I'd Come For You
a/n: First Star Wars Fic so go easy on me.
Disclaimer: Don't own Star Wars.
Kylo sat heavily down on his bed. Rubbing the bridge of his nose he laid back. He hadn't heard from Rey in months and it kinda worried him. Being Supreme Leader kept him busy. He could feel her but barely. She kept a wall up between them. There were days he was teetering on the edge sanity and insanity. When he'd been with Rey she brought balance to him. She soothed his wounded soul. Knowing there wasn't a point in trying but he made a point to try to reach out to her but nothing. It was almost like a wall of ice between them. It made him ache with longing. He'd tried to get rid of the feelings, but they came back like a heady rush. He couldn't deny it that he wanted to stand beside her but it wasn't possible. He'd never felt like this when it came to someone else. Rey was a beacon of light in the darkness of his life. It was freaking ironic to him that he'd wanted to serve the Dark Side so much to be like his Grandfather, but Rey walked into his life and he wasn't so sure now. Closing his eyes he allowed himself to succumb to sleep.
He stood up as he looked around the familiar hallways of the Supremacy. Confusion washed over him. Supremacy was gone. Something was wrong and he felt it wash through his bond. Turning around he tried to find her here in this whatever it was. Her screams echoed down the hallway made him freeze if only for a moment. It sent his blood racing as he started running down the hallway towards her voice. Through their bond he could feel that she was in serious pain and needed him. Her screams echoed in his head and down the metal hallway. She was screaming the name he'd been born with. A name only his Mother and Rey were allowed to call him. When he finally found her she was pinned to the ground screaming his name. Begging for him to come for her, to save her. Something dark twisted inside of him at the sight. The sleeping black predator inside of him saw his mate in distress. She saw him and reached for him as the man atop forced himself inside his bonded's body. He was wondering why she hadn't fought back. Then he realized the steadily growing puddle of blood from around her head. She was getting weaker by the moment.
"Ben!" she screamed his name.
For some reason he couldn't move to help her even though the caged predator was demanding retribution on the man that harmed his mate. He tried to move towards them but something was hoping him in place as if trying to make him watch.
"Rey!" Kylo shouted.
It was as if only she could see him. He was seeing her through their bond. He wanted so badly to lash out at the man that dared to touch what belonged to him. He kept trying to break free from whatever was holding him back.
"He's not going to save you this time little Jedi," the man hissed.
In an instant he recognized that despised voice of the red headed General Hux. Kylo tried to use the Force to try and save his bonded. Nothing was working, and he was trembling on the fine edge of control. Then he heard a wet snap and the sound made his stomach and heart clench. Her screams for him stopped. An echoing pain washed through him as he watched her eyes dull. A wet sensation ran down his cheeks. Her screams echoed in his head even after her death.
"REY!"
His voice echoed down the hall as he tried to get to her side.
Kylo shot up from his bed. His heart racing and sweat dripping down his body. His hands were trembling as he raked them through his hair. It had felt so real and it made him hurt. Trying to calm himself down he reached for the aching familiar bond. He needed to feel that she was still alive. He felt the wall between them tremble as she felt him and the action made her freeze in what she was doing. Relief rushed through him.
'Give me a minute Kylo,' she whispered into his mind.
There was a breath that escaped him hearing her voice in his head once again. He felt the wall that had been there crumble a bit before him as he waited for her to acknowledge him. The bond strengthened so he could see the room she was in. Rey locked the door and sat down on her bunk. She seemed a bit peeved at that moment but once she looked at him the look vanished. Concern washed through their bond.
"Ben, is there something wrong?"
In a rush he was on his knees between her legs. His arms wrapped around her waist and his face buried against her neck. He couldn't help the instinct to take her scent in. She tensed for a moment before relaxing against him allowing him to rest like this for a moment. Reaching up she began to stroke his head, her hand running from the top of his head and down to his nape and back again. They didn't speak for what seemed like hours till he seemed to calm down just a bit. He fought the urge to smile feeling her Force wash over him bringing balance to his troubled heart and mind. Here with her made things seem so much simpler. There was something that told him if it was just the two of them forever he'd never be unhappy.
