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Shinn- Forgiveness
He hated her.
With all his heart.
Can you forgive me again
He kept telling himself,
That his family died because of her.
I don't know what I said
He blamed her,
Hated her,
Made fun of her,
Hurt her.
But I didn't mean to hurt you
He would smile in utter hatred as he looked at her.
He swore he would never forgive her.
I heard the words come out
Never.
But…
But never did he expect that he would be one of the million people standing there.
I felt that I would die
Standing there at the front of the Princess of Orb's grave.
He was supposed to hate her.
It hurts so much to hurt you
Yet, why did he cry along with the million others?
Then you look at me
Why?
You're not shouting anymore
Was it because of the last conversation they had together?
-You should never forgive me…because I never make anyone happy…-
-Of course. I'll never forgive you! Never!-
And as she left,
All she did was smile at him sadly.
You're silently broken
Or was it because she reminded him a little of Stellar?
The sadness in their eyes were the same.
I'd give anything now
The hair colour was the same.
The smile was never a true one unless they saw the people they loved.
To kill those words for you
Or was it because both of them were buried near or in the sea?
Was it that way?
Each time I say something I regret
Or was it because she just welcomed him home like a long- lost relative?
Why did she not hate him for everything he had done?
I cry, I don't want to lose you
Why did she not try to argue back?
Why did she accept all kinds of bashings and such thrown on her?
Why did she not fight them away and only silently doing what she had to do?
But somehow I know that you will never leave me
So many whys.
But they would never, ever be answered.
Because the only one who could answer the questions was the princess herself.
Cause you were made for me
With her departure, who would answer those questions?
Her brother?
Her guardians?
He smiled bitterly as he thought.
Somehow I'll make you see
Her brother…
The one they called "Kira of the skies", or "the knight king, Freedom."
They made him sound so great.
But in the end,
Kira Yamato was still human.
How happy you make me
So what if he was a Coordinator?
He was still a human.
I can't live this life
Her guardians,
Especially the Captain of the Archangel and her bodyguard, Kisaka.
Both were equally protective of her and helped her many times.
Not just them,
But the millions, Coordinator or Natural,
Willing to give their lives for her.
Without you by my side
He stopped walking and clenched his fists.
Why?
Why did she remind him so much of Stellar?
Why did both of them have to undergo so much pain?
I need you to survive
He didn't understand.
Shouldn't he be the one suffering?
Why?
He slammed his fist on the table as he sat at a nearby café.
So stay with me
"Shinn?"
He looked up.
Kira Yamato and Captain Gladys's friend, Murrue Ramius, stood in front of him.
- Speak of the devil…-
"Kira Yamato…Captain Ramius…"
Murrue just smiled at him. "Murrue would be fine. Can we sit here?"
He just nodded and looked at Kira Yamato.
Kira Yamato just looked at him with a smile on his face…
-But his eyes carry the same sorrow as mine…except the sorrow seems to be a lot more…-
"Shinn? Is something the matter?"
"Why?" Murrue and Kira looked at him, puzzled.
"Why does everyone want to protect her!? Isn't she just another human being!? Why do all of you want to die for her!? WHY!?"
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside
Murrue and Kira was silent, mouth slightly open.
"Shinn- kun."
He looked up at them.
"Do you…do you want to know why?" Murrue asked.
Murrue's shoulders slumped slightly. "Because Shinn…Cagalli- sama…in the whole lifetime she was around…she learned…to forgive and forget…because, she didn't want to lose anybody…anymore…"
Moments later as they left,
Kira told him.
That I'm sorry
-Cagalli…forgives you…so why don't you forgive yourself…?-
The Heavens cried.
He stood under the rain and smiled
And you forgive me again
-Foolish…yet so…-
As the rain continued to pour on him, he heard two voices.
You're my one true friend
- Welcome home…Shinn…-
It comforted him. The second voice…
And I never meant to hurt you
-I'll see you tomorrow, right, Shinn?-
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A/N: Shinn's chappie up long last! TT…homework and stuff has been really taking its toll, and not to mention I hurt my knee…TT, anyway, thanks to the following reviewers!!
Smokey-eyed-Beauty: Thanks for the review! Yep, Andy and Cagalli were truly great leaders although Andy was in ZAFT and Cagalli in Orb. In Destiny, I felt that Andy really gave a lot of help to Cagalli, so…
Hades.Throne.Heiress: Thanks for your comments, they were really very encouraging! I hope you enjoy this chapter on Shinn, although the story looks very messed up…''…
wewewewewe: Thanks for the review, and yeah, Andy can be very funny in his own way sometimes…XD
Athyra: Here's Shinn's chapter, sorry for the long wait! And yeah, the chili sauce part still never fails to amuse me…XD…my true sympathies for Andy…he truly in a way is the Desert Kitty…XD…
-Andy bangs head on the wall-
Anyway, thanks for reviewing again, and I hope you enjoy this chapter, although it's a little disorganized…next person up…I think I let the readers guess…XD…