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BPOV

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Nearly two weeks had passed, since mine and Edward's first kiss in the woods that day. It still sent shivers down my spine thinking about it. Every morning before school he would greet me with the most soft, gentle kiss, than after school at his house it would be more passionate and intense. I looked forward to those kisses and just being in his arms, I looked forward to just being near him.

Edward once again insisted on coming to my appt for my neurological exam, but I refused, just like last time. It's not anything he needed to witness.

That day Dr. Cullen introduced me to the neurologist that would be doing my test, at least he was suppose to be. His name was Dr. Jefferson. Dr. Jefferson started out asking me a series of questions, which left Dr. Cullen looking perplexed-he was observing, he was after all my primary Dr. (Maybe even asked to supervise since my Aunt Esme couldn't make it today, some client of hers refused to reschedule their meeting). Dr. Cullen assured her that I would be in safe hands and told her to go to the meeting, he would update her later.

Dr. Jefferson started asking about my coordination problems, what it consisted of-like tripping, arm movements, leg movements, when it started etc. Though I wasn't really aware when my clumsiness started, I insisted that all I did was trip, or stumble. He asked me about that day after bio were I had trouble walking. Once again I had to explain that I had a killer headache from not really eating lunch and that it caused me to have a hard time walking. Hello, light and migraines do not mix. And yes, I had told him, that had happened before.

He was interested in my dizzy spells, and my occasional fuzzy vision. When he asked when that started it was me who became baffled. When had it began? So I elucidated the best that I could. I had been klutzy as long as I could remember, that it only began to get more noticeable recently. My parents showed concerned but didn't think much of it. Once I started getting dizzy spells and blurry vision spells they became immediately concerned. They took me to my Dr. back in Phoenix, but he really didn't seem concerned.

My Dr. from Phoenix had asked about my eating habits, and how I felt over all. Nausea, headaches, sleeping, and of course stress. He did some blood work which came back normal. He wasn't worried and told my parents it was probably adolescent hormones and that I was just awkwardly uncoordinated and that I would probably grow out of it. He said to make sure I ate and keep an eye on my symptoms.

Of course my over protective parents were not convinced and made some calls. My Aunt Esme(go figure) referred me to Dr. Cullen. I was sent to see him pretty much right away against my will. Though I didn't regret it since I got to meet Edward. I left that part out of course, about Edward.

Dr. Jefferson listened closely, he seemed really engrossed. After my very long elucidation, he made his way to Dr. Cullen and they began whispering, stealing glancing my way every so often. It made me feel sort of uneasy.

I could make out a few sentences here and there, something about Dr. Jefferson being unconcerned about my coordination problems, seems I just trip a lot, but it was better to check and be safe? Something about him being more concerned that I was experiencing dizzy spells so frequently.

They whispered some more and I heard the neurologist mention something about my headache. He was interested in why the headache made it so hard for me to walk. He didn't seem to think it had anything to do with skipping lunch or having a bad migraine. It could be nothing though….

I tried to keep the thoughts out of my head. They couldn't possible think I had anything seriously wrong with me, just from that little bit of information? It wasn't even symptoms! At least I didn't think so. My panic was starting to dissolve to being infuriated. I was sick and tired of whispers, I was sick and tired of being treated like some fragile object that would break at any moment, and most of all I was sick of these two Dr.'s babbling back and forth like I wasn't even here.

Being irate gave me more courage to speak up. I cleared my throat, "Can you guys stop chit chatting like two little school girls and tell me what the heck is going on? Hello?! Do you not see me sitting here? If it concerns me and my health I think I have a right to know!" I seethed.

Dr. Cullen looked taken back at first and than nodded in understanding.

"Dr. Jefferson wants to hold off on the neurological exam and run a few other tests first." he began, "He isn't one hundred percent that your balance problems, dizziness, occasional headaches and vision spells are all be linked together. He has a feeling though that your headaches and vertigo symptoms will only increase."

Dr. Jefferson interrupted. "Though, there's a good chance I can be wrong. You might not just be imbalanced naturally, it might have everything to do with what we're looking for."

I was confused more than ever. "What? I don't understand what your saying? Your making no sense." I said aggravated.

