Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star. I do however own the songs and the poetry used. If I didn't write it then I will gladly credit the original artists and/or writers.

Chapter 15: Finally ALONE

When we got to Tommy's apartment, he carried me upstairs. When we got inside he put me down on the couch and he sat next to me.

"Tommy, did you plan that?"

"To be honest I was waiting for another time but, that song I loved it and I figured sooner better than later."

"It was a spur of the moment?"

"No not really, I just didn't want to wait. I was tired of waiting for the perfect moment."

"You do mean this don't you?"

"Jude, I don't do this unless I mean it. I love you and I mean every word that I said back there." I pulled him close to me and I kissed him hard on the mouth. He instantly deepened the kiss. We fell down and he was on top of me. I slid his jacket off and unbuttoned his shirt one button at a time. He unzipped me dress and I took off his tie.

He got up breaking our kiss and picked me up bridal style and carried me to his room. When we got there he put me down and my dress fell off. I was there in my panties and my bra. Tommy kissed my neck and my collar bone.

I undid his pants and they fell to the ground. I walked backwards and sat down on the bed. I untied my shoes and slipped the off. Tommy kicked off his shoes and pushed himself down on the bed, with me under him.

"I love you" he whispered in my ear.

"I love you too." I said.

I arched my back and he undid the clasp on my bra, I slid it off and I threw it on the floor. I slid Tommy's boxers off and I looked into his eyes. Without hesitation he slid himself inside of me. I let out a moan, and he kissed me. I kissed him back without hesitation. Things were perfect and I didn't want to change them.

After a while we were both wrapped in sheets and I was asleep in Tommy's arms. I was trying not to dream and it didn't work.

In my dream I went to Italy to get Tommy, and he didn't want me. He told me to stay away from him and he shut the door in my face. I could feel the hurt and the pain that it caused me and I could tell that he didn't want to do it. I just walked off silently down the streets of Tuscany. It started raining and I continued walking. I didn't care if I was getting soaked. I just stood there, after a while I walked down to the beach.

While I was on the beach, I just sat there on these rocks, off of a cliff. It was beautiful even in the rain. I just the let the rain all around me and I didn't care if I got sick. I made up my mind that I was going nowhere until Tommy listened to me. Then I saw a figure in the rain. It was foggy but, I made the figure out it was Tommy.

He was walking on the beach and he was wearing a white shirt that was completely soaked through. He walked up to me, and we stood there for what felt like forever. I threw myself onto him and I hugged him. He let me go after a while. I just looked into his face. I kissed him and he kissed me back.

Then he walked off into the rain. I didn't see it coming and I fell into the sand crying. I was there on my knees in the wet sand balling my eyes out over Little Tommy Q. I just sat there helpless and motionless. I watched the wave's crash on the beach and I looked up to the sky and saw the thunder and lightening.

I woke up and I saw my head lying on Tommy's chest and I felt his arms around me. I knew it was just a dream but, it startled me a little bit. But, soon after I woke up I thought nothing if it. I just lied there listening to Tommy's heart and listening to him breathe.

"I didn't mean to wake you up." I said.

"I was already awake." He said. He noticed the uncertain look on my face. "Jude, are you alright?"

"Yeah, I just had a weird dream. It's really nothing."

"You're lying. Your dreams normally don't startle you."

"It was a surprise nothing more." I said. He seemed to ease off a little bit.

"You wanna tell me what it was about?"

"You left me. I went to ring you home and you left me, you said that you used me and that you never loved me. Then you followed me into the rain and kissed me and then left me standing there." I said. The thought of him doing that never crossed my mind but, it was always in the back of it.

"Jude, I love you. You never need to think of me leaving you. I will never leave you or hurt you again. I swear to it on my life." He said. The thought in the back of my head immediately vanished. I knew that I didn't need to be thinking that but, I couldn't help it.

"I'm sorry for thinking that."

"I don't blame you. I really don't. If I were you I'd have that thought in the back of my mind as well." He said.

"You would?"

"I really would because I left you twice barely with a reasonable explanation. I hurt you more than words can say."

"But, I am over that now. I really am" I said. I kissed him, and ran my fingers through his hair which was still perfect.

I heard the doorbell ring and I got up to answer it, just in a sheet. Tommy stood up to get is boxers on. I walked to the door and opened it. It was Liam, Darius, Georgia, and EJ.

"Okay, I guess we should have called first." EJ said.

"Your right you should have." I said.

"Well considering the fact that it was twelve o'clock in the afternoon and none of us heard from either of you, we got a little worried." Darius said.

"Oh please, we forgot to call."

"Are you going to let us in?" Liam asked.

"It all depends on what you want." Tommy said.

"We were really just worried." Georgia said.

"Look as you can see, we are fine. Look ever since we started dating we have barely had anytime alone, barely any. Is it too much to ask that a couple that is newly engaged get some privacy?"

"Right, we're going. Bye." EJ said.

I shut the door and turned to Tommy.

"Wow, you set them straight."

"Well it was about damn time, and I want you all to myself."

"Well then thank you." He said, pulling me closer to him and kissing him.