Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star. I do however own the songs and the poetry used. If I didn't write it then I will gladly credit the original artists and/or writers.

Songs used: What's Left of Me and This I Swear-Nick Lachey

Chapter 2: I'm Leaving Town

It had been a couple of weeks since my encounter with Tommy, and we have hung out almost everyday like everything was normal. I still had feelings for him but, I didn't care. I actually didn't want to move on. Tommy still cared which, was the only reason I stuck around. I was flirting with him hopelessly and he was flirting back.

Here I go again, falling for someone who doesn't fall back. Yeah, it true I know he has fallen for me and I can see it in his eyes but, he won't do anything about it. We have been playing cat and mouse games since I was fifteen and it wasn't getting old.

The only reason I say that is because something new happens every time. When me and Tommy are doing good, some form of drama rips it all apart and I hate it but, you can ask anyone its things with the press were actually settling down and I wasn't in the tabloids anymore and neither was Tommy. Everything was almost back to normal.

My dad was acting the same but, he was still protective of me, even though the threats were gone. Plus, I had to sneak around with Tommy. My father didn't want Tommy near me because of what had happened. In truth, he saved my life. If he hadn't been there to distract Hunter, I'd probably be dead right about now but, my dad is stubborn which is where I get my stubbornness to.

Darius has his birthday today and I had my outfit ready to go. It was a strapless corset top that was black with a rhinestone chocker. A black suit jacket and some dark cinder sit Silver jeans, with black spiked heel pointed toe shoes. I was going to wear my hair down with very minimal make-up.

"Jude, you look gorgeous." A familiar voice said behind me. His voice made me weak in the knees when he did that and that still drove me nuts.

"Thanks your not to shabby yourself." I said back to him. He had on a black button down shirt, a black sport jacket and dark denim jeans. We match, and it wasn't even intentional.

"Tommy?"

"What is it?"

"We match" I told him. He looked down and I was right.

"Oops. I didn't mean for this to happen." He said sheepishly.

"Oh please, at least we look good doing it." I said behind my shoulder as I turned to walk off. I noticed him staring behind me but, I didn't pay any attention to it. I tried not to blush during my conversation with him but, it wasn't easy. I could feel my cheeks get red, and I just played it off. It was killing me inside but, I was dealing with it.

After Darius gave his speech and Shay congratulated him along with Portia, and Stephanie, I saw Tommy pull him into the studio. I knew something was up and I couldn't help but be nosy.

I paused outside the door out of eye sight, and I just stood there.

"I can't believe you D, you did it."

"Tom, you're not ruining this, I have worked to hard." Darius said.

"Hey what's going on in here? D, they said it's time for the cake." I said politely.

I noticed Tommy was pissed so I just left. I watched him though. He pulled a blank c.d. out of the board, and turned it completely off. I noticed him write something on it and put it in a blank case and seal it in an envelope with a piece of paper. He wrote someone's name on the envelope and put in his jacket pocket.

I quickly walked off to the other side of the room, where I could see that Darius was happy and so was everyone else. Tommy came up to me, he looked like he was in a hurt.

"I don't know what it you do Tommy Quincy but, I forgive you. For everything." I said this to him and he looked me dead in the eyes.

"I'm leaving town for good." He said to me and he handed me the envelope that was in his pocket.

I walked into Studio C and put the c.d. in the player. I pressed play and the room filled with music.

"Tommy's project take 1, 'What's Left of Me' in 5, 4, 3, 2 …" I heard his voice say before his voice filled the room.

Watch my life,
Pass me by,
In the rear view mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

Yeah...

Chorus
Cause I want you,
And I feel you,
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger,
Like a burning,
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken,
And I'm faded,
I'm half the man I thought I would be:
But you can have what's left of me

I've been dying inside,
Little by little,
No where to go,
But going out of my mind
In endless circles,
Running from my self until,
You gave me a reason for standing still

Chorus

It's falling faster,
Barely breathing,
Give me something,
To believe in
Tell me: It's not all in my head

Take what's left
Of this man
Make me whole
Once again

Chorus

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?
Just running in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?

When the song finished I had tears in my eyes. The song was about me and, I knew it.

Then his voice filled again.

"Tommy's project 2, take 1 'This I Swear' in 5, 4, 3, 2 …."

You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it half as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

So whenever you get weary
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
Ohh we'll get there
This I swear