Author's Note: the italicized words are the song but the bold italicized words are Jude singing the song. Oh and disclaimer: I don't own Nickelback's song, Far Away.

This time, this place

Misused, mistakes

Too long, too late

Jude watches in shock as Tommy's body rolls over the car and falls hard on the asphalt street. The car finally stops, smoke surrounding it.

Who was I to make you wait?

Just one chance, just one breath

Just in case there's just one left

Jude continues to stand in shock as she looks at Tommy's motionless body still lying in the street. When reality finally hits her, she runs over to him and kneels down, tears already in her eyes. Tommy lay there, bloody cuts on his face, arms and neck. Tears stream down her face faster when she examines his body even closer, seeing blood coming from his head. She automatically puts her fingers to his wound.

"Someone call 911!" An onlooker shouts. Jude blocks out everyone as she gently taps Tommy's face, trying to make him come back to consciousness. She puts her hands on her chest and gets a reassuring feeling in her heart when she feels it going up and down.

"Tommy…Tommy!" She says, on the edge of sobbing. More and more people start to crowd around. Jude vaguely hears the murmurs "that's Lil' Tommy Q." She tries to form thoughts on what she should do but all she could think about was how motionless and unconscious he was. She breaks down and begins to cry, running her fingers through her hair; her mind not working any longer.

Cuz You Know,

You know

You know!

I love you

I loved you all along

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreamin, you'll be with me

And you'll never go!

After a few moments, Jude tries to pull herself back together, remembering that she wasn't the one who was lying on the ground. Tommy needed help. She looks at Tommy, her vision blurry from the remaining and forming tears. Her heart drops when she puts her hand back on his chest. He wasn't breathing.

Stop breathin, if I don't see you anymore

"Tommy!" Jude screams. She runs her fingers through her hair again and tries to form thoughts on what she should do. "CPR!" One onlooker shouts. She tries to stop herself from crying so hard as she leans down and puts her lips to Tommy's, and breaths into his mouth, hoping to get him breathing again. She does the best she can, while sobbing.

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all

Onlookers just shake their head in sadness, wondering what they should be doing. Jude feels Tommy's chest moving up and down after a few minutes of her CPR. She looks down at him, hoping to see his eyes. She closes her eyes tightly and let's more tears stream down her face after seeing his still unconscious body. This couldn't be happening.


I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

In the distant she hears ambulance sirens. She looks up and sees everyone crowded around her and wonders about the man who had hit Tommy. The truck was still smoking and there was no one standing next to it. In what seemed like two seconds the ambulance was there. The EMTs jump out of the ambulance and rush over to where Jude was. She wipes away the tears from her cheeks and tries to get a clear view of the EMTs.

"What happened, miss?" One of them asks as they open their box and begin to pull out needles. "The…truck…he hit…" Jude trials off and begins to cry, reliving what she saw only a few moments ago. The EMT nods his head, getting what she was trying to say.

"We got a car victim. I need 50 CCs and vitals!" Another EMT shouts. "Jude!" Speed, Wally, and Kyle run over to Jude, who was now sobbing into her knees. Speed wraps his arm around her and helps her up, hugging her as she sobs into his chest. Kyle and Wally look at Tommy and the EMTs who were sticking him with all sorts of needles.

"Slow breathing!" One of the EMTs shouts. Jude turns around, tears still streaming down her face. "I…had…to do..." She tries to get out the whole sentence but that's all she could say. "What did you have to do miss?" The EMT asks in an anxious voice. "C…C…P.." Jude trails off and begins to sob again.

"Witness had to do CPR!" The EMT shouts to the others. Jude watches helplessly through tear-filled eyes as the EMTs try to make Tommy stable.

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

Jude's heart begins to beat faster and faster as she watches the EMTs. Speed puts an arm around her, trying to comfort her, but he knew it was no use. The love of her life was lying dead still on the ground with a bunch of EMTs trying to save his life. There was no comforting for that. Jude manages to get a hold of herself after what seemed like an hour. She slowly turns around, biting on her nails, tears still falling down her face. Her heart almost stops when she hears the three word's she was afraid of hearing: "We're loosing him"

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

"NO!" Jude cries out. Speed pulls her back into a hug. She shakes her head into his chest as she begins to sob hysterically. Speed holds on tight to her, knowing that's the only thing he can really do. Kyle and Wally stand back and watch quietly as the EMTs do the best they can.

