Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star. I do however own the songs and the poetry used. If I didn't write it then I will gladly credit the original artists and/or writers.

Songs used: I'm So Sick-Flyleaf

Chapter 32: I'm So Sick

We were already at G-Major so Tommy and I decided to record. I mean, I hadn't recorded anything in about a week. I was ready to get some emotion out but, I was also ready to get home. I just didn't want the press finding out that we were here. I was enjoying being at G-Major without the press and I didn't want it to be ruined. I was happy until Karma walked into the room.

"What the hell do you want?" I snapped at her.

"Wow, I haven't been in the room a minute and you have already cussed at me." She said. "Anyways, I want us to sing a duet together." I can't believe that she had the nerve to ask me to sing with her.

"Why would I want to sing with you? I mean give me one good reason, because I can't think of any. I mean you try to steal my fiancé from me, you sabotage my career not even after being crowned Instant Star for a week, and you ruined my reputation." I spat at her.

"Wow, I can't believe you of all people hold grudges" she said in a shocked voice.

"Yeah, I do hold grudges against people especially little girls who have no talent and get their props ruining her mentor's lives." I hissed. "Look, I don't like you, and I don't want to record with you. So why don't you go back into Studio B and lip sync your way to stardom." I spat at her again and she walked out. I smiled inside, I finally told her off without hitting her.

"Wow, I heard you tell her off, I was impressed." Tommy said as he walked in the room, and he chuckled.

"What's so funny?" I asked him.

"I just think it's funny that you have actually tried to be nice to her."

"Funny Quincy, I didn't know she was a bitch when she won the contest or when I met her."

"I know but, I still think it's funny." He laughed again.

"Oh hush, You know I did save your butt considering that she hit on you from the day you won."

"and If you noticed, I just ignored her passes at me. I just let them go because of you." He had this cocky smile on his face as he walked towards me.

"I have a new song that I want to record."

"Alright, go and get SME and we'll get started." He said, and I started to walk out of the room when Tommy pulled me back and I landed on top of him.

"What is it Quincy?" I asked him as he was trying to tickle me.

"Close you're eyes" he whispered in my ears.

"Eyes shut" I said and I shut my eyes. I felt one of his hands cover my eyes, and I felt the other fumbling around with something.

"Look, I'm taking my hand off you're eyes but, don't open them deal?"

"Alright, deal" I said. I kept my eyes closed as hard as I could.

I felt Tommy grab my hand and I wanted to know what he was doing. I felt him turn my hand over and out something in it, and then he kissed my forehead lightly.

"Open you're eyes." He said and I opened them and I looked in my hand and it was a ring. It had a heart in the center, two hands on each side of the heart and a crown on top.

"Tommy what is this?" I asked him in shock.

"It's a Claddagh ring. It's an Irish symbol for love, friendship and loyalty. The crown represents loyalty, the hands represent friendship and the heart represents love. If you wear it with the heart pointing towards you it means you belong to someone, more specifically the person who gave it to you." He said. "It's also a promise ring." He added to what he just said and the slipped the ring on my left bird finger with the heart pointing towards me.

"Tommy, it's beautiful." I said letting a tear fall from my eye.

"The one in you're hand is mine, I wanted you to be the one to put it on me." He said, and I did. I slid it on his left bird finger with the heart pointing towards him and I stood on my tiptoes and I kissed him lightly on the lips.

I was ready to just forget about it all, and run away with Tommy. I really was because I was sick or everything, I was really sick of the press getting in my business for no reason. I just wanted to runaway from it all. But, that was going to be hard to do.

"You ready to do this?" He asked me.

"We aren't going there again Quincy." I said laughing.

"Alright get in there and let's get this done." He said as I walked into the soundproof recording booth and I put the headphones to my ears. I started to sing.

I will break into your thoughts
with what's written on my heart
I will break, break

I sang the first part in a high pitch tone and then I screamed the last line. Tommy just looked at me. Spied and the guys were jamming the soundbooth.

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now

Hear it! I'm screaming it!
You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes
And this invasion
Makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so
I'm so sick
I'm so
I'm so sick

I finished recording the song and he just looked at me. I took the headphones off and I walked out of the room. I walked right up to him, just like the day I first finished recording '24'. I stood directly in front of him trying to serious and I started laughing and I backed away.

"What were you trying to do?" He asked trying not to laugh.

"I was trying to let you know that you don't need to criticize my work for me." I said in between laughs.

"It didn't work. The only reason that I was going to say something is because I have never heard you scream in songs before." He said calming down.

"It's not that funny Quincy. I was just letting out my frustration like you taught me." I pointed out to him.

"When did I teach you that?"

"Remember when I recorded 'Not Standing Alone' you knew I was frustrated and you told me to just scream."

"Oh yeah, I forgot about that. I also remember making you record on your head to get the sound you needed."

"Oh yes, I remember that one. I can't believe that I made it through that."

"Me either, I thought your feet were going to kill me."

"How is that?"

"Because, you were kicking at me when you first ended up in that position and I thought you were going to kick me in my face." He laughed.

"Oh yeah, I forgot." I laughed with him.

"Hey, you two recorded anything new?" Darius asked.

"Yeah, we just finished. I think we got it on the first take because SME was doing what they were told to do." I said to Darius as I noticed, them coming up behind me.

"Dude, we always do good." Spied said.

"But, I normally have to correct you." I replied to him and it shut him up.

"Okay you're right. There's my girl." He said walking over to Karma and kissing her. I made a face and then I let it go.

"Alright, not in my studio, take it home." D said and they left. "I want the new song on my desk in three hours." He said and then he walked out of the room.

"Well then we need to work." Tommy said and Wally and Kyle walked out to find Spied and Karma.

"I don't want to though." I said. "I have a wedding to plan remember. We have been engaged for oh I don't know three months and I haven't made a dent in the wedding." I made another point to him again.

"Jude, you need to start on your new album." He said.

"Tommy come on, I at least need to shop for a dress, and invitations. Please." I begged him.

"Fine, go and I'll do this." He gave in.

"Oh no, you're a part of this to. Because there's a date, china patters, and so much more." I sad dragging him out the door. He wasn't going to like it but, I wanted him to do this with me.