Dear Jude,

Hey I know it has taken me a week to write you but I have been busy. Please don't be mad at me for not keeping in touch, I have just been really stressed out with the funeral and everything. At the risk of sounding girly, I don't think I have anymore tears to cry. I have an empty feeling in my heart right now and only the thought of you seems to make the empty feeling go away. Yes, I know I am sounding like a school but being here around people crying has really made me get in touch with my feelings. You're the only person I can tell these things to. Everyone here is worried about me because I'm not showing any emotions. You of all people know I'm not good at showing what I am feeling. But when I get back on tour with you I will be a smartass again…I promise. Lol. I'm trying to joke because I just want to get my mind off of everything…well just one thing…her. I can't believe she is gone, Jude. I should have known something wasn't right, but I had to loose my stupid temper and throw my phone at the wall and break it. That was the only number they had to get in contact with me.

I dreamed about her…again last night. It's like a routine now for me. I go to bed feeling hurt, I dream about her, then I wake up in a cold sweat, telling myself how bad of a person I am. I know, I know. I can hear what you are thinking right now. "It's not my fault." I know it's not my fault but it makes me feel better to blame myself. I know that doesn't makes any sense but to me it does. At least I got to kiss her before I left. She didn't want me to leave but I had to. I had to make things right. So I told her that I would be back and I kissed her on her forehead and cheek. I told her I would see her soon.

I would write more about that but I'm starting to loose it. So now I'm going to write about something that won't make me wanna drink away all my problems. I'm going to talk about you…us. Don't think I forgot about THAT night. I smile everytime I think about it. Even though it was a really emotional night, I still do not regret it and I never will. Of course things could have been better but it was a spur of the moment thing. Sorry. I promise to make it up to you when I get back. We have pretty good timing. I hope you know I am smirking right now. See you're not even here with me, but just the thought of you makes me smile. Okay and now I'm going to stop saying stuff like that. If Kwest was to ever hear me talking like that then he would totally emasculate me.

I can't really write much more. I have some other things to tend to. I will be back sooner than you think, girl. Oh and I am sorry that you have to be on that bus without me. I know it must me hard for you to deal with Speed's dumb jokes by yourself. lol. If you start to miss me just think about THAT night. I do all the time. Just one more thing. Thank you…for being there with me on that night. It was the best and worst night of my life. Well gotta go take care of some more things. I'll see you soon…not for sure when…but soon. And just so you know, I'm not going to tell you when I'm coming back. I'm going to surprise you. Tell Speed that if he makes any sarcastic remarks or jokes about me when I'm gone then he is going to my fist. Lol. Just joking…sorta. I'll talk to you later, Harrison.

Love always,

Tom Quincy

P.S. Could you write me back and tell me about what you thought of that night? And be nice because you know I need my ego to stay big. Lol. Love ya

Jude smiles as she folds the letter and puts it back into the envelope. 'If you start to miss me think about THAT night.' Like she had been thinking about anything else but that night. That night was the best night of her life even if the circumstances were wrong. She just wished it didn't have to be so short………

Flashback to last week…………….

"Dude welcome back to the bus!" Speed greets Jude as she steps foot on the bus, Tommy right in behind her. The hospital had just released Jude, and Tommy and her spent the last ten minutes running from the mob of paparazzi. They both flop down on the couch and try to catch their breaths.

"Did you guys run all the way here?" Wally asks. Tommy and Jude just give him a look that says 'stupid question.' Kyle laughs and shakes his head, then hits Wally in his. Tommy and Jude shake their heads and laugh. Speed, Wally, and Kyle look at the two of them with curious expressions.

"What? Why are you three staring at us like that?" Jude asks. "No reason. So, what happened last night?" Kyle asks, trying to hide his smirk. He failed. "Oh Tommy didn't tell you? We had mad hot sex right there in the hospital room. We had at least four rounds. We wanted to go more but I'm a screamer and Tommy didn't want me to wake up the other patients." Jude says sarcastically.

Speed and Wally laugh and give each other a high-five then clap their hands, applauding Tommy. "Very kinky, dude." Speed says. Tommy rolls his eyes. "I guess they missed the sarcasm in your voice." Tommy says. Jude laughs lightly. "I didn't. You know those two are always late on catching on to things." Kyle says. He shakes his head and puts his each of his hands on one of Wally and Speed's shoulders and leads them to the back of the bus, towards their bedrooms.

