Chapter Notes:

So I can't really say anything too much about this chapter, to begin with that is... I'll leave it for the end notes. However, I will say this is the shortest chapter to date and it's going to seem all the shorter because chapter 4 was the longest, lol. So hopefully you don't feel too gipped for having to wait. But I'm a little apprehensive about posting this, only because I don't know if it's been properly checked over (I'm really bad at spelling and grammar and I have TWO people read and check my stuff... sometimes things still get through, but I love them all the same!! ;)) I know I sent it to them... but if corrections were made on it, then I just saved it as it was labeled and called it a day. Because when I have a chapter ready to go, I rename it in my laptop... and this one wasn't renamed... and I'm too impatient to wait 9 hours to make sure (i kind of like this chapter)... so I apologize if this one isn't quite up to par :) But it's a short chapter, so if I'm going to make that mistake it should be on this one!! LOL... okay so, play nice!! *cringes*


Chapter 5

I couldn't help but stare into her eyes. Dark, deep and inquisitive. They seemed to ask my soul questions that I wasn't sure if I even knew theanswers to. Those eyes, oh how I knew them well. I was their prisoner everytime they were cast on me; willing and eager to be held at their mercy.

"Edward."

My name floated along the air in a smooth, velvet whisper. My angel spoke? In the countless number of times I had dreamt of her, never had she spoken before. This was different, everything was different. Very different.

A smile danced across her perfect lips, making my breath catch and causing a warmth to grow along the base of my throat. I felt the muscles in my neck constrict as our locked gaze continued to intensify the air between us. There was a magnetism there that had never been present before. I didn't understand it and it was causing a twinge of fear to slowly ripple through me.

With every passing moment, that twinge of fear increased and began to engulf my entire being. My heart mercilessly threw itself at my rib cage in rapid succession, while the air that exited my lungs burned a path up my throat in rough, jagged breaths.

"Edward. Can you hear me?"

The velvet whisper had returned. It was the same as before, but it was wrong. Everything was different and wrong. The whisper, the voice, though faintly familiar, was out of place. This was the dream that I had had many times and yet everything about it was wrong. For one, I knew it was a dream. I had never been this consciously aware of myself. It was as if I were awake while sleeping. And the whisper, while angelic in it's own respect was not the voice of my angel. I simply knew this, even though I had never heard her speak.

It was then that I noticed that the fear I had felt only moments before was gone, that it had been consumed by something else. An urge; no, not an urge, but a total and complete need of her. The dream continued on in it's normal path as she slowly edged closer to me, with her eyes closing and her lips waiting in anticipation until, the all too familiar scene changed. That need for her was changing it. That magnetism that I did not understand was beginning to feel animalistic and natural. That warmth which had been at the base of my throat now felt like fire and had spread down into the pit of my stomach and through the length of my arms.

I grimaced in pain as my body boiled. And still, the dream continued on. She was so close to me now. I leaned into her and was met with the most delicious smell. It didn't take long for me to register that she was that smell. Wanting more, I continued to lean in, bringing myself closer and closer to her. Her mouth was pursed ever so slightly, searching for mine. However, as I brought myself nearer to her, my lips pulled back and formed a sneering smile as I faintly heard the palpitations of her heart. Her eyes were closed... trusting... unsuspecting....

A scream of agonizing pain ripped from my body as the fire completely consumed me. It felt as though I had acid coursing through my veins, devouring me from the inside out. I opened my mouth to cry out again, but found myself instead gasping for air as my heart beat quickened to a frantic pace. My rigid body writhed in pain; my teeth mashing down upon each other as the taut muscles in my neck begged for alleviation. My fingernails dug into the soft flesh of my palms as my knuckles, white and aching, stayed clenched into tight fists.

And still the dream continued on. Never had it gone beyond this point and due to my very real physical pain I was unable to make it continue on any further, but yet I remained within the dream. Once again, there was a change, a difference. The clarity in which I usually dreamt was starting to dull and fade. There was a haze surrounding my angel.

As another tortured cry escaped my lips, she opened her eyes. Those eyes, usually so vivid and distinct were now veiled and dim. I couldn't understand why she seemed to be fading away right before me. Was it cause the dream was changing? Was the unknown torment that I was going through tearing me from my all too familiar angelic vision? It didn't feel like I was waking up, more like I was sinking further into whatever state I was in.

