When Tommy finally turns around he almost runs into Speed. "Whoa, dude." Speed says. "Sorry." Tommy says smiling, with a thoughtful look in his eye. "Dude you are straight aren't you?" Speed asks looking at him with a weird look. "What? Yeah." Tommy says.
"Then why are you looking at me that way?" Speed asks. "What way?" Tommy asks. "Like…I don't know. Nevermind…" Speed says as she shakes his head. Tommy watches him walk away then turns around and glances across the room at Jude, drinking her water. He smiles at her then turns back around and walks back to the area where all the sound equipment was.
Once everything was packed up and put back on the bus Tommy gathered everyone and headed for the bus. Jude and SME were all excited about the great performance. They all sit around in the front of the bus laughing and making jokes. 'All' meaning Kyle, Wally and Speed. Tommy and Jude just sat there laughing occasionally and sneaking looks at each other.
"Dude you just gave a kick ass performance…why are you so quiet?" Speed asks Jude. "Just soaking it all in, I guess. I'll let my excitement out later." Jude says. Tommy smiles to himself. "Yeah you'll let your excitement out to Tommy." Kyle says. "Even if that was true, at least I don't spend many lonely nights home alone with my hand." Tommy says, looking at Kyle.
"Aww come on Tommy, you know he doesn't spend his nights with 'just' his hand…he has his drumsticks too." Speed says. Tommy laughs lightly. That was the first joke Speed had made that Tommy actually liked. Of course Speed ruined it by another dumb joke. "Besides, Jude, you were really excited once you got off stage…what happened?" Wally asks.
'I got involved in a hot lip lock with my producer.' Jude thinks with a smile. Tommy looks at her face and can tell what she's thinking. He smiles also. Wally turns his head from Tommy to Jude. He does this motion a few times before giving the other guys a weird look and shrugs. "I never get anything that goes on between you two." Wally says.
"They have a special 'bond'" Speed jokes. Tommy rolls his eyes and sighs. Jude just smiles. "In and out of the bed room I see." Kyle says. "You know I liked you better when I thought you didn't talk much." Tommy says. Jude laughs. "So I tell a million jokes and you only smile a little but he tells one and you laugh?" Speed says to Jude. "My jokes are funny, unlike yours." Tommy says. "Mine are too funny." Speed says. Tommy just shakes his head and gets comfortable on the couch. SME continues to joke around and laugh for another ten minutes.
After another one of Speed's stupid jokes Tommy sighs and stands up. "I'm going to take a shower…mumbles or jump out the window." Tommy adds. Jude smiles, being the only one who heard him. He smiles at her and walks down the hallway. "I think I am going to write a song or something." Jude says as she stands up. "And I'm guessing that something means doing something with Tommy." Wally says. Jude just smiles at him and walks down the hall towards her room.
A few minutes later she hears the shower start and knows that Tommy is in it. She closes her door and grabs her notebook and starts to write down everything that was in her mind. After ten minutes she gets tired of "writing"…the only thing she was writing was Tommy's name and doodling. She picks up her phone and dials Saidie's number.
"Hey! I was just about to call you to ask you how your first concert went." Saidie answers. "It was great…especially after it." Jude says. "I sense a good little story coming." Saidie says. Jude just smiles widely. "Tommy and I kissed…accidentally." Jude says. "Everytime you two kiss is an accident. Now go ahead and let out your excitement." Saidie says with a smile. Jude smiles widely again and screams loudly. She exhales loudly and smiles.
Tommy quickly opens the bathroom door and runs into Jude's room. He opens her door and looks at her. Jude's jaw drops when she sees him dripping wet in nothing but a towel. "What is wrong!" Tommy asks, out of breath. Just then Speed, Wally and Kyle come running into her room.
"Dude, what's wro—" Speed stops when he sees Tommy. "Nevermind." He says with a smile. "Could you two like not be so loud?" Wally asks. "Bye!" Tommy says as she pushes them out of the room. He turns back around and looks at Jude. Jude continues to look at his still wet body.