Dr. Jefferson frowned, obviously not wanting to give away too much information which just ticked me off even more.

I grimaced. Ow. I thought, reaching behind my left ear to rub it tenderly. Dr. Jefferson raised an eyebrow, quickly glancing to Dr. Cullen questioningly.

Dr. Cullen spoke quickly. "What's wrong Bella?" I was reluctant to say anything. What other conclusions would they come too? Or, were they just stalling, not wanting to tell me what they were talking about? I frowned, I might as well tell them. I'm already a guinea pig it seems. "Er, nothing really. It's just some pain behind my ear…" before I could finish Dr. Jefferson cut me off.

"This isn't mention in your charts. Is it recent?" he tired to keep his voice flat and emotion free.

"Um, recently. Just now actually. First time." that was the truth. But who cares? It was just some ear pain, big whoop. If I stubbed my foot and experience pain would they jump around frantically insisting that my toe hurting was some kind of sign? I was no Dr, but this all seemed ridiculous.

Dr. Cullen looked at Dr. Jefferson hopefully. "If this ear pain is related, than her coordination problems might not be related after all, which is a good sign." The other Dr. nodded in agreement. "Bella, I want you to monitor you ear pain, moderate to severe and how long it may last." it wasn't an option apparently.

I scowled. "Neither of you, have yet to answer my question, not really anyways. What are you tip toeing around?"

Dr. Cullen sighed. He seemed reluctant to tell me anything and I could already tell he was going to hold information back, but at this point I would take what I could get and try to pry it out of my Aunt later, I'm sure he would tell her.

"We aren't really sure what's wrong Bella. We have some ideas and one of them just happens to be a rare problem," he talked quickly keeping me from interrupting. "Though we have doubts it could be anything rare, your symptoms could be explained by other problems, Dr. Jefferson just wants to eliminate all problems, and since your Aunt is paying anything not covered by the insurance she demands we rule out everything possible."

I frowned, not at whatever this rare problem might be, because I was unconvinced about anything serious being wrong, but at the thought of my Aunt throwing her money away at unnecessary tests.

"Today, Dr. Jefferson would like you to take audiology test today and schedule a MRI for as soon as possible. Of course if your headaches and dizziness increase or any other new symptoms arise we want you to come back in right away."

"Audiology?" I questioned. Dr. Jefferson answered this time. "Audiology is basically a hearing test. Do you remember ever taking a test in school when you were younger that required you to raise your hand on the same side of the ear that heard the beep?" I nodded. "It's pretty much the same thing."

"But….if I'm not showing any signs of hearing loss than what's the point?" Unsure of what this had to do with dizziness or any other so called "symptoms" I was experiencing.

"Well…it may not be noticeable to you yet. We just want to rule that out before jumping straight to a MRI. It's just cautionary, we are just going to get that out of the way today, okay?" Again, it wasn't a question, I didn't appear to have a choice. "Fine." I mumbled. "Okay, Bella, I have another patient waiting on me so I'm going to have a nurse escort you to the audiologist." It was Dr. Cullen who spoke.

I nodded. Minutes passed as I waited in the too bright, chilly room. when finally a nurse came to escort me to the audiologist. Surprisingly, he/she or whoever had a opening right now. The nurse Joann or something or other, tried to make small talk on the way, asking about boys, music, fashion etc. I wasn't really in the mood for small talk and she caught on becoming silent after a few attempts.

When we arrived, the audiologist was already waiting for me. "Isabella Swan?" she asked. "Bella." I corrected. She smiled. "Follow me." she took me to some room which she explained was sound proof. She showed me where to sit, handing me a pair of thick black headphones. She explained that we would be doing a different type of testing today, instead of listening to beeps or musical sounds, I would be listening to words at various volumes and I would repeat the words back to her. Sounded quite simple to me.

That's the problem, it seemed too easy. It didn't turn out that way. I had no problem hearing the words in the loud and medium volumes. "Transportation, Category, Banana, Telescope." I would repeat.

