Another chapter! I don't know if this is considered angst (? but don't worry I have started to write another erwinsaku that i would upload later, maybe after I'm finished with francoazconita request. That one is more fluff I promise

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Sweat build up in the medic's forehead, brows furrowed in concentration as she worked in the injured soldier. With expert movement she carefully wrapped his torso with a bandage making sure not to adjust it to tight to further irritate his wound. She used a rag to clean the sweat from her face and neck making sure to use the clean side this time to avoid getting blood on her, last time in hadn't been a pretty sight. As if her pink hair and green eyes weren't creepy enough, at least to other people. Years of teasing and abuse by others had thickened her skin and made her into the woman she was today, the renowned head medic of the survey corps. She was only 26 and had a team of 5 nurses at her charge and a small hospital she could call her own. It was quite the accomplishment for someone so young.

The cold air that entered through the open window was enough to give her the chills. She hugged herself in a poor attempt to warm up her body, was it only her that was feeling like this? The other nurses looked perfectly fine, a little worn out but fine. Whilst she was struggling to keep her mind straight, her hands were trembling and black dots had started to blur her line of vision.

'I must be exhausted' she mused internally. She was ready to pack her things and leave for the day, after all she had been working since 5 am, and she thought she deserved to leave early for once. She grabbed her leather bag some unfinished paperwork and turned to the nurses.

"I'll be taking my leave" she said not addressing anyone in particular.

"We'll take care of it" Maki announced softly from her spot near the window "You need to rest"

Sakura nodded and turned, ready to leave. Abruptly the door opened and 2 soldiers came in carrying in a passed out soldier. They both looked frightened and were covered in dirt and cuts, and what Sakura supposed was dried up blood.

She didn't skip a beat to start barking out orders.2 nurses flinched at her tone but did as told without questioning.

Maki along with Sakura carried the unconscious man to an empty stretcher. She quickly made her way to the sink to wash her hands but Maki's words stopped her.

"Haruno-sensei, you should really head home" she suggested, hoping her superior will follow her advice.

"I can't" she refused whilst drying her hands with a clean towel, she tied her hair and leaned closer to the soldier. "There's only 3 of you, and Mina's been here for 2 weeks"

Maki bit her lips and opened her mouth to argue only being stopped by Sakura's fiery gaze.

"Get some antiseptic, a needle and bandages" She ordered.
From what she could assume he had been in some sort of accident with the maneuver gear. His fractured ribs and bruised face told her that he must've collided with a tree. There was a large gash at the side of his forearm that she decided to treat first, not before making sure he wasn't bleeding internally.

She grabbed the antiseptic liquid and a cotton to start cleaning the dried up blood and disinfecting the wound. Her hands were trembling again, but she ignored in order to finish her job. He was so young, couldn't be older than 15. Sakura felt sorry for him, she refused to let him die.

"Let me help you" Maki handed her needle and with a grateful smile she accepted it.

She couldn't even make one proper stitch when her sight blackened, and she ended up dropping the needle on the floor.
She felt like shit but still refused to let her patient die. 'I can do it' She assured herself as Maki prepared another needle.

She closed her eyes to try to calm down and mentally counted to ten. Inadvertently she had placed her hands in the open wound. She felt something cold cover her hands, but she assumed it was the cold air tickling her exposed skin. She heard a few gasps a pair of hands grab her own, but she was to focused on the sensation she was feeling to bother open up her eyes.

"Sensei!" Mina's alarmed voice broke her out of her daze.

She shifted her gaze to the blonde and lifted her brow in questioning "What is it?" she asked.

"Y-your hands" Mika said from her side. "They're glowing" she took a step back and held her hands in fear.

"What are y-" She looked down and gasped loudly when she realized they were right. She blinked several times as the light started to fade. Her eyes widened in shock when she moved her limbs and discovered the wound to had closed itself, or was it because of her? She had a million question running in her mind, but ignored them for the time being, this poor boy needed her help. So again, she closed her eyes and focused on his abdomen.

"You're a monster" A soldier exclaimed and ran outside the infirmary. Probably to look for help.

"Amazing" Maki muttered in amazement. Everyone needed to know about this. Since one the soldiers was gone she was free to go look for the commander, she was sure he was going to be happy to hear about this.