"Why did you scream?" He asks. "I just needed to let my…emotions out." Jude says. Tommy throws up his hands, making his towel drop. Jude's eyes open wide and her jaw drops as she looks at every area of Tommy's body. Tommy smiles at the way she was looking at him, then realizes why she was looking at him and picks up his towel. Jude shakes her head and looks away, blushing.
"I'll um…just be in the bathroom…getting dressed." Tommy says as he walks out of the room. Jude blinks a couple of times and smiles. She hears Saidie through the phone so she puts it back up to her ear.
"Jude!" Saidie says. "What?" Jude asks, still in a daze. "What happened?" Saidie asks. Jude stands up and closes her door then sits back down on her bed. "Saidie I just saw Tommy's…" She stops and gives Saidie a chance to figure out where she was going with the conversation. "You saw Tommy's what?" Saidie asks. Jude rolls her eyes at her sister's blondeness.
"I saw apart of Tommy's anatomy that is usually covered." Jude says. "That's usually covered? Jude how much sugar have you had." Saidie asks. Jude sighs and rubs her temples. "Just think about it Sades." Jude says. Saidie is quiet for a moment and Jude thinks about she had just saw. She can't help but smile. "Oh!" Saidie says into the phone, snapping Jude out of her thoughts.
"How? When? Details!" Saidie says. Jude laughs into the phone then begins to explain what had happened. They continue their conversation for another 15 minutes. "Well Jude I have to work tomorrow so I have to go." Saidie says. "Okay I'll talk to you tomorrow, Sades." Jude says. "Yeah, bye." Saidie says. "Saidie wait." Jude says. "What?" She asks.
"I'm happy you understand." Jude says. "Understand what?" Saidie asks. "How much Tommy means to me. I know it's not easy to hear your sister go on and on about your ex boyfriend." She says. "It's not but when he left I saw how depressed you were and how much you needed him." Saidie says. "Yeah…so thanks for understanding." Jude says. "No problem." Saidie replies. "Have fun at work." Jude says. "I'll have loads." Saidie says unenthusiastically. Jude laughs as she hangs up the phone.
She hears a tap on the door. "Come in." She says as she lies down. Tommy slowly opens the door. Jude smiles at him as she sits up. Tommy smiles back at her as he walks in, closing the door behind him. "Kinda dark in here isn't it?" Tommy asks. "I like the dark. I get lost in my thoughts." Jude says. Tommy smiles at her, seeing her face through the moonlight that was shining through her window. They look at each other and just smile. After a few moments of just smiling Tommy clears his throat and begins to speak again.
"So um…about that screaming thing…did you really have to scare us half to death, girl?" He asks. Jude laughs and brushes her bangs from her forehead. "I told you all I was going to let out my excitement." Jude says. "Well we didn't know it would be that loud. Performing makes you that excited?" Tommy asks.
"Yeah…that and…looks around other events." She says. Tommy smiles lightly and takes a seat on the edge of the bed, next to her. "In case you didn't notice, this is a twin bed. Not big enough for two." Jude says. "Harrison, twin means two." Tommy says. "Well your too big…I mean your body is too big not your…" She stops and covers her face to hide her blushing. Tommy just chuckles and shakes his head.
"Scoot over." He says. Jude scoots over, closer to the wall so that he could have some room. Tommy smiles and gets comfortable. "Do you have enough room?" Tommy asks. "Yeah, I'm fine." She replies. "So Rockstar, are you going to be performing your new song tomorrow?" Tommy asks. "I don't know…if I get the music down." She says, looking at the ceiling.
"Well I don't know about you but I am tired of your friends so you are going to have to rehearse with them solo." Tommy says. Jude laughs lightly. "I am used to them. I did spend six weeks with them the last time." She says. "I sympathize." Tommy says. Jude smiles and rolls her eyes. She moves a little in the bed and noticed just how uncomfortable she was.