"You're a screamer?" Tommy asks with a smirk on her face. Jude laughs and rolls her eyes as she begins to pull items out of the stuffed pockets of her jacket. Tommy watches in amazement as Jude pulls out the two teddy bears Tommy had gotten her, the yellow mug, and the deck of cards the nurse had given her. She had finished all her candy earlier that morning.

"You know I would have held all that stuff for you." Tommy says. "I know but you have already done enough for me." She says. "I have?" Tommy asks. "Tommy you went to jail last night because you beat up a guy who drugged me, you ran five miles just to visit me in the hospital when you got out, then you walked to McDonald's, in the cold, just to get me some ice cream, you bought me all these cute get well presents, AND you let me win a couple of those race car games. Need I go on?" She asks, smiling widely.

"How did you know I let you win some of the games?" He asks, surprised. "Please Quincy. You are like Jeff Gordan behind the wheel of a real car, on a game you are like two Jeff Gordans or whatever. I don't think it is possible for you to loose." She replies. Tommy just smiles and doesn't say anything.

"Exactly." Jude replies as she looks at her teddy bear and adores it. "You really do like that don't you?" Tommy says. "Of course I do. It's the nicest thing you ever gave to me." She says. "What about the journal?" Tommy asks. Jude rolls her eyes. "I loved the journal also. I just love this teddy bear more." She says. Tommy smiles to himself.

"So you think you're ready for your performance tonight?" He asks her. "Only if you promise to bring me my water." Jude says with a smile. "Do you honestly think I would let ANYONE else bring you your water?" He asks, returning the smile. Jude laughs. "Can I borrow your phone?" Tommy asks. "Sure…just…don't throw it at the wall…or window…or floor…or—" she gets cut off by Tommy. "Okay, I got ya Harrison." He says with a smile.

"Don't give me that smile, Quincy. If you break my phone I'm going to cry." She says as she holds it out. Tommy just laughs and takes the phone from her. He stands up and walks down the hall, towards his bedroom. He closes the door and dials the long number.

After twenty minutes of sitting in the front of the bus thinking, Jude stands up and walks down the hallway towards Tommy's room. She slowly opens the door and sees Tommy lying on his bed looking up at the ceiling with her cell phone in the middle of his chest. He had his hands behind his head. She walks over to him and sits down next to him on the side of the bed.

"Well I'm happy to see it still in one piece." Jude says as she holds up her phone. Tommy smiles lightly. "What's wrong?" Jude asks. "Nothing." Tommy says quietly. She could tell he was lying but she knew that whenever something was wrong with him he didn't like to discuss it. But maybe, just this once he would open up to her.

"Tell me the truth." She says, scooting closer to him. "I just have a bad feeling." He says. That was more than what he would usually say. Usually he would just brush off the question. "Why do you have a bad feeling?" She asks, trying to get closer to finding out what was wrong with him. "I just do." He simply replies. She nods her head in return, knowing she wasn't going to get any further. Tommy looks up at her and smiles.

"I thought you could read me like a book." He says with a smirk. "Normally I can. When it comes to you and your emotions I am clueless." She responds. Tommy laughs lightly. "You wanna know what I read in a magazine while I was in the hospital?" She asks. "You read?" Tommy asks, smirking. "Haha." She says, hitting lightly on the chest.

"What did you read?" Tommy asks. "An issue of the J-14 magazine, and it said that all guys carry a condom in their wallets." She says as she turns her body to face him a little better. "Oh really?" Tommy says, trying to act surprised. "Yes, and don't try to act surprised, Quincy. Do you carry one in your wallet?" She asks him. Tommy just smiles and shakes his head.

"So if I was to grab your wallet and search it right now I wouldn't find a condom?" She asks. Tommy smiles again. "Nope." He replies. Jude nods her head and reaches into his pocket. Tommy begins to laugh and tries to stop her from getting his wallet. Jude giggles as she struggles to retrieve the wallet. When she finally gets it she giggles again and opens it.

She finds a few gold credit cards and a few dollar bills but doesn't find a condom. "Wow, you were telling the truth." She says. Tommy smiles. "I told you I wouldn't have one in there." He says. "So what do you do if you get one of your spontaneous impulses to have sex to the sexy girl next to you or whatever?" She asks. Tommy smirks. "I reach into my right pocket and pull out a condom." He says before laughing. Jude rolls her eyes and begins to laugh.

