Okay, the new chapter is finished! I like it- it's a lot longer than the first one. I'm sorry it took me so long, I had a History test today, and I had to get a positive note to pass to the next year. I hope you'll stay in tune to read the next- because yes, there is going to be a next one. Have fun reading and don't forget to review!

xxx chirachi!

Sara sat in her apartment on her bed. She was crying. Not entirely about how she missed Hank- because she didn't. Not like she had to. And that was the problem. She was crying about how stupid she had been, how she hurt Hank and his girlfriend, just for her own ego. Now she thought about it, she found herself pretty selfish. A little more than just pretty, to be honest. And then the doorbell rang.

When she opened the door, she couldn't believe her eyes. The one and only Gil Grissom was standing in front of her, holding take-off pizza in his hands.

'Hey,' he said uneasy, 'can I come in? I brought you a veggie pizza.' He tried to smile, but it didn't really work out. Sara, though, felt a little better, seeing two of her favourite things: Grissom and take-off vegetarian pizza. She stepped aside, so he could enter.

'Are you ok?' he asked. Sara didn't answer at first, she was getting plates, so he asked again, 'Hey? Are you doing ok?'

'Yes. No. Not really. But I'll get over it.' she said. She immediately had the urge to hit herself on the head. What a silly person she was.

'I already thought that. I heard from Catherine what happened.' he offered.

'Aha! So Catherine díd tell you. I knew she would.' Sara smiled at him, and he immediately felt a lot better.

'Yeah, she told me. Listen, if you want to talk-' he started.

'You don't have to do this, Gil. I can take care of myself.' she said, but Grissom didn't listen to her cold tone, nor to her complaining.

'That's what I'm here for. Or did you think I had a new job as pizza man?' he smiled.

'I was already hoping you didn't. the payout is much lower.' she teased him, and she gave him a warm smile back, what made him almost melt inside.

Damn! Why was I so incredibly stupid at doctor Lurie? And why, why did I ever decided that work was more important? I am such a damn fool. Grissom thought.

Startled, he saw Sara quickly wiped away some tears before he could see them.

'Hey, you don't have to stay cool in front of me.' he said, as Sara turned around to wipe away more tears.

'I- I'm sorry, I just-' she couldn't continue as the tears began streaming down her face. Grissom quickly stood up and took her to the couch, and the both sat down. Grissom hated to see Sara so unhappy, and he scooped her up in a gentle hug, whispering to her soothingly.

'Don't worry Sara, it's going to be okay. You'll get through this.' He gently stroked her back as she cried against his shoulder. His shirt became damp, but he didn't care.

'I'm so stupid!' He heard her say. He let go of her and took her face in his hands.

'Why are you stupid? He's the one being stupid. I mean, look at how he treated you!' his voice showed his agitation.

'You shouldn't feel stupid because he's let you down, Sara!'

'No, listen.' she said between her sobs. 'I feel stupid, well, because I made his girlfriend unhappy. I mean, I don't think I really loved him, you know.' She evaded his eyes, and put her head in her hands. Grissom just sat there, looking at her. Slowly his hands began to move and he took hold of her hand.

'If you didn't love him, why did you, you know,-' his words got stuck and he couldn't talk, but Sara understood.

'I guess I was just trying to forget you.' she said, still evading his gaze. Grissom looked up, astonished, and he tried to say something but couldn't find the words. Sara began to cry again and he took hold of her again, softly brushing his hands against her face.

'I was broken when the thing happened. I just couldn't handle it. That's why I decided we needed a break. I was just trying to get you out of my head, and that's why I had something with Hank.' she sobbed. Grissom still didn't say anything.

'B-but I guess I can't.' He heard her say. He slowly lifted his head and looked at her.

'I just can't get you out of my head.' she cried, as more tears came streaming down her face.

Finally, Grissom said something. 'God, Sara, I am so terribly sorry. I really didn't mean to-'

His voice faded away, as he tried to wipe away some tears himself. When he found his voice again, he continued.

'I really didn't mean to hurt you. I was just afraid. Afraid of us, afraid of what could happen to us, between us… I'm really not good at these things, and that's why. And that thing with professor Lurie… I didn't know what I was doing. It was like it wasn't me, like someone controlled my body and let me watch how he did all those things. Sara, I really am terribly sorry.' he had to stop because of the tears again, but before he wipe them away, he felt Sara's hands move. Sara gently wiped away the tears from his face, then spoke.

'This is your last chance, Grissom. It's on you now. It's on you to decide whether you want this or not. To decide if this thing that we have is worth enough for you to continue. If it isn't, I'll go on.' Grissom looked up and saw a serious, but warm Sara looking back at him.

'Can you go on?' he said, feeling a little selfish, 'I mean, after what you just said…'

'No, not entirely. Never. But I'll try. Just like I tried with Hank. I have to. If I don't, I don't think I'll survive.'

'Look, Sara, I know it took me a while, but I realized that you, us, that that is more important than anything on this whole damn earth. I need you with me. I will make us work. I want to. I'm going to make this work. You just have to give me another chance.' he said, and Sara could hear the desperate tone in his voice. She had trouble keeping her tears in.

'What chance, Grissom?' she asked, some other tears coming out.

Grissom looked astonished. He slowly dropped his head. Sara came closer.

'You already have my heart.' she whispered in his ear. 'You just have to learn how to treat it right.'

'I want to learn.' Grissom whispered back, as she backed off a little and looked in his eyes. He came a little closer, and Sara backed off again. Still, he refused to let her go and came closer again.

'Teach me.' he whispered, coming closer and closer, as she turned backwards. She slowly stopped moving, and one moment, they both sat there, gazing in each others eyes, Sara waiting for Grissom to make his move. And he did. He slowly came closer and with an explosion of love, he kissed her.

That kiss… that was something else. Normally, every kiss they gave was one of a moment, a fling that would pass on again. This… it was a kiss, sealed with a promise, a promise to hold and never let go. This kiss was one they would always keep in their memories. Grissom deepened his kiss, and they went on until they needed to catch some air.

'Wow,' Sara whispered. She looked at him, and he smiled. She didn't know why, but she didn't feel the tiniest bit of anger, although he had been a real jerk to her. She was just looking forward to the time that was coming. They had spilled a lot of time, but there was still some left, and they were going to use it.

Grissom scooped her up in a hug, and in a flash she felt his happiness and relief coming into her body through his. She smiled; she had done the right thing.

After a while, they finally let go, and that was when Sara realized Grissom's shirt was all wet.

'I'm sorry I made your shirt damp.' she said sheepishly. Grissom smiled.

'It's okay.' he said, while gently touching her face. 'I'll get over it.'

I hope you like the second chapter of: "Trying to forget you." I do. I'm not really that good in the sad stories, and not in the angst parts either, that's why I didn't put any angst in it. ;

I do think this has turned out pretty good. Please tell me what you think- comments or critics are always helpful and gratefully accepted! xxx chirachi