Bella POV

All Human

Chapter 7: Truth

I stood there, in a panic state. Jacob had feelings for me, and this whole time I was blinded by it. How could I be such a fool not to have noticed that Jacob was in love with me? All these years, all these letters…and yet when he told me I felt so numb. I didn't feel the same way for Jacob, as I did with Edward. I was in love with Edward and Jacob, I loved him yes but as a best friend.

Jacob bent down and picked up the broken pieces of the plate that fell and put it into the sink, I stood there and watched, I didn't move, I didn't speak. I was frozen. I tried to think of something to say, but I couldn't talk to him, I was speechless.

"Bella, say something," Jacob asked me. But what could I say? How was I suppose say anything right now? None of this was planned for, none of this I knew how to handle. This was something that made my heart race and made my mind fumble. I was at a loss for words, for movements, for nearly everything.

The moment that moment I tried to say something Charlie came through the door. My father did always seem to have the perfect timing, "Bella, I'm just stopping in to see how you're feeling kid-o. Oh? Jacob Black glad to see you're here I had no idea you and Bella were hanging out again?" Charlie said hanging up his jacket.

Jacob smiled at Charlie, "We've just caught up Charlie. Billy told me that Bell's was sick so I came down to see if she was all right. I was just leaving anyways, the guys and I are working on my car. We have a lot of work to do," Jacob complained to Charlie.

Charlie laughed, "That car of yours is giving you problems again huh Jake? Well let me know if there is anything I could do to help you fix it." Charlie offered walking into the living room.

Jacob then walked over to me, "Bella, I have been a good sport, this whole time I have pushed you to go with Edward. But if he is hurting you so much then let him go Bella, forget about Edward. You did fine all these years haven't you? Leave Edward, and come to me. I'm a better man than Cullen could ever be," Jacob pressed.

I couldn't believe he just said that to me…forget Edward like I've already have? I had no idea that Jacob could be so cruel with his words. The words twisted in my stomach…what was I supposed to say to that? How could you even say anything to that! Jacob Black has been leaving me speechless more often now then I would have liked…

"Jake…that was mean," I confessed walking away from him, "Edward was once your good friend Jacob, you can turn your back on him so coldly?" I questioned him.

Jacob laughed, he was laughing? "Because Bella Swan I have feelings for you, and I tried my best to let you go with Edward. I was going to be the good friend to let you go and find what your heart wanted. But Bella, if you're in such pain..It kills me to watch you go through it. I can't stand it. Why make yourself suffer when you can be with me, and be happy?" Jacob questioned.

His words turned tempting. Was Jacob actually making a point. Charlie then began to walk back to the kitchen as I heard him walking down the hallway.

"I'm off Charlie. I'll see you later Bella," Jacob said walking out the door and closing it. I watched him from the window walking down the pathway and down the road. Jacob…why I thought to myself. Charlie then began to walk to the door also.

"You look better Bell's. You think you're good to go to school tomorrow?" Charlie asked.

I nodded, "Sure I think I am getting better. Look if the Cullen's call don't answer okay?" I asked cleaning up the mess that Jacob made when he was making his sandwich.

"Why Bella?" Charlie asked in a concerned voice. He was afraid if I remembered.

"Let's just say I didn't hit my head hard enough," I said coldly staring at him. Charlie eyes shot wide open, he knew that I remembered and my words made him speechless. Glad to know that I was able to do it to someone also, "Have a good day at work dad." I finished.

Charlie put on his jacket and nodded, "Get better soon Bell's. I'll be home late again," Charlie said opening the door and walking out. Just as the door close I heard Charlie shout, "Damn it!". I broke out into a laugh, trying to hold it in before he heard me. Charlie was a funny man when he didn't even know it.

I finished cleaning the kitchen when I thought I could use a walk. It's been a while since I last left the house and I miss the outside world. I grabbed my jacket and walked outside. There wasn't really anywhere I could go so I walked in any direction. I watched the ground the whole time. Friday was soon approaching, in fact it was tomorrow and the Cullen's did invite me over for dinner. What was I suppose to do? Decline? I really did want to go.