"I stopped putting my condoms in my wallet for that exact reason." Tommy says. "Why? Did your girl friends use to look through your wallet or something?" Jude asks. "Saidie did." He replies. "Did she honestly?" Jude asks, shocked that Saidie would do that. "Yep. Everytime I didn't call her for a couple of days or I didn't answer my phone the next time she would see me she would search my wallet to see if my condom was still in there." He replies.

"Serious trust issues." Jude says. "Tell me about it. But anyways…I always keep two condoms in my pocket." He replies. Jude hands him back his wallet then quickly puts her hand in what she thought was his right jean pocket. Tommy laughs. "That's my left pocket, Harrison." Tommy says. Jude had forgotten that their rights and lefts were different. Tommy laughs at her as she reaches into his right pocket. She pulls out the condom and smiles.

"Getting ideas, Harrison?" Tommy asks. "No, just making sure you weren't lying to me." She replies. Tommy just smiles at her as she puts the condom back into his pocket. "Extra large?" Jude asks after a moment of silence. She had just realized that the condom was an extra large one. Tommy chuckles.

"Late reaction, but yes, extra large." He says. Jude looks at him and smiles then turns her head. Tommy chuckles again then closes his eyes. "It takes two hours to get to Halifax from here?" Jude asks. "Uh huh. Although your concert isn't in Halifax, it's in a small town three hours away from Halifax." Tommy answers. "A small town has a stadium?" Jude asks.

"I guess. It's more like a country, come to think about it. You are like three and a half miles away from civilization. They have a little grocery store, but a city person wouldn't be able to last three hours there." Tommy says with his eyes still closed. "I see." Jude says. She makes Tommy scoot over so that she has more room on the bed to lie down. He puts his arm around her shoulder and lets her snuggle up to his chest. They go to sleep for a few hours.

Tommy wakes up and looks at his watch. He sees that they should probably be arriving at her next concert at any minute. He hears a knock on his door. Jude groans and mumbles something. Tommy laughs lightly before telling whoever was knocking to come in. Kyle walks in with his hand over his eyes.

"Dudes where here." Kyle says. "You can open your eyes." Tommy says. Kyle parts his fingers and looks through them before he removes his hand completely. "Just making sure." He says. "We don't do that." Tommy says. "Sure. Whatever you say, man." Kyle says in a sarcastic tone. "We don't now leave so I can go back to sleep." Jude groans.

Tommy laughs. "You heard the girl." He says. Kyle laughs and walks out of the room, closing the door behind him. "You have to get up, girl." Tommy says quietly as he looks down at her. "Just five more minutes." She says. Tommy chuckles. "You act like you haven't had a lot of sleep." He says. "I haven't. I need at least 24 hours of sleep." She says with a smile with her eyes still closed. Tommy laughs. His laughter is cut short when he hears Jude's phone ringing. He jumps up quickly, accidentally knocking Jude off the bed.

"Hello?" He answers. Jude gets on her knees and puts her hand on the side of her forehead. He is disappointed when he hears Darius' voice. "T, why are you answering Jude's phone?" Darius asks. "I thought it was someone important." Tommy mumbles. "So I'm not important?" Darius asks. Tommy sighs and rubs his temple. "Yes, you're important. What do you want?" He asks. He wasn't really in the mood for small talk. "Tonight, before Jude's concert, I want you all to answer a few of the paparazzi and reporter's questions." He says. "Why?" Tommy asks. "Because they need to know what really happened. I don't want them thinking Jude is a drug addict or something." Darius responds.

Tommy sighs again. "You got it, D." He says. "And Tom, don't mess this up." Darius adds. "I won't." Tommy simply replies. "Oh, and one more thing." Darius says. Tommy groans. "What, Darius." He asks. "I know you know and I'm sorry you didn't find out sooner." Darius says, using a softer, quieter voice. Tommy knows immediately what he is talking about.

"I don't want to talk about it right now. But thank you for the apology, Darius." He says. "No problem. I'll talk to you later." Darius says right before he hangs up. Tommy sighs and puts the phone back down. Jude stands up and looks at Tommy.

"Thanks for throwing me on the floor." She says, rubbing the side of her forehead again. "Sorry." Tommy says. Jude smiles at him. "It's okay…it just hurt." She responds. Tommy smirks. "Quincy, don't even say what you are thinking." Jude says. Tommy laughs and shrugs his shoulders.

