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Song Used: Better Than Me-Hinder

Chapter 27: Better Than Me

Tommy POV

I woke up and I had a major headache but, that's what happens when you drink too much, and record in the same night. I looked over to Jude's side of the bed and I got dressed. I got myself together and I went to G-Major. I walked in and I saw Jude sitting there talking to Spiederman.

I looked at her and then I walked into Studio B and listened to the song that I wrote and recorded last night. I started mixing and I still had a headache. I left what I was doing and I went out to hospitality and I got some coffee. Jude gave me this look of ice when I went out there. I just got the coffee and left.

I had been in Studio B and finished mixing. When I looked at the clock it had taken four hours to complete the song. I had gotten there at twelve and now it was four. I wasn't even the least bit tired. I heard Kwest knock and he came in.

"Man, what's going on between you and Jude?" He asked.

"Shut the door." He walked over and he shut it.

"Tell me the truth and all of it."

"Alright, the other night after Jude and I finished first day of shooting Alexandria showed up and I let her stay with us. Jude was hesitant but, she dealed with it. Then yesterday when I was getting ready to do the final scene she kissed me. I pushed her off and when Jude and I got home I told her. She asked me if it meant something and I told her the truth it didn't and she thought I was lying so she left. She slept here last night because after she left I got a little drunk and Alex was still there, she threw herself on me and then I made her leave, so right after she left I came here wrote a song and recorded it. I tried to talk to her but, she told me to leave." I said. Kwest just looked at me.

"Tom, did it mean anything?"

"No, I didn't mean a thing." I said.

"Damn, I don't know what to tell you to do."

"Do you know if she's told anyone?"

"No she hasn't yet at least."

"I messed up. I want her back, I always do this." I said lowering my head into my hands and running my fingers though my hair.

"Tom, what are you going to do?"

"I have no idea. I want her so bad but, I hurt her again."

"Hurt is part of love. Look at me and Sadie, I mean after what happened between us I thought that I would never forgive her, and I did." He said.

"I guess. I just don't know how to get her back. I mean in the back of my mind I have always said the she deserves better than me, and I guess now she really does." I said.

"Wait a minute, you recorded again. You the one who vowed never to record again you recorded again and you don't know what to do? She sings to you all the time, sing to her." He was right, I could sing to her but, I just didn't know what to write. Kwest left and I walked into my office and locked the door.

I was writing. It felt good to actually write again. I had forgotten the writing always helped me say what I want to say and was the answer to my problems. I was finished so I looked at the clock and it took me two hours to finish the song. I walked into Studio B and Kwest wasn't far behind. I grabbed the guitar and walked into the soundproof booth. I nodded at Kwest and he pressed record.

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I wouldn't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend that I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)

I finished strumming the guitar and singing and Kwest gave me the thumbs up. I walked out of the booth and he jut looked at me.

"See, now all you have to do is sing it to her somehow."

"Where is she?" I asked.

"She went home. Darius came in while you were singing and he wants to see you in his office." He said. I put the guitar down and I walked into Darius's office.

"You wanted to see me D."

"Yeah, I want you to do a solo deal."

"You're kidding me?"

"No, I want you to record a solo album. I listened to you recording today and I found the one you did last night. They were amazing and I want to release 'Bliss' it's really good."

"Sure, when do you want to release it?"

"I was thinking tonight of you didn't mind."

"No, I'll e-mail it to radio stations around Canada." I said.

"That's good, and within any luck a video will be done by the end of next week." He said. His phone rang which was a signal for me to leave. I went to my office and I e-mailed the track into radio stations. This was going to spread like wildfire, and I was going to get burned like I did last time if I didn't watch it.

When I was done I walked out of my office and I saw Kwest talking to Sadie. He waved to me and I walked over.

"What did Darius want?" He asked.

"I am now officially recording a solo album; he just e-mailed 'Bliss' into radio stations all over." I said.

"Oh my god, this is great." Sadie said as she hugged me.

"Thank you, but I need to get home. I have to talk to Jude." I walked away and Kwest gave me a thumbs up sign before I left and walked out the door.

I got back to the apartment and I heard my song from outside the door. The radio announcer came on and announced my new single 'Bliss', I heard Jude yell and I knew that it got to her. I unlocked the door and I walked inside.

"Hey" I said.

"You released a single?"

"Yeah, you heard me record it last night. It was D's idea not mine." I said.

"It's a beautiful song."

"Thanks, I got a little inspiration last night after you left."

"Look, I was angry last night. I really was. I didn't give you the benefit of the doubt. I shouldn't have done that."

"I shouldn't have defended her but, she was one of my old friends, and I really didn't think that she would try anything and then she did, and I didn't believe it but, after you left, she threw herself on me and kissed me again, she even propositioned and I showed her the way out." Jude let her head fall and I lifted it back up, and I cupped her face in my hands. "Jude, I don't want anyone but, you." I said. I bent down to kiss her and she kissed me back.