Hello guys!
A little warning, before you start. I will try my best to add dialgals present in the game, in my story. But, not always, because although young, my memory is rubbish. A real rubbish.
And also today's chapter will be a bit heavy, containing some tense situations related to vilolence and mention of almost suicide.
I apologize if this disturbs someone.
Have a good reading.
Louise gave a weary sigh, when at last the sermon was over. Louise saw that the church door was open. His aunt was going to talk to Father and Matt was distracted talking to some people. The young woman mentally pondered and began to wonder if it was really worth staying, just to get closer to this Jacob. Then her mind wondered what her mother would do if she were alive. Her mother had an incredible beacon and always detected problems and Louise had inherited it all the same.
She knew that religious groups generated problems and also hated any kind of fanaticism. Louise had heard stories about the Gate of Eden. Not very pleasant stories for her. Her mother would not like her to get involved in that sort of thing.
Swallowing and ignoring any agreement with Lana, she walked among the people. Louise mixed in among the people. She heard Matt's voice calling her name and pressed her stride. She looked back only to despair as she saw Matt coming up to her and then felt her body bump into something hard. Looking forward, she almost fainted. Of all the people who could be there to block his way was Jacob Seed. Ignoring the sudden excitement he felt so close to her. She tried to deflect and pass over the left side, but Jacob's strong arm prevented her.
"Going somewhere?" He asked and his voice sent shivers down the girl.
Louise definitely liked Jacob and was attracted to him, but something inside her told her to stay away from him. But, Louise always walked towards danger and that would not change now.
"I was going home," Louise replied, trying to remain calm.
"Lana has told us about you and told us she's a slutty girl." Jacob took his arm and looked at him seriously.
He took her close to his aunt again who was with the rest of the Seed. Louise then wanted to laugh. If they thought they would change their beliefs and their way of seeing the world and things are roundly deceived. In his head there was no room for religions. If these people knew what her plans are for the future.
"You think you can save people, that's cute. But deep down they know it's not true. "She said helplessly. This attracted Jacob's attention.
"Why do you believe that? "He asked.
"I do not want salvation," Louise said looking the same. "I got used to being lost and I do not want to be found."
He looked like he was going to say something else, but he stopped when he realized they had arrived. His aunt Lana was smiling next to Joseph. He looked at you intensely and opened his arms as if to embrace it. Louise did not know how to react and was frozen in her place, something in him made her nervous. Something about him disturbed the girl.
"You must be Louise," he said gently taking her hand. "Lana's niece, your aunt has spoken a lot about you and that you are willing to join our community"
"I told her I might come in," Louise said quickly. "I do not believe in these damn salvation, but I'm here to be convinced."
"She also said that you have a great weight on your shoulders. That I was lost and now I can see it with my own eyes. "Louise felt some of her inner defenses begin to falter.
"You're hurt and lost. And I can see all the pain that's keeping you from seeing the truth. "Joseph continued.
"If you're going to play the psychologist with me, I suggest it's something private, I do not want to talk about my life openly. "Louise says and Joseph nods.
He makes a sign and all who were still in the church left leaving them alone. He led Louise to the wooden bench. She sat down and stared at the dress as Joseph sat down beside her.
"You may not realize it, but the light within you is intense. Your soul is pure, you just need to find that purity again. "
"Joseph, I will not call you Father." It was the first thing she said. "Me, pure? You do not know my incredible reputation in Hope County. I'm as dirty as a prostitute. "
"You're just lost. I can see that things have not always been this way for you. Do you remember when you came to the county with your parents for a visit? At that time I was already here and I saw the cheerful girl you were. With a pure and immaculate soul. "Joseph says and Louise remembers automatically.
"It was on my grandfather's wedding anniversary," she said, smiling. "I was happy at the time, which I can not be anymore." Louise's face changed again to a bitter expression.
"What were your parents like?" Joseph asked.
Louise shifted uncomfortably on the bench and looked at Joseph. "Should not you try and push me a little salvation? What's the relevance of that question? "She really did not want to start talking about her parents and falling down in front of him.
"Just answer the question, Louise." He replied calmly.
Louise swallowed. "They were the best parents I could have. I wanted them to have been neither good parents so to be easier to overcome, but they were great. They took good care of me and knew how to deal with me. They knew how to deal with the vices and manias I acquired over time. They were my best friends. And if it was because of me. "Louise could feel anger if she took it, she felt angry at herself.
"Why do you think it's to blame?" He questioned the girl again.
"It was a robbery. The thief came into our country house. He took everything he had in the house. But, he was sadistic and wanted something beyond that. He wanted to rape me and my mother, but my father would not allow it and so they fought. The thief shot my father right in the middle of his forehead. Then he would come up to me and I remember crying. "She felt the tears streaming down her face. "So, my mother told him to do whatever he wanted with her first. The thief then went to her and raped her in front of me. I used this time to get off the rope discreetly. When I let go, my mother who cried and thrashed, told me to go. "Louise looked at Joseph. " And I went. I ran to the neighbor who called the police. But, it was too late. When the cops arrived, the thief was gone and my mother was found dead "
"I'm sorry," Joseph says extending his arms to it.
Louise did not think much of what she was doing and hugged the man. "I fled like a coward. Should have tried to kill him. It was all my fault, my parents died to protect me, "she said, still hugging.
"Louise, do not blame yourself for it. You were not guilty of that. Do not judge yourself as a coward, for I can see within you a warrior soul willing to face anything. You just have to find your way again. "
"Why is the world so terrible this way? I usually say that I hate God, but he is not to blame for that. Deep down I know it was my fault, but it's easier to blame him for everything that went wrong in my life. "
"The world is lost, Louise. You can see it in the news and in the newspapers. The Collapse is coming and soon this world that knows and caused you so much pain will cease to exist. I am offering you an opportunity to save yourself. To save your soul. And after it's cleansed, we'll walk through the gates together in our Eden, "Joseph said.
Louise did not disagree or mock. A part of her began to understand what Joseph was talking about. Joseph kept talking to her for hours. The girl did not even see the hours passing. More and more he was trapped by Joseph's words.
At one point he took one of his bibles and preached a little of the word to Louise who heard. Then he gave the girl away and said it was his. Louise took it and set it gently on her lap.
"Thank you." She thanked him. "I wanted to tell you something."
" Then say."
"I'm eighteen. I spent all this years having a dirty life. I am no longer satisfied with this kind of life, and I honestly feel exhausted. I planned to kill myself on my nineteenth birthday. And if I can not get along right here at the Gate of Eden, then I'll do this. I feel like there's nothing left for me. "Louise confesses. "Then give me a reason to live"
Thank you for reading my story.