Disclaimer: I do not own BGC or BGC 2040. I do not own Soundgarden or any of their songs.(Too bad for me) The 2 lyric's Priss sings in this chapter comes from the song "Blow Up The Outside world"by S.G

This story is rated M for adult situations, hetero and shoujo-ai content, language, adult situations- ect. Please review:)

"RUNNING BLIND"

Chapter 4- Masaki by Moonlight

Friday, Sept 1st 2041- Yamazaki residence

Linna nervously checked her outfit again in the mirror. Her mother had helped her select it for her family's dinner tonight with Masaki and his parents. The soft green of the dress brought out her eyes and she had new stockings and shoes to match. Her hair had grown out and her mother had it cut into a more becoming style. She wore her mother's pearl earrings and soft makeup with a rose lipstick. She thought that she looked very pretty and different than usual.

"Dear, you look very nice." her mother said as she stood beaming at her daughter.

Linna bowed "Thank you, mother."

"Are you sure you are ready for this?" Her mom asked, looking at her daughter seriously. Her mother knew about her daughter's previous relationship with a singer back in Tokyo and was worried that Linna still wasn't over her. She had known for years that the girl was different in the ways of the heart. She wanted her daughter to know what she was doing and if she really knew what it meant to change. Her daughter had told her she was determined to move on from her old lifestyle.

"I think so. I am just surprised that Masaki wants to meet with me again after last time. I am glad I sent his money back he let me borrow too!" Linna said, blushing at the memory of their first meeting.

She had to leave him to race back to Tokyo because the Knight Saber's needed her help. Her fear over something happening to Priss had made her ask Masaki if she could borrow money for a plane out. He had been somewhat disappointed but was a complete gentleman about it.

"You know your father is really serious about you getting married and starting a family! If this is something you don't want or are doing for the wrong reasons, you'd better tell me! Alot of people might get hurt, you included." her mom said sharply.

"Mother, I have made the wrong choices. I did things and felt things that society says I should not. I have dishonored myself and I know that if I am to find a husband and give you grandchildren, I need to hurry up. I need to fulfill my family duty." as Linna spoke these words, she felt another piece of herself die. This wasn't want she really wanted but she felt like it was the only option she really had.

Maybe she would learn to care about men in a sexual way. Masaki might be the one to change her. He had been so handsome and nice. They even had similar interests. She just had to forget Priss and the Knight Sabers ever existed.

Friday night- Sept 1st 2041- HotLegs club- Tokyo

Priss and her band Seikira -were really rocking the club tonight. Even though she had some of the worst weeks in her life, this was the first time she had performed live since Linna left. Decked out in skin tight black leather jeans and a sheer black top with her black leather choker and spiky hair flying about, she gave her fans a great show.

"Nothing seems to kill me, No matter how hard I try."...she sang to one of her mother's favorite bands- Soundgarden.

Her mother had loved to sing and she remembered her mom playing their cd's a lot when Priss was a child. She felt close to her mom when she did this. She wondered what her mom would think of her as a singer and of her band.

After the show, she skipped the beers with her band mates and headed for Sylia's who had been helping her recover from the pills, her girlfriend leaving and her own painful adolescent. She had started going to therapy to deal with the things she had done while on the streets as a young orphan just to survive. She also wondered what Linna was doing right now as she hopped on her motorcycle and sped off.

Friday night- Sept 1st 2041- Yamazaki's residence

Dinner was going along smoothly at the Yamazaki house. Linna's parents were happily chatting away with Masaki's parents. She felt nervous and found it hard to eat in front of Masaki. He really was a good looking guy, so polite and tall. He seemed perfect. They chatted about little things like the weather and his dad's business. He asked her why she had returned from Tokyo. She just told him the same thing she told her parents- that she was homesick and wanted to help out her family.

45 minutes later- Yamazaki back gardens- 10:00 pm

They both carried their glasses of sake outside to look at the moon and get away from their parents.

"Thanks for sending the money I let your borrow back so promptly." Masaki started, staring down at her with his perfect smile.

"Thank you for letting me borrow it in the first place, you were a real lifesaver." Linna said as she rested her glass of sake on the fence, as he did the same.

"Was the thing you were waiting for ...Was it still there?" he asked, looking at her intently.

Linna looked up at the moon "Yes, it was still there, but it was never really mine" she said wistfully.

"Sounds like something didn't work out. Is that the real reason you're back?" Masaki asked, as she looked from the moon back to him.

"What about you?" she countered "I figured you'd have gone back to the city yourself or at least be married."

They both started laughing. "We sound just like our parents, don't we?"

"You have the prettiest smile..." he said as he moved closer to her.

"You think so?..." she began, then his mouth was on hers gently kissing her.

Linna felt herself respond to his kiss and her hands moved up the front of his shirt to gently stroke the breasts underneath. As she put her hands around his shirt, she finally remembered that who she was kissing did not have breasts, because this was not Priss.

Masaki didn't seem to care that she had run her hands up the front of his shirt. He just kissed her deeper and harder till she felt like she was going to pass out.

Finally he broke the kiss, looking at her with a pleased expression.

"That was some kiss, wasn't it?' he asked softly.

"Y..Yes, it was very nice." Linna said, feeling guilty because for a minute there she thought he was Priss.

"Would you like to have dinner tomorrow night at my place alone? We don't have to mention it to our parents if you don't want to." he said, looking hopefully at her.

She didn't know what to do. She enjoyed the kiss, but forgot she was with Masaki (Her ex & him were alike in their height and body structure and they kinda kissed the same too) But more of his kisses would eventually drive any memory of Priss away because they were different.

"Yes, I would love to have dinner with you tomorrow." she agreed.

The plans were made and they shared another kiss. Then it was time for him and his family to leave. The families shared their goodbyes.

She went straight to bed after they left. She didn't want to be asked a million questions by her parents. She still didn't know if she was doing the right thing. How she could think of another woman when she had someone as handsome as Masaki kissing her? She was so confused. She looked up at the moonlight shining in her window. Priss, I really miss you.. was all she could think.

Sept 2 2041- 2:45 am- Sylia Stingray's- Tokyo

Priss turned over onto her side and looked out the window and unto the moonlight. It was hard to fall asleep without a pill or two to help her and even more hard without Linna's body spooned up against her. The singer stared at the moonlight and remembered holding Linna. I really miss you, baby...I wish you could help me sleep...

Chapter 5- Days of my decline

A/N- "Burden in my Hand", "Pretty Noose", "Black Hole Sun", "Blow out the outside world" all belong to the band "Soundgarden". Priss sang these songs in her show tonight:)

The lead singer now sings in "Audioslave". His name is Chris Cornell and he is a rock God:) -