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BPOV
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My morning classes went by in a whirl. Maybe they seem short, because I knew my time with Edward today would be short? We just started hanging out and already I was selfish and wanted more time. Shouldn't I just take what I could get? But that didn't seem like enough….
I stood in the lunch line, tugging down on my jade turtle neck sweater nervously. I kept thinking about how biology was next and I would be sitting next to him. My heart jumped in anticipation. I grabbed a bag of chips and paid the cashier. I wasn't really that hungry, not with these butterflies dancing around in my stomach. Suddenly, I felt a tug on my arm making me muffle a scream. I jumped back and twirled around. It was Edward. All I could do was stare at him, gapping. I'm sure looked like an idiot. I quickly recomposed myself and gave him the best smile I could at that moment, still stunned.
He gave me a apologetic look. "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." he chuckled softly, obviously amused at the same time. "I just wanted to see if you wanted to sit with us today." he motioned over where Jasper and Alice sat. I nodded. I thought I might pass out my heart was thumping so loudly, I was sure he could hear it. I slid at the table, avoiding the curious looks from Alice. Jasper though was smiling, smiling like he was in on a secret? I wonder if he was pressing Edward with questions just as much as my cousins were-more so Alice.
I opened up my bag and quickly stuffed a cheesy, crunchy chip in my mouth before Alice could say anything. "Is that all you having?" Edward asked, staring at my bag of chips. "For somebody who cooks, you sure aren't eating a lot." I looked down at his plate and noticed it was covered with pizza, chips, French fries and a soda on the side. I raised my eyebrow at his food a smiling playing on my lips. He laughed, "I'm a growing boy." he pointed out. "I'm just nervous…" I blurted before I could stop myself. Crap, I hope he didn't catch on. "Oh about your appt?" I sighed in relief. Truthfully, I wasn't even nervous about my appt but I would let him think that…
"Just a little. Afraid your dad will come at me with more syringes." I grimaced at that thought. It wasn't a complete lie, the thought of more syringes did make me nervous. In fact it made my stomach twist up more and I had to shove my chips to the side. Eagerly, Alice grabbed them and started to feed Jasper. Ick. I felt like the whole time Alice and Jasper were starting at us, it was making me feel uneasy. What was the big deal? Were we really that fascinating to them? Edward grabbed a steamy French fry, dipping it in some catsup before turning to face me, leaning his head on his palm, which was supported by his elbow on the table.
"You know the offer is still on the table….I can still go with you?" his eyes looked wishful but they also looked uneasy. I shook my had profusely. "No, really. I'll be okay. My aunt will be there. I'll be back at school tomorrow…I'll see you Saturday.." I mentally slapped myself when I heard Alice try to cover her gasp into a fake cough. I shot her a annoyed look that told her to mind her own business. I think Edward was thinking the same thing because he raised an eyebrow at Jasper.
Jasper cleared his throat and leaned over to whisper in Alice's ear. "Come on baby. Let's go find somewhere to be alone." he said seductively. I was thankful at that moment, because Alice lost complete interest in us, staring in Jasper's eyes and smile lovingly. "Okay, lets go babe." she purred. Suddenly I wasn't so sickened by their affection, could that be something me and Edward would experience? Is that a possibility? Did he just want to be friends…or more?
"Disgusting, aren't they?" Edward joked, motioning his free hand towards the happy couple who was walking away. I shrugged, feeling my face sizzling with color. I looked down at my lap fast, hoping Edward didn't catch that.
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I noticed after I had made that comment, about Alice & Jasper being disgusting, her face turned that delightful shade of pink. She looked down as if to hid. Could it be…did you she want that? Is that why she was blushing? Did she want that with me…..? What had changed? Just the other day we were joking about how nausea they made us and now she was embarrassed just by me kidding about it? This, for some reason made my heart skip with excitement.
