It saddens me to say Glee is over and it will be missed forever. I love Glee. :(
Chapter 5
Shiro walked the halls of the huge house in boredom he should of went out with Ichigo and Shinji but didn't feel like it, Renji went out on a date with Byakuya, Nnoitra was with his kid, Starrk was sleeping, Tosh and Ulqui were fucking loudly, and he couldn't find Grimmjow. He decided to make a visit to the music room since he hadn't even thought about writing a song for this album that needs to be started on his way there he thought he heard a piano playing and as he got closer he found out where Grimmjow was. He was singing but this song wasn't new and the song wasn't his actually this song had never been heard before so why was Grimmjow singing it it confused Shiro.
(Slow motion- Karina)
Why can't I love you in slow motion, take my time?
Take away the pressure on my mind
Really get to know you per rewind
I wanna love you in slow motion, why can't I?
You seem to know just what you want
And I like your confidence
Some things a girl should never rush
Cause if you do you hurt yourself
Shiro opened the door and walked in walking right in front of the piano. "How do you know that song?"
"I heard it." Grimmjow said cautiously.
"Heard it where?"
"The radio?"
"There's no way you could of heard it on the radio. Ichigo wrote that song ten years ago for a songwriting contest that he entered anonymously and the only reason I know the song is cuz I had to spy on him just to hear it. So how did you hear the song?" he crossed his arms cocking a hip.
Grimmjow opened his mouth to speak but was interrupted luckily he wasn't ready to answer that question. "Shiro." they heard Ichigo yelled "Where are you I need to ask you something?"
"Where are you I'll meet you there?" he yelled back. "We'll talk about this later, Mr. Blue." he looked Grimmjow up and down before walking out of the room. He walked to the living room where he figured Ichigo would be which he was. "What's up?"
"Um why didn't you tell me mom invited me to dinner?" Ichigo asked crossing his arms this was not the first time he had this conversation with Shiro and he was really getting tired of it.
Shiro shrugged "I don't know I guess I forgot."
"Mom told me you told her I didn't wanna go."
"I figured you wouldn't want to."
"But you just said you forgot."
"Why does this matter it was the past."
"Cuz I wanna know why you told mom I wouldn't want to see her."
"I don't know cuz you never wanna hang out with the two of us."
"Okay, but you still could of asked."
"But I knew you would say 'no'"
"No you didn't."
"You say 'no' everytime I ask you. Why are you bitching at me about this?"
"Because you do this shit all the time. Mom'll call or something you tell her I don't wanna talk when I didn't even know you were talking and then later she asks me where was I and why I didn't wanna talk to her and I'm all confused because I don't know what she's talking about but it seems everytime this shit happens you're the middle man."
"I mean I still don't see why you're upset." Shiro said indifferently
"You know what, I'm done with this conversation cuz yet again you don't care and I do."
Shiro watched his brother march off up stairs and plopped down on the couch to watch tv. Ichigo whined about the same thing all the time and Shiro never understood why he got all pissy about it but he was sure he'd get over it soon.
"How was everyone's night?" Ichigo asked, everyone was sitting at the table for breakfast and some people looked a little more glowy than others.
"Well after our date Renji and I had a very romantic night." Byakuya said with a cheesy grin.
"You had a very loud night." Nnoi said rolling his eyes.
"Sorry not sorry." Byakuya said "But then I wake up this morning and all I see on instagram is this..." he shows everyone the picture of Shinji and Ichigo kissing. "Why is it that everytime I let you two go out by yourselves all I see is bare ass cheeks, kissing, ass slapping, and drink throwing."
"I can explain that." Shinji said raising his hand. "So I wore my really short shorts you know the ones with my cheeks out.."
"Shoulda went to the club." Starrk muttered under his breath.
Shinji rolled his eyes. "Anyway, someone dared us to have champagne poured on my ass and Ichi would lick it off."
"I thought you weren't drinking anymore." Shiro said to Ichigo bitterly and still upset about last night.