What seemed like hours later, when in reality it was only minutes, one of the EMTs say the words Speed, Wally, Jude and Kyle had been waiting for: "He's stable!" Jude quickly turns around and looks, hoping, again, to see Tommy's eyes. Instead she sees him in the same condition. The EMTs put him on the stretcher and lift him into the ambulance. Jude follows them but one of the EMTs stop her.

"Are you a relative?" He asks. Jude shakes her head. "I'm sorry…I can't let you on." The EMT says. Speed walks up and puts his arm around Jude. "She's a soon to be relative. This is his fiancé." Speed says. The EMT looks hesitantly at Speed then at Jude. He shakes his head.

"Just let them on, we need to go!" another EMT shouts. The EMT nods his head and motions for Jude to get on the ambulance. Jude turns around and hugs Speed tightly and whispers, "Thank you." in his ear before stepping on the ambulance. The EMT quickly slams the door shut and hits the wall in front, telling the driver to go. Jude grabs on to one of the carts to keep her balance as the driver speeds off.

"Heartbeat's slowing again!" An EMT says. Jude bites her fingernails and let's fresh tears fall down her face as she watches the EMTs struggle with Tommy. She begins to pace back and forth, trying her hardest not to start crying.

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say

"Miss, you say you're his fiancé?" The EMT asks. Jude slowly nods her head. "Can you do something for me?" He asks. Jude slowly nods her head again. "I need you to let him know you're here." The EMT says. Jude wipes away the tears from her cheeks. It was no use. Fresh tears would just fill them in a few seconds.

"You're Jude Harrison aren't you?" The other EMT asks. Jude nods her head. "Sing to hi--" The EMT gets cut off by the heart-wrenching sound of the heart monitor's long beep. Jude's begins to cry.

"No pulse!" The other EMT says. "Jude, I need you to help!" The first EMT says while he pulls out more needles. Jude watches as the other EMTs pull the shockers out and rubs them together. Jude continues to bite her nails and pace back and forth trying to form thoughts.

"Jude!" The EMT shouts. Jude jumps and looks at the EMTs. She sighs as she remembers what the EMT had asked her to do. She walks closer to Tommy and grabs his hand and begins to sing.

"That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing"

"Clear!" The EMT yells. Tommy's body moves up as the electricity goes through his body. Jude's tears fall faster as she watches this. She holds on tighter to Tommy's hand. "Still no pulse!" The EMT shouts. "Again!" The other EMT says. The first EMT rubs the shockers together and puts them to Tommy's chest again.

"Clear!" He says. Jude swallows hard and goes back to singing.

"'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it"

"One more time!" The EMT shouts. "Tommy, please!" Jude says quietly, her voice getting raspy. Her tears flow faster. The EMT rubs the shockers together again and sighs. Jude didn't know if it was out of exhaustion or whether he was silently praying for this last time to work. The EMT puts the shockers back on Tommy's chest and yells "Clear" Tommy's body shoots up yet again, but Jude sees machines light up.

"We got a pulse!" The EMT shouts. Nothing sounded better to Jude's ears than the beeping sound of the heart monitor; even if it was faint. She smiles and silent thanks God. "Jude, keep singing." The EMT says.

"Hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go"

"We're here." The EMT says. He opens the door before the ambulance barely stops. They wheel Tommy out of the ambulance on the stretcher. Jude runs in behind them, going through the sliding doors. Once they get inside one of the EMTs turns around puts his hands on Jude's shoulders.

"I'm sorry but you have to wait out here. He's going to be okay. I know they'll try their best." He says. Jude nods her head at that little bit of reassuring information. The EMT smiles kindly before jogging off threw the swinging doors. Jude sighs and runs her fingers through her hair. She sits down in the waiting area and puts her head in her hands.

After a few moments of silence her cell phone rings. She jumps a little, her nerves not being as steady as normal. "Hello?" She answers in a weak voice. "Jude! Are you okay?!" comes Saidie's voice from through the phone.

"Hey, Saides, I'm okay." Jude says. News reporters must have already gone to the accident site. 'They really don't waste time.' She says. "Are you sure? Is Tommy okay? Where are you? I'm on my way right now." Saidie says quickly. Jude rubs her left temple and tries to translate what Saidie had just said.

