sorry it took so long...there's a lot going on in my head and if i would have wrote sooner then it would have been short and horrible! so here it is! enjoy!

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After that whole incident, everyone was weird around me. They would look at me with this look in their eyes that clearly said "you don't belong here." Saying school was going to be difficult would be the understatment of the year. Why did I have to have my breakdown on my first day? Oh right, becuase it's me. I don't think anyone could have worse luck than I do.

Luckily, I had someone I knew in most of my classes. Other than Jesse, Alice, and Jasper-oh yeah, and that Shawn kid- no one talked to me. Yeah, a great way to make a new student feel welcomed.

As great as they are, I think that's also part of the reason they wont talk to me. Alice had told me that a lot of people avoid them because of their family. Their last name even. They were one of the last familes around that still carry out most ways of the samurai. I think that all these people are basically afriad of them, so they don't talk to them. That way they can't get on their bad side.

Jesse talking to me got the whole school talking as well. I heard people talking about rumors they heard about him like they were on the morning news. It didn't sound like it was new news though. It sounded like they were talking about the last friend he had.

From what I gathered, things didn't end well. It sounded like the friend (I never caught his name) got hurt because he simpliy knew Jesse. It sounded as though he was, more or less, caught in the crossfire between families. A rival family.

I didn't know what to believe. It sounded like something in a movie where the hero's best friend get killed and goes after them for vengence. I don't know much about Jesse, and I admit that freely, but it sounded possible. I mean, he killed those guys that were going to attack me. Though he was justified, he didn't hesitate to kill them. This told me that he could have done it before. At the time I didn't put much thought into it, but now it sounds logical.

Lunch is only 5 minutes away and I know I have to push all those thought aside if I am going to make it though lunch. This would not be a good time to ask him about it. Though I will ask him after school. This is going to be inertesting.

The bell rang and I was relieved. This was the first class that I didn't know anyone in. I didn't make any progress with that one either. The silence continued, and I got from all those people were stares. Some even glares, but those were mostly from girls.

I gathered my things and walked out the door. I saw Jesse leaning against the wall. I'm guess he was waiting for me? I started to walk towards him and someone stuck their foot out to trip me. Lucky for me, Jesse saw it and caught me.

"Damnit Sarah! Just leave her alone!" he yelled at Sarah as he stood me up. Though I hadn't known her name until then. I definately recongized her though. She was definately one of the girls that has been glaring at me all day.

She just let out a "humph" and walked away with some other girls that were also glaring.

"Are you alright?" he asked tentively.

"Yeah." I said as we walk to lunch.

I didn't get much. Just some yogurt and lemonade. With the day I've had, I don't really want to eat. I just want to go home.

Do I consider this place home now? I guess I do. I have friends here and I only had one back home. I miss her though. Maybe I will stay up late tonight to call her when she gets out of school. That would be...1 am here. Oh dear, this is going to be interesting. I'm going to be cranky tomorrow.

"Are you ok?" Jasper asked me.

"Yeah, I was just thinking about Shauna. I miss her. I haven't gotten to talk to her since I left. Actually, I was continplating staying up late to call her tonight." I told them.

"That would probably be a good idea." Alice said. I bet she could see that I missed her a lot.

"I think I'll try. But I might be cranky tomorrow." I warned them. And they just laughed.

The rest of the day passed without consequence. Just glares, stares, and more glares. When is it going to end? The glaring doesn't change anything!

Now, it's time for my talk with Jesse. In all honesty, I can't wait. I trust him for some reason. Even if those rumors are true, I don't care. I doesn't change the fact that he did save me and in fact was there today when I needed someone as well. If it is true, then he understand what it feels like to be at fault for someone else's death. I think that it may very well be true. If so, then that's probably why I trust him. Because he trusts me. I don't know how, but I know he does trust me too.

"are you ready to go?" Jesse asked as I was closing my locker.

"Yep." I said and we started walking to my house.