"Bitch, I licked champagne off his ass and some guy poured Ciroc out the bottle and we put our mouths under it. I didn't get fucked up I don't have a hangover shut the fuck up." Ichigo snapped.
"You shut the fuck up."
"You shut up, you started this shit for no reason as usual cuz no one is talking about you."
"Somebody change the topic." Renji said trying to stop a fight that he knew was going to be brutal.
"Um Ichigo" Nnoitra changing the topic. "why did you join all those clubs in high school?"
"Because for once I wanted to not be second place in my own house." Ichigo answered looking at Shiro, he'd been feeling like Shiro was treating him like he didn't matter more often and Ichigo was tired of it.
"What the fuck does that mean?" Shiro was now offended and confused he'd never heard this response before.
"Exactly what is sounds like. My whole entire life I have been number fucking two and I am so sick of it."
"Where the fuck did all this come from?"
Ichigo ran his hands roughly through his hair. "This is not the first time I've said this to you. This is not the first time that I've tried to communicate with you. Every time I try to express my feelings to you you push me away, you change the subject, you ignore me, you walk away. And then when I get mad at you about shit you SIT THERE LIKE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT-LIKE YOU'RE DOING NOW- AND YOU ACT ALL FUCKING CONFUSED."
"Why are you yelling?" Shiro said calmly and indifferently
Ichigo stared at Shiro and then snapped. "This is what the fuck I'm talking about you don't care about shit. My whole life has been centered around you since fucking birth I could and could not do shit because you. 'Ichi don't be too loud your brother has to sleep'" he imitated his mother "'no, you can't have any friends over Shiro could get sick' you can't do this because Shiro you can't do that because Shiro my whole life has revolved around you."
"You acting like it was my decision to be sick. You act like I chose to be born with several birth defects. You act like I was in the womb like let me be sick so I can fuck up my twin's life."
"That's not what I'm saying what I'm saying is everything that I am involves you. I did tons of shit in high school but somehow I was still Shiro's twin."
"Are you fucking kidding me? My whole life I've been your twin I've always gone to your events and done shit with you and been there for you. I do everything for you."
Ichigo stood up knocking his chair to the floor. "YOU DO EVERYTHING FOR ME?! I DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU AND HAVE BEEN SINCE THE DAY WE. WERE. BORN. I'VE FOUGHT FOR YOU, I DEFEND YOU, I'VE GOTTEN SUSPENDED FOR YOU, I'VE GOTTEN LOCKED UP FOR YOU, I HAVE BEEN PRETENDING TO BE YOU FOR OVER SIX YEARS FOR. YOU. AND NOT ONLY DO I NOT GET A THANK YOU AND YOU DON'T APPRECIATE THE SHIT I DO FOR YOU BUT YOU ACT LIKE EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE EVER DONE DON'T MEAN SHIT. YOU ACT LIKE YOU DON'T NEED ME, YOU PUSH ME AWAY, AND WHEN I TRY TO HAVE A ONE ON ONE CONVERSATION ABOUT HOW I FEEL YOU DON'T CARE."
"Well here's the thing" Shiro deadpanned "I don't need you."
"You know what I quit. I'm done." he made his way to the kitchen doorway so he could leave. "And I don't mean I'm done with this conversation I'm done with the band I quit and I don't wanna live here anymore."
"You can't quit you're under contract."
"Sue me then." Ichigo shrugged his shoulders and walked out the kitchen making his way to the front door.
Shinji looked at Ichigo leaving and then at Shiro questioning when he didn't do anything. "You're not going to do anything."
"He'll be fine."
Shinji rolled his eyes and followed Ichigo. "Ichi stop."
"No, I'm done." he began to cry. "Its not fair and I'm tired of it not being fair."
"Wait." Shinj stopped him at the door seeing that he was crying he hugged him. "You're serious about this."