I chuckled, slipping my fingers under her chin and bringing her face back up so I could see that lovely color. "Don't you dare hide you face from me." I demanded softly. "You look quite beautiful when you blush." That only made her redden even more, but she continued to look at me, just like I wanted. I dropped my hand from her chin, my fingertips stinging. God, all I wanted to do was cup my hands around her face and kiss her…kiss her like I play the piano, let my emotions just pour out and have my lips show her how I feel. It took all my strength not to do it, right here at the table. Though I was started to think, she probably wouldn't mind.
The bell rang and we began to walk to class. We took our seats together in class, and I didn't even care that people were staring at us in interest. Even Mike Newton was giving the green-eyed look, which made me smile triumphal. I was pretty sure Bella was interested in me and not Mike. It made me feel giddy. I knew sooner or later that the news of me and Bella in each other's company would make it's way back to Lauren. Even if we were just talking I'm sure it would eat at Lauren. She tried for awhile to make me interested in her. I just couldn't even play with the idea in my mind. After our brief hook up, I saw her for the bitch that she was. She wasn't a very nice girl and it made me want to avoid her, made me regret our fooling around even more. I wasn't into girls like that.
I didn't care what her or anybody else thought at this point. I wanted Bella for myself and I actually wanted people to know that she was mine. I was staking my claim. Sounds a bit territorial, but in a school full of hormonal guys and girls, sometimes it what you have to do, even that doesn't stop some people from trying to pursue what they want anyways. And if Mike Newton thought he was still going to pursue Bella, I would have to show him otherwise. Maybe a nice punch in the jaw.
I glared at him back, making him turn back around in his chair, reluctantly. I heard Bella groan from the side and turned to face her. She was sitting at the table with her cheek pressed into the cold surface of the table, her eyes shut tightly. She was breathing shallowly. "Bella, are you okay?" I whispered, trying not to show my concern. I knew she wasn't to found of people worrying over her. She pressed her finger to her temple; "Just a really bad headache. It just came on. I probably should've ate more at lunch…." she squeezed her eyes tighter and frowned. "Don't worry about me, I'm sure it will go away. I'll eat something before my appt." I was suddenly glad she had her appt today. Even though I wouldn't be able to see her later, I knew my dad would be taking good care of her.
Mr. Banner tried to send her to the nurse but she refused, promising she was fine, but I could still tell she was in pain. But she worked through her pop quiz like a champ. Mr. Banner had to pick today, of all days for this damn pop quiz. It was a breeze though and I was confident Bella did fine, despite her headache.
I walked her to gym that day, worried about how she was feeling. I could tell she wasn't happy with me being concerned, though I was trying to hide it for her sake, she didn't object my company though. I casually slipped my arm around her waist to steady her unsteady walking, though I didn't like seeing her unwell, I was thankful for the excuse to touch her. She stiffened at first, maybe from the jolt of shock, but she relaxed right away, almost melting into the crook of my arm. "Maybe you should try and sit out today." I suggested, really eager for her to get to her appt now already, I just wanted to know she was okay. I felt her tense up. "Though as tempting as that sounds, I'm not about to sit out over some little headache." she relaxed again and shrugged. "I'll be fine. I don't need anybody else worrying over me." she emphasized the word me. I sighed. I might else give up, or make her think I had. She was stubborn, it was adorable.
We reached the gym and I slipped my arm from around her waist and smiled crookedly. "Have fun at gym, and I hope your not faced with any syringes today." I teased. She rolled her eyes. "Mmmhhmm. I'll see you tomorrow." she waved and disappeared.
I exhale noisily, making my way towards Spanish. I would probably be late again if I didn't hurry, but I didn't mind. It's not like Emmett wasn't going to press me for answers rather I beat him to class or not. I saw the way him and Rose looked at us at lunch from across the room. Why was everybody so dang curious in us? Maybe because I rarely gave any girl the time of day, maybe because Bella seems so shy? Either way, I could tell they weren't going to let up anytime too soon.
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I was still feeling unsteady by the time I changed for gym. I did end up getting to sit out and I was internally grateful since they were playing volleyball today. I hate volleyball, I can't even hit the dang than, and if I do I usually end up whacking somebody in the process.