"Wanna talk about it?" she finally said softly.
Rey kept comforting him in her way. He didn't move because as long as she kept touching him she was safe from all harm. With her here he could protect her. His head shifted so his ear was resting over her heart. The sound of her heart beat made him relax further. He took a shuddering breath as he remembered. He couldn't shake the empty and helpless feeling that occurred when he hadn't been able to save her. "Ben, talk to me."
He pulled back to look her in the eyes. There was so much agony running through him and it must've shown in his eyes. He'd once heard that the eyes were the windows to the soul, and Rey could read him like a book. She brushed a stray dark lock out of his eyes as she looked him over. His distress seemed to upset her too. He opened up their bond. Ren was offering up his mind for her to search so he didn't have to say what he saw. Trying so hard he wanted to erase those memories of that dream away. Her worry rushed through their bond about what could've shaken him up so badly he'd come to her for comfort.
'Go ahead,' he whispered softly into her mind.
"Ben I don't…"
"I don't want to say it aloud."
Rey reluctantly sunk into his mind to find what he saw. He felt her tense under his hands once she saw the scene of the dream play out. Once she pulled back their eyes met. Tears were making tracks down her cheeks. There was an echoing feeling of shame coming from him to her. She reached up and caught his face between her hands. Leaning forward she brushed her lips across his forehead then his cheeks. Before she could pull back he pulled her closer and claimed her lips softly. He shoved down the fear that she'd react badly to the kiss. He'd wanted to do that from the first moment he met her face to face. Kylo wanted more but she probably wouldn't let him go any further. When he pulled back from the kiss there was a heart wrenching smile on her face.
"Rey I…" he started softly.
"I know Ben, I know."
He claimed her lips again softly. So many emotions blended together between them through the bond. It was hard to tell where one emotion began and ended. Then he tasted something on the edge of her emotions and he didn't like it. She was afraid but not of him. He pulled back and looked down at his Light sided partner.
"Rey?"
"Ben I…"
Then longing rushed through their bond from both sides. "I want this, but I'm nervous."
Kylo looked at his bonded. Then realization dawned on him. The realization she was untouched brought some sense of smugness that he'd be able to claim her first. He had to keep telling himself for her sake to go slow, or he'd scare her and he didn't want that. She was everything to him.
"We don't have to rush this Rey."
She looked down and he knew that something was bothering her other than the fact that she was still untouched.
"I want this Ben…"
Then a flicker across her emotions made him freeze on the inside. It wasn't a question of not wanting him because Maker help them she wanted him just as much. She was afraid someone else would take what rightfully belonged to him. That caused the darkness to rise and a fierce protective instinct to claim what rightfully belongs to him.
"Are you sure?" he asked her softly, "Are you sure this is what you want?"
She gave him a watery smile.
"You're my bonded Ben," she murmured softly. "You are the one for whom I'm destined. We are two halves of a whole that long to be completed."
He leaned down and claimed her lips softly. With ease he laid his hands on her hips and lifted her up. She wrapped her legs around his hips causing him to groan as her heat rubbed against his arousal. Her arms wrapped tightly around his neck to keep her balance. She trusted him not to drop her.
"Rey," he groaned softly against her lips as she shifted against him.
"You're my everything," she murmured softly.
He pulled back from their kiss and looked at her. A half smile graced his features. She was so beautiful laying there staring at him, with emotions that made his heart race, shining in her eyes.
"I thought that was my line."
She laughed softly before leaning up and claiming his lips again. He carried her to her bed and laid her down. His hands moved over her form and started to undress her slowly allowing her time to tell him to stop. Her hands reached up and started pushing off his clothes.
"I want this Ben," she murmured softly as she leaned up and kissed his lips softly.
His hands ran over her body almost reverently. "Don't hold back."
"I don't want to hurt you."