The more my dream began to fade away, the more aware I became of every aspect of myself. My heart still slammed itself ruthlessly against my ribs and my breaths were becoming increasingly more difficult to take in. The excruciating pain was still engulfing my body. Every muscle had tightened and constricted due to this, however, there was no fatigue to accompany it. My skin began to feel as though it had been encased in a shell; hard and unforgiving to motion and cold as ice. The frozen sensation encapsulating the outside of my body scalded me to my very core. I was burning, that much was certain. How could I be dying from flames on the inside and ice on the out? I opened my mouth, ready to scream out, only to have the flesh of my cheeks tear from my immobile skin.

"Save me!" I cried out desperately through gritted teeth to the paling vision of my angel as she vanished before me.

"I am," whispered the velvet voice.

NO! Not you! Not you! Her! I need her to save me! I screamed in my mind.

Another wave of pain took me over. My heart began to seize as the pace of its beats still continued to quicken. I sucked in a ragged breath, the act of living was becoming ever more difficult as I found myself begging to die. If death would end this agony, take me away from this excruciating hell that I was stuck in, then I welcomed it with open arms. And yet, the pain remained. It continued on for what seemed like an eternity, slowly killing me, but not giving me the actual relief of death. As I laid there feeling myself give up and the life starting to leave my body, I wondered why my angel had left me to suffer alone. To die alone.

"I'm sorry Edward," the velvet voice whispered. "The pain will be over soon," it paused. "It will all be over soon."

With a last violent convulsion of my body, followed by a final silent cry, the air exited my lungs and my heart lay still within my chest; it's beats forever ceasing. With the echo of my pain dissipating, my body stilled and I began to feel nothing.

I wish I had known then that I would never dream again.


End Notes:

1. I'm hoping this read the way I wanted it to. I'm too involved in the story to know for sure. SO... I'll tell you how I hoped it read! Chapter 4 ends with Edward wanting to sleep so he can dream... well he does start dreaming. I slightly altered the dream from chapter 1 (because even recurring dreams aren't exactly the same!) but it wasn't that altered. However, almost immediately it's different cause... *gasp* "causing a warmth to grow along the base of my throat. I felt the muscles in my neck constrict"- he was bit and he was just starting to feel it, but he doesn't know it, so his body uses it and thats where the dream really starts to alter... so there was a hint, well that and Carlisle saying his name and him being like... "that's so not her!" So the dream continues on as usual... from "her" end, anyways... but as his body starts to change it alters his perception of the dream... and then once he's in full on pain, the dream starts to fade as the last bits of his life leave his body... the dream ends before he's fully transformed... but there's not enough left of him to maintain all parts of being human... heart beat and breath are main priority, so the dream goes... and little does he know then, that he'd never be able to dream of her again. (i feel so mean!)
2. I had always intended him to change while he was unaware of it happening... originally chapters 1, 3, 5 were going to start out with dream sequences... this was actually the beginning to chapter 3, the slightly altered, scary dream... I only had 1 paragraph and I took that one paragraph and stretched it (the paragraph ended with her eyes closed "closed... trusting... unsuspecting....") and created it as chapter 5... then I decided 3 dream sequences were too much and tossed some ideas around with one of my proofers and she suggested the comparison game in chapter 3! So that worked out well!
3. So this chapter has been ready for a while! I may start posting songs/artists that I listened to while writing... just to give you an idea of "where" I was when I was writing... so this chapter would have to be the band "RED" and the song "Already Over, part 2" (the part 2 is very important! part 1 and 2 are the same exact song, but part 2 is much slower and kind of haunting) however, technically it would probably be considered a love song/break up song... it's just very haunting and beautiful :)
4. Chapter 6 isn't anywhere near being ready *hides*
5. Sorry for the shortness of the chapter, but I hope you enjoyed it!!! I'll get busy working on chapter 6!!
6. Oh and if at any time you get confused by something I'm attempting to convey and the notes don't cover it, please just ask or let me know that it was confusing... I'm afraid of that with this chapter :) I'm very open to critique/suggestions so don't be afraid!