hey guys!! thanks for the reviews! here's a ee update for you! quite a lot of people didn't like the fact that haley left, but a lot has happened to her and she's just scared. :)
another song to listen to!
keep breathing - ingrid michaelson,
listen to it when the bold comes up. :)
18. Keep Breathing
'I need a ticket to L.A please, A.S.A.P!'
'The next flight is in an hour.'
'That's perfect. Please?' Nathan handed over his credit card and thanked god he brought his passport.
Nathan and Peyton walked towards the departure lounge.
'What are you going to do Nate?' Peyton asked softly as they came to a stop.
'Chase her, make her know that I'm the only one for her.'
'She knows you're the only one for her. She just doesn't think she's the only one for you.'
'Of course she is! Everyone with a brain can see that!' Nathan sighed.
'Well we all know Rachel doesn't have a brain.' Peyton laughed. 'I have to leave you here.' She hugged Nathan and patted him on the back.
'Go get your girl.' She smirked.
Haley sat nervously on the plane. She still wasn't sure if she made the right decision. She wanted to stay in Tree Hill, but she couldn't stand being around when Nathan and Rachel were together. She made the right choice for Nathan. She never should have sprung on him, expecting him to still have those feelings from two years ago. Her life wasn't this perfect movie.
Haley leant her head back against the headrest. This was going to be a long flight.
This was going to be a long flight. Nathan just couldn't wait long enough to get near Haley again. His heart fully ached from where Haley used to be. He couldn't loose her for a third time. He'd already lost her to Lucas, and then after he came back from High Flyers. He seriously couldn't do it again.
A girl in the row in front stood up to get her bag from the overhead compartment. A pen fell from her bag and she bent down to pick it up, flashing the tattoo on her lower back, triggering Nathan's memory.
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4 Years Ago
'What do you want for your birthday Hales?' Nathan asked as he crashed on her bed after school.
Haley searched through her DVDs, not answering him. She didn't really know what to say. She wanted him. She wanted Nathan Scott, and every last part of him. But Nathan couldn't know that.
'Come on Hales. Don't give me the silent treatment. I am getting you a present. It's your sixteenth birthday.'
'I've already had my present from my parents.' She responded quietly.
'Oh, what's that?' Nathan asked, sitting up.
'Uhm, nothing, just money. Listen Nate I don't want anything from you.' Haley sat down on the bed next to him, patting his thigh with her hand, sending shivers up Nathan's spine, but he tried to hide them.
'Haley, please, tell me what you would like…' Nathan trailed off as he caught sight of Haley's back. 'You got a tattoo?' He asked quickly, his face heating up at what he saw.
'Uhm, yeah.'
'Of my jersey number?' Nathan asked. Was she in love with him? 'Why would you do that?' He asked.
Because I'm in love with you. 'Because I love you, and I love our friendship. You're so good to me Nate, and the years I have known you have just been the best. I want to be able to look back and remember how good our friendship was.' Haley smiled, hoping her lie was good enough.
Nathan seemed to buy it. 'That's awesome Hales. So what do you want for your birthday?'
'You…' Haley trailed off, staring into his green eyes.
She wants me? She wants me! Nathan's breathing began to increase rapidly; this was exactly what he wanted to hear. He couldn't believe this was happening. It was amazing. Haley loved him, she felt the same! Nathan realised he hadn't spoken for a while, and cursed himself when Haley began to speak.
'I mean, obviously you. But just you. We can have great day together, do lots of fun things that we used to do. I want to keep are friendship strong Nate.' Haley smiled weakly, her heart breaking slightly at Nathan's reaction.
Why hadn't he said anything? She thought there was a possibility that he felt the same. She was obviously wrong. But she had to tell him the truth sometime, right?
Her party would be the time to do that.
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Peyton arrived back at Nathan's apartment, where Jake and Brooke were waiting for her.
'Where are Nathan and Haley?' Brooke asked quickly, standing up.
'Nathan got to the airport, we didn't think we were going to make it, but we did. We found Haley just in time…' Peyton sighed.
'And?' Brooke said, panic evident in her voice.
'Nathan told her how he felt. But she left anyway.'
'Holy shit.' Jake mumbled.
'No, where's Nathan?' Brooke asked. 'Is he ok?'
'He's on a flight to L.A.' Peyton forced a smile.
'That's my boy!' Brooke clapped her hands together excitedly.
Haley sighed and threw her bags down in the hotel room. She shouldn't have ended her lease on her flat. Now she had to pay for a hotel until she could find somewhere else to stay.
The storm is coming but I don't mind.
People are dying, I close my blinds.
Haley collapsed onto her bed a sighed again. She sighed too much. She rolled over onto her side and tried to get some sleep, but none came over her.
All that I know is I'm breathing now.
Nathan slowly came off the plane and thanked the lord he had no luggage. He moved straight out and grabbed a map of L.A and some flyers on hotels.
He walked out and flagged a taxi, jumping in and telling it where to go.
I want to change the world...instead I sleep.
I want to believe in more than you and me.
Haley gently unzipped her suitcase and started taking out various photos of her and Nathan that she always kept with her. They were her favourites.
There was one where they were both dresses as pirates, they looked about 11, and were in the middle of a sword fight.
But all that I know is I'm breathing.
All I can do is keep breathing.
Nathan jumped out of the taxi and ran to the fifth hotel.
'Do you have a Haley James staying in here?' The receptionist shook her head.
All we can do is keep breathing now.
Another picture frame held Haley and Nathan on the swings, laughing and swinging high.
Oh, now.
Nathan drove around L.A for the rest of the day, frantically searching in every hotel.
All that I know is I'm breathing.
A 16 year old Nathan and Haley started back at the now older Haley. Haley had turned round so you could see her new tattoo, and Nathan was kissing it.
All I can do is keep breathing.
Nathan came to the last hotel. It was really old and run down, there was no way Haley would stay here, but he needed somewhere to stay.
All we can do is keep breathing now.
Haley couldn't take the pain anymore. It was just all too much for her. She slowly started walking backwards into the centre of the room, tears rolling down her face.
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
Nathan walked into his room, throwing his keys and wallet onto the bed.
Why had he let Haley go away? It frustrated him so much that they were in the same city.
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
He couldn't lose her again, she was everything. She was his everything, his only thing.
Nathan leant against the wall, panting heavily. He fought and fought the tears away. Trying to concentrate on staying strong.
Slowly giving way to the feelings overcoming him, Nathan slowly sunk to the ground, leaning against the wall and letting all of the tears pour from his eyes. His elbows rested on his knees and his head went to his hands, bawling his eyes out and losing all control.
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
And in the room next-door, Haley sank to the ground, painful memories and tears overcoming her. Her legs sprawled across the ground as she held her hands against her neck, her breath raspy and her sobs shaky.
All we can do is keep breathing.
All we can do is keep breathing now.
hope you liked that. i had to incorporate that song in cause i love it so much! :) reviews? :)