As the volume got lower, to my surprise I had to strain harder to hear the words. I began to struggle unable to repeat half of the words. I began to feel a swell of panic building up inside my chest. What did this mean? Was this normal? Why couldn't I understand some of these words? Was I going deaf?! The strange thing was, it was only in my left ear, the same ear with the pain…The audiologist noticed the twisted look on my face after the test and tried to give me a reassuring smile, but it came out uncertain.

"Most people with normal hearing should be able to detect 90-100% of the words." she made clear, trying to make me feel optimistic, but trying to make it seem like it wasn't open for discussion. "What was my range, did I fall in the 90-100%?" She hesitated. "You know, just wait and talk to your Dr okay?" If it was good news would she tell me? "He asked me to tell you to wait outside in the waiting room, he wants to see you before you leave…"

I glanced at the clock in the waiting room. 4:45pm. I had been here for nearly two hours, ugh I just wanted to go home, cook and see Edward tomorrow. I would have to ask Dr. Cullen not to say anything to him, it was obvious to everybody now that there was something going on, and I didn't need Edward worrying more than he already was.

I was pretty sure that Alice and Rose would be fending for themselves tonight though. They got pretty cranky when they were hungry, and I was rather certain they were hungry now. Probably being entertained by Jasper and Emmett though since neither of our parents were home….I frowned at that thought. I was rather certain I wanted to take it to the next level with Edward, it would be a big step, for the both of us, and I knew I wanted it to be him, I wanted him to be my first. I knew it was still soon in our relationship, so I never brought it up, just trying to be as patient as I could.

He took me on a couple dates during the past week. We went and saw a movie one time, pretty much kissing throughout the whole movie, than a couple days later he took me to some Italian restaurant called La Bella. They had some really good Mushroom ravioli there. I smiled at the thought of us playing footsie under the table in the restaurant.

"Bella?" I looked up startled at first, being yanked out of my thoughts. "Oh, Dr. Cullen. I didn't hear you." I breathed. Than I grimaced, wondering again if I was deep in thought or if I was really going deaf, than I remember that Dr. Cullen should have the results.

"Carlisle, Bella. Please call me Carlisle." he chuckled, and than his face became serious again, taking a seat across from me.

"So, what's up with the test?" I asked. "How did you feel?" he wanted to know. "What do you mean?" I pondered. "Are you asking about the fact that the words weren't as easy to understand?" I questioned pointing at my left ear and frowning. "Is it related to the pain I have in my left ear?"

He sighed. "It very well could be Bella. I really wish I could wait and talk to you about this with your Aunt here….but.." I glared at him, sending him a look, so he would know that he better not dare wait.

He got the look alright and sighed again. "Okay…Bella….your left ear is showing signs of a decrease in hearing. It's nothing dramatic, nothing you probably noticed yet, your right ear is doing just fine, but the left is has a decrease. The tests shows that you barely picked up any of the softer words…" I interrupted him. "No, I remember getting some right and only straining on a few, surely that's okay?" I tried not to panic.

He shook his head. "No, Bella, your didn't hear the other words, you heard the words in your right ear,yes, but not in your left. That's why you thought you were only straining on a few, you really only heard a handful of the softer words, you didn't hear any of the low volume words in your left ear."

"Am…am…I going deaf?" I whispered. He scrunched his face. "I want to do a MRI, just to rule out some things." he said. "Once we figured out what's going on, the hearing damage in your left ear could very well be permanent." Permanent…the word replayed over and over in my head. I tried to look at bright side, I could only not hear quiet things in my left ear, that was better than not hearing period. Plus my right ear was perfectly fine. Still permanent danced around in my thoughts, like a plague, taunting me.

I couldn't even get anymore questions out before Dr. Cullen asked me to schedule a appt. for a MRI. He didn't even want to brother with anymore tests until he got the results in first.

There was so many things I wanted to ask, but honestly I wasn't sure if I wanted to hear the answers.

I asked him to not say anything to Edward or my family, explaining I didn't want them to worry right now, not till after the MRI and he agreed. He offered me a ride home and I declined. I didn't want to be tempted to ask anymore questions and I didn't want him to follow me to the receptionist desk, because than I would have to schedule the MRI. The truth was, I wanted to delay it as long as possible.