"Saidie, you are all the way in Toronto." Jude says. "Do you really think that matters? The most important person in your life just got hit by a car. I'm your sister. You need my support." Saidie says. She couldn't believe that Saidie was actually going to come 300 miles just to be her shoulder to cry on.

"You're serious?" Jude says. Saidie sighs into the phone. Jude didn't know if it was because she just asked a stupid question or if it was because Saidie was tired of running around the house.

"Yes, I'm serious. We may fight, we may argue and say we hate each other but I'm sister. You need me right now. I'll be your shoulder to cry on…even if it is over the guy I used to be in love with." Saidie says. Jude smiles a little. She never knew Saidie had it in her to actually say she cared about her.

"Okay." Jude says. Her voice was still weak and shaky. "Are you sure you're okay. I mean I know you're far from okay, but are you holding together?" Saidie asks. Jude shrugs and sighs, as if Saidie was right in front of her.

"I'm as okay as I can be, Saides." She answers truthfully. She can almost see Saidie nod. "Alright, well I'll be there in a couple hours." Saidie replies. Jude nods. "Okay, see you in a few." Jude says. "Bye." Saidie says before Jude closes her phone.

She sets the phone on the empty chair next to her and puts her head back into her hands. She felt tired, stressed, worried and hopeless all in one. What made it worse was the fact that the person that always made her feel better; always made her look at the bright side of things; always told her that things were going to be alright, was the person lying on the stretcher with a thousand and one doctors hovering over him, trying to save his life.

She had never really thought about life without Tommy. Sure she had lasted a month without him but she always had this little thought in the back of her mind that he was going to come back. But this, this was different. The last time Tommy left on his own. He could have come back anytime he wanted. But now, he could die…and it wouldn't be his choice.

How could she live without Tommy; know that he was really gone and never coming back? She couldn't. He was the one guy that she could tell everything on her mind and heart to. He was the one guy she could yell, scream and cuss at but two seconds later write a hit song about how much she loves him. All of the emotions she felt two months ago when she left came back to her in a matter of seconds. She told herself she never wanted to feel those emotions again, but they were back. This time, it wasn't really Tommy's fault.

"Jude!" Jude jerks her head up and sees Speed, Kyle and Wally run into the emergency room. Speed rushes over to her and pulls her up, hugging her. Jude embraces him a little, before pulling away. They all take a seat, Speed sitting on one side of Jude and Kyle sitting on the other.

"How is he?" Speed asks. Jude sighs. "I don't know. All I know is that he's breathing again." She responds. They all give her sympathetic looks. "It's going to be okay, Jude." Speed says, putting his arm around her. The words were good to hear, but they weren't said by the person she needed to hear say them.

Besides, how did he know it was going to be okay? He wasn't in the ambulance just a few seconds ago. He wasn't in the street when Tommy had first stopped breathing. He didn't know anything. He couldn't tell her that Tommy was going to be okay. 'Jude, stop. He's just trying to be your friend and help.' She says quietly to herself, inaudible to the rest.

"Jude, are you with us?" Speed asks, concern in his voice. Jude smiles a little. It was nice to see how concerned he was about her. She nods her head. "I'm okay, Speed. Thanks." She says. "Are you sure?" Speed asks. Jude nods her head again. Speed nods also, in response.

"What happened, besides the obvious?" Kyle asks. She pauses and shakes her head. "I went outside to try to catch up to him. There were a lot of people around, and it took me a minute to see him. When I finally did he…the truck…" Jude trials off and shakes her head.

Kyle nods his head. "So they didn't tell you anything?" Wally asks. Jude shakes her head again. "So much for being his fiancé." Speed mumbles under his breath. Kyle reaches over and hits him on the head. Speed grabs the back off his head and gives Kyle a 'What was that for' look. Kyle just shakes his head.

"Speed, go up to the desk and ask her what's going on. Tell them Tommy's fiancé wants to know. And try not to say dude after every other word." Kyle says. Speed smirks at him before standing up and walking over to the desk. Kyle turns his head towards Wally.

"Go make sure Speed finds his way to the receptionist." Kyle says, clearly trying to get alone time with Jude. Wally nods his head, getting the point. Kyle stands up and walks over and sits down in the seat next to Jude. He puts his arm around her and leans her in towards his body. Jude lays her head comfortably on his chest.