"Yeah I am." he pulled away. "Like I hate being the 'strong twin' because I always have to push my feelings aside to take care of Shiro. I always have to be the bigger person and I hate it cuz..." he started crying again.
Shinji pulled him into a tight hug. "Are you gonna leave forreal?"
"I can't stay here, right now I don't want to."
"Okay, you go stay at a hotel or something and I'll go pack a bag for us and we'll have a sleepover."
Ichigo nodded "That sounds good."
Shinji wiped his tears. "I've never seen you cry before and now I feel like crying." he giggled "You know I'm a crybaby."
Ichigo laughed "I know." he wiped his face. "I'm gonna go I'll see you later."
Shinji kissed his cheek. "See you later." he sniffled on his way back to the kitchen.
"Why are you crying?" Renji asked.
"Shut up. So Ichi is leaving like forreal he's going to a hotel I'm going to pack us some bags and we're going to have a sleepover." everyone turned to look at Shiro who rolled his eyes.
"He's being over dramatic he'll be back tomorrow." Shiro stood up to leave. "I'm not going to stay here and entertain this." he walked out of the kitchen.
Shinji stared at Renji. "What?"
"That's your bestie my bestie under control." Shinji said
"You got the easy twin Ichi always says how he feels."
"Look," Byakuya said "When their mom calls and their beating around the bush she calls me and I need to know what to tell her so fix it."
"This is serious" Shinji said "he was crying this is going to take a while to be fixed."
"I knew this shit was going to happen" Tosh sighed "They've been fighting a lot over dumb shit."
"So lets be honest" Shinji started while he and Ichigo were sitting on his hotel bed eating popcorn. "what the fuck is going on? Like how the fuck long you been holding all that in?"
"I'm not gone lie I've been feeling this way off and on for years." Ichigo answered "The first time Shiro made me feel some type of way was like junior year and I'll never forget it cuz it was the first time I wanted to fight him like he was a bitch off the street. So I had regularly scheduled cheer practice and Shiro told me y'all had band practice but it wasn't at the house so he needed the car I tell him its fine just come pick me up at 5:30 when practice is over. So 5:30 roll around and Shiro is no where to be found I call him like a thousand times he don't answer I call you guys no one answers except Tosh and he tells me ain't no practice. An hour passes by still no Shiro the only other person available is dad so I call him but I gotta wait another hour for him to get off work before he can take me home and now he's mad at me for being 'irresponsible'. I finally get home and Shiro is on the couch phone in hand talkin' bout some I forgot and then to top it all off I don't get an apology or a 'my bad' he says 'that's fucked up you had to call dad'. The only reason I didn't just lose it on him was cuz I knew dad was tired and wasn't going to be happy to break up a fight. Thank god we had separate rooms cuz I don't know if I coulda stopped myself from choking him in his sleep."
"Oh my god, why didn't you tell me."
"Cuz you woulda wanted to fight him for me cuz you like to fight everybody for everybody."
"That's not false. So what do you wanna do?"
"I don't know what do you wanna do?"
"We can have sex?"
"You. Have. A. Boyfriend."
"He doesn't care if we have sex cuz he knows that's all there would be I even asked him he said we could fuck as long as I describe it to him." he pouted and poked Ichigo's thigh "Come on, lets fuck."
"No." he laughed "What is wrong with you?"
"Its been like a week for me I need dick like I need food."
"No."
"Fine. How bout we stay up and make music videos like we did that one time our plane was delayed."
"Fucking problems was hilarious." he laughed "Okay but lets only do songs about asses."
"Anaconda and then all about that bass. I packed our short shorts."
"You always come prepared." they high fived each other and jumped off the bed so they could shake their asses all night.
"The fuck you watching?" Nnoitra asked looking over Starrk's shoulder. "All I see is ass."
"What? How long you been standing there." Starrk said shaking his head. "Oh, they made a video."
"Who?"
"Shinji and Ichi there's ass everywhere its on instagram but I think the full song is on youtube."
