Be My Future

Disclaimer: This fanfic is based on the manga series "Please save my earth". All characters Belong to Nobuhiro Watsuki from Rurouni Kenshin series.

Chapter 5 – Meetings

"Is this the right place?" Kaoru finally asked as she sat down. She was wearing her hair down as she always did; she liked how it curled in the ends. Sanosuke was beginning to feel worried. Megumi was already sat with jacket on her hands as she stared down at it. They were all waiting at a subway station for the arrival of Yahiko and Misao.

"Damn, why are they taking so long?" Sano asked desperately as he watched the faces of the many people who passed by. Kaoru tried to help him but she found it pointless since she didn't even know their faces.

"We're dealing with Misao here." Megumi said still looking down "It's obvious they're late." Sanosuke looked at her with a serious face. He wasn't angry at her for saying that but the atmosphere between them seemed different after their last phone call. Kaoru looked from Megumi do Sanosuke, noticing some strange behavior from them.

"Man, I don't remember her being so late in the past." Sano said staring again to the many people in front of him "Do you think it's because of her?"

"Geez Sano where is your female sense?" Sano looked down at Kaoru and Megumi by the corner of his eyes. "Women take their time to dress themselves and be pretty; maybe she thought this was an important reunion."

Sanosuke stayed silent absorbing her words. The two of them looked to each other for a while and after some minutes, Megumi put an hand on her head and Sanosuke burst out laughing. Kaoru looked at them confused.

"Misao? Takes her time to dress and make herself pretty? That's a new one!" Sanosuke laughed again and Kaoru was left in confusion.

"Aren't you being rude?" Kaoru asked shocked "What makes you say that?"

"It's not that she didn't make an effort to be pretty, she just didn't take interest on makeup and that stuff." Megumi answered with a smooth voice "She actually thought she was attractive. I guess her being like that might be influence by the fact she was ninja. But even so she always made efforts to be noticed by a certain someone."

"Really?" Kaoru asked curious "Who?"

"MINNA!" A loud female voice made all the heads in the area turn in one direction. The three of them looked too and realized that their old friends had arrived. Sanosuke hid his face with his hand embarrassed.

"Well, she still tries to be noticed."

"Sano, is her that pretty girl?" he heard Kaoru asked and finally got the time to watch. Running to their direction was a girl with long hair, dressed with a black t-shirt a short skirt and black All Stars shoes. Her face was filled with anxiety and Sano was "amazed" by the changes. Her hair was still dark black and her eyes were still green, but something in her visual was changed, she had a more lady-like face and her body could now show some curves.

"Omg! You're Sagara Sanosuke aren't you?" She was still screaming even being so closed to each other. The man just covered his face embarrassed. "This is so amazing! I could still recognize you!"

"Well, all the people in the country don't need to know that," A man commented behind them "Keep your voice down." Everyone looked back at him, including Misao. His skin was darker just like in his past life but his hair was now down instead of spiky. He wore a black t-shirt with red streaks and dark blue jeans, the man had a gorgeous face. One bag was carried on one shoulder and he also carried a girly bag in the other, he gave it do Misao. "Don't you miss something?"

"Uops."

"Ano…" Sanosuke started hesitating "Are you..?"

"Yahiko yes, I know it's a surprise." He said to all with a small smile. He examined the man as he approached "You didn't change much."

"Man, I'm so glad to see you." Sanosuke said a little unsure how to react. He wanted to hug the old friend but it seemed strange since they never met before in this life.

"It's so nice to see the two of you." Megumi approached them smiling. "You're too different Yahiko, unlike Misao who still seems energetic."

"Eh eh I take that as a compliment," Misao said and then took the time to observe the woman. "Omg! What happened to your hair!"

"It's short, nothing happened to it."

"It's too short! Your hair was so gorgeous!" Misao answered back amazed.

As Kaoru looked at the four of them, she felt a little out of the group. They remembered so small details and she didn't remember anything at all. But even so, it was worth smiling even though she was sad inside, it looked like a long waited reunion.

"Kaoru!" Misao yelled again and came to the girl front, cupping her face in her hands. "I'm so glad to see you!"

"H-hai! Nice to meet you Misao chan." She smiled as she spoke causing another smile to disappear. Misao stood there confused.