"I wasn't going to say anything." He says, giving her an innocent face. "Whatever. Your facial expression gave it all away." She says. Tommy smiles and doesn't say anything. He stands up and stretches then looks out the window. "We are in the country." He states. Jude walks up and stands right next to him and looks out the window. There was nothing but land and houses.

"Seems boring." She says. "You're from the city…this is going to looking boring to you." He says before chuckling. "What did Darius want?" Jude asks. "He wants us to talk to some of the reporters and paparazzi before your concert so they can know the real story of what happened last night." He replies. "In other words, clear my name and make sure they don't think I'm a druggie." Jude says.

"Basically, yeah. But you know Jude, you should always just say no." Tommy teases. Jude rolls her eyes and hits him in the arm. "That's not funny." She says. "Yeah it was." He says. Jude pushes him. Tommy laughs and pushes her back. Jude pushes him again, harder, making him stumble back. Jude giggles. Tommy smiles and grabs her by the arms and throws her down on the bed.

They begin to wrestle a little, Jude giggling and Tommy laughing. They don't hear the door open "Hey guys we're her--" Kyle stops when he looks at the site before him. Tommy was in between Jude's legs with her arms pinned to the bed. "You see this is why I always enter the room with my hand over my eyes." He says, shaking his head. Tommy and Jude look at each other and begin to laugh.

"We don't do that." Kyle mocks as he leaves the room. "We don't!" Tommy and Jude shout after him. They look back at each other and begin to laugh again. Tommy lets her go. Jude smiles and stands up and straightens out her clothes. Tommy smirks.

"You might wanna fix your hair also." He says. Jude smiles and fluffs her hair. "You know if we were to actually have sex your hair will be more messed up than that." He says. Jude stops fluffing her hair and looks at him, then smiles. "Dudes, come on!" Speed yells. Tommy and Jude look at each other and smile one last time before stepping out into the hallway and going to the front of the bus.

"Hey we have to answer some of the reporter's questions." Tommy says, stopping SME from getting off the bus. "What? Why?" Wally asks. "Darius said we should." Tommy says. "Okay." Speed says in a nonchalant tone. "Actually, I don't want you to say anything. Last time you did we ended up with our picture on the front page of a world wide magazine along with a two page article with your quotes typed very big." Tommy says.

"I was joking, dude! I didn't know they were going to take you seriously." Speed defends himself. "Speed you should know that we're the only ones that don't take you seriously." Jude says. Wally and Kyle and Tommy begin to laugh. "Very funny, dude." Speed says. Jude just smiles and opens the door.

They all step off the bus, laughing. Their laughter is cut short when they see all the reporters and paparazzi. They immediately get swamped with questions and blinded by the flashing lights. "Here we go." Tommy mumbles. Nobody could actually hear him over the questions that were being asked and shouted. Jude looks at Tommy and gives him a what-do-I-do look. Tommy just nods his head and listens for a good question to answer.

"Ms. Harrison, can you tell us what happened last night?" One reporter asks. Tommy looks at Jude and nods his head, telling her to answer that question. "One of the security guards slipped an Ecstasy pill into my bottle water." Jude replies. Tommy nods his head, happy she was giving short answers.

"Mr. Quincy, is it true that you were arrested?" Another reporter asks. "Yes." Tommy answers shortly. "Why?" The same reporter asks. "Was it because you started a fight with him?" Another reporter asks before Tommy even has a chance to answer. "Yes." Tommy replies again. After that there were several questions asked at once. He knows that Darius doesn't want the reporters to know that part of the story.

"Were you charged with assault?" A reporter asks. "No more questions." Tommy says as he gets in behind Jude and gently starts to push her through the mob. When they get inside the stadium SME let the workers lead them towards their dressing rooms while Jude pushes Tommy aside to talk to him.

"What's wrong?" Tommy asks. "All of a sudden I don't want to do this." Jude says. "It's just your nerves, girl." Tommy reassures her. "I know but I have all these butterflies in my stomach. What if they don't cheer me on because they think I'm a druggie? I'm afraid to act too hyper because they might think I have taken something." Jude rants. Tommy puts his hands on her shoulders and looks at her in the eyes.

"Jude calm down, girl. What did I tell you before? Don't worry about what they say or what they may think. You go out there and you have fun singing your songs." Tommy says. Jude smiles at him before giving him a hug. Tommy smiles and wraps his arms around her and inhales the scent of her shampoo.