I thought about after bio today, how concerned Edward was. Usually I got annoyed with people being so concerned about me, but I didn't want to fight it when he put his arm around my waist, yes, around my waist! I bet he didn't do that with his hook ups. I smiled happily, my eyes closed to avoid the light in the gym. It was making my head pound. I leaned against the bleachers behind me and sighed dreamily. His arm around my waist felt…felt so right. Like it was always meant to be there. I stiffened up at first from the shock of his touch, I was still trying to get used to that, actually, I didn't want to get use to that…it was such an amazing feeling. Once I relaxed, I enjoyed the feeling of electricity following between us. This wasn't anything I have ever experienced before, not even with Jacob.
I wasn't anticipating my appt this afternoon, I just wanted it to be over and done with. He would find nothing and that would be that. I would let me parents know and tell them I was finishing the school year here…the more time I could spend with Edward the better. Maybe I could even spend the summer here…maybe they would let me spend my senior year here…
"Get control of yourself Bella! Nothing has happened yet, you aren't even officially together! For all you know, he is only interested in friendship. Maybe he just a very affectionate guy…." Though I have never seen him act affectionate around his friends? I was confused. I wanted a for sure sign that he wanted me, wanted me for himself, wanted me the way I wanted him. I jumped, as somebody interrupted my thoughts. "So what's going on with you and that Cullen guy?" I heard somebody sneer. I opened up my eyes to see Mike Newton sitting next to me. I hadn't even felt him sit by me…
I frowned. "What is it to you Mike?" I said more rudely than I planned. I felt guilty when his face fell. "I was just wondering, I saw you after bio…he had his arm.." he grimaced. "Oh." was all I could say at first. I didn't want to admit that not even I was sure what was going on. "Mike, we are friends right? You have no reason to worry, it's okay." I reassured. He snorted. I knew Mike was interested in being more than friends but I wasn't feeling the same way. If we could just be friends…if he could just understand…..
'Well, if you haven't noticed gym has been out for five minutes. Did you fall asleep or something?" he wondered amused. I jumped up. "Crap! I bet Alice and Rose are looking for me. I didn't even hear the bell. I got to go Mike, bye!" I yelled as I stumbled across the gym, not even looking back. I could already see his expression in my mind. Jealous.
Once I made it to the parking lot, couldn't see Rose's car anywhere. Did they really leave without me? Fed up, I wouldn't give them any juicy details? That would be so child like. I prepared to walk home, when I spotted my Aunt Esme, in Alice's yellow Porsche, sitting idle in the parking lot. How could I have missed that? It sticks out like a sore thumb.
I hurried over and slipped into the leather seat of the Porsche, warm from the car's heater. "Hey Aunt Esme, I didn't expect to see you until I was home." I said nonchalantly. She gave me a friendly smile. "I forgot to tell you this morning that I would be picking you up, instead of you riding with Rose and Alice. I thought maybe you would enjoy going in Alice's Porsche."
I shrugged. "The year of the car never bothered me Aunt Esme. You should know that. You seen pictures of my truck back in phoenix. I love that old piece of tin." I smiled. I was disappointed when my parents wouldn't just let me drive my old, rusty, beat down, red, 1953 truck. My Aunt would be able to hear me miles away, that thing was so loud. But I liked it. They claimed it wouldn't make it, but I had more faith in my truck.
"I'm going in the room with you this time." my Aunt said in a voice that meant business, there was no room for arguing. I knew she meant well. She was like a second mother to me, and without her, I wouldn't know how to handle being away from my own parents for so long. But part of me was glad they weren't here, I didn't have to see them worrying either.
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We didn't have to wait in the waiting room for very long, before Dr. Cullen himself called us back. I reluctantly made my way to the giant, seat bed, with the cold tissue looking paper to sit. My Aunt remained standing, a little closer to Dr. Cullen. I wish they would just make out or something, they obviously liked each other…I wonder if that's how everybody felt about me and Edward? Just waiting for us to get it over and done with?