"Aw, don't be silly it's me-"

"Misao," Sanosuke intervened approaching the girls "She still doesn't have all the dreams."

Silence filled the small group as they all watched the girl. Kaoru eyes darted down a bit sad. Yahiko stood looking at her with hard knowing eyes.

…..

"You live alone in this apartment?" Misao asked looking around the house. Everyone was already sat but she was curious about the house.

"Currently I do but I intent on renting the other room to another person." Megumi answered from the kitchen preparing juice for her guests.

"Hm, that's a good idea." Misao said a little inside of her thoughts and after realizing everyone was waiting for her to join them she gave a big wide smile and approached the group. They were all sat on the ground, next to a small table.

"So it's like this…" Yahiko said with no intention of continuing his thought. Megumi finally appeared with the juices to everyone and joined in the ground.

"Yeah, this is too amazing." Misao said continuing Yahiko's speech. Sanosuke smiled knowing what they meant. "If we keep searching maybe we'll be able to find the others."

"I was just curious," Sanosuke asked all of the sudden to the girl and Yahiko. "How did you find each other?" Both of them looked at each other and Misao darted her eyes down embarrassed.

"I've been having these dreams for some years now." Yahiko spoke "I think I might have them since I was 6/7 years old. My dreams advanced a lot and when I was 8 I had lots of scenes already on my mind. I got into a school trip around that time and when we were on the road, rain started to come down and we had an accident near a cliff." They all heard him admired "Many kids stated to scream, but I heard a voice near me that got my attention. 'I don't want to die!' she screamed 'Please God! Kami-sama! Aoshi sama!'"

Sanosuke burst out laughing as did Megumi. "That was just like her!" he said trying to control his laugh.

"I was too desperate at the time!" Misao explained annoyed "It was too scary!"

"Well that's when I started to talk to her and compare dreams. It was when we realized they were the same." He continued "Now, we're all here."

"Not everyone yet, we still miss Aoshi, and of course, Kenshin." Somehow that got Kaoru's attention and Yahiko took special note for that. "I wonder if we'll be able to find them."

"If we cooperate, then it would be easy." Sanosuke said assured and Megumi turned her head to him afraid he would tell about Kenshin.

"But something is bothering me." Yahiko started again

"Yeah, our age differences." Misao finished, it seemed they knew more that it looked. "Yahiko and I have thought about something. Did you get to the time when you die?"

They all widened by that and stayed silent. Misao looked at Yahiko and decided to continue, sighing first.

"Well, you remember Enishi and Jinchu incident don't you?" she asked, making Megumi and Sano nod with their heads. "One year after that, it seems Sanosuke came back from is trip to visit the Dojo Kamyia, and with that process he caught a terrible decease. Megumi couldn't see what decease was or recognize his symptoms. Many doctors saw him by Megumi request to understand what could have caused him to be so sick."

"Wait, how do you know all this?" Sanosuke asked confused. "You were in Kyoto right?"

"Kaoru sent me letters." All of them looked at her and she was surprised. Megumi didn't seem surprised at all. Her face showed fear and uneasiness. Misao saw it and understood. "Megumi remembers right?"

"Y-yes." She said hesitating "I remember some parts."

"What's wrong Megumi?" Sanosuke asked worried "Are you alright?"

"She knows," Yahiko interjected making Sano look at him. Kaoru just followed what everyone said, trying to understand. "Sanosuke, you died."

He stopped there for a while silent and slowly looked at his girlfriend. That was the reason she was so upset. She was a doctor in the past life and wasn't able to save him.

"Actually," Yahiko continued with head down, "You were the first one to die. Megumi and I caught it too, but I was the first to follow you."

"The decease arrived Kyoto too," Misao said with a sad expression "And later I caught it too. But by the time I was still alive, the ones who make it trough the decease were Kaoru and Kenshin, Megumi had died already leaving them with some medicine."

"Did it help?" Sanosuke asked

"From the letters I received, the medicine only helped to slow down the symptoms..." She answered "After that I don't know more."

