A/N: God, I suck, please hit me. I don't know why I'm doing this instead of updating. My stupidity, I guess. Ugh… please do hit me… anyway, this is another AU set to 'The Fourth Drink Instinct' by Cute Is What We Aim For. Please take their CD's away from me. Lol. So, I will update, don't worry, I will, just trust me. Please, don't lose your trust in me for I will continue other things, I am as I type also thinking about my other stories.
Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach or it's characters or "The Fourth Drink Instinct" by CIWWAF.
Hello, I'm Used
Chapter One: There's A Difference between Right and Wrong?
She Doesn't Deserve To Be In A Place Like This
All Alone
She'd Underage And So Very Very Brave
A Fake ID Lent Her Credibility
She Sits At The Bar
The Gents Are Gonna Try So Hard
"Did he really just dump me?" Rukia asked with more disbelief than anger in her voice.
Orihime nodded her head, almost as shocked as Rukia was.
"Oh," Was all Rukia said, a strange, almost confused sound in her tone.
The small girl stood a moment in the crowded hallway, staring at the back of the boy who'd just dumped her, wondering how he could just walk away like that. Didn't he realize that wasn't something you just dropped in school? Didn't he realize he had made a bad decision, they had been together almost a year, so weren't they supposed to stay together forever?
For the tiniest second, she'd felt tears coming, but the moment passed quickly, for she then put a reassuring smile on her face and walked back to her class, ignoring the stares of every other student.
Orihime stayed quiet as they hurried to the class they were going to be late to, feeling bad for her friend but also secretly thinking her friend deserved it.
Rukia walked in first and could swear she heard a few whispers surround her as she did. But she didn't care, by now; she was used to it. Dating one of the most popular seniors as well as already having great status gave her more than enough attention.
She sat down in her seat with an expression that said, 'don't mess with me,' but when class started and all the attention went from her to the teacher, she let her real emotions show and sat there with a tortured look on her face.
She thought of the past few weeks, wondering what it was that had led to her being dumped. She came up with nothing. Things had been going good, so good that she hadn't suspected anything unusual and was totally caught off guard when he'd broken up with her.
Besides being heartbroken, she was angry. Of all the places to dump someone, Kaien just had to choose the busiest place of all: the high school hallway. Where hundreds of students traveled through everyday and where hundreds had seen her get dumped.
She didn't understand Kaien at all, but she didn't care about him. He had been the dumper, everything was always worse for the dumpee. But besides that, she was angry with him. She wanted to get back at him, to make him feel something like what she felt.
(After School)
"So what are we doing tonight?" Rukia asked Orihime as they walked to their favorite café, The Espressoed Monkey, together.
Rukia watched as Orihime looked around nervously for a moment.
"I'm sorry, I thought I told you Uryu and I were going out." She finally said though she still wouldn't meet Rukia's gaze. "I could cancel if you wanted"
"No it's fine. You're right, you did tell me and I just forgot."
Both girls knew the other was lying but said nothing about it, as that was how things always had been with them. They also knew that that meant their friendship was based on lies, but neither cared enough to change it.
"Are you sure?" Orihime asked again, probably for her own conscious.
Rukia rolled her eyes. "Yes, I'm sure." If there was anything she hated more than Kaien at the moment, it was pity.
"Okay, good, because I kinda actually have to leave right now. Is that okay?"
Rukia gave Orihime an odd look but told her she could, then gave her a hug goodbye.
"If you wanna talk later, you can call me." Orihime said to Rukia as an assurance as she began to walk away.
"Okay, thanks." Rukia said, then walked off the other way herself. She sometimes didn't get why Orihime had to act so 'good' all the time.
At some point, she'd decided she didn't want to go to the coffee place, she didn't see any perks in sipping expensive drinks alone, even if they were spiked with something. But going back to her house meant she'd have to pass the school again, which even though would get her home quicker, would be awkward if she bumped into anyone.
In the end, she'd decided on going past but past quickly, hopefully quick enough to where she wouldn't see anyone.
When she only had one more block to get past the school grounds, she heard her name being called by a masculine voice. She immediately regretted going this way, but turned around anyway.
She saw Renji with a few other guys, one of them being Kaien. She was happy to see Renji, she just wished Kaien weren't there. When Renji came up closer to her, she began to wonder if he had even heard about the split. She knew he wouldn't do anything that would hurt her in any way.
"What's up?" Rukia asked nonchalantly, ignoring Kaien's glancing and trying to seem unaffected by his presence.