She smiled at him and pulled him down to kiss him. He could feel her emotions wash through him like a calming wave of peace. There were days he wondered how he'd gotten so lucky to find her.
'Fate,' she murmured into his mind.
Shaking his head with a soft smile he leaned down and kissed her softly. Kylo spread her legs a bit with his knee and reached between them to stroke her heat softly. A soft whimper escaped his bonded making him smirk as he continued his soft touches. Leaning down he captured her breast and suckled on it. She was quivering underneath him. The muscles in her stomach were jumping telling him she was getting close. Pulling back from her breasts he moved so he could watch her face as he brought her closer to her release. He didn't know what he did to deserve her but he would make sure she knew how much he wanted her in his life. A few more strokes she released with a cry of his name. He shifted so he was situated between her legs. Her body seemed to calm down a bit.
"Are you sure?" he murmured softly.
Her legs wrapped around his hips pulling him against her.
"I'm yours Ben."
He tangled one of his hands in hers and wrapped the other around her hips. With a few shifts he sheathed himself inside of her. Rey let out a whimper as he took her innocence. Rey buried her face against his neck. Her hand came up and buried her nails against his shoulder blade.
"Relax," he murmured softly against the top of her head.
She tilted her head back so they could look into each others eyes. She shifted her hips a bit making him groan softly.
"Ben don't hold back I want all of you."
"I don't want to hurt you."
"Dammit Kylo Ren if you don't…"
He captured her lips as he lifted her hips up and started to move inside of her. She threw her head back and moaned as he made a hard thrust inside of her. Kylo felt their release coming on quick. A smirk curled his face as he kept moving inside of her. Leaning down he nipped and bit her shoulder making her arch and moan at his bites. He knew there'd be a mark on her skin and he was more than okay with that.
"Ben!" she panted loudly.
Her walls clenched around him as her release triggered his own. He growled her name as he bit her shoulder hard. Pulling back he stared down at the beautiful woman that belonged to him heart and soul. Reaching up he brushed a loose strand of hair away from her eyes.
'I love you,' she murmured softly in his mind.
It made something inside him twist in a good way. Leaning down he brushed his lips across her own. He pulled away from her making her whimper softly at the loss. A soft smile crossed his features as he pulled her against him. Her back against his chest. It didn't take long for his exhausted bonded to fall asleep against him.
Kylo looked down at his sleeping bonded. He smirked at the dark blemish on her shoulder from where he'd bitten her to mark her. Then his thoughts turned inward and darker. He thought about what he'd dreamed. Even though he'd claimed Rey as his that didn't settle his unease that something was going to happen to her.
"You're emotions are running rampant Ben," she murmured sleepily.
"Come back with me Rey," he pleaded. "I can protect you since I'm Supreme Leader now."
"You know I can't Ben. The Resistance…"
He scoffed at her words which made her eyes narrow. This conversation was going to slide down hill fast if he didn't try to stick his foot in his mouth again.
"I need you beside me Rey. I need to know you're safe."
"I can take care of myself Kylo," she snapped as she rose and shifted away from him.
He fought the urge to pull her back down beside him. Then he registered she'd called him by his First Order name and he couldn't help but flinch. That name was reserved for when she was pissed off at him for some reason. She dressed quickly and looked at him with hardened eyes. Her movements were slower than normal. Soft hisses escaped her as she moved in certain directions. That made a stab of guilt escape him. It had been a necessary pain for her to go through to be with him, but he still didn't like the idea of her hurting because of him.
"I know you can Rey," he finally admitted. "But you're my everything…"
"Ben," she tried. "I have to help the Resistance."
"I don't want to lose you!" he snapped. "This dream… I don't want that to happen to you."
"You can't protect me from everything Ben even though I know you want to. We're on different sides."
"It doesn't have to…"
"Ben…"
She was gone as the connection broke. He fought everything within him from destroying his room in frustration. With a soft growl he went to the shower. The shower could hide the tears he shed as he washed evidence from their love making down the drain. Ben got ready for training. The mask of the villain and monster back in place.