Chapter 3: Love and Loss

Nessie's POV

Sneaking out wasn't going to be easy at all. I had scheduled an Uber to come pick me up around midnight. All that was left now was to get out of the house.

I grabbed a small duffel bag I had in my closet and began to pack some clothes and anything else I might need. As I was going through my closet I came across something that I thought I had lost a long time ago.

A stuffed wolf. A stuffed reddish-brown wolf. This was the only item I had on me when I had been found and taken to the hospital. I remember being so scared that this stuffed wolf was the only thing that could bring me comfort. I remember clutching onto this toy for dear life. I was devastated when I thought I'd lost it.

"Nessie are you feeling okay? You look like you're about to cry?"

"I'm fine Bella. Just a little emotional that's all," I told her as I packed up the stuffed wolf along with my other stuff. It was to important to me for me to leave it behind.

When the time came to sneak out I could feel my heart pounding out of my chest. I rolled myself as slowly and carefully as possible. The whole time I was worried that one of my wheels would squeak loudly and wake my mother up.

Even getting into the car felt like an eternity since the Uber driver had to assist me in getting in the car and putting my wheelchair and duffel bag in the trunk.

The guy didn't say much as he drove but he kept looking at me the whole way. An alone, disabled, teenage girl traveling to LAX in the middle of the night surely didn't fit the type he was probably used to picking up.

It was lonely enough for me to breeze through security so I ended up sitting in the terminal for the longest time. Shortly after taking off I fell asleep and I didn't wake up until a flight attendant had woken me up telling me we had landed.

Three Days Later...

Edward's POV

It's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all they say. The more you loved someone the more it hurts to lose them.

Pain is all that I seemed to have known for the past 12 years. When you lose someone you love it hurts beyond all possible imagination. But when you lose two people you love and within such a short amount of time? There are no words to describe that type of pain. None.

Bella was and always will be the love of my life. Before I met Bella I didn't know that there was anything missing in my life. She changed my life in more ways than I could have ever possibly imagined.

I loved her and to my surprise she loved me too. I never understood how she, so good and pure, could ever fall in love with a monster like myself but she did.

We'd faced many threats and overcame many obstacles together. We'd gotten married. Bella was always surprising me but the biggest surprise of all was when we found out she was expecting our baby.

I didn't realize what a blessing that truly was back then. I thought the child inside of her was a monster like I was. I wanted her to get rid of it because of the way it was slowly, and unintentionally, killing her. Carlisle was ready to perform the abortion as soon as we arrived back from our honeymoon.

I thought Bella was going to be happy to be rid of the creature that was slowly harming her from within. But, as usual, she surprised me once again when she refused to abort and seeked protection from Rosalie of all people.

Even though Carlisle wanted to perform the abortion his hands were tied. He wouldn't go against Bella's wishes no matter how much the odds were stacked against her.

Over the course of the following weeks I finally came to my senses and realized that our baby was not a monster. Our baby was an innocent child that loved it's mother and didn't mean to hurt her.

When it came time for Bella to deliver all of my worst fears came true. My daughter, my little Renesmee was delivered successfully, but Bella died right there on the operating table. I tried and tried to resuscitate her and change her to no avail.

I felt nothing but despair and hopelessness until I heard my daughter's first cry. There was my reason to continue living. I had a baby that needed me and I needed her.

She was so tiny and felt so fragile in my arms when I held her for the first time. She looked at me with those big chocolate brown eyes of hers and my heart melted even more. From then on she was my whole life.

Nessie grew at an alarming rate. At one week old she was walking. At two weeks old she could run and boy was she fast. I swore if we took our eyes off of her for two seconds she managed to land herself in some sort of trouble. She was always trying to eat thing that were inedible. I couldn't even begin to tell you how many times I, and the rest of my family, had to wrestle toys away from her because she had bitten pieces of them off.

She loved to run around and wonder off. Somehow that small half human child of mine had managed to wonder away from all of us. Each and every single one of us. The thought of tying her down to chair so she wouldn't be able to wonder off and put herself in danger did cross my mind more than once.

No matter what though my baby girl had managed to bring back some of the light that Bella had taken when she died. Nessie brought us all much needed happiness and love. We loved her and she loved us.

Then one mistake. One. Was all it took. Nessie and I had stayed home while everyone else went on a hunting trip. I was watching TV when I heard a loud noise upstairs. I raced up to see what the problem was.

I stood there in shock when I saw that my piano had been completely destroyed. That piano held so many precious memories. Memories of me writing tunes for Bella and me playing for Bella. It was one of the few reminders of Bella I had and it was destroyed.

Nessie stood there with a guilty looking expression on her face.

"Daddy I'm sorry it was an accident,"

That's when I completely lost it and let my anger take over. I screamed at her for I don't even know how long.

I screamed at her about how angry I was that she destroyed something so precious to me. About how she should've listened to me and never touched it in the first place. About how she destroyed the one remainder I had left of her mother. All I could do was scream.

She ran out of the room in tears but I didn't care at the moment. I didn't know that that was the last time I'd ever see my daughter. All I could think about was that stupid piano.

It wasn't until the others returned a little while after and asked where Renesmee was that I even begun to suspect that something was wrong. We searched the whole house and surrounding area for her but she was gone.

I told everyone what happened and they couldn't believe it. Jacob probably wouldn't killed me if Jasper hadn't been there to calm him down.

We searched and searched and searched. I was terrified when a few hours had gone by with no sign of her. This was all my fault! I should've never have screamed at her and scared her like that! It was just a stupid piano! All I wanted was my daughter back now!

We were all scared. It wasn't the first time she'd wondered off but it never took long to find her! I swore that if we ever found her I would tie her down to a chair so she'd never take off like this again!

We were never the same after that. Jacob never forgave me for what happened. He was so devastated by the loss of his imprint that he opted to remain as a wolf and as far as I know he never left Washington.

More importantly though I never forgave myself. My daughter disappear because of me and me alone. I would not rest though until I found her once again.

My phone made a noise that pulled me out of my thoughts. It was a security notification from my bank. I looked more closely and realized that it was Bella's old savings account. When I went online I saw what prompted the security notice. Two thousand dollars were missing. Someone had robbed Bella's bank account!

Pissed didn't even begin to describe how I felt right now!

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