Dr. Cullen broke my silence. "Well, we didn't find anything unusual with your blood results." he explained with a warmness in his eyes. I smiled. "So now I can tell my parents that they were just over reacting? Hey Aunt Esme, do you think they would let me stay longer…." Dr. Cullen cut me off. "However, I still want to run some more tests." My Aunt raised an eyebrow. "More tests? I thought her blood work came back fine?" she asked concern. Oh great, more tests, now everybody can freak out some more. I sighed gloomily at the thought.
"I just want to be safe. I already called and talked to your parents and…" This time I cut him off. "What!" I screeched. Okay maybe I was over reacting but I couldn't believe my parents. "You told them the results were fine and they want you to do more tests? When will this madness end? Ugh! What do I have to do, to show them I fine?" I jumped off the seat bed but began to swagger once my feet hit the floor, I grabbed on to the bed for dear life. I lifted one hand in the air to stop anybody from speaking, because I knew there would be concern in my Aunt's eyes. "That happens sometimes. Just got up too fast." I mumbled. Didn't need them reading into it any further.
I inhaled, looked up and forced a smile for my Aunt Esme. She didn't seem convinced. "Bella, your parents are right to be worried. They just want to make sure your okay." and before I could argue, she turned back to Dr. Cullen. "What kind of tests?"
Dr. Cullen cleared his throat. "Well to begin, since Bella has some coordination problems, and from what I heard, a hard time walking today at school, I want to do a neurological test just to be sure." I groaned. Dang it, Edward rated me out. I would have to corner him later.
My Aunt looked chagrin. "Bella," she said softly, "Why didn't you tell me about your walking today?" I could tell she looked disappointed with me keeping that a secret. "Ugh, really Aunt Esme. It's no big deal, okay? I didn't eat much at lunch, which resulted in this killer headache," I pointed to my head, reminding me that it was still there and groaned again. "I was having trouble concentrating due to the headache. No biggie." I finished. She still didn't look persuaded.
"Carlisle," Hmmm, so they were on a first name basis. No Dr. Cullen for her, it was Carlisle. "What does this neurological test consist of, and what's the meaning behind it?"
He began, looking at Esme but eyeing me every now and than. "Well it consists of several different components, each component representing a different part of the nervous system. I want to start with the coordination and the cerebellum test since that seems to be where Bella is having trouble-hence her coordination problems. The cerebellum is the part of the brain that controls voluntary movement and motor coordination. I just want to rule out any possible damage to that part of her nervous system." He paused stealing a quick glance at my expression, which he would see was blank.
"I think I want to also test her gait nervous system. Gait provides us the ability to walk. It has to do with our bodily mechanisms and nervous system reflexes. Right now those are my two major concerns. If needed we can continue and tests the other parts of the nervous systems."
I looked doubtful. "I'm pretty sure that I'm just clumsy and all of this is very unnecessary."
"Bella, there's no harm in just making sure. These tests are fairly easy. You will be asked to walk in different ways, move your limbs, tap your fingers together, etc. Don't worry. It's quite simple."
They were getting this all wrong. I wasn't troubled, I just thought this was all a waste of time and energy. I didn't want to see my family concerned over nothing, but it didn't look like I was going to win this battle either. "Fine." I muttered, defeated. "I don't have to do this test today do I? My head is really killing me." And it was. That wasn't a lie either, I just wanted to curl up in my dark room and pop two or three advils.
Dr. Cullen's face creased in between his eyebrows. "Would you like me to prescribe your something for your headache, Bella?"
"No. I can take something at home, thanks anyways." I mumbled, just ready to go home.
"If your headaches continue Bella, or you experience any more dizziness or new symptoms, please let me know. I might just order a CAT scan to be sure as well. We can talk about that at your next appt. Please schedule it for next week." he shot my Aunt Esme a look that said, Make sure she schedules that appt. My Aunt nodded and gently brushed her hand against Dr. Cullen's and they gazed at each other for a moment.
