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"" means speech

'' means thoughts

I'm also happy to read reviews about my first story. Also please ignore any typo's. ;) i hope you enjoy the story. Oh and the rest of the story is written differently, this first bit is more or less setting and introduction.

And before i start i would like to Thank my best friend Zaz for her inspiration with the later chapters. Ok sorry about this chap but its hard to portray the amount of pain she would be going through so i hope you enjoy it any way and bare with me for the next chapters... ;)

Blood Roses

Chapter 3- The Turning

The agonizing pain was never ending.

I could feel the burning through out my body, as the venom moved through my veins. Each milimetre lasting an hour of torturous fire. According to Edward and Alice talking it had only been a day. But time had no meaning any more, every second felt like an eternity. An eternity of suffering. Hell would be welcomed now, the sweat release of death. It could not come fast enough. I thought of the fact that i would get to be with Edward forever, but every time i tried to comfort myself with that thought it was swept from my mind with another wave of agony. I would only get to be with Edward if i made it through this alive.

"I'm not strong enough" i remember begging Edward "please kill me" i was crying now cause the thought of loosing him was breaking my weakening heart. But i knew that in death I would be able to watch over him. That though ran through my mind briefly. At least thats what i told myself. The burning never ceased. The pain seemed to increase with every moment that moved by. In my weekend voice i tried again, 'Edward my love, i love you with all of my heart but this pain is just to much, i cant handle it any more, I'm not as strong as you were. Please just kill me'. Thats what i wanted to say to him. What i got out was a gasp, then "Edward. Kill me" in a voice that i knew was barely audible to him even with his vampire hearing. He looked at me and i saw the tears in his eyes and the anger in his veins "Bella" he moved closer and knelt down next to my bed. "oh Bella my angel. Please don't give up on me" even though he whispered the words they rang through my mind like thunder. The pain was getting worse. My hearing was improving making everything loud and echoey, the sounds ringing through my mind like knives, much like nails on a chalk board. The sounds alone amplified the pain i was feeling.

I herd the sound of Edward growling in the corner, it was a low sad sound but at the same time scary to hear. I force myself to open my eyes and look at hi, the light in the room piercing my eyes. I moan slightly from the pain. 'this is the love of your life, turn to him dam it' with that i forced my eyes open and rolled over to face him. My arms and legs were like lead that beat my aching body with each movement. I was looking at him now, he was hunched on the floor in the corner crying, looking like a small child. He hadn't even noticed my movement, but as i watched him, he looked up at me and i saw so much pain reflected on his face i just wanted to jump up and, hug and comfort him for eternity. Lost in my brief thoughts of holding him again, i jumped when i refocused my eyes and he was in front of me. "sshh, I'm sorry"

"don't be" 'your here with me now and thats all that matters' speaking was getting hard so i allowed him into my mind.

"And we will be together forever my angel, as soon as you get through this" a smile light his features at the thought of us being together forever but it couldn't mask the pain he was feeling. I allowed myself a smile at the thought of eternity with the one i love. But at the same moment a new wave of pain, burnt its way through my body. The last thing i remember before the darkness took over my mind and body was the sound of screaming.

"Bella! Bella!" oh my god she was out. Her body was shaking, but at least she was resting for now. Tears started to run down his face again as Jasper came into the room. "is there anything i can do?" he ask before he took in the scene before him.

"The last wave that swept over her was so bad it knocked her" Edward said in a defeated voice. Not knowing what to do Jasper sent out waves of relief and tried to calm the situation a bit. The emotion in the room was intense it had almost sent him back out the door. The pain from Bella was stiffened a bit from her being asleep but Edward was a cascade of different emotions all at once. Pain. love. anger. They were the strongest, but there were deeper emotions that he couldn't put a name to. He didn't want to try. He poured out the emotions into the room around him with all of his strength. Edward raised an eyebrow at him but didn't reject the calm. Instead he stood up and headed towards the door. "i have to get out of here for a bit" he said with regret in his voice. "watch her and if anything happens i will be close so call to me" his voice was commanding and in control but his emotions were pleading and lost. Jasper just nodded and with that Edward was gone, he heard the front door a moment later. 'Poor Edward, its been 2 days now and he hasn't left her side for more than fifteen minutes. This was going to be hard for him.' he was broken from his thoughts by a raspy breath and a fit of coughing. He moved to Bella's side. "it wont be long now" he said in an attempt to comfort her. Through the pain he could have sworn he heard a faint laugh from Bella. She looked at him and he watched as her mouth moved trying to form words "sshh. Don't speak, just rest" Jasper didn't know what to do. Does he pat her head, he couldn't kiss her. Could he hug her or was that weird. He turned at the sound of laughter. The love of his life Alice was standing in the doorway laughing at him. It was a refreshing sound, he allowed it to sweep over him. "you know for a dead guy you don't hide your thoughts very well." he turned and opened his arms to her.

"i couldn't hide anything from you" she smiled then turned the conversation back to the situation at hand. "how is she". After thinking about the answer for what felt like forever. Jasper just shrugged. Alice moved from his lap and leaned over Bella. He watched as she gently grabbed a damp cloth from next to the bed and wiped her forehead with slow, fragile movements. "she's so weak. I mean being human i saw myself having to be careful with her before, worried that if i got to close i would hurt her or scare her. But now..." he trailed off looking at her small form curled on the bed. She had started to shake again.

"I know. But it will be over soon. You remember better than i do" she looked over her shoulder into his eyes. "I'm worried about after word's" he felt her worry and put a comforting arm around her. Answering his unanswered question, she continued "i mean will she remember what happened to her? I know that when i was turned i had no idea what happened. The confusion, the darkness, the sudden strength and speed. But that was nothing compared to the thirst". He pulled her tighter into him as tears welled up behind her eyes. They wouldn't spill.

"ah yes. Thats the first thing i remember" he said thinking about his graphic past.

"thats not you any more" she said, leaning into his chest. "we have a family now, and more importantly" -she looked into his eyes- "we have each other"

"I hate to interrupt the love fest in here but how is she?" they both turned to the sound of Emmet's voice. He was half smiling at his teasing joke. Alice replied by simply throwing the cloth at him, he caught it and then all Jasper knew was the it was in his face and everyone was laughing. Including Bella who had just woken up to see the whole display.

"hey hey sleepy girl" Emmet said form the doorway. "Thought you would sleep forever"

"i wish" was her simple yet struggled reply. She smiled then looked around the room. "he's gone out for a while" Alice says. 'how does she do that' Jasper thought to himself. He looked at Emmet and he was wondering the same question. "so you see everything?" Bella questioned. Alice laughed weekly and said simply "a girl knows everything, with or without a physic advantage" with that Bella nodded understandingly and drifted back to sleep. On Emmet's gesture they moved out of the room silently.

I woke up briefly as the pain intensified one last time. I was alone in the room and for once happy to be. I don't know how, but i knew that it had been three days. I looked outside and it was dark again. My grip tightened on the bed sheet as the poison ran through the last of my system. I could feel the fire burning in my heart. Then a blackness was sweeping towards me fast. It was different to the state of being unconscious. I could hear a sound echoing around me, growing weaker and further apart.

Thump-thump thump-thump,. thump—thump,, thump-...

The poison had run through her system, finishing the job.

Along with Edward coming home, i could hear thousands of droplets falling all around me. Opening my eyes i saw the rain falling outside and felt an unbearable thirst. I had to get water. I got up and moved towards the sound not caring where it took me.