Hi! This one's late but I worked all day and I worked really hard on this one. I wanted to offend as little people as possible! It was actually much longer and got much more angsty but Tumblr wouldn't let me post the whole thing because it's too long! Let me know if you would like to read the rest and maybe I'll post a part 2 eventually!

Warning: This fic deals with a bit of homophobia, manipulation, abusive friendship, lots of swearing and bullying! Please be safe and make sure you're comfortable!

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"What is it you wanted to tell me, Virgil?" Declan questioned as Virgil led them into his bedroom and closed the door.

"I wanted to…. I wanted to tell you that…" Virgil's voice was hushed and hurried and Dee was getting impatient.

"Just spit it out already," Dee grumbled, his eyes seeming to wander towards Virgil's video games shelf impatiently.

"I-I'm, I'm gay." Virgil's eyes shot to the floor to avoid seeing his best friends reaction.

"Really? Does that mean you… love me?" Virgil got the courage to glance up nervously and was disappointed to see that Dee looked disgusted.

"No, no! You're my best friend but i…. no, I don't think of you like that!" Virgil said, back-pedaling to reassure his friend.

"So I'm not good looking enough?" Dee's frown deepened and a heavy weight settled in Virgil's chest.

"N-no!" Virgil felt tears well in his eyes but he willed them back. Dee would only tease him about that too. "That's not true!"

"God, I'm just teasing you, Virgil. Take a joke." Dee leered even though it really didn't sound like a joke to Virgil. The weight in his chest only got heavier.

"O-okay," Virgil said, looking down at his hands to avoid having to look at Dee who'd gone over to Virgil's PlayStation.

"Wanna play Skyrim?"

"N-no… you go ahead… I'm going to go to the bathroom." Virgil's voice was choked with tears and he ran out of the room, locking himself in the bathroom.

Virgil covered his mouth with a hand to quiet his sobs as he curled into a ball against the bathtub.

All the overthinking, all the self-preparation he did beforehand to psych himself up to tell his best friend, his best-kept secret. All that effort and Dee practically threw it back in his face, at least, that's what it felt like. Dee was just trying to make a joke after all, and he really didn't seem to mind the fact that Virgil was gay.

Maybe the topic made him feel awkward and Dee didn't know how to respond. Maybe he was trying to defuse the situation with humor and it just came off wrong. Virgil knew someone like that when he was younger, but that didn't make Dee's words hurt any less.

Virgil tightly closed his eyes, pressing his palms violently against the sides of his head, wishing the heavy pressure in his chest would go away.

It was almost as if someone was squeezing his heart as tightly as possible and Virgil didn't know how to make it stop.

A sudden knock on the door made Virgil gasp in, a sharp intake of breath and his brother, Patton could be heard on the other side.

"Virgil? Is everything okay?" Patton asked, a hint of concern lacing his voice.

"Y-yeah," Virgil said, forcing his voice to sound normal as if his whole world wasn't crumbling from the inside.

"Can I come in?" Patton's voice was warm and Virgil yearned for a hug from his older brother, so he didn't say anything, he simply unlocked the door. Patton stepped inside and immediately pulled Virgil into a hug, running a hand soothingly through his hair. The kind gestures only brought more tears and Virgil buried his face in Patton's shirt.

"What happened?" Patton asked, somehow able to fill those simple words with overwhelming love.

"I- I'm- I'm gay." Virgil choked out and Patton let out a soft chuckle.

"What's wrong with that honey?"

"I- I told Dee. a- and he- he made a joke, b-but- but it hurt my feelings a-and, and I'm a such a baby! I- I don't know- I don't know why I'm crying." Virgil hiccuped and Patton let him cry for a moment longer before speaking again.

"Did you tell him that it hurt your feelings?"

"N-no."

"Why don't you let him know? Maybe it was just a bad joke and he'll apologize." Patton suggested, "He should understand, don't you worry honey."

"T-th- thanks, Pat," Virgil said softly and the weight in his chest lightened a fraction.

He stood from his brothers grasp and Patton gave him a lighthearted pat on the back.

"No problemo bro! Just remember, I love you, no matter what."

"Promise?"

"Promise!" Patton's smile was like the sun and with renewed confidence, Virgil wiped the stale tears from his eyes and headed back to his bedroom where Dee was

playing video games.

"H-hey Dee?" Virgil picked absently at a scab on his wrist.

"Hmm?" Dee hummed in response, not taking his eyes from the game.

"We still need to talk, ple-please?" Dee let out a heavy sigh and paused the game, rolling his eyes as he turned to face Virgil.

"What is it now? You're gay, whatever! I! Don't! Care! Just drop it and join me. This dragon's kicking my ass." Dee turned back to his game and un-paused it. Virgil frowned, his hopes sinking and pressed the home button on the console. He knew it would only pause Dee's game and bring him to the main menu, hopefully bringing Dee's attention to him. Still, Dee let out an enraged shout.

"What the fuck?"

"You hurt my feelings." The words came out before Virgil could stop them and he cringed internally at how childish he sounded.

"What?" Dee let out a laugh, "Are you fucking four?"

"T-the joke, the joke you made earlier hurt my feelings."

"Seriously? You say you're gay and then you stop being able to take a goddamn joke. God Virgil don't be such a pussy." Dee sneered and stood, grabbing his bag. "I'm out of here, call me when you stop being such a wuss and can take a fucking joke."

Then he was gone and Virgil stood stiffly in his room, unwanted tears coming back full force. He sunk onto his bed with a strangled sob and buried his face in his blankets.

He didn't sleep much that night.

*In case you're wondering:

in the morning Patton finds out what happened and he gets lots of snuggles! Also, Roman finds out later on and shows up for some snuggles too! The day ends with LAMP snuggles and A Disney marathon! Roman may or may not end up hunting Dee down and threatened him with a sword*