Chapter 13

CPOV:

"Make love to me Christian, please!" Ana whispers out and that's all the confirmation I need. I start devouring her mouth again, as I quickly remove the oversized t-shirt she's wearing... Christ, no bra! I waste no time in gently grabbing her breasts and squeezing them. I use my thumb to circle her nipples that are already rock hard… this makes her arch upwards, right into my hands, giving me better access to those luscious breasts.

She moans out loudly and that sound alone almost makes me come, but I know I have to control myself. Tonight I am going to worship her body, I'm going to pleasure her for hours and make her climax over and over.

I trap her left breast with my mouth and her right with my hand, while my free hand roams all over her body.

As my hands move down to her belly, I'm met with these long thin bumps. Confused, I break our kiss and look down and at the same time I hear Ana gasp… Scars. 5 long scars of the 5 stab wounds Jack fucking Hyde dealt her.

I look up to see the terror in Ana's eyes. I can see all the memories rush back to her and she quickly reaches for her t-shirt and pulls it on, as if she's trying to hide from me and then the trembling starts.

I quickly scramble up the bed and hold her, rocking her gently, murmuring soft words to her, rubbing her back and trying to soothe her. But it takes a while for her to calm down. When her breathing finally evens out, I find that she has drifted off to sleep.

And then a realization hits me… She is broken and scarred like I was, before I met Ana. The look I saw in her eyes, I know it too well… because I lived through it. She believes she's fucked up, that her scars define her and she's emotionally destroyed. I can't help but silently sob. My poor Ana. What did she ever do to deserve so much pain? She was so loving, carefree…so alive!

No! I won't let my Ana go down the same self-destructive, self-loathing path I went down! I won't be able to forgive myself if that ever happened. She helped me out of my misery and now it's my turn to help her deal with her troubles. I'll show her that I love her so much. I'll lay the world at her feet and make her see that she's cherished.

With my steel determination of fixing everything I gently kiss her and hold her close and watch her sleep and eventually I drift off as well…

The next thing I remember is waking up to a thrashing and whimpering next to me. I see Ana struggling against something invisible and begging and it breaks my heart to imagine what her nightmare must be about. I shake her gently to wake her up but that only makes things worse... she finds my touch threatening.

I'm at a loss and I don't know what to do. But eventually her thrashing reduces and she doesn't flinch from my touch. I hold her and her breathing evens out, but I know she's awake.

"Ana, Baby, are you ok?" I whisper out…

She nods very slightly. And then all of a sudden in a swift movement I'm pinned under her and her lips are on mine. She devours my mouth and kisses me with such urgency, like her life depends on it

As if on cue, my dick springs up, demanding the attention it was denied a while back. But this isn't about me. This is about Ana. I'll give it to her hard and fast if she wants it or I'll worship her body if that's what she asks for.

So I kiss her back with all my might and put all my love into it. I want Ana to know how much I want her. We break away momentarily, gasping for breath and I ask, "What do you want Ana, tell me what you need."

"Christian I…" I can see her hesitate…

I bridge the gap between us and seal our lips for another kiss. And then I tell her, "baby I'll do whatever you want me to do. I love you. I cherish you. I want you. Always!"

I see her eyes fill up with tears and she only whispers out, "I need to feel you Christian, inside me."

I nod in acknowledgment and quickly get back to kissing her while I work on getting her out of her clothes. She fumbles while removing my t-shirt, her hands trembling ever so slightly.

But once she works her way down to my pants she takes no time in yanking it off. She takes my erection in her hands and pumps it a few times and I almost explode. I think when a person as crazy about sex as me, abstains for 3 months, this is what happens. I feel like a fucking teenager, horny as hell, unable to last even 5 minutes.

"Ana, stop it," I pull her hands away from my dick. "I want to feel you around me when I come. I want to be inside you."

Her eyes flutter open and I see her desire, her need for me in them. "Fuck me now, Christian! Please"

And who am I to deny my lovely wife, no matter how estranged we were in the last few months.

"Baby, this is going to be hard and fast..." I don't want to wait anymore because I know she's wet and ready for me. I don't want to tease her. So I flip us over and pin her underneath me and just slide into her in one swift motion.

And then I freeze for a second. To be inside her after so long, the feeling is exquisite. She is warm, wet and so tight around me. I can't help but wonder how I stayed away for so long. It's like I found the Holy Grail and then gave it up.

And then I start moving. I set a relentless pace, slamming into her over and over. I can see Ana's lost in the sensation as she keeps moaning and mumbling incoherent words. And soon I can feel her muscles clenching and quivering around my dick. She comes while screaming my name and that pushes me over the edge. I come violently, spilling everything I have inside her, while a hot white flame of pleasure shoots up my body.

As I come down from my high, I collapse on top of her, all spent up and exhausted. I have no wish to move from this position but I don't want to crush Ana with my weight. So I roll off her and spoon her from behind.

I'm overjoyed with the mind blowing sex we just had but what worries me is that Ana is dreadfully quiet. Several minutes pass by but Ana says nothing… Is she regretting this decision of having sex, was it too soon, after everything that happened?

I'm lost in my thoughts, when she slowly turns around and looks me right in the, "I love you so much, Christian."

And I sigh with relief. Because just like that I know everything is going to be fine. It might take us a while to get there, but we'll be fine.