"You always know what to say, Quincy." Jude says as they break away from the hug. She is smiling at him affectionately. "I try." Tommy replies with a smile. Jude rolls her eyes and laughs then goes into her dressing room. Tommy just smiles as he turns around and starts to get all the equipment together.

Thirty minutes later Jude and SME reappear, fully redressed. Tommy looks Jude up and down and smiles. Kyle and Wally notice this and smirk. "Like what you see?" Wally asks. Kyle starts to laugh. "You know I would hate for your audience to have to see you go on stage with a black eye." Tommy says. "Nice encouragement before our concert, dude." Speed says. "Well you know, I just have a way with words." Tommy says smiling at Jude, who in return laughs. SME roll their eyes before walking towards the stage. "You're gonna do great girl and the crowd is going to love you." Tommy says to Jude. "Thanks, that's what I needed to hear." Jude says with a smile. Tommy smiles and hands her a water bottle and winks at her before pushing her gently towards the stage.

Tommy hears immediate applause the second Jude steps onto the stage. He smiles widely and looks at Jude, who turns her head towards the curtain of the backstage and smiles widely back at him. SME begin to play the music to the first song. Jude glances at Tommy one last time before turning towards the crowd and beginning her concert.

Halfway through the concert Tommy goes into Jude's dressing room and searches for his phone. He knew she wouldn't mind if he used it. By the end of the concert Tommy had used her phone at least 30 times. Jude runs offstage towards him and jumps up and down, smiling. Tommy looks at her and smiles back.

"Have fun?" He asks. "Yeah." Jude answers, still smiling. "That's great, girl." Tommy says unenthusiastically. "What's wrong?" Jude asks. "Nothing, I'm fine. Everything's fine. Why don't you go get dressed." Tommy replies. Jude gives him a skeptical look before shrugging and walking off towards her dressing room. Tommy sighs and looks at Jude's phone then shakes his head and walks towards all the music equipment and begins to unplug things.

When they get back onto the bus, Speed, Wally, and Kyle collapse on the couch, while Tommy and Jude sit on the floor. Tommy half listens to everyone as they talk about how much the concert was. "…hear Wally miss the fourth note of My Sweet Time?" Tommy hears. He looks up and sees everyone looking at him. "What?" he asks. "I said, did you hear Wally miss the fourth note of My Sweet Time?" Speed repeats. "I wasn't really paying attention to Wally." Tommy replies.

"Yeah you were too busy looking Jude up and down." Kyle says with a smirk. Tommy ignores the comment and stands up, grabbing Jude's phone. "I gotta make a phone call." He says before he exits the room. "Who does he always have to call?" Speed asks. "I don't know but I think you have been replaced, Jude." Wally says. "She could never be replaced." Kyle says, smirking again.

"Do you see how much time he has been spending on the phone?" Speed asks. "Yeah I think she has been replaced too." Wally says. "Um, guys, I am in the room." Jude says waving her hand. Speed, Wally, and Kyle laugh. "Sorry, dude. I guess we forgot about you too." Speed says before laughing. Kyle and Wally join him. "Hilarious, Vincent." Jude says before hitting him with a couch pillow.

"I could never be forgotten or replaced." Jude defends herself. "Well I agree with you about the forgotten part. Once I listen to your songs I can't get them out of my head." Kyle says. "But the replaced part…I disagree." Wally says. "Me too." Kyle and Speed say at the same time. Jude rolls her eyes.

"He has not replaced me." Jude says. "Oh how sweet…she is in denial." Speed says. "You know Jude, the first step in a 12 step program is admitting you have a problem." Wally says. "Yeah and your problems are….not only are you addicted to Tommy Quincy, but you in denial about it." Kyle says. "And you are in denial about the fact that he replaced you." Speed adds. They all start laughing.

"You know you guys weren't this annoying on our last tour." Jude says. "Ouch." Kyle says, holding his heart. They all laugh. "You know the only reason why she is being a smart ass is because she has just realized that she has indeed been replaced." Kyle says. Jude jumps up and jumps on Kyle and begins to hit him on the head. Wally and Speed begin to laugh as they watch the scene before them.

"Okay…okay! I give!" Kyle says in between his laughter. Jude stops and gets off of him and sits back down on the floor, smiling because she had one. "Dude you just got beat by a girl." Speed says. "Um do you remember on our last tour? She beat you 13 teams if I remember correctly." Wally says. "Thank you, Wally." Jude says with a smile. Wally winks at her.

