Pushing Me Away -- Linkin Park

This is the last smile

That I'll fake

For the sake

Of being with you

Mac knew that he shouldn't be doing this. Why was he trying to pursue a relationship with someone that he knew that he could never fully love? Payton had showed him that.

She looked at him and smiled, and he could feel a responding smile on his lips, but he knew that it did not reach his eyes. And when she looked into them, she saw that too.

And when she had later that evening said that she was sorry, but that she didn't think that they would make it as anything other than friends, he could not argue with her. He just looked into her eyes and said, "I'm sorry." She believed him, because the feeling was there in his eyes.

Sometime after she left him, he got up off from the park bench that she had left him sitting one, and started walking home. He decided on that walk that he would just have to stop trying to move on, and wait for the one that he truly wanted was ready again for a relationship of her own.

The women that he was dating were lovely women, but they were not Stella.