"I will." she assured.
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Laying in my bed that night, I was extremely annoyed. Neurological test? Possible Cat scan? Why were they looking into this more than needed? I felt like a dang hamster in some crazed science lab.
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On Friday I sat with Bella at lunch again. Though she wouldn't give me the down low about her appt on Thursday. She had said, "It's nothing to stress over. And don't go asking your dad questions either." Of course she didn't know that I had already asked. He seemed kind of surprised that I was interested, but he chalked it up to me being interested in his work.
He explained he could only give me so much details but basically he was just going to do a neurological test just to check on her coordination and a possible cat scan if her headaches or any of symptoms persisted. Of course I would make mental note to keep an eye on her. I wanted her to be healthy, I needed her to be healthy.
Nothing exciting happened in Bio, we had a sub, so me and Bella just talked about our plans for Saturday and if she was coming over after school today. She couldn't, her Aunt was making her stay home and rest, and if she wanted to see me tomorrow than she would have to listen.
After school was lame. Alice, Jasper, Rose and Emmett all went to Port Angeles for some action flick and dinner. They invited me along but I didn't feel like being the 5th wheel, let alone watch them all suck faces.
I tossed and turned most of the night, trying to convince myself that my dad was just being safe with the tests. He had explained to me before. "If you try to cut corners, there can be consequences, and that could mean your patients life." So I knew he was just trying to be cautious. I couldn't let Bella see that either, last thing she needed was one more person hovering over her shoulder.
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I was up early, excited to get the day started. I took a hot shower and brushed my teeth. I quickly dressed in a red, v-neck, cashmere sweater and a dark blue jeans. Tennis shoes would work fine today.
I sat nervously in the kitchen, starting at the clock, shoveling cheerios in my mouth. I decided maybe I should brush my teeth again since I ate. Nothing wrong with a minty, fresh mouth.
Finally, around eleven I heard a knock at the door. I made a dash for the door ignoring the eyes of my brother piercing, curiously into my back. "Hey Bella." I said breathlessly, once I opened the door. "Er, lets go, before my brother interrogates us." I whispered with a chuckle. Today she had on a sheer, burgundy, thin knitted sweater, with sleeves to the elbow and a deep v-neck. Her pants were cream colored corduroys. Her hair fell deliciously in waves, spilling over her collarbones onto her shirt. She made my heart flip.
"You look really pretty." I dragged out pretty so she would know I meant it. And there it was, that beautiful pink color kissing her cheeks.
"We actually have a trail around the back of my house. My brother and I made it when we were younger." I motioned for her to follow me. I watched her from the corner of my eye and she bit her lip anxiously. Ugh, she had no idea what she did to me.
Not thinking, I reached over and grabbed her hand. "So you don't fall." I tried to explain, even though it was more than that. I didn't want her to fall or get hurt, but I also wanted an excuse to be closer.
The same tingles raced up and down my arm, warming up my chest. I lived for that feeling. I lived to see her, to touch her, to be near her, to smell her. She just made me want to be nearer. I held her hand softly as we walked along the trial inside the quiet, moist, forest.
"Just so you know, this doesn't go anywhere in particular. It's just a beautiful scenery." I let her know, just in case she wondered.
She smiled. "It's okay. I think the forest is growing on me." her teasing lips parted and she laughed quietly. It was a bone tingling sound.
I paused and spun her around so she could face me. "You know…" I mumbled. "I can't take this anymore." she raised an eyebrow questioningly, than looked to the side quickly. I sighed. "Bella, please don't look away from me…if you keep doing that than I can't do this…"
I dropped her hand from mine and cupped my left hand on her warm, velvety cheek and gently turned her face to mine. I than took my right hand and cupped the other side of her face and gazed into her welcoming, enthusiastic, deep, chocolate eyes. Feeling the hotness from her skin and the tingling sensation spilling from each others contact, I heard her breath hitch.