"Well it seems like since Tommy has replaced her, Jude has moved on to Wally." Kyle says with a smirk. "Dude, don't you know you can't date you ex's friend?" Speed asks. "Oh really? Well in that case I think you need to call Jamie and apologize." Jude says. Kyle and Wally join each other in saying "Oh!" before laughing and rolling on the floor.

"That hurt, dude." Speed says. "Well we live in the music industry. You get hurt a lot." Jude says, smiling. Kyle snickers and Wally stifles his laughter. Speed is about to comment when they hear a big thud come from the back of the bus. They all look at each other, then look at the driver.

"That wasn't the bus." Tod says. Jude's eyebrows furry as she stands up and walks to the back of the bus. She opens Tommy's door and sees him sitting on the floor with his knees up to his chest. She looks to the side of him and sees her phone still open and someone still on the line. She turns her head from Tommy to the phone and continues this motion a few times.

She stops when she hears Tommy sobbing. She picks up her phone but right as she says hello she hears a beep, telling her the call was ended. She closes Tommy's door and turns back down and sits down next to Tommy, putting her arm over his shoulders, trying to soothe him. When his crying doesn't seem to be getting less Jude begins to get worried.

"Tommy what's wrong?" She asks after his crying lessens a little after ten minutes. "She's gone." Tommy sobs. "Who's gone where?" Jude asks. Tommy sobs a little louder for a minute then quiets down again. "She's dead." Tommy says. Jude's heart drops. She didn't know that was the type of gone he meant. Who died?

"Who?" Jude asks. "Maria!" Tommy sobs loudly. He begins to cry loudly into his lap. Jude is at a loss for words. She can't believe that the little girl who Tommy just found out was his daughter, was dead…at the age of three. She knew there was nothing she could say to make him stop crying. She felt tears in her own eyes. She felt so bad for Tommy.

After at least two hours they both stop crying. Jude pushes Tommy over so that his head is in her lap. She begins to run her fingers through his hair, trying to soothe him. "It's okay, Tommy." Jude whispers. "No it's not. I was a terrible father. I didn't even know she was mine until a few weeks ago. I never saw her take her first steps, I never got to hear her say her first words, I never even sent her a damn birthday card!" Tommy says. Jude wipes away his tears, still trying to comfort him.

"Why did she have to die, Jude? Why? She never did anything to anyone. She was just a kid who didn't have any real parents. If anyone should die it should be me." Tommy says, fresh tears falling down his face. "Sshh Tommy, don't talk like that." Jude whispers. "I have to. Growing up I never had a father, Jude. I met him once. He promised me he was going to keep in contact with me. I was five years old so of course I believed him, but of course, he never kept in touch. When I was 13 I promised myself I would never treat my kids that way. I would always be there for them. If they ever needed anything all they would have to do was ask. I promised myself I would love my kid and give he or she hugs every day just for being them. Now look at me. I did none of that. I'm just like my father. He didn't care about my feelings and I didn't care about Maria's. I should have known she was mine. It's easy to see. But no I had to be so wrapped up in my own life. Ever since the day I found out she was mine I have been wanting to hold her in my arms and play with her. Now I'll never get to do that." Tommy says, crying at the end of the sentence.

Jude rocks Tommy's head in her arms as he begins to cry again. She let her own tears roll down her face. She holds Tommy in her arms for what seems like forever. After a while she glances down at her phone and sees that four hours have passed. Tommy raises his head up out of her arms and lap and wipes away the remaining tears on his face. Jude couldn't see his face in the dark but knew his eyes were red.

"I have to tell Tod to go to the nearest airport. I'm sorry Jude but I have to leave for a little while." Tommy says, his voice not strong. "I know." Jude replies quietly. She stands up. "I'll go tell Tod." She says, walking out the door. She walks back to the front of the bus and ignores Speed, Wally and Kyle's curious and confused faces and walks up to Tod and tells him about the change of directions. He nods and grunts then continues to drive.

Jude silently walks passed SME again and goes back into Tommy's room, closing the door behind her. She sees Tommy clumsily putting his clothes in his bags and suitcases in the dark. Jude walks over and puts her hand on Tommy's shaking. Tommy looks up at her. He couldn't see her face but he knew her eyes were filled with compassion and sadness. Jude couldn't see his face again, but she knew his eyes were filled with sadness and emptiness. What else could he be feeling?

