A/N Happy 2009! So, here's chapter 3. Tell me what you think!
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The pain kept getting worse and worse, but I didn't care. I deserved this. I went against my father's wishes and went out without him. I should have stayed home. Edward could be hurt if you stayed home. Edward. Just the thought of his names brought me into a state of panic.
If I lived through this pain, I needed to find him, to see him again. To see his constantly messy hair, his bright green eyes. I needed his support, his hugs; I needed him to comfort me. I had to live through this, if only for Edward. I could do this.
But the pain got stronger and stronger. I could hardly breathe. And then it got colder, not rapidly, but it did. My fingers and toes were free from the burning. Inch by inch, my body began to feel like that. And suddenly, I felt normal again. No burning, no pain, nothing.
I opened my eyes to see the trees and animals of the forest. They were so clear, like the world was magnified and put into HD. I could see for miles, and I loved it. Standing up as disorienting, I moved to fast (and for a clumsy person like me, that was saying something).
I had no clue where I was, how I got there, or even what I was, but I knew that I wasn't human. The back of my throat tingled, like I was thirsty after running. It wasn't terribly bad. I looked at my arms, paler than normal and softer to the touch. My dress was covered in blood, and torn in some spots.
Who was I? I needed a drink, badly. So, I turned in the direction I heard the rush of water from and ran. I got there in a few seconds, though the river should have been a few miles away. I took a big drink and thought I would get the relief afterwards, but I didn't. It still burned, more than ever. Just then, an unlucky deer came into view. Before I knew what was happening, I was lunging for it, draining it dry before it had a chance of escape.
I was a monster. I couldn't be around anything living. But I had to, to find Edward. I needed him. I thought about how I should look for him. Would he think I was missing? How long had I been out of it?
I ran towards the direction I thought was home. I passed many people on the way home, they all looked confused and alarmed. Did I do that? Could they see how fast I was going? Or did their poor human senses only tell them I was a breeze in the air, or a blur of colors?
Either way, I chose the wrong direction. I was headed towards Town Hall. Right next to Edward's house. I slowed down to a human paced walk and quietly made my way up to the house. I couldn't knock on the door. No one would recognize me, I knew that for sure
I settled for looking in the window. What I saw will forever be burned into my memory. I saw Edward's mother, Elizabeth, in her husband's arms, crying. What was wrong? I didn't see anyone else. Surely, Edward would be here to comfort his mother. Didn't I save him? Wasn't it me he wanted and not Edward.
I couldn't look away from the window. Nothing seemed right. I saw only a grieving family. One that has lost a loved one. But I saved him! Right? I gave up my life so he could have his.
I needed to know Edward was still here, that I did give him his life back. I needed to know I didn't throw my life away for what I was now.
"Edward, where are you?" I murmured to myself. My heart broke. I had no reason to keep going. He was gone.
I made my way back to my house, only to stop when I got to the front door. They wouldn't let me in. I wasn't family anymore. I wasn't even their species. I couldn't be around them.
I turned around and ran. I didn't care who saw me nor did I look to see whom I had passed. I ran. I didn't know where but I had to get out of there.
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Preview of Chapter 4
I was going to kill him. He took her away from me. He stole her.
