I do not own anything. Stephenie Meyer is a far better writer than I.
Chapter 14- Forgiveness
Edwards POV
Nationals were finally over, and with our national title came a very boisterous plane ride home. I entered the plane, my eyes searching for Bella, and found her curled into a seat by the window. She was gazing quietly, her arms wrapped around her legs, she looked as though she was trying to keep herself together. My heart sagged at the sight. I hadn't even seen her yesterday at the arena, and then coach had told me that she stayed behind at the hotel. I was going to sit next to her, but Alice came rushing past me, and seated herself next to Bella quickly. I listened as she asked if she was ok, and then watched as Bella wiped a tear from her cheek. I didn't miss the forlorn look on her beautiful face, and I definitely didn't miss that she still was wearing my ring. Alice's eyes met mine, and she pointed to the seat next to jasper a few rows back. Of course she wouldn't me to sit next to Bella, try to work things out. I was stupid for say things I had said, I knew that she was going to have a hard time in Florida, and I just made it worse. I also knew how she felt about Laruen, and I totally accepted the partnering without a hitch. How stupid could I be?
"Man it will all work out. Just give it time." Jasper whispered as I plopped myself into the seat next to him with a heavy sigh. I didnt want time. I ran my hands through my hair, a nervous habit and took in the people surrounding me. Lauren came into view and rushed towards the empty seat next to me, I stopped her. She looked bewildered.
"You've done enough, go sit next to your sister spawn and talk gossip about me and Bella." I told her briskly, her hand came back like she was going to slap me. She must have thought twice because she retracted her hand.
"I would never talk about my friends behind their backs." she responded in a very snitty voice. I chuckled a weary chuckle. Her eyebrows came together in an evil looking frown. I stood up so I whisper my next comment.
"Just because we were partnered together for this, doesn't mean that we are friends. Get away from me, and stay away from Bella. You are nothing to me." I told her. She looked like she was going to cry when I pulled back and sat back down. Jasper gave me a pat on the back as she sauntered away towards Jessica. I caught the evil glare coming from Lauren as she sat down. Alice popped up in front of my vision. I gave her a weary smile and motioned for her to join us. She made me move over so she could sit next to Jasper.
"Edward, I don't know what all happened, but please go talk to her. I want my friend back, and she wants you back she just doesn't know how to fix it." Alice's high voice rang. I leaned my head back, and sighed again. She nudged me with her small hands and I got up. I ran my hands through my hair again as I neared her row. I sat heavily, waiting for a rejection, when I didn't get one I buckled my belt. She stirred then, her dark eyes meeting mine. I saw every raw emotion possible in her eyes that moment. But she didn't speak.
"Bella I'm sorry. I know that I hurt you, and I acted like a fool. I don't know what to say to you to make you feel like I love you." She still didn't say anything, I ran my hands through my hair again. As I went to stand up, her small hand fell on mine gripping my palm. Her eyes met mine again, and they were dry for once. She pulled me back into my seat. When she still didn't say anything, I resigned myself that she would speak when she was ready. This was going to be one long flight. At some point I managed to drift off, and when I awoke Bella was snuggled neatly into my side. I wrapped my arm around her tightly, trying not to wake her.
"Edward, I know you love me. And I acted like a fool too, I trust you, I really do. It was just very hard for me to see her up there with you." her voice startled me. She turned her head slightly so I could kiss her cheek. At least she wasn't shutting me out anymore.
"I'm sorry." her voice was just above a whisper with those words. My heart was leaping for joy, but my body was still snuggling her close to me. I kissed her cheek again.
"I'm sorry too." I shared with her. She was crying again. Using my thumb to wipe her tears from her cheeks, I gave her a quick kiss on her full lips.
"do you understand when I say that this is something that I have to work through, and you may not always make me feel better about it? it's something that only I can overcome. You are the only good in my life right now, I don't want to lose you. But I might be distant sometimes." she told me, her eyes catching mine as she spoke. I nodded, although I didn't like the prospect of her being distant, if that's what she needed to feel better about things, I would give her that.
"Anything you need love." I told her, I was aching for her love to return to me. She stayed in my arms for the remainder of our flight, and then sat next to me on the bus to campus. She didn't speak though. Her next question came out of the blue, as we were getting our luggage from the space beneath the bus.
"Would it be to much to ask you if anything happened with Lauren I should know about? Not that I think anything happened, but if she even put the moves on you, I'll kill her." her eyes were blazing, I saw Lauren standing mere feet from her. I knew why she asked that question, but I couldn't help the anger rising. Lauren was watching us closely, waiting for me to respond.