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She pulls him into a tight hug. Tommy wraps his arms around her tightly, as if he was never going to let. He wants to cry but there were no more tears left to cry. Jude buries her head in chest and he buries his in her hair. Jude could feel his pain as if it was her own. All she wanted to do was make him feel better. She couldn't stand the thought of him in pain, just like he couldn't stand the thought of her in pain.

She breaks away from the kiss and looks up at him, still not able to see his face. They are so close she can feel his breath on her lips. She knows their lips are close by each other. She puts her arms on his shoulders and stands on her tip toes and brings her lips to his. She breaks away after a couple seconds when she doesn't feel him respond. She feels him put his hands on her waist. This encourages her to try it again. This time when their lips touch, she feels Tommy automatically respond.

They break away after a minute or so to breath. Tommy puts his forehead on Jude's as he tries to regain his breathing. Jude puts her hands on Tommy's waist and makes him sit on the bed. She gets on top of his lap and straddles him, then reconnects their lips. Tommy falls back onto the bed with Jude still on top of him. Jude breaks the kiss, once again, after five minutes. She looks down at Tommy, now being able to see his face because of the moonlight from the window.

Now being able to see his eyes, Jude can see how badly hurt Tommy's eyes really looked. Jude leans down and kisses him lightly one more time before rising back up. She reaches for Tommy's right pocket and pulls out the plastic wrapper that she knew would be in there. Before Tommy has a chance to object she reconnects their lips again. After a few minutes she feels Tommy give in as he lets his hands wander her back.

He flips her over gently so that he is on top. He breaks away from the kiss and begins to kiss her neck as he positions himself in-between her legs. Jude closes her eyes and bites her bottom lip and runs her fingers through his hair. She knew he was trying to get her relaxed. Her hands slowly creep down to the back of his shirt, to the hem. She begins to pull it up. Tommy removes his mouth from her neck and pulls his shirt off the rest of the way.

He slowly raises Jude's shirt over her head and unsnaps her bra before returning his mouth to Jude's neck. Jude feels her heart skip a beat as she feels Tommy's bare stomach on hers. He runs his fingers up and down the sides of her body slowly. After a few minutes he raises his head and looks down at her. Jude sees that the pain is still in his eyes but it is mixed with lust. She raises her hand up and touches his cheek. Tommy smiles lightly.

Jude reaches down and unbuttons her pants, telling Tommy she really wanted to do this. Tommy looks down the looks back up at Jude, still hesitant. Jude raises her other hand and gives him the condom that she was still holding. Tommy takes it and balances his weight on just one arm as he continues to look at it. Jude puts both her hands on the sides of his neck and pulls him down into a kiss. Tommy immediately gets lost in the kiss.

He removes his jeans along with Jude and slips the condom on, pausing at her entrance. "I'm sorry if this hurts." Tommy whispers. Jude nods her head and wraps her arms around Tommy's neck. Tommy pushes himself in and immediately feels Jude tense. He buries his head on the pillow Jude was also laying on and begins to pick up the old-fashion rhythm. He feels her scratch his shoulders with each thrust. After a few minutes he feels himself go all the way in. He pauses and lets Jude adjust to him.

When he feels Jude wrap her legs around his back he takes that as his cue to continue. He picks up a stronger rhythm than before. He feels Jude's breathing get uneven as he continues this rhythm. She runs her fingers through his hair, telling him she wasn't in pain anymore, but in pleasure. She could feel the pain he was in each time he pushed inside of her. She holds on tightly to him as if that would help the pain go away.

After about a half an hour Tommy feels Jude's body tighten again. He quickly captures her mouth, knowing she was close again. She pulls his hair tightly as she releases. Tommy continues his rhythm for a few more minutes before finally releasing himself.

They both lay there, trying to catch their breath. Jude runs her hands up Tommy's sweaty back all the way up to his hair, which was drenching in sweat. Tommy pulls out and kisses Jude's neck then raises his head up and looks down at her. Jude could see the pain was still in his eyes but he had a little happiness now. He smiles at her, trying to reassure her that he was okay but it didn't work. She knew him better than what he thought.

"I know you're not okay." She whispers, bringing her hand forward, through his hair. "Yes, I am." Tommy whispers back. She shakes her head and brings his head and kisses him. They continue to kiss for a few moments. Tommy breaks away and looks down at her again.