They were silent for a while. Megumi was looking down from sadness of what she got to know. Sanosuke just looked at her worried slightly touching her hand. Kaoru watched the couple with sadness, but nothing they said made any reaction like it did do Megumi. She was feeling hopeless all of a sudden. Yahiko watched her expression with knowing eyes without anyone realizing it.

"So, the ones who were left behind was only Kenshin and Kaoru?" Sanosuke looked at them with calm eyes. Kaoru waited for them to answer anxiously.

"Well there is still Aoshi," Misao said sadly "But I think he caught trough me long before I died. He must have died after me too."

"Aoshi..." Kaoru said half asking half thinking.

"You don't remember Aoshi?" Yahiko asked her with a serious face. She looked at him a little thoughtful.

"Yahiko, she only had two dreams." Sanosuke answered for her.

"I think it was only one." Kaoru interjected making him look at her "The first one didn't match, Megumi said so."

"Wait, they don't match? What do you mean?" Misao asked her curious trying to understand. The girl let her head fall down thinking.

"I had this dream when I came back from America. I saw Sanosuke and a little boy with red head running to me. We all whore Kimonos and that kind of clothing." she explained then looked at Sano and then to her new friends who were surprised.

"Little boy? You mean you had a son!" Misao asked admired but happy

"No, she didn't have a son." Yahiko answered "She saw a little boy at the same time she saw Sanosuke. By the time he was alive, I was too and I never saw Kaoru even pregnant."

"You're right," Sanosuke confirmed

"Well, I remember Kaoru's letters never talking about a self-confessed relationship with Kenshin. I think she was feeling pretty awful by that." Misao told them sadly "Kenshin somehow avoided her feelings, it made me question if he really loved her." That got Kaoru's attention. Were they talking about the same person as Battoussai?

"What about your other dream?" Yahiko interrupted her thoughts.

"The other one was completely different. I had it after Sanosuke talked to me about it." she explained a little unsure "In this one I only saw one person, the red head boy was an adult with a cross shaped scar on his left check."

"Kenshin." Yahiko said smiling

"You bet." Misao said too happily.

"Then?" Yahiko said for Kaoru to continue, she looked at him confused. "What happened in that dream?"

"A-ah" she hesitated remembering the dream "W-well, I wo-woke up and Kenshin came to my room ca-calling me for breakfast." she paused not showing her embarrass "Then I woke up, nothing much happened." they stayed silent for a while and that made her nervous. She tried not to look at them afraid they would notice she was hiding something.

"I told her to think about this matter." Sanosuke explained "She had this dream on the same day we talked about these dreams."

"Hm, Even so it's hard to understand when the dream took place." the boy tried to understand "He did that almost everyday, are you sure you haven't seen anyone around the dojo?"

"I'm positive." she confirmed. Yahiko was really thoughtful now, one of his hands remain below his chin. Everyone was expecting him to say something but he never did.

….

"We'll be leaving know then," Misao said cheerful by Megumi's door.

"I'll take them to the station," Sanosuke told his girlfriend "I'll come by later okay?"

"Sure,"

"Kaoru, you're coming?" Sanosuke asked "I can leave you by your house if you want."

"Yes please." She said following them.

"Thanks Megumi, I really enjoyed this afternoon." Yahiko told her.

"Now you look like a real man Yahiko." He only smiled by Megumi's comment. "Ok, have a nice trip back home."

"Yeah! Thanks Megumi!" Misao yelled from the hallway. She smiled and with that, closed the door with her back. Putting a hand in her forehead she wondered why she felt so tired. It seemed she made so much effort to remember as they talked that now she needed to rest.

She started to clean the room from the previous visit. It was good to see these people. Even if they haven't met before, she felt like she did meet them. It was a strange feeling but she was sure they felt the same. Especially Misao, who was so energetic and anxious, she didn't change a bit. Yahiko must be the one with greater changes.

As she picked up the glasses on the ground, she started to head to the kitchen. When they talked about their last times of life it made Megumi felt really uneasy. It must have been a big impact in her previous life, she felt she was going to cry at any minute as they spoke. She began to put the glasses on the sink and got to start the water. It must have been painful-

"Did you have guests?" Megumi stopped for a moment, closing the water at the same time. Was someone in her house? "I take that as a yes." Turning around really quick she stopped when she saw who it was.

