yay!! this chapter is a bit longer. ok... i HAD to update soon because of the wonderful feedback i received, also had quite a lot of first time reviewers! and i really appreciate that. now there are two of my MAIN people haven'y reviewed that last chapter yet... you know who you are. :):):) and i expect a review for both chapters!! :P hehe, kidding...

ANYWAY, lots of you were confused, so here's the explanation...


13. When It Isn't Like It Should Be

'Haley you know you can just come straight in here you don't have to ring…' Nathan trailed off as he saw who was standing outside.

'Hey man, you coming to the river court?'

Nathan was stunned. 'Lucas?'

'Yip, it's me.' Lucas grinned and bumped fists with Nathan, who was still stunned.

'What are you doing here man?'

'I just came to see if you wanted to play some ball. C'mon.' Lucas ushered to Nathan, who quickly ran into his room and changed. He came back out and the boys left for the river court. Nathan couldn't believe this was happening.

'Lucas, I can't believe it's really you. Is it really you?' Nathan bounced the ball to Lucas.

'Yip, it's really me.' Lucas scored a free throw. 'Why wouldn't it be?'

'Well Lucas, you're supposed to be dead.' Nathan said flatly.

'I am? Why? I feel pretty alive.' Lucas poked about his body and laughed.

Nathan tried to smile. What was Lucas doing here? Was he dreaming?

'Luke, you died in a car accident two years ago.'

'I know I did.' Lucas laughed. 'I'm just playing you man. I'm a ghost.'

'You're a ghost?'

'Well how else can I be here? I am dead, remember?'

'Ok… well why are you here?'

'To guide you through your next stages of life.'

'Why?'

'Because you don't know what you want. You don't know whether to let Haley back in and forgive her or let her go back to L.A. You don't know whether to start again with your life, and get things sorted with the people you have messed things up with. You are also slightly angry at Haley.'

'Why would I be angry at Haley?'

'Because she killed your nephew.'

'How do you know about that?'

'I'm a ghost Nate, I've been watching everyone.'

'It was a boy?'

'Yes, but Haley didn't know that.'

Nathan and Lucas were now sitting on the bench at the side of the court.

'I don't understand what you are here to do.' Nathan ran his hands through his hair.

'I'm here to make you feel better about the life you have. To show you that Haley did the right thing, and that it was good that I died.'

'Why was it good?'

'Let me show you.' Lucas clapped his hands.


Suddenly they were at Haley's old house. Nathan saw Haley standing talking to Brooke. They looked like they were in a deep conversation.

'Hales!' Nathan called, running over. 'You'll never guess who is here! It's Lucas!' Nathan stood in front of Haley, but she just continued to talk to Brooke.

'She can't hear you or see you Nate.' Lucas said softly. 'We're not really here.'

'What is this?'

'Shhhh.' Lucas whispered. 'This is your life after I died.'

Nathan listened to Haley and Brooke. Haley looked stressed, Brooke looked angry.

'You're pregnant Haley? How could you be so irresponsible?'

'I was on the pill Brooke! It just happened.'

'I can't believe you. And you're keeping it?'

'I don't want to kill it do I?'

'Haley that is stupid. You can have a child later! I really don't think you should have the baby.'

'You're just jealous!'

Brooke scoffed. 'Yes Haley, I'm jealous of you. You've lost you husband and your best friend, and now you're going to get fat with a stupid baby! I'm so jealous.'

Haley slapped Brooke across the face. 'Get out. We are no longer friends.' Haley said sternly.

Brooke left the house and Haley broke down on the sofa. Nathan just wanted to comfort her.

'We need to go Nate.' Lucas pulled Nathan away.


Next they were at a beach party. Nathan saw Haley, with a small baby bump forming. He smiled slightly, there was his nephew.

Then he saw himself, looking dark and angry. He was walking towards Haley, kicking the sand on his way.

'Nathan?' Haley breathed. 'You're home?'

'Evidently.' Nathan said flatly. 'So your pregnant?'

'Yes I am.' Haley smiled slightly.

'How you going to manage that? You can't handle a baby on your own.'

'I think I'll manage. I thought I would have Brooke, but we aren't friends any more.'

'Why not?'

'She told me to get rid of the baby, and made fun of me for losing my husband and you.'

'She was right, you shouldn't have kept the baby Haley.'

'Sorry… what? Why is everyone against my decision?'

'I'm sorry Haley, I have to go.'

'Why? Why is everyone against me? Why is no one supporting me anymore?' Haley muttered. 'They have no reason!'

Nathan turned to Lucas. 'Why did we not support her?'

'Everyone was lost after I left, they were just confused. They thought it would be better for Haley to work on getting herself back together without the stress of the baby. Let's go.'


They were at the shopping mall. Nathan saw Haley pushing a pram, trying to carry shopping bags, and stop the baby from crying. She was having a really hard time.

Nathan rushed forward to try and help her, but his hands swiped straight through the bags. He screamed in frustration.

'She can't cope Nate. It's a good thing she got an abortion. She would have been so miserable.' Lucas smiled softly. 'So that was life if Haley had her baby, I died, and you came home 3 months after you left. Now let's see what would have happened if you never left.'

Nathan couldn't tear himself away from the beautiful girl having a breakdown in the middle of a shopping mall, with people giving her dirty looks and muttering under their breaths. But he followed Lucas away.


Nathan saw himself sitting in a car outside the mall, watching people carefully.