But Jacob! Ah! Why did he have to go and tell me that he loved me? Why couldn't he just have stayed home and work on his car? Jacob was nice, and hot…but he was nice… he was my good friend. But never have I thought about him like I thought of with Edward.

My heart was killing me.

My heart hurts a lot…I wish Esme was here so that I could talk to her. So I could reach out for support but she wasn't anywhere close. I needed someone to be there for me, I needed someone to just reach out for me. I thought that Forks was going to be the one place that I could run away from everything. But everything came running to me here.

Edward, Jacob…we were just friends ten years ago, and now we were different people, how I wish that we could just turn back time, and just…go back to the way we were. I would have never climbed that tree then, if I knew what I did now.

"Bella," A voice called out to me, I stopped walking and turned around. Standing there was Edward…how long was he standing there? I remained silent, "Bella…your crying?" Edward asked. I didn't even notice that tears were coming down my face. I didn't try to wipe them away, so I watched Edward walked towards me, but I took a step back.

"Bella, what's wrong?" Edward questioned me. I wasn't sure if the tears kept running, but I knew that I had to take in a deep breath, I didn't want it to seem like I was a baby.

"Edward." I said trying not to let my tears break my voice, I couldn't hide it anymore I need to let it out in the open, "Edward. I'm sorry," I confessed to him.

Edward eyes shot open, "Bella?" Edward questioned. I nodded to the truth that I had remembered reaching to my face and whipping the tears away. Edward then rushed to me and hugged my tightly, "You remember." Edward said with the most joyous voice I have ever heard.

I pulled away, "I'm sorry Edward, I am so sorry for everything I've caused you but why did you hold onto me when I didn't remember? Why would you just put yourself through that?" I questioned, "Why didn't you tell me?" I added.

Edward watched my teary eyes and brushed away the tears on my face, "It's because Bella, you seemed happy. You were content with your life and you were content with everyone around you. Why would I want to just step in and make everything complicated?" Edward questioned.

"Edward why can't you see that even when you weren't there it was still complicated? You made it complicated for me either way! How can you be such a fool? Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you let me know that I was hurting you? Edward…I love you," I confessed.

I had to let it out, keeping it inside was burning me alive, "Bella!" Edward shouted with joy as he picked me up and began to spin me around, "Bella…you really remember who I am? You're not mad at me? If I didn't come on the branch it wouldn't have broke," Edward told me.

"Edward…Eddie, I don't care whose fault it was. It doesn't matter anymore, what matters is that I remember, I can remember everything." I confessed as Edward pulled me closer and with the quickest second, Edward placed his lips on mine. Our first kiss…

The taste of his lips on mine made me crave for more, his soft touch on mine as I wrapped my arms around his neck, begging him not to stop wordlessly. Edward hands pulled across my back pulling me closer. This moment could have lasted ten years and I would have never asked it to stop.

Much to my displeasure Edward pulled away, my eyes looked onto his golden eyes as they stared down on mines, "Bella." Edward said as a smile came across his face when he said my name, this made me smile also and also it pulled my heart back together.

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In the events of me remembering Edward brought me back to his house where Esme walked over to me and hugged me closely, "Bella honey, so I see you've though everything over? How do you feel sweetheart?" Esme asked holding my hands as she constantly smiled at me.

"I feel amazing." I confessed to her alone. Esme brought me inside the house where Carlisle was sitting down looking through some papers. He glanced over at me as I waved hello. That alone told him that I remembered, but where did Edward go on all of this?

"Bella, I see your memory is back, took you long enough," Carlisle confessed.

I nodded, "An old friend kind of jogged my memory." I confessed to him.

"An old friend?" Edward said coming in the room, "Was it Jacob?" Edward questioned harshly.

Oh boy got to think of something quick, if it wasn't for Jacob then I would have never remembered anything, in some case Edward should be thanking Jake, "Yes." I confessed, "Jake didn't mean to it just kind of came out. I was the one that put all the pieces together," I told them. It was true though, everything made sense when Jake just said one word.