Later that week Sakura found herself visiting her childhood friend office just that this time it wasn't a social visit. Erwin steel blue gaze was stern in her frame, but she refused to divert her eyes, so they had been staring at each other for the past minutes. She had an idea of what was this all about, but she wanted to hear Erwin said it.

"You're a smart woman" He broke the silence "I'm sure you know what I'm about to say"
Sakura nodded and swallowed the lump in her throat.

"The military police has requested for your custody" He simply stated.

She tensed and clenched her fist "Of course they want me" she laughed bitterly "Too bad we're not going to surrender to them, maybe we could request an audience-"

He shook his head and pursed his lips "No, I already have an agreement with Nile" He handed her some papers for her to sign, although she doubted it would mind much if she didn't "You're leaving tonight"

Sakura whole body started to shake with rage, and she rose from her seat angrily. "You couldn't be serious!" she shouted feeling the tears run down her face.

"I am" he paused and held her hand "as a soldier you compromised your mind and body to humanity's cause" He stood up and saluted her.
She shook her head in denial "You're fucking insane if you think I'll do it" She stormed out of the room, not before muttering fuck humanity under her breath.

"I'm sorry Sakura" he breathed a harsh breath running a hand through his hair. He couldn't leave his personal feelings get in the way of humanity's victory.

He hoped that someday she could forgive him.
He could only hope, after all that was all he had left.

The very same day Sakura was captured by the military police trying to cross to wall Maria. They handcuffed her and transfer her to a dungeon underneath wall sina. And the very same day, at 11 pm her suffering started.

(...)

3 month had passed by and Erwin was finally going to visit her. He had been postponing it ever since he heard of her capture, because he felt ashamed he had turned his back to his childhood friend. If he had only decided to keep her to himself, none of this would have happened.

He stood in front of what had been her cell for the past month and felt sick to the stomach to see the conditions she was living in. The putrid smell of human fluids assaulted his nose, and he had to resist the urge to gag, so instead he focused on the soldier next to him. "Where is she?" He needed to see her, he wanted to tell her that he had spoken to Dackly, and he had agreed to give her custody to the corps.

"Commander Smith, I'm afraid to notify you that the experiment subject died 4 days ago" she said calmly
He drew a long breath and said "Her name was Sakura"

"Excuse me sir?" The soldier asked in confusion "That thing wasn't a human" she clicked her tongue in disgust "That hair color wasn't even normal, she was probably and spy-"

"Shut up" he clenched his jaw and leaned closer to her. "She was the most noble person I ever met, and I wouldn't let you tatter her memory" he narrowed his eyes and whispered "You're lucky you're a woman, or I would've hit you the moment you started speaking"

She laughed nervously and turned around "I'll show you where she's buried"

He nodded sternly and followed after her. A few minutes later, and they reached their destiny, a deserted road that merchants from wall rose used to bring their merchandise to the inner wall.

He scanned the area and felt his chest tighten with emotions, there beneath a dry tree was her resting place. She didn't deserve this, none of this.
He looked away and focused his gaze in the soldier "How did she die?"

The bit her cheek nervously not sure in what to say "Every day they woke her up at 4am and forced her to heal herself or other injured soldiers" She jerked her head in the direction of the grave "After one month, they grew tired of the same, so they-"

"Leave me alone"

"Y-yes sir" she quickly saluted him and left.

He walked to the uneven pile of dirt and knelt in front of it. They didn't even bother to make a tombstone with her name. No one would know who she was, or that she even existed.

He felt the unfamiliar sting of tears in his eyes, and for the first time in a long time he allowed himself to cry in peace.

"I'm sorry" he caressed the dirt "I don't deserve your forgiveness." He let out a shaky breath "I love you," he confessed feeling weight lift from his shoulders.

A smile made its way to his face as he remembered her. "I never told you because I was afraid of dying, of leaving you alone, but" he paused "At the end, that's exactly what I did"

A warm breeze caressed his face, and he wanted to believe that it was her. He rose from his position not before promising her that he would give her a decent burial and that he would visit her every month with a fresh bouquet of narcissus.

He turned around one last time and smiled sadly "Maybe in another life we could be together"

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