"Kenshin?" She asked confused and then left out a huge sigh. She was holding her breath for a long time. The kid was leaning into one of the walls of the kitchen with hands in pocket and a small smile. "You scared me, how did you get here?"

"Through the window." He said pointing to it right next to him. She laughs by his answer.

"Now, really-"

"You didn't answer my question." Kenshin spoke again with the same smile. Megumi looked confused at him but turned around to start cleaning the glasses.

"Well, yeah I did." She told him "I had guests."

"I see, who was it?" Megumi turned around at him a little confused.

"Don't you think you want to know too much?"

"No." She widened by his answer but stayed silent. The boy was acting strange and now his face became serious. "Well, Sanosuke told me you were having some guests and Kaoru was coming too, but he never told me who they were. Anyway that's not why I came, I actually need to talk to you."

"You-" Megumi said "You're acting strange-"

"And before I act stranger, you will call Sanosuke and tell him to not come again today." He simply said with a smile.

"What?" Megumi asked shocked with worried eyes. "Wha-? Why?"

"I already told you," he said taking a step towards her "And, because I'm telling you to do so."

"What's wrong with you?" she spoke a little angry but deep inside something was scaring her, somehow she was scared.

"You'll know," he said and now with a serious face he finished "Do it."

…

"Really? Are you sure?" Sanosuke asked talking by the phone. Megumi from the other side replied.

"Y-yeah, I need to rest, all of this reunion made me tired somehow." She paused and said no more.

"Okay then, if you need to rest I understand." He paused sighing "I'll call you tomorrow, is that good for you?"

"Yes, I'm sorry Sano really."

"No prob," he answered "Rest now, I'll see you tomorrow. Ja."

"Ja n e."

"What's wrong?" Kaoru asked in the seat next to him. He looked at her and back to the road.

"It was Megumi, she said she was a bit tired." Misao and Yahiko were still on the car.

"It can be a side effect." The man said suddenly and Sano looked trough the mirror to him "When you try so hard to remember, a lot of effort is required from the brain. It already happened to me."

"Is that dangerous?" Kaoru asked worried

"If you take a lot more effort than you usually ask from your brain it can." He replied "You can feel a dizzy and seconds later faint because of the effort."

"But that's only if you take too much effort." Misao answered cheerfully "Megumi's case is a safe one so don't be worried"

"Did it happen to you?" Kaoru asked to the both of them worried.

"To Misao, yes." Yahiko said "It's what happens when she thinks a lot about her 'Aoshi Sama'" Misao smiled embarrassed. "The memories appear in dreams and it's supposed to be like that. But she was lucky, the best medicine is to rest."

Megumi… Sanosuke thought worried as he stared at the road.

…..

She hung up and looked at the phone somehow sadly. She wanted to be a moment alone with Sanosuke, they weren't that well. She looked at Kenshin a little angry and made sure to show it to him. Seeing that he didn't say anything she turned away from him going to the sink. "I just hope this is important."

"You hope? You just made excited." she looked at him for a moment confused. He was looking at some bowl with fruits and touched one. "That phone call almost convinced me. You're a great actress." He looked at her then with a smile "Just like in the past life."

"What are you trying to say?" Megumi said losing her patience a little but something was making her hesitant. "You're acting strange." he smiled with his face down. He gave a step forward and lifted his head to her.

"Tell me, have you been feeling something strange in you? And I don't mean physically." he paused waiting for her reaction.

"Like what?" she hesitated. Something was wrong.

"You know, don't you?" he gave one more step "This frightening panic, this little alarm on your chest, this deep scary feeling." he paused "You had it before just recently, didn't you? You know what I'm talking about." Megumi heard every word as fear suddenly seemed to take over her.

"It's because you're starting to remember."

She was nervous, afraid of what he would tell her. Of what he know, of what he might say. Her lips trembled. The fear she was feeling suddenly seemed to grow, making her feel terrified. Kenshin just watched her, his expression turning serious.

"You know since the beginning that your dreams are from your previous life. But somehow you're denying it. Why? What happened for you to deny it? Shouldn't it be a great thing? Shouldn't you be as excited as Sanosuke is?" Her breath was becoming heavy, she never answered, she didn't want to.

"What did you do in your past life?"

