10

Kendall's P.O.V

When we went back to school I almost expected James to go and hang out with Jett, but he didn't. He sat down with Carlos, Logan, and I. "I half expected you to go over there." I said, but James shook his head.

"I did make a promise didn't I?" we nodded and he grinned widely. "See and I don't break promises anymore."

"Good then you won't break mine." I replied smiling lightly. He blushed, but nodded all the same. Jett came over then.

"Come on Jamie don't hang out with these losers." James turned around and glared.

"What have I told you about Carlos?" He asked nicely though a nasty smile spread across his lips.

"I-I meant them." He said pointing at me and Logan.

"You know Jett" Logan said standing up. "I do have a lot of things I could tell the school if you don't leave me alone."

"Oh yeah like what?" Logan laughed and cleared his throat.

"Hey everyone did you know Jett still let's his mom pick out his outfits?" He asked laughing. The school started laughing. "He's eighteen now you would think that he could do that by himself, but I guess he's only getting a 1.5 so he can't do it." Jett's face was super red as the school laughed again.

"You better shut the hell up!" he snarled.

"Did you know that when Jett was a baby his mom used to put him in bonnets?" I chuckled as the school howled.

"Shut up!" Jett screamed angrily.

"Shall I go on?" Logan asked laughing with the school. As mad as he was Jett finally left and the four of us burst into laughter as Logan sat back down.

"Nice Logie!" Carlos snickered gulping down air. We saw Jett glare at us all, but he didn't come over again.

After school we all went to my house and hung out. I saw that Logan was starting to feel the effects of not cutting. He was tense as a spring and then he just got up and started cleaning the house. I smiled at Carlos who smiled too. "It must be working." He said handing Logan some wrappers.

"Yeah it's working!" Logan said coming back. "I wanted to cut when Jett yelled at me, but I didn't and now I want to, but the cleaning is distracting me."

"That's good." I said and Carlos nodded too. Logan cleaned for over two hours then collapsed onto the couch and sighed. "Wow my house has never looked this clean." I joked laughing.

"You mean this house or any of them?" Logan asked.

"Any of them. I mean it gets clean, but not this clean! You can see yourself in the table!" Logan blushed scarlet and snuggled into me.

"Thank you." He whispered and I smiled.

After they left my mom came into the living room and sat down next to me. "You've got nice friends." She said and I nodded.

"Yeah. Um we don't have to move again for a while do we?" she shook her head and I smiled. "Good."

"Yeah." Katie said coming down. "I don't want to leave my friends either."

"Calm down you both aren't losing any of them." I got up as Katie looked around.

"Yeah I know you can see yourself in the table." I said smiling. "Logan he well is going through some… stuff so" I finished and walked into the kitchen. It was my turn to cook and I had it all planned out. A smile formed on my face because this dish was Katie's favorite.

James's P.O.V

When we reached Logan's house I sighed. "Logie do you mind if I make dinner?"

"Feeling the effects too?" he asked walking around. I nodded and he gave his consent before diving right in to cleaning this house. This was crazy! We both were feeling the effects and my body was expecting the cut and the sting of pain and it wasn't used to not getting it. Energy was surging through my body it was still waiting for the prick that wasn't going to come. As I walked into the kitchen with the utmost control I saw the trash can, but shook my head. I swore that I wasn't going to break any more promises. If I cut then that would give Logan the advantage to cut and I wasn't going to allow that. So I suffered through and pulled out pots and pans and started.

After a couple of hours I served dinner and Logan served himself before digging right in. I did the same and put the pots back onto the counter. I started eating and I forced my tense muscles to relax. "It's hard isn't it?" Logan asked after a while. I looked up and nodded. "Makes you wish you hadn't come doesn't it?"

"No." I said softly. "I'd rather suffer than hurt you ever again."

"Aww Jamie." He hugged me and then continued eating. In truth I was telling the truth. I didn't want to hurt anyone anymore. Maybe Jett and Wayne Wayne, but that was it. They deserved it. As I ate my memories reflected back and I sighed.

"Listen Jamie I know you aren't going to do it anymore so stop torturing yourself!" Logan said dropping his fork. "I know you hate yourself for doing it, but we all have to get past some stuff in our lives!" I stood up and Logan stood up too. I walked into the living room and Logan followed me. I was blinking hard and thank God he followed me otherwise I would have started trying to do something else to hurt myself. "Jamie come here." I stepped back and he wrapped his arms around me. I turned and buried my face in his chest and the tears began.

Logan's P.O.V

I sat down on the couch pulling James with me. He was sobbing and my hand tried to soothe him. "In-n-n-never m-meant t-t-t-to h-h-h-hurt you!"

"You don't think I know that! As soon as you started calling me a worthless son of a bitch I knew something was wrong. You said that you would never hurt me, but then five months later here you were making me feel like I couldn't trust anyone."

"I-i-i-it was m-m-m-my mom!" he sobbed.

"I know that too Jamie." I said stroking his hair. "Your mom was putting pressure on me to stop hanging out with you and too end our friendship before someone got hurt. I didn't listen and guess what I got hurt."

"S-s-s-she's a b-b-b-b-bitch!" James sobbed as my mom stepped in. "I-I-I t-t-tried to st-st-stop it!"

"You did?" I felt his head nod.

"I—i-it didn't g-g-go w-w-w-well." He sobbed sitting up and wiping at his eyes. "S-s-s-she told m-me that y-y-y-you s-s-s-should know-know your p-p-place!" Anger surged through me, but I kept it hidden. "I tried telling her that-that the friendship wasn't b-b-based on c-c-class, but she didn't listen to me!" My mom came over and sat down wrapping a comforting arm around James's shoulders. I looked at her for help and she did just that.

"James honey we both know that your mom is a complete and utter bitch! Now you are responsible for some of your actions of course, but not all of them. Most of them are your mother's actions and you shouldn't take the blame for any of them."

"Thanks Mrs. Mitchel." He said wiping at his eyes. "Thanks both of you. I feel better." I smiled at him.

"Come on let's eat and just have fun." I said leading him back the dining table.