Dear Readers,
It has been a long long time since I have written anything. Writing was always more than a hobby for me, it was a passion. But my life took certain unexpected turns, things I never saw coming, battles I never imagined I would have to fight. And while I don't want to burden anyone with my struggles, I want to talk about what's been going on in my life because I have spent the last 2 years running and hiding.
I am a victim of child sexual abuse. I was abused by someone I trusted very much, someone my parents trusted very much. I was very young when it happened and as a result of the trauma, I had repressed my memories. Though at the back of my head I always knew that something had gone wrong with me as a child, I was never really willing to accept my fears. However, around the time I stopped posting on this forum, these memories resurfaced when my abuser re-entered my life. And it broke me. I struggled to tell anyone about it, I was scared and I could not trust anyone. I quickly fell into depression, started performing badly at school and eventually, I stopped seeing any point in continuing to live. But then, call it a miracle or God's Grace, I met my therapist. She truly helped me through my battle and today, I can say I am better. I still have bad days, hard days, but I am improving. I have started doing so much better in life. And mostly, I am able to talk about this without fearing that I would be rejected by the people around me.
And today, all of a sudden, I found a mail waiting for me in my inbox. It was left by an anonymous reviewer, and it said 'Will this be updated. It's such a good story I would hate to see such great work be wasted' whoever you are, I truly want to thank you. Because you reminded me about my passion and you made me want to write again.
After reading the review, I sat and re read the story and now I am thinking of completing it. Because now, Hope means even more to me. You will probably see my struggle reflected in the characters. However, do bear with me and be patient with me. The updates might not be regular and some of the chapters may fall short, because I may not be in a mental space to do my best. But I really do want see this story to its completion.
P.S –If you know someone who has been a victim of CSA or simply any form of abuse or someone struggling with depression and anxiety, I really hope you can reach out to them and urge them to reach out to someone who can help them and fight their battles with them. Because trust me, in times like this, even the tiniest bit of support matters!