"…I-" she paused making her hands come to her mouth. Her eyes were widened in fear. "I didn't-!" he slowly approached her as she slid to the floor in the same motion. His face came close to hers and his lips whispered smoothly:

"You didn't give the real medicine to Kaoru." He paused and her eyes widened more, making tears fall down her face. He stepped back from her as she looked at him shocked. "Guess what happened months later after you died: she became seriously ill. My first thought was that the cure did not work, but guess again what I found out on your files back at the clinic?"

"It wasn't that I didn't want to!" She tried to explained desperate "I was just able to find a cure capable to save one person! I wasn't allowed of more resources!" he heard her attentively. "The only thing I had was some powder to slow the symptoms!"

"Good, you already remembered that far. There is no use to deny it." he paused and she just sighed trying to control her tears. "So, why did you give me the real medicine? I want to hear you say it. Tell me."

"You hurt her!" she closed her eyes for a moment letting some tears fall. "You don't know how many times she came to me crying because you screwed up everything she tried to put for you!" her head came down "You don't know how many times she told me: 'I wish I never existed…' You didn't know..." he looked at her with displeased eyes.

"So you came forth with that will with no regrets." Her head came up as she looked at him desperate, crying more than previously. "Your eyes can't lie to me. The real reason is much ugly and cold than that. I know how you looked at Kaoru, I know why. Say it."

"No, it's-"

"Say it." He advised her one more time as her hands came down in front of her supporting her height as some more tears fell down. "The older sister you considered to be, that family love and the support you gave her because of me. Was that all true? Was that loyalty? I ask: toward whom?" he made pressure "You were jealous."

"No!"

"Say it!"

"I WAS…" silence filled the room as her eyes were shut from what she was to say but she never finished it, making silence answer her question.

Kenshin looked down at her with narrowed, angry eyes. The truth coming directly out of her mouth made much more impact than he thought.

"So, it's really true." she never looked at him, crying and moaning.

"No…" she almost said it screaming. "She was suffering, suffering! You didn't know..! I would never let my feelings come first I wouldn't! The Kenshin I know wouldn't think that…!"

"Then how do you explain what you said to Sanosuke?" he paused remembering "Kaoru doesn't know the real Kenshin because of you!"

"It was for the best…" she said in the middle of her crying, trembling at the same time.

"What about my seven years alone in the dojo?" he asked her coldly "Was that for the best too?" He paused with head down "No one stopped by the Dojo afraid of catching the disease. I stopped going to the street because people bullied me or run away afraid." She listened attentively never looking at him "I would never kill myself for that was Kaoru's last wish and so, year after year I begun to feel crazy." He paused again "Alone in that place, I wasn't able to care too much about my life." He faced her again now with calm but cold eyes. "After those 7 years, I finally begun to feel the symptoms, But instead of sadness, I smiled. I was happily laughing."

They both were silent. Megumi's moans have stopped as she thought about his situation with guilt.

"I guess the only thing I must congratulate you now is for the fact that your medicine really worked. Well done."

"Oh, ken-"

"So, now we have a difference of eight years since you died a year previously." He showed his back to her and walked to the window. "Just think of how Sanosuke would react by this new? How will Sano feel when he knows the real reason?"

"No Kenshin…" She tried to say with tears in eyes "It wasn't that reason, it wasn't…" he bent down with his face directly facing her and smiled.

"You answered my question pretty well, so it is true. Nothing will fool me know." He paused "The caring Kenshin is long gone," looking at her eyes for a moment. "Your show is over."

"No…" she said as she denies with her head. Her eyes were almost closed from the pain she was feeling.

"And my scene begins."

….

The phone call Sanosuke received from Megumi made him really worried about her condition. Her voice was strange as she spoke with him previously and even if she told him not to come he found it impossible to obey her. If she was not feeling well because of this past life thing, he would make sure he would help her. And he could start doing that by visiting her when she less expects.

He stopped the car in front of the building where her apartment was. He looked up where he could see some of her windows. One of them was opened and he realized it was the kitchen window. His eyes came to the front door to her house and headed for it. She had given him the keys of her building and apartment and so he was able to open the front door, but the same didn't happen with her apartment door. He knew she gave him her key but he still felt he could respect her privacy. The elevator was heading up taking him along.