"Nothing much, just wondering why you're alone…" Renji said glancing back in forth between Kaien and Rukia as if her were just barely piecing things together.
"Everyone else is busy, so I'm just walking home." Rukia told him, hoping he'd let her leave soon.
"Oh, okay cool. Well, I'll talk to you later. We're gonna go to a party this guy's having later on, you wanna come?"
Rukia thought about it for a moment, but then she worried about what would happen with Kaien there and decided against it.
"Nah, I'm cool." She said then added, "But I'll talk to you later," before turning around.
She heard all of their footsteps retreating except for one and was praying like hell it was anyone but Kaien.
"Rukia," Another male voice that wasn't Renji's called and she turned around before he had to say anything else.
"Yeah?" She asked Kaien, hoping he'd say whatever he had to say then leave.
"Hey, are things cool between us?" He asked like the stupid brick wall he was.
Rukia restrained herself from saying anything unnecessary to him and instead said,
"I don't know."
Then she walked off leaving him standing there as he had to her earlier.
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She opened the door to her house and called out for anyone. No answer came and for once she was actually sad no one was home. Usually it was a relief so she and Kaien could have 'alone' time together, but today was different, it might've been nice to know people who really loved her were in the house.
Rukia set her things down on a couch in their foyer, then wandered through her house, looking for something that could entertain her. She passed the living room but didn't feel like watching anything, she went up to her room but found nothing in there, she went to the kitchen but wasn't hungry. Desperate, she even thought of going to the party but knew that she would end regretting it.
Finally, she went back up to her room and dressed up. She put on her favorite pair of jeans that Kaien had hated, because he has said they restricted certain things, and then put on a flowey tank top that she had never got to wear for Kaien. She touched up her make up and left her hair down. She grabbed her wallet and headed downstairs. Before leaving she wrote a note for her brother saying she was going out with Orihime and that she'd be back later. Then she left the house with no exact destination in mind.
She walked along downtown, glancing at stores but just couldn't feel the shopping bug, instead she felt the drinking bug and decided to look for a bar she'd been to before.
After passing a few, she entered one that looked familiar and sat up at the bar. She ordered a gin and tonic and when asked for her I.D., she pulled out the fake one Renji'd given to her for her birthday. It worked and she was soon sipping on her third.
Just as Rukia was about to down the rest and leave, a man came up next to her and ordered his own drink, taking a seat.
They exchanged greeting and Rukia noticed he had bright orange hair. Her slightly messed up brain decided she was attracted to him.
"What're you drinking?" He asked, nodding to the empty glass in front of her.
"Gin and Tonic." She answered while still sizing him up.
"Another G and T, please." He called to the tender.
Another glass was soon in Rukia's hands, and while keeping her eyes on his the whole time, she took a drink then said, "Thanks, I like my gin and tonics."
"Your welcome," He smiled at her, Rukia liked the way it brightened his face, and then lifted his drink in a toasting manner which Rukia followed with each of them sipping afterwards.
The next few drinks passed in a blur, along with flirting on both of their parts, though you could say Rukia was trying a little bit harder. The sleeve of Rukia's top kept slipping but after a few times, she no longer cared and even liked the looks the man was giving her.
She knew he was older and that what was going on was wrong but it just felt so good. She didn't want the night to end but as midnight rolled around, she knew she'd have to go home.
They left the bar and right before they parted ways, Rukia called him back. She meant to ask him, "Will you walk me home?" but instead only got out, "will you…" before her lips were on his. The alcohol was surging through her, blocking the parts of her brain that normally would've screamed for her to stop. But it wasn't only her, the man didn't seem to mind the least bit as she now didn't mind his hands that seemed to be everywhere at once.
They only stopped to breathe but also to realize that they were still outside the bar.
"My place?" The man whose name she still didn't know asked.
She nodded her head still breathless. Though she felt slightly doubtful, she let the alcohol lead her to his car, then to his bed.
Even through all the alcohol, she still felt scared and nervous, but it didn't matter, as long as she had the attention and felt needed, she was fine.
She only feared when she'd be all alone again, without him there to hold her and to kiss her. She just wanted his affection. And that's what she got, though she wasn't sure if she was talking about Kaien or this handsome man who certainly knew what he was doing.
A/N: what did ya'll think? Tell me, through Reviews with a capital R! Lol. Sorry, I go back in forth between thinking this is a pretty cool story to thinking it's really lame… so I don't know… anyway, even though it ends with Rukia like doubting her break up with Kaien, I don't plan for them to get back together, no this isn't Ichiruki for nothing!! Ichiruki all the way!!