"Quincy we are going to have to switch." Jude says as she sits up. "Why?" Tommy asks. "Because I am uncomfortable in this position." She says. Tommy smirks at her. "Then you're right…we should get you in a more comfortable position." Tommy says. Jude laughs and hits him. "You know what I meant." Jude says.
"Yeah I know." Tommy says as he sighs. He stands up and allows Jude to scoot over so that she was on the outer side. He carefully climbs back onto the bed, making sure he didn't hit her. He sighs as he gets comfortable.
"This is better." Jude says. "It would have been better if I was on top of you." Tommy says. Jude smiles to herself. "Today has had a lot of…nudity." Tommy says before laughing. Jude joins him in laughter. "Yeah but so far this tour is already more fun than my last tour." Jude says. "And all it took was me barging in on you wearing nothing." Tommy says with a smirk. He turns his head a little and begins to think back to earlier, smiling.
Jude rolls her eyes and hits his head lightly. Tommy turns on his side and leans forward. Jude can't really tell what he is doing so she just nervously lies there. Tommy's chest is now on her stomach. She realizes that he is looking for something on the floor. She bites her bottom lip and tries to stop herself from getting hot. She can feel his heartbeat on her stomach, through her thin tank top she slept in. After a few more moments Tommy leans back over to his side. Jude turns to look at him; as good as she can, considering the moonlight wasn't really shining on him.
"What did you just get?" Jude asks. "Your little radio." Tommy replies. He turns it on and searches for a station. "102. 3 is my favorite station." Jude says. Tommy nods his head and holds the radio up to the moonlight so he could see where the marker was. Once he gets it on the destined station he sits at the head of the bed and turns the volume on low. He returns his attention to Jude and smiles.
"How well do you think I know you?" Tommy asks out of the blue after a couple minutes of silence. "I think you know me better than I know you." Jude says. "You know me best." Tommy says. "I do?" Jude asks. "Yes. That surprises you?" Tommy asks. "Well considering I don't even know your real last name…" Jude says. Tommy just smiles and continues to look at the ceiling.
"What's the one thing you are scared of most?" Tommy asks. Jude gets quiet and contemplates on whether or not she should tell him. Tommy turns his head and looks at her, waiting for her answer. "I'm scared of loosing you…again." Jude says as she turns to him and looks him in the eye. She could tell he wanted her to go on by the look in his eyes.
"When you left I thought I lost everything…my will to write, my will to sing…basically my will to live." She says. "If you left again I would either hate you forever or make a thousand hate songs about you or pick up a drinking habit. That's why it's not going to be easy for you to gain my full forgivness. It's going to take time." Jude says. Tommy swallows and takes in what she had just told him. Jude watches as he nods his head silently. She could tell a million things were running through his mind, regret being one of them.
"So…same question to you. What are you afraid of the most?" Jude asks. "I'm afraid of…your friend Mason. I have seen him give me the love eye a little too much…are you sure he's straight?" Tommy asks. Jude rolls her eyes and laughs, hitting him in the chest.
"Be serious Tommy." Jude says. "I am serious. No guy should ever look at me that way." Tommy states. Jude sighs and looks at him. He could tell this wasn't the time for jokes. "Okay, okay. I'm afraid of…where my life is going." Tommy says. "Care to elaborate?" Jude asks, intrigued.
"A year ago I was still Tommy Q, having girls thrown at him hand and foot. I didn't care about anyone but myself and most people still considered me as Lil Tommy Q. Now here I am, 24 years old…I still have girls throwing themselves at me but that doesn't matter anymore. I was a producer but I hurt my client too many times, almost to the point of no forgivness. Even if I did try to get my life in order I think my past will always come back to haunt me. And I have never told anyone this so if you love me you won't tell anyone." Tommy says.
"I won't…what's the number to the nearest newspaper station again?" Jude asks. Tommy chuckles lightly. "What is going on in your mind right now?" Tommy asks. Jude looks at him, trying to figure out if he was sincere or not. Tommy looks at her, telling her that he wasn't joking.
