I will, un…"
Suddenly, his voice sounded so near…like he was only a few feet away from me. "Please…I'm sorry! Your art is truly the better and I…just…please answer me!"
With wide eyes I stared blankly ahead, my mouth slightly agape. Had he just said what I thought he had? There was no way…I shook my head. "Now I'm imagining things…there's no way he would say-"
"DEIDARA! SHOW YOURSELF!"
This time his yell cracked slightly. I actually thought he sounded upset…
"Once again, I am definitely losing it, un." I leaned my head back against the tree and closed my eyes. "I…don't want to see you right now…"
His voice was fading away. Soon, the silence returned. Above me, the bird began to sing again. I felt completely wiped out.
From in front of me, I heard a noise. To say the least, I was startled. I instinctively moved to a defensive position, my hands hovering above the bags of explosive clay on either side of my belt. I relaxed slightly when I realized I recognized the figure appearing in front of me.
"Zetsu-san…"
He stared at me with impassive yellow eyes. I hated how everyone in that damn organization was so emotionless.
"So you are alive…" Zetsu's black personality spoke.
I snorted. "Obviously."
"Hmm….and here we had figured you had gone and blown yourself to pieces and we came to make sure there was nothing left of you…"
I glared at him now. "Oh, so sorry to disappoint, un." Sarcasm flooded out with every word.
"We heard the idiotic redhead screaming so we just assumed you really were dead." Zetsu's white personality broke in then, sounding tentative. "Deidara-san, do you really think that's any way to treat him?"
"That's none of your fucking business, un," I responded with a snarl.
A dark chuckle answered me. White Zetsu spoke again, now sounding slightly nervous. "S-sorry to bother you, Deidara-san. It's just that Sasori-san is really bad at expressing his emotions since his parents died…"
I must have been staring at him with a look that said, "You're out of your mind." He fidgeted a bit and then spoke again. "I-I'm sorry…we'll go now." He melted away back into the ground then, leaving me to myself yet again.
After he had left, my mind continued its string of thoughts. My head was really starting to hurt. I closed my eyes yet again.
'What the hell did he mean the he has a hard time expressing his emotions? He never seemed to have any problems expressing his hatred all this time!'
I was left to think for a long time. Everything that I came up with that I thought gave me answers only brought more questions. It was starting to drive me insane. Hours passed, I never moved. I was exhausted. I hadn't slept for nearly three days…but I couldn't sleep now.
It was at sunset that my thoughts finally started to fit together like puzzle pieces. My conflicting emotions I hadn't been able to identify were beginning to come in more clearly now…
'He came looking for me…that has to mean something…and he hugged me. …Kissed me too at that. There is no way his pathetic excuses even begin to cover that…"
My eyes snapped open. The realization hit me so hard I felt like I couldn't breathe.
'Don't tell me…Zetsu-san didn't mean hate…he meant…'
I brought the back of my hand to my mouth. I felt sick now. After nearly two years together I was just now realizing what it was I had been starting to feel…and obviously he had as well.
I was on my feet and running in a split second. I felt so stupid! I ran blindly, everything blurring around me with the speed I was running at. Only one thing stood out in my mind. 'I need to find him…'
I realized something as I ran. It was cold. The air was biting against my skin as I sprinted along the forest floor. My cloak offered little protection, but I knew it was helping at least a little. I kept running.
Then, I remembered something. 'Why am I still running? I can fly!' I reached my hand into the bag of clay at my side, yet I encountered something hard and cold.
"DAMMIT! It froze, un!"
I grit my teeth in irritation. Time felt like it was moving so slowly even while I was moving so fast.
Something occurred to me then and my running began to slow. 'What am I even doing…?' My running slowed further. "He probably…gave up hours ago…"
It took a moment for me to notice that I was tasting blood. I released my unconscious grip on my lower lip. Blood continued to flow into my mouth leaving a horrible metallic taste on my tongue. I gave one short laugh. It held no humor.
"I really am an idiot."
I stopped running then. My arms hung limply at my sides, my body feeling drained once again. I had no idea where I was and I honestly didn't care anymore.
"Doesn't matter. Not like I'm worth the trouble anyway. I'll be forgotten by tomorrow, un…" Even though my voice stayed even, I could feel my body betraying me. I felt a fresh onslaught of tears stinging at the corners of my eyes.
"Kinda wish I coulda said I was sorry…but I guess it's too late to apologize now…"
My mind finally caught up with me and suddenly overtook my entire being with a wave of weakness. My voice cracked and broke before I broke down into pathetic and forceful sobs. I collapsed to my knees, choking on my own tears. "I'm sorry…I'm so damn useless…I've only ever caused… problems, un…" I spoke to no one. My voice echoed hollowly against the trees around me.
I curled against the cold. I had no idea what I was going to do now. Should I try to find my way back? I knew I didn't want to go back. But if I didn't, I'd be top priority on their 'People that Need to Die' list. After all, I might give away their precious secrets.
Either way I'd be miserable.
A light wind picked up then. My body shuddered in response. Something colder than the air brushed against my cheek. I cracked open my eyes to see what it was. Even though my vision was blurred by tears, I still knew what it was that I saw.
"Snow…"
It fell silently and gracefully. Somehow…it brought up memories of my past. How once my mother had died, everything had seemed so foreign to me. I remembered having sat in my room, watching the first snow fall from my window. I was nine at the time. That was the day I had decided that there was my world, and everything outside of my world. Once my mother was gone, my world had become extremely small, basically only including me and my art. Everything else I either didn't trust, or completely ignored it.