The walk to my house was a quite one. I think that he knew that the rumors were being talked about again. I looked over at him as we were walking. He looked worried, I think. I wonder what he's worried about. Is he concerned about someone 'out to get me' again? I mean, I know that nearly everything is out to get me. I mean, that rock we just passed will somehow find a way to trip me and break my leg. Is he worried that being near me will be a health risk for him?

We arrived at my house, and I unlocked the door, and let us in. He seemed...distracted about something. Whatever it is, he is thinking really hard about it.

"Are you ok?" I asked him because I had to know. I don't really know why but I did.

"Not really. Today has been a great day. It brings up a lot of memories." he replied sadly.

"I know what you mean. I one of those day too, I'm sure you remember." I reminded him.

he chuckled without humor. "I guess you did too."

"If you don't mind me asking. What happened? I mean, I heard some people talking about you. Well, I heard bits and pieces." I think I should know what I am getting myself into. So, I think I had a right to know.

He looked a little shocked. "You heard about that?" he asked and I nodded. "Then what are you still talking to me for? It was my fault for John's death!" he basically yelled at me.

"Well, if you haven't noticed, I care about you! First of all, you save my life, someone you didn't even know the name of. Second of all, you stood up for me when everyone else just watched and did nothing. And third of all, you were there when I have no one! Do you know what it feels like to have no one around you care? I DO! Phil doesn't really care for me. The only reason Phil has me is because Charlie doesn't have the money to take care of me. No one else cares about me here!" I yelled back at him.

He seemed stunned for a second. "You shouldn't be near me. Trouble tends to follow me. You could get hurt." he responded in a softer tone.

"I can one up you there. Trouble gravitates and stalks me. That chair over there will probably find a way to bruse me or maybe even break a bone or two. You have no idea how many time I have been hurt." I inform him.

"But no one got kill because of you. They killed John because they thought it was me. They came to kill me! ME! My best friend is dead because I'm me!" he told me and he sounded heartbroken.

I walked over to him and put my arms around him. I don't really know what compelled me to do so, but I did it. He tensed a bit, but when I didn't let go he relaxed and held me back. I don't know how long we stood like that, But I know it was a while. Finally, I pulled back a little to look at him. He looked like he was hurting. I wanted to take away that hurt, but I didn't know what to do.

"Why are you not running away from me?" he asked me.

"I can't. I don't know what it is but I can't. I care about you and that doesn't change anything if I was away from you." I told him.

I looked deep into his eyes and he didn't believe me. I don't know what came over me but I had to be sure that he knew that I cared. I reached up and put my arms behind his neck and pulled him towards me. I kissed him.

At first he didn't react, I think he was shocked by my actions as I was. But I still kissed him and it seemed that he give up and kissed me back. He is a very good kisser. I didn't have a lot of expirence in this area but I know he is a good kisser. Just then he traced my bottom lip asking for access. I granted him access to my mouth. He was delicious. He tasted like mint and vanilla. A very good combination.

His mouth moved to my neck, sucking and nipping at the skin there. It was then I realized that I was basically gasping for air. He moved up to a spot right below my left ear and suck a bit there. It felt amazing, I let out a soft moan, apprasing his work.I felt him smile on my neck and he brought his lips back over to mine. His left hand twisted itself in my hair while his right hand moved down to my waist, pulling me closer to him.

I took this as encouragement to let my hands roam his rock hard body. He wasn't a big, bulky guy any means, but the boy is built. His muscles feel like rock, literally. I traced the planes of his chest and down his abs. I outlined every muscle and that earned me a soft moan. I grinned against his lips.

My right hand settled itself on his lower back and my left hand wrapped around the back of his neck. We just stood there making out between my kitchen and living room making-out. I realized then that I wanted him. I wanted him more than I've ever wanted anybody. I never really wanted someone like this before, but I want him now. What is it about that draws him to me? Is it that his hard life helps cancel out mine so we can be happy? Two negitives make a positive?

I broke the kiss and grabbed his hand pulling him towards my room. He followed. I looked back at him and he looked really nervious. Did I do something wrong? Did I just ruin our friendship, relationship, or whatever it is that we have?