Lucas and Haley came out of the mall, laughing brightly and pushing a buggy.

Nathan saw the jealously in this different Nathan's eyes.

'You were so angry Nate. You pretended everything was fine, but all you wanted was Haley.'

'I think I still do.' Lucas nodded but simply clapped his hands again.


'Wow…is this the house you would have lived in Luke? It's gorgeous.'

'I know.' Luke nodded. 'But this was our holiday home.'

'When is this?'

'This is a year after the wedding.'

Nathan saw Lucas on top of Haley making out with her. 'Eww, Luke. I don't need to see this.'

'Yes you do.'

Haley started calling Lucas' name. They were under the sheets and clearing having sex.

'Oh…Brooke, you feel so good…' Lucas breathed.

'Brooke? You were with Brooke? How could you do that to Haley?'

'Well Haley's career meant that she was always away. One night I was out with Brooke as friends, we got drunk, and things escalated from there. So it became a thing, this was where we always sneaked around.'

'That's shady Luke. That is unforgivable.'

'Well, I wasn't the only one.' Lucas smirked and clapped his hands.


'This is my parent's beach house…' Nathan breathed.

'Shhhh. Just watch.'

Nathan watched and he saw himself stumble in the door, his lips attached to a random girl. They stumbled into the dark room, falling over furniture while never leaving each other's lips.

The girl ripped Nathan's shirt open and started placing hot kisses down his stomach. He heard himself moaning. It was weird to see himself getting pleasured.

'Who is that?' he whispered.

'Just watch.' Lucas said again.

'Where's Lucas?' Nathan whispered to the mystery girl.

'Probably away with Brooke again.' She whispered. The girl was Haley.

'Are you ok about that? Why don't you confront him?'

'Because then I couldn't do this.' She rubbed her hand up his jean-covered length. He groaned loudly.

'Nate, I need you in me.' She whispered huskily, pulling him into the bedroom.

'What do you think?' Lucas quizzed.

Nathan shivered. He still couldn't believe this was happening. 'Haley knew about you and Brooke?'

'Yeah, I think she might have walked in on us once or something, without me knowing.'

'Did you know about us?' Nathan asked.

'No I didn't. I was sure you were just friends. See, since you never left, you didn't actually kiss her at Tric.'

'You knew about that?'

'Dude, you both disappeared for a while. Of course I knew.'

'Weren't you mad?'

'No, because Haley wasn't going to go through with it.'

'So how did me and Haley end up getting together?'

'A drunken night of passion showed Haley that you were more than just a friend.' Lucas shrugged.

'So why was this life bad?' Nathan smirked as Lucas punched him softly.

'You were doing my wife.' He laughed. 'Ok, let's go.'


'Nathan, I have to go…' Haley breathed into his lips. She started picking up her things and went to leave.

'Why don't you leave him.'

'Because we have little Ben.' Haley smiled.

'He is too young to care.'

'Nathan, don't push me.' Haley left.

Nathan saw himself get up and throw things around the room in anger.

'You were so hurt Nate.' Lucas said quietly. 'The love of your life was staying with someone that was cheating on her. You didn't like what he was doing to you.'

Nathan saw himself fall to the floor and cry. He didn't like watching himself cry. Lucas clapped his hands.


Nathan and Lucas were back at the river court.

'I still don't understand why you are here Luke.'

'I am here to tell you not to let Haley leave, to be there for her, and to be with her eventually.'

'Be with her? Dude, she's your wife!'

'No she's not. She was never my wife, we never got married.'

'But you were going to.'

'Ok whatever. But she was never going to be all mine.'

'What do you mean?'

'Dude, she always loved you. She loved me, but I think she loved you more. I proposed to her to make her completely mine, but I knew that that would not break the bond you shared. You were meant to be together, you still are.'

'Luke, I'm sorry.'

'Don't be Nate. I'm gone. She's yours. You can make her happier than she ever would be with me.'


Nathan awoke with a sense of emptiness and realised that Haley wasn't next to him. He slipped out of his bed and pulled on some clothes.

He wandered through to the kitchen to find it empty, where was Haley? Nathan felt a small sense of déjà vu. It was as if he had been here before.

'Haley?' he shouted through the apartment as he looked into her room.

Nothing.

Her clothes and case were still there, so she hadn't left. 'Just like before.'

He wandered through to the living room as the doorbell rang. This was freaky. He opened the door cautiously, and was relieved with who was there.

'Haley!' he pulled her into a hug. 'It's so good to see you!'

Haley giggled into his chest. 'Can you help me put my stuff in storage? It's come over from L.A. I think I'm coming home for good Nate.'

Nathan kissed her forehead and hugged her tighter. 'That's so good Haley. You don't know how good it is to hear that.'


so there you go... it was kind of a dream. heheheehehehehehehe.

i'm in a good mood. by the way, quite a few of you are still confused about the green eye situation, because the link doesn't work, so i made a step by step guide to get you there... so i could prove a point. the eyes aren't obviously green, but they are definitely not piercing blue! :)

go to google
type 'james lafferty'
click on 5 down 'james lafferty web'
click on gallery
click on one tree hill
click on promotion
click on season 5
choose a photo
once the photo has loaded, click on it to get a full size image.
LOOK AT HIS EYES! THEY ARE NOT THE PIERCING BLUE WE DESCRIBED THEM AS.
they are greeny blue, but i would say more green than blue.