Everyone was sitting on the couch watching a movie but when Starrk said that they grabbed their phones to check instagram. "Oh my god." Tosh said "I didn't know Ichi could shake it like that I thought it was more muscle than fat I mean we all know Shinji is pure fat." he scrolled down "Are they twerking on each other?"
"I'm going up stairs." Shiro said leaving not only was his twin bitching at him but now he's having fun without him.
Everyone looked at Renji. "He's not going to talk to me. He just needs to get this all out by himself you know what happen the last time they had a real fight and we tried to talk to Shiro too fast."
"Oh yeah," Tosh said "he tried to punch you in the throat."
"Almost killed me."
"Lets just give them their time they'll be fine." Byakuya said "Oh my god I know its my job to make sure your image stays nice and clean but I can't clean this. Wait a minute yes I can. They're having fun. Got it."
"Yeah, you can come over" Shinji told Ichigo over the phone. "Shiro and Red went out for their mommy lunches."
"Alright, I'm coming give me like 15 minutes." Ichigo said rolling his eyes. It had been a little over a week since he moved out which was hard because Ichigo and Shiro had never been mad at each other for this long. Ichigo wanted to just go back home hug Shiro and get it all over with but he couldn't do that anymore because if he did that nothing would change and Shiro would continue to treat him like shit and he couldn't have that. He needed Shiro to apologize and take ownership for something for once and that wasn't going to happen if Ichigo just let everything go like he usually did when they fought.
Ichigo arrived at the big house in record time walking right in because the door was always open. "Hey, everybody how's it goin?" he yelled
"Yay!" Shinji yelled running in the living room to hug Ichigo. "I missed you." he gave his cheek a wet kiss.
"You came to see me yesterday." Ichigo said pushing him away. "Stop being clingy."
"Fine, excuse me for missing you." he pouted
"Hey, Ichi, how have you been?" Toshiro said with a smile.
"Did you just have sex?"
"Oh yeah."
"You on a dick high."
"Big time. Literally." he grinned
Ichigo laughed "Who knew you were so nasty."
"I've been kicking it with you guys for 9 years of course I picked something up."
"Oh hello Ichigo." Starrk said with a basketball under his arm. "we were just playing basketball you wanna kick Grimmy's ass real quick?"
"With pleasure." Ichigo grinned walking to the basketball court in the backyard.
"Are you going to watch?" Shinji asked Toshiro.
"No, I'm going to have more sex." he turned around and headed for the steps.
"What kind of friend are you ditching your friends for sex."
"Shut up, just because you're dickless don't mean the rest of us have to be."
Shinji stuck his tongue out behind Toshiro's back on his way to the backyard to watch the game.
"Ichigo is on my team." Starrk announced to the other basketball players on the court.
"What! No!" Nnoitra whined "I don't want Grimm he lost last time."
Grimmjow gave Nnoitra an annoyed look. "Fuck you, Nnoi."
"Don't be mad cuz you suck."
"Why don't we pick names out of a hat?" Grimmjow suggested.
"Things losers say for 500 Alex." Nnoitra said which earned him a punch in the arm.
"Look, guys." Ichigo said laughing. "I'm flattered really but I think I'll just stay with Starrk he wanted me on his team first."
"We should just take turns with him." Nnoi said.
"Not the first time I heard that." Shinji said from the sidelines.
"The difference between the last time you heard that and now is we're not in a bedroom." Ichigo said
"Neither was I." Shinji smirked at the memory.
"So nasty." Ichigo shook his head. "Okay lets get this game started."
"Oh hey Ichigo." Byakuya said walking outside with his sunglasses on and his magazine in hand.
"Where have you been?"
"I was sleep Renji gave it to me good before he left." he grinned walking over to the benches sitting down next to Shinji. "I'm interacting with you guys."
"Thanks for your presence." Ichigo said sarcastically. "Now lets start."
