Friday September 13th
I could have prevented this so many ways, I could have, I should have , but I was stubborn... My name is Isabella Cullen, and I've lost everything that ever mattered to me.
I nearly snapped the silver pen in my hand, I couldn't do this, I wasn't strong enough to simply write down the events of the last years of my "life." I still remember everything crystal clear, one of the many downfalls of being what I am. Edward always said he didn't want to damn me to this life, I now see what he was talking about. Only months ago I wouldn't have, but my life was so much more different then, I had hope then. I had my family then, now all I have is ashes in different boxes...how comforting.
I find it slightly ironic that today is supposedly the "unlucky day," whatever. A month ago was my unlucky day. Every time I think about it, the flood gates open and every detail leading up to it plays through my head. Including the ones from my human life, why did I have to be the exception and remember everything in perfect clarity?
I remember my last week human, it was the same week Jacob brought my motorcycle to Charlie. The day Charlie kicked me out of the house, no, that isn't how it happened, he gave me an ultimatum. Option one: be grounded and not see anyone, at all, except at school. He NAILED my window shut, Edward could have went through it but, the intent was there, he didn't trust me. Option two: Get out. He didn't say that part either, he couldn't get the words out of his mouth, but I'm not slow, I got it. So that night I left, I didn't think that Edward's family would want a human in the house so I was just going to leave, for good. I remember His expression, and his musical words.
"Bella, do you really want to live in a house full of vampires?" Edward's velvety voice came from beside my ear.
"Wha-well I didn't think you guys would want me in your home..." confusion and sadness mocked my facade.
"You're insane. Of course we do! My whole family, including Rosalie" he added seeing my disbelief, " love you like a daughter or sister almost as much as I love you. I wish you could realize that," he whispered the last part with regret, I knew he was thinking of it again.
"Edward, I accept," I spoke clearly, turning around to his face. For a moment, immense joy filled his angel's face, but it quickly disappeared, and was replaced with confusion.
"Isabella, what is the subject of which you are speaking," he spoke slowly, blowing his delicious scent around me. I had to think for a moment, I couldn't remember, but then it hit me and I smiled brightly.
"I will marry you!" Excitement flashed through him and he picked me up and spun me around.
"Isabella Marie-soon to be- Cullen, have just made me the happiest man in the universe," he whispered oh-so sweetly into my lips.
"Good, now let's go announce to everyone before Alice ruins the surprise," I laughed lightly. I think I heard him mumble about understanding the secrets and Ashlee Simpson songs.
As we got into the Volvo and headed for his house, all I could think was, finally I can be with him for eternity... Eternity turned out to be shorter than I thought.