Sighing, he reached her door and pause thinking for a while. Is she going to be upset with me? Leaving that thought aside he finally gained courage to knock on her door.

He waited. No answer. Not thinking about it, he knocked again and after some seconds he received no answer again. He watched the door for a moment. Maybe she's asleep. Looking at the keys in his hand thinking for a while if he should open it or not.

He could make her a surprise: prepare some juice and cookies. He knew she would feel pleased with that. Sanosuke slowly opened the door as not to make any noise. He closed it with little force and paused, thinking where he should head first. He passed trough the living room heading to her room. The door was closed and so he once again tried to make no sound as he opened it.

He watched the room as he slid the door open and was surprised. Opening wide, he realized she wasn't inside the room. The house was little, it had one more room with only furniture inside, a living room and a kitchen. Coming quickly to the other room he opened it without caring about any sound. She wasn't there.

"Megumi?"

Something was wrong and he knew it. He felt more worried than he was previously. Did she leave the house? He quickly headed to the kitchen and stopped at the sight in front of him: lying in the ground unconscious was Megumi. Her body was a little turned to one side making it more painful to watch her.

"Megumi!"

Sanosuke quickly reached for her in panic. He picked her up, rolling her body to him to see her face. Her head feel backwards but he was able to see something rosy close to her eye. He looked closely to her face and realized it was hurt, maybe because of her fall. Also, her face was wet with tears.

"Oh God, Megumi!" he tried to call her moving her body at the same time desperate "Megumi! Open your eyes!"

He remembered what Yahiko told him about trying to remember might make you faint if you don't take the rest that it's needed, and now, she was hurt from that faint. Without moving her so much, he run to the living room and picked up the phone fast.

….

Kaoru watched the sky from her attic window. The sky was becoming dark minute by minute and she was enjoying that sight bit by bit with a smile in her lips. What an exciting day it was for her. But she couldn't help feel uneasy. The fact that everyone remembered everything and she didn't made her feel bad. Kaoru only believed she had one dream and it was the one with only the famous Battoussai in it. Sanosuke believed she had two but the dreams and stories didn't match.

Sanosuke didn't remembered everything form his previous life. What Misao told them left them thinking about it. A disease appeared and Sanosuke was the first one to die. Yahiko followed him and next was Megumi. That must have been an awful time. Thinking that, made her feel bad, and imagining all her friends disappear all of a sudden with no way to ever see them again scared her.

But that isn't going to happen. She thought standing up to head down when her eyes caught a little red head returning home. After that night on the roof, Kenshin didn't come by so often. And it passed 3 days already. She didn't know what upset him but Kaoru knew it was something she said. It seems he was avoiding her. Running down to her exit door, she wanted to be in time to catch him in the street and talk to him.

Reaching for the door, she exits it still running a few steps and then stopped. Kenshin that was beginning to enter his house stopped by the sound of her steps. She was embarrassed she didn't stop at the time and he turned to see her breathing heavily.

"Kaoru?" he asked confused. His face was serious somehow but even so, she showed him a smile.

"Ah- Konichiwa!" she said cheerful to him and just only after that happily greeting, he gave her one of his beautiful smiles. The ones he made her feel like he was already an adult. But something in those smiles showed a little innocence in him.

"Konichiwa." He replied

"So," she started "Where have you been?"

"I just came from school," He told her with a smile and moving his keys nervously "Mom was worried about the date of first day of school."

"Oh? When is it?" She asked interested

"In two weeks exactly." He told her a little disappointed with his head down. "It was too quick"

"Yeah you're right." She showed an upset face to him as well.

"Why were you running? Is something wrong?" he asked worried.

"Ah-No!" she said smiling embarrassed "I saw you from the window and we didn't talk too much the previous days so I was wondering if something was wrong with you." He looked at her for a moment, absorbing her words. She had run from the second floor to the front door to speak with him. She was nervous by the time he was taking to answer. "So…Is something wrong?"

He gave a bigger, true smile "I'm sorry if I worried you, I've been busy lately because of things in school." He paused "Don't worry nothing's wrong with me."

She gave a relieve smile with his answer and started to play with him "Really? Haven't you been avoiding me or something?"