They started the basketball game and Ichigo and Starrk scored the first point which made Shinji cheer earning him questioning looks from everyone and Ichigo yelled 'boyfriend' just in case he forgot. The game went on for thirty more minutes Toshiro and Ulquiorra came outside to watching the game much to Toshiro's dismay the game was all tied up which didn't make Nnoitra happy just to wrap the game up because it was getting boring Shinji yelled the next point is game point which made the players go that much harder. Nnoitra and Grimmjow ended up getting the last point fifteen minutes later winning them the game.
"Yesssss!" Nnoitra cheered.
"You need some ass forreal." Grimmjow said "Like its really not that deep."
Nnoitra put his hand in his face. "Talk to the hand."
"No, there's no telling where its been or what its been touching." Grimmjow gagged.
"We got ice cream right?" Ichigo asked walking into the house.
"We got ice cream" Shinji answered following him into the house. "I don't know about you."
"Shin, we talked about this I'm not coming back til Shiro apologizes and that's that." Ichigo took the ice cream out of the freezer and grabbed a spoon.
"Fine then don't eat my ice cream I bought it." he snatched his ice cream away.
Ichigo rolled his eyes and grabbed another gallon of ice cream. "Who bought this?"
"Red." Toshiro answered sitting on the table.
"I'll eat this one." he stuck his tongue out at Shinji sitting down at the table.
"Get off my freaking table." Byakuya snapped at Toshiro
"What's with the kid friendly cursing?" Ichigo asked
"I'm trying to purify my soul so first things first no cursing." Byakuya walked over to the refrigerator to grab his apple juice but it wasn't there. "Who the fuck drank my fucking apple juice. I can't have one got damn thing to my fucking self. It had my fucking name on it, you guys, like fucking come on."
"You drank it this morning its in the recycling bin." Ulquiorra said pointing to said bin.
"Oh yeah. Do over." closed his magazine and sat at the table. "So has anyone be working on the album?" it was dead silent. "I'll take that as a no."
"I would have a song ready but I'm not having any relationship problems right now." Shinji shrugged. "You know that's my forte. Men ain't shit. All they do is cheat. I'm good at that."
"That and writing about sex." Toshiro said.
"I wrote all of" he counted on his fingers " like three if you count sleazy."
"I'm sure its more than that." Ichigo said.
"Whatever, you're the one who writes the sentimental shit." Shinji rolled his eyes.
"Excuse me for having feelings."
"Oh my god shut up." Grimmjow said "You guys are annoying."
"You're annoying." Ichigo snapped back
"You're annoying." Grimmjow said
"Both of you are equally annoying." Ulquiorra said ending the stupid argument.
"Thanks babe" Tosh said "for clearing that up."
"Whatever." Ichigo said rolling his eyes.
"Hey, what's up every..Hello Ichi." Renji said walking into the kitchen noticing Ichigo there and then getting worried because Shiro was behind him.
"Hey Red." Ichigo said with a smile he knew Shiro would be behind him he'd just have to ignore him.
"Hey." Shiro said coldly to Ichigo walking over to the counter to lean on it.
Shinji leaned over to Tosh to whisper in his ear "Is it me or did it get like a thousand degrees colder in here?"
"Freezing." Toshiro replied.
"Hey." Ichigo said back to him focusing his attention on Renji. "How are you, Red? I haven't seen you at all Shin and Tosh came to visit me yesterday but I haven't seen you, don't you miss me?"
Renji spared a glance at Shiro before looking back at Ichigo. "Of course I miss you, you're one of my best friends." out of the corner of his eye he saw Shiro shift his weight cross his arms over his chest and suck his teeth. He knew Shiro would be upset if he went to go see Ichigo which is why he hasn't, Shiro is very territorial of Renji simply because he was his first friend so when ever Shiro and Ichigo get into an argument Renji must take Shiro's side, always. "I've just been really busy."