"He'll be okay, Jude." Kyle says in a reassuring voice. Fresh tears come to Jude's eyes. "You didn't see him Kyle. When he got hit…in the ambulance…" She trials off. Kyle nods his head. "I know and it sucks that you had to see that. But you know Tommy's strong. He'll be alright. In a couple days you two will probably be back on that bus in his or your room doing God knows what again." Kyle says, trying to lighten the mood. Jude laughs lightly and brushes away a few tears.

"You know despite what you and Speed and Wally think, we are not always having sex." She says. "You don't have to lie to me, Jude. I'm the one who has a room right next to yours." Kyle says, smiling. Jude just smiles and shakes her head. "Thank you." She says after a few moments of silence. Kyle smiles and nods

"Playing drums isn't the only thing I'm good at." He says with a warm smile. Jude smiles again. "Dude, her boyfriend is in there in a hospital bed, almost dead, and you hit on her? Don't you have a heart, bro?" Speed asks. Jude begins to laugh as Kyle takes his arm from around Jude's shoulder.

"Don't even." He says. "You're the one hitting on Tommy's girlfriend." Speed says as he sits down. "Well what can I say. I have a thing for vulnerable girls." Kyle says. "Oh so that's how you lost your virginity." Wally says. "Yeah, he made the girl cry by looking at her, then comforted her and then they had sex." Speed says. Kyle smirks. "Funny. What did the receptionist say?" Kyle asks.

Jude looks up intently. "Well after Speed got through trying to flirt with her, she told us that she couldn't give us any information. All she told us was that he was in surgery." Wally replies. Jude sighs. This was bad. The reality of how bad the situation was had hit her when she saw Tommy stop breathing in the ambulance, but for some reason it was like it was hitting her again.

"Did she say what he was getting surgery on? Or did you two even think about asking?" Kyle asks. Wally and Speed give him guilty looks. Kyle shakes his head. "Dude, if you could have seen the receptionist you would forget about stuff too." Speed defends himself. Kyle laughs then glances at Jude and immediately stops. He hits Speed in the arm and shakes his head.

"Sorry." Speed says. "I need to take a walk." Jude says as she stands up. Kyle looks up at her. "Alone." She adds. Kyle nods his head and watches quietly as Jude walks out of the hospital. He turns his head and looks at Wally and Speed, who are still smirking, thinking about the receptionist.

"So, on a scale of 1-10?" Kyle asks, smiling. Speed and Wally smile widely. "25!" Speed says. Kyle laughs and shakes his head. "You guys are pathetic, you know that, right?" He says. "Okay Mr. Act-all-sensitive-while-Jude-is-here-but-when-she-leaves-get-interested-in-the-cute-receptionist." Wally says. Kyle laughs and shakes his head, silently denying what he just said.

Outside…….

Jude walks over to a nearby bench and sits down, exhaling loudly. She pauses for a moment and closes her eyes then begins to take deep breaths, inhaling the fresh rain smell of air. When her nerves are a little more calm she opens her eyes and looks at her surroundings. There were a few EMTs standing around smoking cigarettes, random people walking and talking; everyone acting like life was great; as if there was not a care in the world.

Jude puts her feet up on the bench and leans against the brick wall in behind her. 'He's going to be okay, Harrison. Wow he's even got me calling myself Harrison. Just calm down. Think about writing songs. No, thinking about writing songs makes me think of him. Okay think about driving on the open road. With nothing ahead of you but land. No driving makes me think about Tommy's driving lesson when I was 16. God it's my whole life revolves around him. Well that's because it does. When you wake up in the morning, who do you think of? Tommy. When you write down one line of a new song, who do you want to hear just that one line? Tommy. Who is the guy that you have been dreaming about since you were 15? Tommy. Your life does revolve around him. Hell, your life is Tommy. Loosing him is like loosing your life. So what do you do when your life could end momentarily?

Before Jude has a chance to think of an answer to the question the doctor appears in the waiting room. He has a grim expression that makes Jude's heart drops. The gut feeling she had was telling her the news the doctor was about to give wasn't going to be good………….

So long time no see huh? Bet you guys thought you were never going to get another update. Im really sorry about not updating. I just had so many going and yeah it finally caught up with me. but im going to try and get on a lot more and update as much as I can. Im sorry this update couldn't of been more..happy but I had to pick up where it left off. Im also sorry for it being so short. And im sorry for saying sorry so much. Lol. hopefully this update will make up for everything! Please tell me what you think!