Together Forever

Chapter 3

Mistakes

On the day of our date, I was super nervous. I nearly took me an hour deciding what I should wear. Thankfully, I decided to go with something simple and cute. It was our first date after all so I knew not to overdo things. Once I was ready, I headed into town where Honoka was waiting for me. I was surprised by the sight, but I didn't let it show on my face. I greeted her with a smile and the two of us quickly got in line.

The group that we were seeing, A-Rise, was a big deal. They were the most popular school idol group so everyone who was there was going crazy. They were shouting the names of the girls in the group and showing their support through various methods. On the other hand, I didn't really know them. I've heard about school idols, but they just didn't attract me as much as most girls. At the same time, it didn't seem like Honoka was very into it. She simply looked around calmly, completely ignoring my presence.

I constantly tried to get her attention, but she would blow me off with short one word responses. It was super discouraging, but I had to keep a strong front. I constantly asked her questions and continued to get simple responses. Although it seemed bad, it helped me get a little closer to her. I didn't know this Honoka at all so I needed to use today as the stepping stone to the start of our relationship… And I knew that it was going to be a bumpy relationship.

After about an hour or so, the doors finally opened and everyone filed into the auditorium. Once we were in inside, the chanting grew even louder. The name "Tsubasa" was filling the room as it was fresh air from the outside world. It was so exhilarating that I just had to join in. Also, Honoka was doing so I wanted to make her feel good too. It wasn't too long before they started the concert with a bang.

As a whole, the concert was very impressive. Their singing was very good, their dancing was very professional, and their attitude was simply adorable. I looked around and saw the faces of all of the girls watching and I was starting to understand why they were going crazy for them. It seemed as if they weren't even human. The way they held themselves and the way they performed in front of all of us just didn't seem possible. I was definitely feeling a little jealous. To get the attention of anyone they wanted was something I wish I could do for Honoka.

When the concert came to an end, they held a little meet-and-greet outside the auditorium. That's when Honoka finally started to show some enthusiasm. Without even bringing me along, she weaved through the crowd of girls to make her way outside. On the other hand, I was a little slow so I headed up meeting the traffic of everyone who wanted to meet the girls. I was forced to follow the flow of traffic until there was an opening for me to meet up with Honoka.

Eventually, that opening came to me and I took it. I carefully weaved through the huge mass of people until I made it close to a railing. When I looked up, I saw something I wish I never would have seen.

It was Honoka kissing the leader of the idol group. Now, I would have simply said that this was luck for her to be kissed by the leader of an idol group, but this kiss was different from that. That kiss looked like it was from mutual love. It seemed like they knew each other; as if they've done this before. as I continued to watch the two of them to kiss, I became more confused. I didn't know what to do. People were pushing me left and right and that's when I knew that it was best for me to leave. It wasn't worth me trying to figure out the truth. I knew the truth of the situation… Honoka's heart belonged to someone.

…

That night, I kept myself up all night thinking about what I had saw. It was just a kiss on the outside, but to me, it was something more. Honoka, all throughout history, has always been loyal and pure. That's why I was bothered by this. Who was this girl? Why was she so special to Honoka that allowed her to kiss her? If the two of them were a thing, why didn't Honoka say anything? None of it made any sense.

On my part, I knew I jumped to conclusions by just walking off. That alone would make it hard for me to talk to her again. it was a date and I ended up walking out on her; the one who asked her out on the date. The only thing that made sense was for me to talk to Honoka when I saw her next to try and clear up whatever it was that was going on. That was the least either of us could for the other.

That was the only thing that I could hope for… Maybe there was something about that kiss that I didn't understand.

…

When the next week of school resumed, I put on an optimistic look and headed off to school. I did my very best to put everything that happened the previous week behind me. Thinking about it too hard would only make things worse for me. As the school came into view, I took a deep breath and set my sights on finding Honoka. Unfortunately, I found her immediately. She was with that girl from that idol group. The two of them were kissing right outside the school gates. As I neared them, they broke away from their kiss and exchanged farewells. The girl went in one direction and Honoka in the other.

My assumptions were true. I closed my eyes and ran into the school building as quickly as I could. I was so bothered that I didn't even bother changing my shoes. I just kept on running until I ran into someone that knocked me to the ground.

"Ow. Oh… You're that girl from the other day. Minami-san, right?"

"Oh my God, she just knocked down the prince."

"What is her problem anyway?"

"Just because she's a transfer, she thinks she can do whatever she wants. That's so ridiculous."

All of these words and thoughts were going through my head that I couldn't think straight. I quickly returned my feet and made my way to the staircase. That's when I kept on running until I reached the roof. I made it to the top of the building where I locked the door behind me and collapsed onto the ground.

My eyes were like rainclouds. Tears were rolling down my face and falling to the ground. I couldn't control any longer. The pain of seeing Honoka kiss another girl in front of me was just too much.

Why was this happening to me? None of this should be happening to me. All throughout time, Honoka belonged to me. If she didn't, all I had to do was find her. making her mind was not an option this time because she clearly belongs to someone else, and she doesn't show any signs of giving me a chance. That date was proof that she didn't care about me at all. She didn't even recognize me walking onto campus.

That's when I fell onto the ground and curled into a ball. It didn't seem like it, but a few hours passed. The hot sun was beating down on my body, but I didn't mind at all. It didn't even feel hot to feel. The sun felt more like cold daggers piercing my every nerve, making me feel weaker than I ever have before.

This life is too hard.

I have nothing left to live for.

Why should I keep going?

Somehow, these thoughts suddenly popped up in my head and they didn't seem bad at all. The reason why I have lived all of this time was because I wanted to be with Honoka. Now that I can't have her, it's not even worth living anymore. She won't look my way so me not being here won't make a difference to her anyway. I don't even have anyone in my life that would care if I were to disappear. That would be the simplest thing to do.

I slowly returned to my feet and took off my shoes. I walked over to the railing that protected the roof of the building. I climbed over it and held on with both of my hands. I looked down and could see the everlasting drop that would solve all of my problems. I closed my eyes and took one last deep breath.

"Goodbye."

End of Chapter 3