We reached my room and I lead him in. I closed the door too. I lead him over to my bed and sat down. I had to know what was wrong now.

"Are you ok?" I asked him. I sounded worried, even to myself.

"It's just...I have never done something like this before. And I just met you yesterday..." he said looking really nervous.

I put my hand on his face and he leaned into it.

"I haven't either. I don't know what came over me. We don't have to do this if you're not ready. Though we did just meet yesterday, I trust you." I told him as I look deep into his bottomless, blue eyes. He had to know that it was sincere.

"It's not that I'm not ready. And I really do want this..." he said as his eyes got a little darker with lust. Lust for me. "I guess I'm just nervous that I wont be good at it or I'll somehow screw up. I don't want to screw this up, Bella. I don't want to ruin anything that we could build on." he confessed with this look in his eyes.

"Jesse, you will not screw this up if you you really want to wait though I underst-" that was all I got out before he cut me off by crushing his lips to mine.

"I want you." he said with conviction and confidence.

No more words were said. I kissed him and laying him back so I was straddling his thighs. Then I decided that I wanted his shirt off and now. I took off his t-shirt and threw it somewhere in my room. I kissed my way down his neck and abs, my tongue darting out every now and then to get more of his delicious taste in my mouth. This earned me a louder moan than his previous ones.

He pulled me up to his lips and kissed me with passion. His hands were making a quick work of my button up shirt. When he was done he slid the shirt down my arms and threw it somewhere. His down my neck and around my collarbone, then to the top of my breasts. His hands moved from my waist to my back where he proceeded to unhook my bra. Before I knew what happened he flipped us over so that he was on top.

He slid my bra off and tossed it along with the others. His mouth attached itself to one my my nipples and sucked it hard. As my nipple hardens for him, I moaned to encourage him. He took the encouragement and moved oner to the other one. This time he suck a little but mostly nipped and bit. This made my nipples like steel hard, just for him.

I reached for his jeans and unbuttoned and unzipped them. I slid then down as far as I could get them, then he kicked them off. His mouth came back up and devoured mine as he un buttoned and unzipped my jeans. His fingers just simpily played with my panty line and it was making me abosutly crazy. I buck my hips into him and he moaned. Only then did he slide my jeans down my legs.

He threw my jeans somewhere and I was wet and waiting for him. I had just about enough of this foreplay. I wanted him in me and I wanted him in me now. I pushed down his boxers and gasped. He was huge! How was that going to fit in me? I have to find a way. I need him!

I think he could see my impactience so he slid my panties down my legs. When he was at my feet taking them down, I decided to spread my legs and give him a good veiw. I saw his eyes grow noticeably darker. He leaned up and licked my clit and I screamed with pleaseure. He seemed to like my screaming for him and he took my clit in his mouth and began to suck and nip at my clit.

He stopped and crawled up my body and kissed me. I could taste myself on his lips and tongue. He settled himself between my already spread legs. He positioned himself and thrust in my and stopped. My guess is that he just wanted me to get the pain over with. I wouldn't have it any other way.

The pain slowly subsided and I nodded for him to conintue. He started off slow. Then slowly increased his speed and we soon found a rythm.

I knew I was getting close. By the look on his face I think he is too. He started pumping into me faster. I didn't think I could feel more pleasure than I did at that monent. Then he went faster still. That was the end. I could feel myself falling over the edge.

"JESSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEE!!" I screamed as my orgasm hit.

He pumped into me a few more times before his orgasm came. He continued to pump into my to ride out his orgasm. Then he collapsed on me. I loved feeling his wieght on me. We just layed there and caught our breath. Then he rolled off of me and pulled me to lay on his chest.

"Oh god, Jesse! That was amazing!" I said once I could breathe.

He smiled and said. "Yes, it was. And so where you."

We both feel into a deep slumber after a long after noon.

well there was chapter 3. that was my first lemon so if it wasn't that good, sorry! but please read and review!