"A thousand things are going on in my mind." Jude says. "That's it? Just 'a thousand things are going on in my mind?'" Tommy asks. "A thousand things like…I can't wait for my next concert, I need to finish my new song, the fourth kiss you and I shared, the fact that you saw me naked earlier and the fact that I saw you naked earlier." Jude says. "The thought of you being here making me happy, the thought of you leaving again, the way I am already starting to heal even though you have only been back for two days. I'm also beginning to think that you are finally starting to see the connection between us." Jude says.
Tommy, who had been look at the ceiling, turns his head and looks at her. "I've always seen it." He says. Jude looks into his eyes for a few moments and tries to figure out what he was thinking. Sometimes she could read him like a book but other times she didn't know what was going on in his mind. Now was one of those times.
"What's going on in your mind, Quincy?" Jude asks as she turns on her side and gets closer to his face. Tommy looks deep into her eyes and swallows. For the first time since he got back he saw the pain that was in her eyes. He saw happiness also but there was still pain. He was the one who did that to her. He closes his eyes, shakes his head and turns away. Jude gives him a weird look.
"What's wrong?" Jude asks. "Nothing." Tommy replies. "Something is wrong." Jude says. "Nothing's wrong, Harrison. I'm…tired. I think I'm just going to go to my room and get some sleep." He says as he stands up. "What? Wait." Jude says. Tommy was already at the door.
"Why do you always do that?" Jude asks. She could feel herself getting mad. "Do what?" Tommy asks calmly. "Always let me in a little bit, then when I expect you to let me in some more you shut me out." Jude says. Tommy could hear the anger in her voice. He was already feeling bad and this argument wasn't what he needed.
"Jude…just don't." Tommy says. "Don't what Tommy? You see this is why I don't like opening up to you! You always act like that!" Jude says. Tommy just sighs and opens her door and walks out, slamming it in behind him. Jude lets out an angry sigh and puts her head into the pillow, punching the bed.
Tommy walks into his room and slams his door shut. He flops face down on his bed and sighs. He turns around on his back and looks at the ceiling. How could he tell his 17 year old used-to-be client what was going on in his mind? He could do serious jail time if he told her half of what was going on in his mind, but then again he could win her heart if he told her about the other half. Things were already complicated before he left and now since he left things were even more complicated. One thing hadn't changed though. That was the serious sexual tension that goes on between them. He was to blame for that also. He just wished that Jude could read his mind as well as he could read hers. He knew he wasn't good at expressing his feelings and that he liked to keep certain parts of his life a secret but he was doing the one thing he didn't want to do, and that was keep Jude out. He had only been back for two days and they already had an argument. 'I guess we wouldn't be Tommy and Jude if we didn't.' He thinks. He sighs and rubs his temples as he continues to think about his many many flaws.
Jude turns halfway around and lies on her side, looking out the window at the pretty sky and moonlight. What was wrong with him? Why did he always block her out when things got a little intense or a little deep? She wasn't exactly mad at him she was just mad at the way he acted. She knew he cared about her. She could see it in his eyes, but it seems like he always thinks about one thing and all of a sudden he gets real honest or he shuts her out. Maybe she should just stop telling him what she really feels. At least then he wouldn't get weird and shut her out. But she knew that even if she did do that there was still going to be a lot of sexual tension between them. Not that she didn't enjoy it one bit but sometimes it was just too much. Maybe it was her fault Tommy acted the way he did around her. No. She wasn't going to blame herself. Tommy needed to stop sending her mixed signals. Either that or he just needed to only conversate with her about music and that's it. 'Why do I have to be in love with a complicated guy?' Jude thinks as she puts her head back into her pillow.
Both lie quietly in their rooms. Tommy can hear her radio still playing through the thin walls. He gets an idea and smiles as he pulls out his cell phone. Jude lies with her head in her pillow still but she can hear Tommy's deep voice through the thin walls. 'Who is he talking two?' Jude wonders as she tries to hear words. She puts her ear to the wall but can still only hear mumbling. She sighs and gives up, putting her head back on the pillow. After a minute the mumbling stops and she hears Tommy's door open. She hears footsteps in the hallway, then three knocks on her door. She turns around on her stomach and watches as her door opens.