"Why did you want to…tonight?" Tommy asks quietly. "I just wanted you to stop hurting." Jude says in a matching tone. "So you weren't ready?" he asks. Jude could tell he was beginning to feel guilty. "No, I was ready." She reassured him. Tommy gave her a skeptical look. "I was." Jude whispered firmly. She honestly was ready. Tommy smiles a little as he leans down to kiss her.

"I know I can't really make your pain go away." Jude says after they break away. Sadness fills Tommy's eyes again. "I know." He replies softly. "But thank you for trying." He adds using the same soft voice. Jude nods. Tommy leans down and kisses Jude again. Jude begins to deepen the kiss which leads to a previous display of what had happened moments before.

An hour and a half later Tommy lay besides Jude, who is breathing heavily, along with Tommy. She puts her head on his sweaty chest and tries to recover. The room is dead silent. Jude could hear Tommy's heart rate slowing down a little. She could also sense that he was crying again. Tommy lets the fresh tears fall down his face. It pains Jude to know that there was nothing she could do about his pain.

After a few minutes she can tell that he has stopped crying. Either he had no more tears left or he was trying to be strong while in front of Jude. It had been 6 hours since he found out that his daughter had died and Jude still didn't know what to do or if there was anything she could do.

They hear a knocking on the door. Tommy puts his hands up to his face and wipes his tears. "Who is it and don't come in" Jude says in a semi weak tone. "Um…okay. Well Tod says we are about 25 minutes away from the airport." Kyle says from the other side of the door.

Tommy and Jude lay in bed for a few more minutes. The fact that Tommy was leaving for a few weeks had just sunken into both of their heads. Jude wouldn't get to see him everyday or wake up looking at him everyday. He was going to be away planning a funeral for his daughter. She contemplates on whether or not she should go with him. She knew Tommy would refuse and probably get mad at her even suggesting it. So she had to do what they both always dreaded…they had to say goodbye.

They get out of bed at the same time and begin to get dressed. Once Tommy is fully clothed he finishes putting his clothes in his suitcase, fighting back tears the whole time. He felt so weak but he knew he had to leave. He had to face his family and what was left in Montana. The last thing in the world he wanted to do was leave Jude. But he had to. Just for a few days.

Jude sits on the bed and painfully watches Tommy pack. She could tell it was just as painful for him, if not more. Once he finally had his things packed he looks up at Jude. He could see her face, the moonlight shining on it. She didn't look any more happier than what he did or felt.

He walks over to her and pulls her up off the bed and pulls her into a tight hug. They hold on to each other for what seems like forever, when in reality it was only a few minutes. They knew it was going to be the last time for a couple weeks before they can hug each other again. Tommy kisses the top of Jude's forehead just as they hear a knock on the door.

"Yeah." Tommy says his voice cracking. "We're here." Comes the voice from the other side of the door. Tommy slowly lets go of Jude and walks over to his bags and suitcases and opens the door. He slowly walks down the hallway and stops in the front of the bus. He puts his bags down and looks at SME.

"If anyone of you messes with her while I'm gone I will personally introduce you to my fist." Tommy says. "We love you too, dude." Speed says. They didn't know Tommy wasn't in the mood for jokes. He just shakes his head and picks up his bags again and walks off the bus.

"I'll be right back." Jude says to Tod and SME. She walks into the airport with Tommy and stands next to him in line as he waits to buy a ticket. When they get to the counter the lady asks if he is buying two. Tommy quickly declines and says just one to Montana. They walk over to the sitting area and stand around.

"Tommy I can--" She gets cut off by Tommy. "No you can't. This is your second tour and it is bigger than your first. I am not going to let you come all the way to Montana with me just because you feel like you need to. You are going to stay and perform your concerts." He says.

"How did you…" She asks. "I saw the look on your face when the lady asks if I was going to buy two tickets. Jude I'm glad you want to come with me, it lets me know you care, but you can't. This is your tour, so have fun. I'll be back in a week or two anyways." Tommy says. See that's why she loved Tom Quincy. Even when he is sad and heartbroken and beyond tears, he still tries to cheer her up. Jude tries to avoid eye contact with him because everytime she does she sees more and more pain in his eyes; pain she couldn't make go away.

Back To Present………

It had been one week, 12 hours and 21 minutes since that day…since that night. Of course she could never forget THAT night. That was the best night of her life……….

So there is a long 12 page updated. I know I should have had this out weeks ago. I'm so sorry for that. I know you don't want to hear excuses so I wont give you any. Please tell me what you think.