"You're always around me, it's impossible." He told her making her laugh. He smiles with that.

"You bet I am." The two smiled at each other, happy to be talking again.

…

"Your show is over."

"No…"

"And my scene begins." He got up and turned away from her making more tears from her fall.

"What…do you mean by that?" She asked uncertain without looking at him.

"You'll cooperate with me, right?" He told her with his back to her. "Since you've already took my identity away from Kaoru, I want you to convince Kaoru to remember her past life. Everything she remembers you'll write it down and give it to me." He walked to the window and gave one more look to Megumi "It's like a report, you're used to that, aren't you?"

"Kenshin…"

"Oh and about your meetings, tell me if they say something interesting about me." She looked at him with eyes widened but he was gone. He knew about the meeting with the others.

Kenshin…

Someone is touching me. My hand, I like the feeling, it's smooth. Someone is massaging it carelessly. Who?

Kenshin? Maybe he regrets what he said…

Megumi opened her eyes slowly. The person continued massaging her hand and she followed the feeling with her head. Sanosuke was holding her hand with his head down sitting on a chair next to her bed.

She was feeling guilty, thinking that some certain person was holding her hand instead the one she loves most. Her hand moved and Sanosuke's head came up to meet her sad eyes.

"Megumi!" after hearing her name, all the sounds around her came clear. She could hear medical machines next to her. She could feel the mask in her face as well as all the lines tied to her by the life machine. Sanosuke's face was a relieved one. "Thank God."

Tears fell down her face. How could she be thinking about Kenshin? Was she really jealous in the past? Was she still jealous? Sanosuke got up once seeing her tears.

"Megumi what's wrong? Are you feeling any pain?" he asked touching her face. "I will call a nurse, hang on." She grabbed his had before he left and he stopped looking back at her.

"I'm fine…" she said after removing the mask from her face and cleaning her tears with her hands and then looked around the room. "Why am I in a Hospital?"

"It's because you're tired." He replied holding her hand gently "Yahiko told me something important that you should know."

"Hmm." Megumi moaned adjusting her mask below her chin. "What? What is it?"

"You shouldn't force your memories to come out. It's dangerous. If you take too much effort to remember than your brain already gives you, it can become troublesome. You can faint. It happened to you." He explained making her feel confused

"It did?" she asked not looking at him anymore trying to remember.

"I found you unconscious in the kitchen and hurt from that fall." Her eyes widened choked "Do you remember anything?"

"I don't know." she almost lied. She didn't know why she faint. Maybe she was trying so hard to remember her motives from her actions about Kenshin that made her cause to faint.

"Megumi." The way he said her name made her look at him "The memories are suppose to appear in dreams. Don't do this again, you made me really worried." He paused sitting down as if exhausted. "Forget about the disease from the past life. Everyone is here safe and alive. You don't need to worry anymore."

She heard what he said with sad eyes. He was so beautiful and caring about her. She was about to cry, how could she replace him by Kenshin? It made her so guilty, so guilty that made her think that Kenshin might be right. Was she jealous?

"When I saw you in the ground unconscious it scared me." He admitted it with his head down. She looked at him with the same sad eyes feeling guilty the more he talked to her "I'm sorry about what I told you about Kenshin, it was foolish of me. I don't want to be like this to you anymore."

Tears. She couldn't hold them anymore and now, they were flowing freely down her face. With that process she also moaned closing her eyes. Two strong arms came to embrace her and she let her head fall into his shoulder. Her tears continued to flow and he just pushed her closer to him.

"I love you." He whispered to her making one of her hands hold his t-shirt to her.

Why did she felt like this? So useless. So useless to love a man like him.

"I don't deserve you…" she said between her moans. He just silenced her patting slowly in her back for her crying to calm down.

"Don't say that."

End of chapter 5

A/N: And after some reviews telling me to update as fast as I could, I got motivated. Sometimes that works you know? And that's what's been missing, motivation. But enough of that, Kenshin is a little diferent but if you can recall from last chapter, the boy got determined to do something about his life now. What's going to happen from now on will be some diferent actions and attitudes that you can't expect from your Rurouni. Hope you liked this chapter, and if you did, please send me a review, i really want to know what you think.

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