Disclaimer: As always I do not nor will I ever own Twilight. That right is reserved for the god Stephenie Meyer.
A.N Alright here's is the point that you have been waiting for. A little more Edward put into the mix. This will be in Bella's point of view. The whole story will be in Bella's POV. I won't change it.
I walked out of the backstage area and literally walked into my friend of a year and a half, Lily. She steadied herself against me and smiled up at me. "Sorry about that, Chica." She set her hand on my shoulder and I couldn't help but give her one of my real smiles back. Lily was the gorgeous Latina type. With long straight black hair, naturally tanned skin, brown eyes, and a body with curves that made me envy her. "Hey listen I was just looking for you. I was wondering if you would do me a favor. Jared says that I have to do the birthday party for this guy Mike and he told me to find someone to do my last set. I was wondering if you could do it. Unless you want the party, 'cause then I'll just go up on stage." I shook my head immediately when she said Mike's name and gulped hard enough to hurt.
"No it's alright. I'll go on for your set. I don't want to go near that guy. I was just giving him a dance and he asked me how much it would be to fuck him." I whispered, feeling the tears coming back to my eyes and I kept them wide so that they wouldn't fall.
"Are you serious? Wow. I'll be careful around him. But thank you so much, Chica. The song that you are going to dance to is Addicted by Kelly Clarkson. It's very edgy and gothic so I figured that you would be the best one for it. Seeing as how you are so edgy and sexily gothic." She giggled with a smile that made her eyes brighter.
"Thanks, Lily." I said and gave her a hug before she went towards the party. I took a deep breath before returning backstage.
I stared into the mirror as I readjusted my makeup and threw the gloves over the back of the chair. If they wanted dark, edgy, and gothic then I would give it to them. I stared at myself, my black eye shadow making my eyes seem to pop out and I couldn't help but smile. This whole black goth chic made me feel sexy and dominant, something that I've never felt in my life.
"GENTLEMEN PLEASE WELCOME OUT VERY OWN BELLA DONNA!!" I smiled at my stage name and walked on to the black stage, leaning against the pole with my arms wrapped around it behind me. (A.N Bella Donna is a poison just to let everybody know.) I heard the song start and I crawled around the stage, letting my hands run up and down my body in a provocative way. The words of the song making me feeling hurt, unloved, and just a little bit dangerous.
Addicted
by Kelly Clarkson
It's
like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's
like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And
I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I
seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the
life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of
me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm
never gonna quit you over time
It's like I can't breathe
It's
like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to
you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In
my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm
not me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm lost
It's like
I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting
me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are
mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give
you up now
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see
anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I
can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my
dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like
I'm not me
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take
it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll
handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a
little bit more to get me through this
In the middle of the song as I was grinding against the pole I looked out into the ground and gave then men before me my best come hither look. It was when my eyes met familiar green one's that my body started to tense up. That can't be him. My mind must be playing tricks on me. I mentally shook my head and looked away from the green eyes and kept myself dancing sexily around the stage.
I'm
hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more
hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just
one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me
through this
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't
see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I
can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my
dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like
I'm not me
I stared out into the crowd as men were shoving 20 bills down my little shorts. I smiled at them and accepted their money with pride. It was when I felt a roll of money in my hand that I looked up. It is him! My mind screamed as my breath hitched in my throat and I couldn't help but tremble. I cleared my throat and went back to business. "Thank you." I mumbled and started to walk backstage as the announcer was welcoming on another girl. I sat in the same straight backed chair and stared at the money in my hand. I unrolled it and counted it three times before my mind could make any sense of it.
"He's giving me five hundred dollars. I knew he was loaded but this doesn't make sense." I threw the money down on my vanity and let my body succumb to the comfort of tears. I stared down at the floor and couldn't help but clutch my stomach, almost like I could still feel Anthony inside of me. "Why did he have to be here? What did he want?" I asked myself and wrapped my arms around my legs.
"Bella?" I heard his voice and my body tensed. I couldn't look at him, instead I just looked at the ground.
"What are you doing here?" I asked my voice whispering so low that I'm surprised that he even heard me.
"I should be asking you that question! A stripper, Bella? What the hell did you do to yourself?" He asked and I started to get angry.
I threw myself out of the chair and stared into his eyes. "What did I do? It wasn't what I did it's what you did!" I screamed, my face streaming with tears but my eyes held nothing but rage. "You're the one who put me here. If you hadn't left then I wouldn't have to do this to take care of us." I turned away from him and hung my head.
I felt his hands on my shoulders and I shrugged them off. "What do you mean us?" He asked, I could feel the line of his body up against my back.
I tentatively looked up at his eyes in the mirror. I shook my head and touched my stomach again. "You aren't in my life anymore, Edward. You have no right to ask me anything about my life anymore. Why don't you just leave me alone?" I asked and pushed him away from me, grabbing my coat and wrapping it around my body as I went out into the cold January air.
The wind whipped around my face as I trudged up the stairs towards my apartment. I couldn't help but whimper and I pushed open the door and slide against it. It took two minutes but I was able to get up and go into the bedroom. I stared down at Anthony and smiled at his sleeping face. "Daddy's back…" I whispered and sank down to the floor, my eyes now dry because I didn't have any tears left.
I grabbed the scissors from the floor and let myself take advantage of the numbness moving throughout my body. "Daddy's back…" I whispered into unconsciousness.
A.N alright that's chapter two now I expect at least five reviews or more for this or else I am not going to update. So please just hit the button it won't take long and it's completely painless. I promise!