Alice then ran into the room and hugged me, I fell out from the chair I was sitting on as she giggled in the most bubbly of tones, "Bella! You are back!" Alice shouted in her high pitch voice, I looked behind her to see Jasper waving to me. I smiled at him and looked at Alice who was still holding onto me.

"I never left Alice." I told her kindly. That's when I heard the loud heals walking down the hallway. I knew that that could only be one person – and since Esme was in the room – it really was only one person. I watched the door to see Rosalie walking past Jasper and walking into the room. Emmett staid by the door as he and Jasper exchanged looks.

Rosalie then walked right in front of me, Alice watched with a worried look as Rosalie stretched out her hand to me, I looked at her and accepted her hand as she helped me up to my feet. I watched her face as Rose smiled at me warmly, "Welcome back." Rose said in a low voice, so low that it looked like I was the only one to hear her warm welcome.

This made me smile greatly, knowing how they welcomed me back into their life was the most incredible feeling, "So I guess we don't have to wait for tomorrow to have dinner? Let's have dinner right now! Come mom we'll cook!" Alice shouted as she ran upstairs. Esme laughed and followed her daughter up the stairs as she Rosalie walked over to Emmett.

Carlisle then walked over to me as I helped myself back on the couch, "What made you remember Bella? I mean it has taken you ten years." Carlisle asked me.

"Jacob mentioned the name Eddie and then it just clicked. Before I knew it everything came running back. Charlie I think still doesn't realise that I remember everything, there was a lot of tension around the topic this morning," I confessed remembering the talk that Jacob and I had this morning and tried not to think about what had happened. It was just trying to remain happy, that's when I noticed Rosalie cold stare to Edward. Edward turned his head towards her and nodded as she walked out the room with Emmett following her he himself looked serious about what Rose and Edward's expression had.

"Did something happen?" I asked Edward.

Edward turned to me and smiled, "No, nothing Bella," He said in a calm voice.

But I still knew something was going on, and I wasn't going to sit down and wait for answer to happen anymore, I needed to take charge "Did something happen Edward?" I asked again.

Edward turned to his father; Carlisle nodded and left the room. Great, this whole family must be mind readers because with a glance they all knew what each other was thinking. How fabulous was this? Edward came and sat down beside me.

"Rosalie and Jacob have never like one another. The concern of their hate has grown a concern to the each of our families over the years. More so when you left and Jake and I fought. Rosalie and Jake had it out one night, she went down to La Push and fought with Jacob in person recently. Rosalie came back with a scratch on her face, she never stated a cause for the scratch and because of that Emmett was furious," Edward explained. Jacob fought with Rosalie?

I wonder why Jacob didn't bring this up? What else did Jacob forget to tell me when I explained to him about my small dilemma? "Bella, what's your relationship with Jacob now?" Edward asked. I had to be honest, if everything was out in the open it would be easier to solve.

"Jacob is my best friend. For the past ten years he's being writing letters to me…and this morning he kind of…confessed his love for me." I confessed to Edward.

Edward's hands began to squeeze the pillow beside him, he didn't seem happy with what I just told him, "You never received my letters did you?" Edward asked.

"You've begin writing to me?" I questioned in shock expression.

Edward nodded, "Yeah, I guess you don't know but Renee blames me for your accident. And I guess she didn't accept any letters from me. But Bella you have to stay away from Jacob," Edward asked me.

Stay away from Jacob? But I couldn't, no matter how mean and cruel Jacob was I couldn't stay away from him, "Edward. I can't do what you're asking of me, I can't stay away from Jacob," I confessed.

This made Edwards's shoulders become tense. I knew it wasn't the answer he wanted to hear but it was an honest answer, "And why not Bella?" Edward asked in a fractious tone.

Why not? I thought about it for a moment and then it became clear to me, no matter what Jacob say's to me he has being a part of me for the longest time, he was always there for me. Best friend fight, and Jacob is my best friend. He was always my best friend, and though his feelings for me has changed, mine haven't for him.

"It's because I need him Edward, I need Jacob Black." I confessed.

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