Hello guys!

I wrote the part of Louise's listening to music Chandelier

I probably will have stayed a week without posting, because I stayed in Recovery in high school, as I did badly on some school tests.

Have a good reading!

In the past:

Louise was tired. Tired of all those people dressed in black. She was tired of those people speaking phrases such as: "My condolences" or "I'm sorry for your loss." They were silly sentences that people say just for education. The truth is, anyone who says these things most often has no idea what the pain is doing to you. For pain and loss are things that we feel individually. No one can fully understand the pain of each other.

Pain and loss are things that occur in people differently. At least that's what Louise believed in. The bodies of his parents were being swallowed up by the earth. They were trapped in wooden coffins and would stay there until the insects ate them.

Louise wanted to have cremated both, but her grandparents wanted them in a ditch on the floor. Her grandmother and grandfather were conservative people, and knowing she would have to live with them made her nauseous. Not that Louise hated them, but she also never had much of them.

When the funeral was over, Louise thanked God. She locked herself in her new room in her new home. Hope County seemed to be beautiful, but she would miss New York City. There had always been her home and she would miss her friends and her old life.

It was her third week in Hope County that Louise began to sink more and more. First she met Emily Parker. Emily was a lively and entertaining girl. When the two of them met, Louise was very depressed and felt empty. Having a person like Emily in your life could have two meanings. It could mean a good thing or a bad thing. To his unhappiness was bad. Emily, a girl so up-to-date, a girl as free as a bird, taught Louise that every time she felt bad, all she had to do was drink some. And that's how it started.

Every time she felt sad and empty, she went to the nearest bar. She would just stop drinking until all her blood turned to alcohol. She went on partying with Emily and eventually met several interesting guys. And that was how she'd let her sex drive dominate her again.

And when Emily was not looking, Louise stole some things from her purse. And that way she quit her vice by stealing to dominate her again. And finally a friend once introduced him to Ecstasy. That way Louise gave herself drugs.

Trying to mask the pain and sadness she felt, Louise let herself be carried away by the impurities of the world. And at the end of every day, before bed, she cried. Louise knew she was heading for an early death, maybe deep down she wanted it to happen.

For even if it was momentary, whenever Louise was drunk and stoned, she would forget all her troubles and all her pain. But at what price?

In the present again:

Louise was trying to drink a glass of water, but her hand shook with difficulty. Joseph, who was now sitting next to her, took his hands and helped the girl. After drinking in the water and feeling calmer, Louise let out a weary sigh, thinking how fucked up her mind was.

"Once again, I'm sorry," she said weakly. "If I was not here no one would have to have died," Louise mourned.

"It's all right now, child." Joseph says taking the glass from his hand, gently.

Jacob was still present and Louise looked the same. She still felt quite ashamed of what had happened, but she struggled and smiled at it. "Thank you so much for not allowing them to take me." Louise thanked him and Jacob just nodded and left the church.

Alone again, Joseph went back to talking to Louise.

"We will baptize you and then you will confess your sins to John," Joseph says, "and then you will have to complete your journey and then you will be one of us."

"Do I have to confess my sins?" Louise asked. " All of them?"

"Yes," Joseph replied.

"Right," Louise murmured. "Before leaving you asked me why I think I deserved the spanking. I'll tell you why. "She stared at the embarrassed floor. "I tried to steal his money"

"That's a wrong thing, but it does not justify what he did to you," Joseph said quietly. "Louise you may not believe this now, but you are a very special person and will contribute a lot to this project," he said and Louise looked at his face.

"How are you so sure?" Louise asked curiously.

"At the right time you will know" He stated and Louise was dissatisfied with the answer, but said nothing.

(...)

"Jacob need to talk to you alone," he told his brother.

" It's ok. "He says entering the office of the same.

"So what's the subject?" Jacob asked as he sat down in the chair.

Joseph walked around the table and sat down in front of his brother. He looked serious and Jacob noticed that.

"It's About Louise Prescott"