"Don't you just hate being ignored?" Shiro said out loud as if he wasn't talking to anyone in particular but everyone knew he was talking to Ichigo. Ichigo rolled his eyes but continued to ignore Shiro he didn't come over to fight he came to be with friends. "Like some people just ignore you even though you've done nothing to them." Ichigo opened his mouth to speak but Toshiro clapped a hand over his mouth. "Some people just don't wanna be around you even though all you want is to hang out with them but they can't cuz they're with their 'friends'." at this point Shiro was ranting, when Ichigo left last week Shiro began to think about his and Ichigo's relationship and all the stuff he pushed to the back of his mind came up and he remembered how Ichigo used to make him feel when they were younger so he decided the next time he saw him he would tell him.
Ichigo pushed Toshiro's hand away from his mouth. "What the fuck are you talking about?"
"The fact that you never really liked me and you never wanted me around." Shiro looked at Ichigo with an indifferent expression. "Like I've always thought you hated me to be completely honest."
"And why would you think that?"
"Because you never wanted to be around me for long periods of time. You never liked being around me by yourself. You still do the shit now."
"That's not true."
"Yes, it is. You never like being around me, ever. You were never home and whenever you were you were locked up in your room ignoring me even when I would ask you to hang out you'd always say 'no'. You hate me."
"I don't hate you, I don't always like you but I don't hate you. And I was fucking busy sor-ry I couldn't be around every second of everyday for you I mean mom was there do you really need the whole family to ride your dick all the time?"
"Why the fuck you always bring mom up?"
"Cuz she was there for you all the time and she wasn't for me."
"You had dad."
"Dad is a heart surgeon he was never home he worked 14 hours a day and when he wasn't on call he spent time with me because you were with mom all the time."
"Its not my fault mom was with me all the time that's what she wanted."
"Okay but its not like you tried to include me in anything if both our parents looked at me together for just a second you'd be upset."
"It was never for just a second they went to every one of your games and cheer competitions and debates and all that other shit."
"You're bitching about them supporting my activities in high school but you're the famous one and you get all the awards and shit now mom flew to Japan to see you perform so stop." Shiro walked over to the table where Ichigo was sitting. "You need to stop where you are right now. Don't move one more step towards me."
"Or what?" Shiro walked up but was stopped by Renji who moved the same time he did.
"Stop." Renji said moving between Ichigo and Shiro.
"Or what? Like I don't understand what the problem is."
"Just stay where you are."
"Fine, whatever." Shiro was getting more and more upset and all he wanted to do was punch Ichigo in the face and he knew he would. Whenever he got really angry he stayed extremely calm and then attacked when he couldn't take it anymore he was slowly reaching that point. "I honestly don't know why you feel like you're number two when for like eight years everything was about you. We went to your basketball games, baseball games, track meets, dance recitals, dance competitions, cheer competitions. I won tons of awards for academics but we never put those up but you had a whole trophy case in the living room, its still there."
Ichigo shrugged carelessly "I don't know what to tell you not everyone can be a winner."
And that was it, Shiro had had it. "Let me learn you some shit." Shiro said before going around Renji to punch his brother in the face he got in a few hits before Renji snatched him away. "I'll fight my brother if I want to." Shiro said too calmly tried pushing Renji off him. "Let him go, Grimm." Grimmjow was holding Ichigo by the waist which was hard because not only was he trying to get away but he was strong too. "Let him go I wanna fight. I want him to know how angry I am but I can't put it into words so I wanna fight. Let. him. go."
"Come on." Renji said picking Shiro up by the waist taking him out of the kitchen to the pool in the back yard.
"That's why you're number two." Shiro yelled to Ichigo.
"I lied I really do hate you, bitch." Ichigo yelled back. "Now I wanna fight for real. Let me go." he pushed Grimmjow's arms off him but it wasn't really working.
"Lets go to the front yard." Grimmjow said throwing Ichigo over his shoulder.
"No I wanna go to the back yard and fight my brother. He hit me for no reason and I didn't get any in I wanna fuck him up."
"No, lets go."
"That escalated quickly." Starrk said when both twins were outside.