She can see Tommy's masculine body outline through the darkness. He sees her move, so he knows she isn't asleep. He starts to walk towards her, tumbling over a few articles of clothing. Jude stifles her laughter. She feels her bed go down a little, knowing Tommy had sat down on the edge, next to her. She smelt his scent and smiles. Tommy gently climbs over her and gets on her other side, next to the wall. He lies on his side and supports his head with his hand. Jude turns towards him and looks at his face, the moonlight shining directly on it. The light gave his eyes a pretty light blue look.
"I'm sor—" They both begin but stop when they hear the other's voice. Tommy puts his finger to Jude's lip. "No I'm sorry. I shouldn't have just gotten up like that and acted so…weird." Tommy says. "I'm sorry for getting mad. It's just…you are…" She stops as Tommy puts his finger to her lips again. He takes his finger away and grabs the radio above their heads and turns the volume up. Jude watches him and listens as the song ends. She hears the dj's voice come through the speaker.
"And now I am going to play a song requested by Tom Quincy. Yes Tom Quincy, ex BoyzAttacker. Now when he first called I told him I wasn't going to play any music from a 90s pop boyband. He told me he didn't want me to play his old song. He wanted me to play Right Here by Staind. He said that this is dedicated to…and I quote…a very special person in my life. I make her life crazy sometimes but I want her to know I really do care. The person he is talking about is his protégé, Jude Harrison. He also said…again I quote…I am sorry for the way I act sometimes, please forgive me. So this song goes out to you, Jude." The DJ says before he plays Right Here.
Tommy puts the radio back above their heads and looks at Jude. Jude smiles at him, tears in her eyes. "You called the radio station and made him say all that?" Jude asks. "Yeah." Tommy replies. Jude smiles again and lets the tears roll down her cheeks. No one had ever dedicated a song to her…actually no one had ever dedicated a song to her on a radio station that thousands of people listen to. Tommy wipes away the tears from her cheeks.
"Please tell me these are tears of happiness." Tommy says with a small smile. Jude nods her head. Tommy smiles at her and gives her a hug, bringing her body to his. Jude rests her head in his chest as he runs his fingers through her hair. As they break away from the hug Tommy kisses her on the forehead. Jude smiles at him.
"Thank you." She says. "For what?" Tommy asks. "For dedicating that song to me." Jude says. "Well I know a way you can thank me…" Tommy says with a big grin. Jude smiles and rolls her eyes. "I'm not thanking you that much." She says. Tommy chuckles and gets more comfortable on the bed, his head still propped up by his hand.
"I know I am hard to read sometimes and I'm sorry. I get mad also because I think that you should be able to read me just like I am able to read you." Tommy says. "I can read you the way you can read me. It's just that sometimes you get this distant look in your eyes and I wonder what is going on in that head of yours." Jude says. Tommy smiles. "Many things are going on in my head, Harrison. You would be confused…I know I am." Tommy ends the sentence quietly.
Jude smiles and grabs his hand, lacing their fingers together. "Now can you thank me in another way?" Tommy asks. Jude laughs and shakes her head. "I happen to know that that is the best way you can thank someone." Tommy says. "Well I am going to thank you by saying this…I forgive you a little bit more." She says. Tommy smiles and nods. "I'll take that. I know that the more you forgive me, the more closer I get to…" He trails off by running his fingers along the waistband of her pajamas.
Jude laughs and pushes his hand away. They get quiet and listen to the end of the song, then they hear the DJs voice again. "That was a song requested by Tom Quincy, dedicated to Jude Harrison. Now here is a song by Three Days Grace." The DJ says before he plays Over and Over. Tommy looks at Jude and they both start smiling widely.
"You know I can really relate to this song, Quincy." Jude says. "Ditto." Tommy says. They continue to look into each other's eyes as the song that should have been made by them continues to play…………….
There is an update for tonight. I hope you all enjoyed. Please tell me if you like it or hate it.