"I guess I hadn't noticed until now… just how much he had become a part of my world..." I closed my eyes and sighed shakily. "I really am a moron…"
From somewhere not far off I heard what I thought was a bird's call. It was now that I started to notice my severe lack of chakra and sleep. I was really beginning to feel it. "So damn cold out…"
I heard a soft thud behind me. Confusion swept over me. 'What was that?' I turned in the direction of the noise. I saw something…red? I wiped the remaining tears from my eyes and squinted at the object. Finally, my eyes cleared enough for me to see. Red clouds…and red hair.
My breath caught and then rushed from me leaving me feeling like someone had just kicked me multiple times in the stomach. I was on my feet in less than a second, my fatigue completely forgotten. I sprinted and was to him in less than two seconds. I fell to my knees and gathered his near broken body into my arms. His breathing was coming in short ragged gasps. His body trembled fiercely against my own, the cold having taken a more serious toll upon him than me. I held him close, not caring in the slightest bit what he may have thought.
"Why…why did you come looking for me? You always say I'm nothing but trouble, un…so why?!" My voice shook, cracking and breaking multiple times.
He moved his head and his eyes locked with mine. What I saw there was unlike anything I had ever seen in his eyes. They held deep emotion, something I wasn't used to seeing at all.
His hand, so slow now in movement and trembling because of the icy air around us, reached for my face. I automatically moved my head to meet his outstretched fingers. They brushed my cheek and then brushed the hair that usually hid the left side of my face back behind my ear. His lips twitched, then pulled into a faint smile. Another thing I had never seen…It was beautiful…
"You know…you should wear your scope less often…Your eyes are amazing…"
I thought he was delirious. Tears started to fall from my eyes again. He shook his head, the smile faint, but still there.
"You really are…so stupid…" His voice had been reduced to a raspy whisper.
I shook my head. "No! You're the one being stupid, un! You should have just forgotten about me!" My voice was strong, yet heavy with pain.
His smile didn't falter. He pulled his hand from my face. I longed for it to remain there, comforting against my cheek. His hand stopped in the air and his pointer beckoned me forward. I willingly complied and leaned my head closer to his.
"I couldn't forget…because somehow…I fell in love with you…brat…"
I froze. Had he just said…what I thought he did? Shock pulsed through me. His smiled was wider now. My mind comprehended. He wasn't kidding. I held him tighter, crying even harder now. My joy was mixing with sorrow. The pain of it all was horribly overwhelming.
"Me too, un…me too."
Again, he leaned back slightly. "Good…otherwise…I woulda been kinda…pissed off at you…for putting me through all this…"
His face was so close to mine…and then the cold seemed to vanish. My body felt like it was on fire. His lips were pressed against mine; so soft and gentle. My fingers moved with a mind of their own, tangling themselves into locks of red.
When he pulled away from me, I felt the strong urge to pull him back again tearing at my insides.
His body convulsed again in my arms. I could see the pain he was in…and I could see him fading- fast. Even more tears welled in my eyes. He opened his eyes again and the lifted his hand to my face once more, this time, brushing away my tears.
"Never knew…you were so emotional…"
"No! Don't talk anymore! We need to get you back, un! Don't use any more energy!"
I tried desperately to stand, but my legs refused to respond. This frustrated me. I wanted to scream so badly.
His hand tangled into my hair and tugged slightly, I again froze, feeling helpless, and once again, useless.
"I should have just…told you sooner…it would have…spared us both the trouble…"
I shook my head. "I wouldn't have believed you…and I would have thought that you had gone insane, un…"
"I would have…made you believe me."
I saw in his eyes that he meant it. His grip on my hair tightened. This time, he was pulling me to him. Our lips crashed together once more with even more passion and intensity than before. It felt as though neither one of us wanted to ever move again.
"I…love you…you damn brat…"
His voice faded. His breathing stopped. His hand fell, hitting the ground with a dull thud, melting the snow around it with fading warmth. He no longer moved within my arms.
My eyes widened and my grip upon him tightened.
"No…please no…"
It was uncontrollable now. Tears streaked down my face, forming frozen paths as they fell. My body shook with forceful sobs.
"Don't leave me…not now, un…you can't…wake up. Sasori-no-danna…WAKE UP!" I screamed into the still air.
The pain was unbearable. I didn't want to believe it. To me…he only looked to be sleeping… Why? Why did fate have to be so cruel? To take away the only person I had loved since my mother- only minutes after realizing it?
I fell to my side on the snow covered ground, clutching his now still body close to my own. My sobbing didn't stop. I felt so helpless now…so betrayed by the world that I thought I couldn't have hated any more even if I had tried.
"I'm sorry…this is entirely my fault, un…if only I had realized it sooner…"
The snow was falling more thickly now. There was no more wind. It felt like my pain and sorrow was echoing all around me. I could no longer move. I held no desire to. So I stayed there with him…
The cold eventually began to fully set into my body. The snow stopped melting as it touched me. It settled in a thin blanket on top of us. Tears that still fell began to freeze upon my face. My whole body trembled in a futile effort to regain heat. The cold wanted to consume me…
And I willingly gave in.
I closed my eyes, a sad smile creeping onto my face. I took what air I could into my lungs, feeling them expand, despite how frozen they felt. My words left me in a whisper.
"I'm so sorry…Sasori-no-danna…I love you…"
The snow kept falling upon the world…but it was no longer just my world. It was our world now… and it always would be.
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I seriously hoped you enjoyed this story…
I'm considering making another story off of this one. If I do, I have some decisions to make on how things will go….But I'll try to get it done. :3
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Until I manage to complete another story then…
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