"Just so you know when Shiro says 'let me learn you something' somebody is about to get hit in the face." Toshiro said "I just forgot because its been a minute since their words lead them to blows."
"Its was scary cuz Shiro didn't even look made." Nnoitra said with a shiver.
"That's how they are Ichigo blows up and then attacks and Shiro just makes you feel like its not a big deal then he just attacks." Shinji said
"I'm not leaving." Ichigo told Grimmjow when they got outside. "I'll sit right here on these fucking stairs and wait." he plopped down on the stairs.
"Just go back to the hotel I'll go with you." Grimmjow tried bargaining with him.
"I'm not leaving. I'll stay here all day and all night I wanna fight, you don't just run up and expect to get away with it."
"But he's your brother."
"And?"
"You should go back to the hotel, Ichigo." Toshiro said sticking his head out the door.
"No, I wanna fight where he at?"
"You can't stay you need to go."
"No."
"Grimm can you help?"
"I guess." Grimmjow shrugged. "Come on, Ichigo."
"No."
"Fine." Grimmjow huffed he picked Ichigo up and threw him over his shoulder. "We're getting in the car and I'm taking you back to the hotel."
"No, put me down." he kicked and screamed
"Which car has the child locks on it?" Grimmjow yelled out to Toshiro.
"The Camry." Toshiro answered
Grimmjow walked to the garage of many cars finding the Camry quickly opening the back door throwing Ichigo in and running over to the drivers side so he could take Ichigo back to the hotel where he was staying. "Please calm down." Grimmjow said calmly "I don't say please often but it would make me feel better if you stopped acting crazy." he took the keys out of the glove compartment and started the car pulling out of the garage and getting on the road as fast as he could.
"I will break this fucking window I swear."
"Can you not? That would be nice."
"I'm going to break the window."
"How about this, if you don't break the window I'll do whatever you want once we get to the hotel."
"I want you to take me back so I can fuck Shiro up."
"We're not going to do that."
Grimmjow was sitting down on the couch in Ichigo's hotel room watching him pace back and forth cursing about Shiro he would try his best to change the subject. "So how long you been a dancer?"
"I'm gonna fuck him up." Ichigo huffed
"What made you be a cheerleader? You saw bring it on too much?"
"I'm gonna lay him the fuck out."
Grimmjow had a secret about Ichigo that he knew would maybe calm him down but he also doesn't know how he's going to take it but he has to tell him one day and now seems like a good time. "I know that you don't write all your music by yourself."
Ichigo stopped pacing and turned the Grimmjow. "What!"
"I know that you, in particular, haven't written your songs on your own."
"The fuck you talkin' 'bout?"
"You didn't write sober on your own or misguided ghosts."
"And who helped me?"
"Me."
"Shiro I think you should apologize to Ichi." Renji said sitting down on Shiro's bed.
Shiro was laying on his back with his cover pulled over his head but when he heard Renji speak his nonsense he sat up quickly. "What the fuck is your problem. You are my friend that means whatever I say and whatever I want is always right. I don't give a damn if I say the sky is green you say 'yeah Shiro the sky is green'. That's what best friends do."
"No, Shiro, best friends don't do that, friends do that people who want shit from you do that best friends don't agree with everything you say best friends tell you when something is wrong and when you do something fucked up. I'm going to be honest here sometimes you treat Ichi like shit and that's not right."
"Why the fuck you taking his side."
"What's right is right and what's wrong is wrong. You're wrong Shiro you shouldn't of ran up on Ichi like that and you should apologize to him."
"Get yo mutha fuckin right is right wrong is wrong ass outta my fucking room." he fell back on the bed throwing the cover over his head.
Renji sighed he knew this would happen but he's the rational one and Shiro is the crazy one. "You are wrong Shiro."
"Get the fuck out."
"Watchu talkin bout Willis?" Ichigo said sitting down on the couch leaning on the armrest so he could face Grimmjow.
