Rawdon POV

Light blinded me as I opened my eyes. I felt the smell of raw sex and was just about to call out my wife's name when I suddenly remembered what I had seen last night. After that I had to check who this black-haired woman was. As I turned her towards my way she suddenly opened her eyes and started shaking as she couldn't resist crying. He sits up on the bed and that's when he sees it. He sees the body, the body which he has defiled, as the cover is removed.

The girl couldn't have been more older than sixteen. She had a round face, small eyes and exotic skin colour of which could be found in the far east… and she was shaking uncontrollably.

"What have I done", I can't help but distance myself from the crime I had just committed. "Miss I'm so sorry… so sorry".

My back is against the wall as I slump down and cry.

I had just gone from victim to the offender over one night. Was this fate playing with me?

We stay in our positions and don't talk to each other for a long time.

The only time we started talking to each was when we were both hungry. I told her that I was gonna have some lunch and that she could come with me. I was talking to her as if what I had done hadn't happened. I'm a true bastard.

Yet she nods and follow me to the dining room and we have some breakfast. The hotel servant noticed the girl and threw some pitiful glances at her as he put our breakfast on the table.

"Call when you're finished", he simply tells me though with a certain cold that could send chills through my spine.

I watch the girl eat with delight before she notice my gaze and starts shaking again. I look away and blame myself for this. It was me who did this. That's why I had to fix it. I turn towards the girl. In the sun her hair glitters and I'm enchanted by the sight.

"What is your name, child?", I ask her nicely but the tone in my voice come out hard and cold.

She glares at me as if she would kill me if she had the chance to.

"You undeserving bastard… very well. My first name is "None of…" and last name "your business".

"For sure it is my business as you and I have had an intimate moment".

She stands up and throw a plate at me as she runs towards me and hits. Unfortunately the strength isn't that great. I deserved to be hit harder. Then she breaks down and I simply stand beating myself up inside of me.

During lunch the girl goes home as I notice for the first time that she's limping. Proof of the crime. I don't want to have anything to do with the girl but at the same time I couldn't help but want to look after her - to take responsibility.

I follow her and I see her hesitate to knock on the door of not so shabby house. When it opens a man steps out and slap her as he speaks in a foreign language while shouting at her. The girl who I still don't know the name of is on the ground begging the man, clinging on to his leg. Then she is kicked onto the road and a horse passes by as quickly hitting her. The Chinese man who I identified as her father goes inside as if the woman who had just been hit wasn't his daughter. I walk hurriedly towards the girl and pick her up as I take her back to my hotel room.

"Rawdon", I see her and hear her sweet but lying voice. "Dear God, is the girl alright? What happened?".

I walk past the betrayer and open the door so that I can put this girl who has been through so much to bed while I'll call upon a doctor.

When the doctor arrives he tells me there's nothing that can be done at that she would die soon. My heart felt heavier. She had been raped, thrown away and hit by a horse and gotten wounds so deep both emotionally, mentally and physically.

I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry.

"Rawdon", my intentions is brought towards Becky. "Is she gonna be alright?".

I shake my head and sit down as it hangs down. Screw Becky and her love affair, I had just hurt this pitiful girl way worse than Becky had ever hurt me. How could I-? I'm such a monster.

"Rawdon, talk to me please", Becky begs and I rise up.

"We have nothing to say to each other Becky. We both are done. What we had is all gone now", I tell her.

"Rawdon…".

"You know all I gave you was love but you needed more than that didn't you. I can't give it to you so go back to the man who can".

"Ra-!"

"GO BACK! GO BACK YOU FILTHY WOMAN AND NEVER RETURN HERE!", I push her outside the door of the hotel room as I fall down and cry.

I didn't want to yell those hurtful words. I didn't want her to go into another man's arms but she had betrayed me and I had become a monster undeserving of love.