"No love, she didn't put the moves on me. I wouldn't have accepted anyway. I love you, not her." and that was the honest truth, well maybe I bent it a little but I didn't need Bella getting thrown in jail because of a jealous rage.
"Ok. Just making sure." I grabbed her arm as she reached for her KU duffel, and stopped her. I had to remind myself that we were in public because it was like a bolt of electricity went through both of us when I touch her. Her eyes flashed to mine, she felt it too. Well, good to know she still wanted me. She closed the distance between us, reached up and pulled me into a hug. Her lips were at my ear.
"I will always want you Edward. Take me to bed, or lose me forever." I had to smile at her choice of words, Bella never recited cheesy movie lines but Top Gun was one of her favorite movies. I quickly whisked her away, threw our bags in the trunk and sped towards home. All my anger had dissipated when she had said those words to me. I would show her how much I love her. Once there I had her in her room and naked before she could protest at all. She stood before me, her eyes closed, a peaceful look on her face; her arms came up to cover herself. I pulled them back.
"Don't, I like seeing you." she blushed, I don't think anything could have made me any hotter at the precise moment. The sweet crimson flooding her cheeks.
"I love you." I whispered as I gathered her into my arms, and laid her back onto the bed. She repeated the sentiment her sweet voice, dragging It out with a moan as my hands found her breasts. Her beautiful body arched underneath me, every curve coming into contact with mine. I started my trail of kisses at her neck, and began my descent from there. Another moan left her mouth when my hand found the sweetest part of her body, I let myself in. She threw her head back in pleasure, emitting a load gasp as I slowly teased the sweet bundle of nerves with my fingers. We hadn't been together for nearly a week, and I knew that this probably wouldn't last long. She grasped my shoulders, pulling me to her, so I was perfectly on top of her. I balanced myself on one arm, my hand resting on the bed next to her head; the other on the perfect skin at her hip. Her perfectly toned legs wrapped around my waist, pulling me to where she wanted. A moan escaped my lips when I roughly slammed into her. Her legs unwrapped themselves, and just eased further apart to let me in more. Her moans quieted, and she seemed focused on giving me as much pleasure as possible. Her hips raised with everyone of my thrusts, making my body slam into hers every time. I moved my hand, and wrapped my arm around her shoulder giving myself more leverage to move. I kissed her hard, my tongue begging for entrance; which she quickly granted. Her breasts were bouncing up and down with my every thrust into her warm body. I could stare at that forever. I felt her tighten around me, and knew she was very close to her own orgasm, and increased my pace. Finally a moan left her lips as she came around me. It was enough to make me speed to the breaking point and empty into her body as she laid beneath me recovering from her own pleasure. I didn't move for minutes afterward, I remained in her body for a immeasurable amount of time. I finally lifted my head to look at her, only to find her staring at me with bright eyes. She was smiling, her cheeks a beautiful rosy color. Sweat glistened on her body making her glow.
"Wow, make up sex is great sex." she whispered quietly. I couldn't help but laugh as I finally left her warmth and laid down beside her. She curled up to me instantly.
"So much for being distant." the words left my mouth before I had even though about them. She pulled her face back to look at me again. I was fearing that I had upset her, but a cute grin covered her face and she kissed me.
"I said I would sometimes be distant. How could possibly think that I would want to be away from you at any time? don't you know I love you?" her voice shook with laughter as she rolled so she was on top of me, the length of her body on mine. I kissed her, smoothing the hair out of her eyes.
"I was so afraid I lost you." I told her, her face becoming serious instantly. She shook her head.
"I was just so confused Edward, I thought I had worked through my feelings of being injured. But I hadn't. I was so emotional when I was watching you, and Alice, and Jasper up there. I was jealous of Lauren being the one you were working with. It just should have been me. And, I have to come to terms with this new part of my life." she explained. I understood now. She said my next thought out loud.
"I just have to let go, and realize not everything goes the way you want it. Edward I love you. Don't ever think twice, and don't ever doubt my love for you." the peaceful look on her face returned.
"Marry me?" the words that came from my mouth shocked myself. I must have turned ten shades of red as I waited for her answer. She ran her fingers through my hair, and kissed me softly pulling me to her.
"Yes." she whispered. I bent to kiss her again, this time harder. She had just made me the happiest man alive.
I fought with myself on whether to have them keep fighting, or to have Bella come clean to Edward on her feelings. And you know, you have throw make up sex in there too. I hope to post again on Saturday.