I knew it could result in more hearing damage, but I wanted more time with Edward, because whatever was going on could very well steal away more time with him, and I wasn't ready for that. I would just tell my Aunt that my appt was in a month and hope that she never asked Dr. Cullen, and hope that he never checked. In a month I would make my appt.

EPOV

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Bella was quiet the next day. I asked her how her appt went, she answered fine, but she didn't seem fine. I was kind of hurt that she didn't want to tell me how it went, I could tell something was bothering her, and I knew she didn't want me to be worried, but I wanted to know what was going on, I wanted to be there for her.

I tried asking my dad how it went but he said Bella would tell me when she was ready, and that they had more tests to run and she didn't want me to be anxious. I wish they stopped telling me that. It was just making me more anxious not knowing and them telling me not to be worried made me feel like I should be. Why wouldn't they just tell me what was going on? A couple weeks passed by after her appt and she seemed to be coming out of whatever funk she might've been in. She had said something like "I might as well not dwell over it, just get on with living." I wasn't sure what she meant by that, but I could tell she didn't want to talk about it.

Whatever was going on, Emmett had told me that Rose and Alice didn't know what happened at the last appt either, but unlike me, they didn't seem concerned. They knew their mom would tell them if it was truly something to fret over, that they would know more at Bella's next appt. They even said that their Aunt didn't know all of the details from the appt, and all she knew was that Bella asked my dad not to say anything until they did further testing. Unnecessary worry, she called it. But was it-I mean, was it unnecessary?

Saturday came quickly and I went to Bella's house to watch some movie on DVD. It was a comedy, she explained at school the day before, she wanted to watch something funny.

Alice was over at Jasper's house today, probably messing with his closet, and Rose was out in Port Angeles with Emmett. As for her Aunt Esme, she was away on some business trip for the weekend. I tried not to think of the possibilities about being in the house alone with Bella, but how could I not? It was a little soon in our relationship to be even thinking about that next level, I didn't want to scare her off and make her think that's what I was after, because it wasn't. She was just the first girl to ever make me really thinking about that next level, and it made me excited and nervous.

And although we really hadn't been together that long, just looking at her brought knots in my stomach, made my heart skip beats, dancing to its own tune, she brought smile to my face, she was all I thought about, I was pretty sure I was in love with her. I wanted to tell her, but I was also scared of it being too soon. Who falls in love that fast anyways? Is it possible? But every time I looked into those sparkling eyes of hers, any doubt in my mind was erased and it was filled with certainty. I was in love.

I didn't have to brother knocking on her door when I showed up, it swung right open before I could even bring my fist to the door.

Before I could even say anything she threw her arms around my shoulder and brought her lips to mine eagerly. Her lips were so soft.

Her lips parted slightly, taking my top lip, in between hers and nibbling softly. Her breath was so enticing. Her fingers on my neck, sent tingles throughout my body, my head spinned with thoughts of her, with thoughts of me, telling her, that I was in love with her.

She pulled away and giggled softly, took my fingers into her warm, welcoming hand and dragged me inside, using my other hand I shut the door behind us.

I smiled at her. "So, what movie are we watching? I can't wait to hear your beautiful laugh." I teased.

She dropped my hand and looked to the ground sheepishly. I frowned. "Bella, sweetie? What is it?" I asked softly. She started to blush profusely and her she started shaking slightly.

I rested a arm on her shoulder, using my other hand to pull her chin up, so she could look at me. "Bella? What is it? Don't be embarrassed, why are you shaking? Are you embarrassed about the movie?" I wondered.

She laughed nervously, her cheeks still kissed with red. She bit her lip, her eyes darting around the room before resting on my face.

"Actually, I was really hoping we could do something else…"

I laughed. "Was that it? You were nervous to tell me you didn't want to watch a movie?" She was so amusing sometimes, so adorable.

She bit her lip again, taking one step closer to me. " I want to be with you." she whispered, reaching out to touch my chest with both of her palms. I frowned. "Bella, you are with me. I'm right here. Your confusing me." "I want to be with you." she whispered again, empathizing with, bring up one of her hands, to caress my face with her fingers, softly, sending electricity vibrations throughout my body.

My heart skipped a beat.