"Do you feel that?" I felt myself murmur. Her breath was so intoxicating and saccharine. She nodded, her cheeks tinted pinks again, warm underneath my palms. I looked into her eyes, I was searching even deeper, it felt so intense, so surreal. It felt as if something was passing between us, something strong, passionate, and so engaging.
We continued to stare at each other in astonishment. It felt as if time froze and it was just the two of us. Almost like gravity was pulling us closer together, inch by inch. My face was close to hers now, it made me lick my lips subconsciously. Her eyes fluttered closed and her lips parted slightly. Her breath on my face was making me incoherent. I leaned closer and whispered, "You have no idea what you do to me Bella." I felt her sigh into my face and I removed my right hand, that was cupping her cheek, and wrapped it around her petite waste pulling her closer to me, she responded by tangling her arms around my neck, her fingers caressing my hair. This time it was my breath that hitched. I touched her lips on mine and lingered there for a moment, savoring the warmth. I pressed my lips tenderly against hers and she responded pushing her mouth against mine even harder. I could feel her mouth parting and her rough but soft, hot. tongue caressing my bottom lip. I moaned softly, letting my tongue dance with hers. The sensation was unbelievable. I felt dizzy and tingly. My lips were numb with warmth. She bit softly on my bottom lip as I took her top one between mine. Her breath picked up and it only made me pull her closer and press my mouth more eagerly against hers, our tongues meeting to dance again. For being such a cold day in Forks, having her body sculpted to mine, in perfect fitting, made it feel so hot out. The heat that was melting off our bodies was incredible. The air grazing across our revealed skin, making our warm bodies tickle against the cold kisses from the wind. If I was to die right now, I would call this heaven. There were no other words to explain how I felt I this moment alone.
It was just like playing the piano, my emotions were pouring out into the kiss, just like fingers did when playing, only now Bella knows how I feel…….
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Just feeling his warm mouth against mine was enough to make me melt onto the floor. He pulled me closer to him, his arm around my waist, the other arm still cupping my cheek and caressing it with his thumb, sending shivers done my spine. I loosened my grip around his neck and let my fingers slide down his neck, slowly, I could feel him shudder from the touch.
The kiss had started out soft and gentle but began to get deeper, more passionate, more hungry. I could fell a ball of warmth growing in my body, till my heart sounding like the hoofs of horses on a race track.
The kiss ended with soft gentle pecks on each others mouths, our breaths slowing down, our hearts slowly getting quieter, but our skin was still hot to the touch.
"Wow." was all I could say, and I felt so cheesy saying it. I started blushing profusely. He chuckled. "You don't know how long I waited to do that." he breathed. "Maybe almost as long as me." I answered shyly. I risked a look at his face and he flashed me his crooked smile, the same smile that made my heart do flip flops. "Don't….," he started saying, "Don't date other guys, I..I don't want you to…" he voice trailed off and it was him who looked away.
"Hey.." I said softly, "I'm not interested in any other guy." He looked at me and grinned in relief. "Good, I wouldn't want to have to knock some poor guy out." he chuckled and leaned over, kissing me softly on the lips again.
Our hands met and our fingers got tangled and intertwined with each other's. I couldn't believe I just kissed him. It was like a dream all in itself, only this was my dream and it was real.
"Maybe we should head back and eat some lunch?" he suggested, though by the sound of his voice he knew wasn't eager to leave, just like I wasn't. But I knew if we didn't head back for lunch soon, somebody might come looking for us. I cursed at myself internally for not mentioning that I would be gone for awhile. "Why don't I make you something?" I suggested. "Actually Bella, I know you cook a lot for your family so let me make you something." he insisted, his eyes lighting up. From what I heard, they didn't do a whole lot of cooking at the Cullen's house.
I bit my lip unsure at first, contemplating on if I should really let him cook me something. I wasn't too fond of being taken care of. But after that amazing kiss how could I tell him no? "Only if you let me help you." I offered. He chuckled. "Alright, deal."