Grimmjow sighed "For about three years if we were in the same city you'd show up to my hotel room door drunk with a song in your head and I'd help you write it out and then in the morning I'd take you back to whatever hotel you were staying at."
"I'm not going to lie that used to happen that's one of the reasons I stopped drinking, although I got some good songs out of it, but how am I supposed to believe the person who has probably heard my inner most thoughts is you."
He sighed again, he figured Ichigo may not believe him so he had to sing a song he wasn't supposed to know. "Why can't I love you in slow motion, take my time? Take away the pressure on my mind? Really get to know you just rewind. I wanna love you in slow motion why can't I." he sang.
Ichigo paused staring at Grimmjow, that's his song he wrote it years ago for a songwriting contest and the only way Grimmjow would know that song is if he was a judge at the songwriting contest which couldn't be possible so the only other way for him to know the song is if he played it for him. Ichigo lept to the other side of the couch at Grimmjow and kissed him which took the man entirely by surprise. Grimmjow moved his hands to Ichigo's waist while Ichigo slipped his tongue in his mouth and then Ichigo froze and his eyes got wide.
"No." he said jumping off Grimmjow pacing again. "No, I can't. I can't do that. That's not good." he said to himself confusing Grimmjow. "You were doing good Ichigo you haven't kissed anyone, well you kissed Shinji but his lips don't counts he's a thot. No sex with strangers. No alcohol and no sex with strangers that's the rules."
"I'm not a stranger."
"We're not in a relationship that makes you a stranger." he sat back down on the couch. "It has nothing to do with you, I would love to fuck you I really would but with drinking came with sex with random strangers and now that I'm not drinking I can't have sex without a relationship well that's not true I can't have just sex I need sustenance I need more than just a dick."
"Why did you kiss me then?"
"I knew you were somewhere out there and I knew you were probably the one person in the world who completely understands me without me having to say anything, as Bya calls it my songwriting soulmate. I always told myself that when I met you if I ever did I would probably sleep with you at first sight but I can't so that anymore."
"So came too late had it been a year ago we'd still be kissing? Where's my time machine?" he chuckled
Ichigo laughed shoving Grimmjow. "Its not you its me."
"Are you breaking up with me?"
Ichigo rolled his eyes. "So what do you know?"
Grimmjow sat back and thought. "I know you hated being drunk and I know you were in love once and I know that you got your heart broken."
"I have a song I want you to hear." Ichigo said getting up to get his guitar. "I don't know if I sang it to you yet but I'm stuck and since I know its you you can help." he came back with his guitar in hand sitting on the couch he started the song in his head. "I don't even know myself at all I thought I would be happy but now the more I try to push it I realize gonna let go of control. Gonna let it happen, gonna let it happen, Gonna let it happen, just let it happen." he sang quietly, he's never sang one of his songs in front of anyone before except Shiro -well sober anyway- and even though Grimmjow has heard him speak directly from the heart before he's still nervous.
"It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going and when it's dark out and no one's around it keeps glowing." Grimmjow finished looking at the top of Ichigo's head he could tell he was nervous.
"That's all I got and I see I've sang it to you."
"Yeah you have. We'll work on it and we'll put it on the album."
"Who?"
"You and me."
"No, I don't sing what I write when I sang sober at the concert we just had that was the first time I ever sang any song I wrote all by myself, well with you."
"You wrote them by yourself I never put in just helped. But why won't you sing then."
"Because it's too close to my heart I don't want to let anyone in that close it feels better when Shiro sings the words that way they still get out they just don't know how I feel. Plus I'm afraid I'll cry or fuck it up somehow. And he's the better singer."
"But you put more emotion in it cuz its your song and your voice is just as beautiful as his, well your real one. I know when you're on stage you sing bigger and a little higher because you're supposed to be Shiro but your soft tenor is great too. I'm only going to help you if you sing it."
"Fine." Ichigo gave a small smile and pecked him on the cheek. "Thanks."
"You're welcome."
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