Chapter Six

Hanging by a Moment/Answers

A/N: Hello! Yeah, I didn't lie about the 30 to 60 minutes thing, my elder brother kicked me out of the house because him and his girlfriend wanted to, 'Get IT On'.

Anyways on another matter, thank you to all of you who reviewed. I owe my life to thee. Make sure you tell your friends about my story!!! You know the whole, 'person to Person' thing is getting really popular again.

Oh and to chainxofxmemories, yes THAT way.

And I was watching AMVs on YouTube, (Yeah looking for inspiration and yoai,) I watched this 'Kingdom Hearts: Listening to Their Hearts… music thing, oh I started to cry! It was a Kairi and Sora thing and it's that song by DDR, 'Listen to Your Heart' and the person did it so well I started to cry!!! You're gonna have to have a heart of stone to watch it without crying!!!

I'll stop my drabbling now.

LOVE,

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CAUTION!!! THIS CHAPTER HAS EXACT INFORMATION AND DISCRIPTION OF A MISCARRIAGE!!! EITHER SKIP THIS CHAPTER, AND I'LL WRITE A TIMELINE IN THE NEXT CHAPTER OR CONTINUE ON. JUST A WARNING!!! OH, AND CHARACTER DEATH!!!

Roxas couldn't feel rage, or pain or love as he jolted down the stairs and knocked on Namine's door. Only confusion. He needed answers and he knew she had them because well… she's Namine for Christ's sake.

He could hear the sound of tired feet dragging on the floor and Namine twisting the knob. When she opened it she yawned.

"Roxas—" Roxas grabbed her by the wrists and thrust her backwards, falling onto the floor. Him on top of her, she struggled of course but not for long. He pinned her arms above her head and grabbed her chin with his free hand. Tears welled in her eyes and she thrust her leg up between his legs, but he forced her leg down again with his knee.

"Why did you erase my memory? What did I do?!" He cried into her face. Namine looked up at him and started to struggle again.

"WHY DID YOU?" He shouted again, more forceful.

"Because you told me to! How do I know what you did? You never told me!" With sudden force, Namine rolled over, bringing Roxas with her. Now the tables were turned. Namine was on top of him, while he writhed on the floor.

"I want to know what he had before, before you erased my memory." Roxas said, Namine shook her head.

"I promised you I wouldn't tell you." Tears of frustration poured down Roxas's rosy face. Was it that bad? What had he done to make her erase his memory? Did he kill somebody? Did he murder his whole family or something? What went on?

Another flashback unfolded before his eyes. Namine was on top of him… scantily clad in only an un-hooked white bra. Roxas blinked again and she was there again, fully clad. Roxas inched back in realization. They were in love, that's why he could never bring himself to kill her. Tears were pouring down both their cheeks, as she could see realization in his eyes.

"Do you know now why I offered you to live here with me? Why I wiped out your memory? Why I gave you another life?" Namine whispered. Love struck him dead; it struck him so hard he had the sudden urge to kiss her right then and there. But he kept his hands to himself and questioned her more.

"We had something, didn't we? I loved you, didn't I?" Roxas whispered, Namine shut her eyes and smiled at him. But it was a sad smile.

"No, I loved you." It was all she said then she started to sob again. Her sobs shook her until she fell down on his chest and started to cry into his shirt. Slowly, Roxas forgot all the revenge and all the hate. He drew her tight to him wrapping his arms around her small body.

"And I still do," She spoke softly, Roxas shut his eyes and lowered his chin onto her head. Roxas didn't know what to do, he still needed answers. Once Namine stopped crying she sat up and agenst her bed, with Namine in his arms they talked.

"Namine… did you and I…" Namine nodded.

"Oh," Roxas said awkwardly, Namine sighed.

"If it helps, it was good."

"Thank you," Roxas said quickly. Namine shut her eyes.

"When did I ask you to erase my memory?"

"Three years ago. What happened was for some reason you left after my birthday party, when I was turning sixteen. You came back two years later and said that you had joined the Organization and you wanted me to erase your memory. I did so and Axel took you away, I helped him guide your life, I made sure you had good friends, nice family; everything you wanted. Then you were taken to the real world, you got confused because of everything. I was watching you, always watching you and when you were reverted into Sora, I went into Kairi's mind to keep an eye on you.

"But Axel called me away saying the Organization is up to their tricks again and he needed me to go back to the Mansion and take care of you. I obliged, of course for I knew that once I cracked you, I'd love you again, but the whole time I found it hard to love you for you seemed to hate me. But now after I told you everything I know that maybe you loved me back and you always did," Namine opened her eyes and arched her back to meet his awkward gaze.

"Do you love me?" Roxas sighed and shook his head.

"Namine I don't think I know what love its, and if I did love you then I'd know." He explained. She sat up, her blond hair draped over her right shoulder was now shooting down her back, and she was beautiful, in Roxas's opinion but untouchable.

"I've been having these… flashbacks. When I was coming down the stairs for dinner, you and I were down there dressed in dinner clothes and dancing together. You asked me what I got for your birthday and I said nothing…" Namine sat leaned back on the side of her bed. If I hadn't already mentioned, they were on the floor, leaned up agenst Namine's bed talking. Namine laughed.

"Yeah, about an hour after that you left. Then everybody was killed except me, Tabby and Falcon, like I said. You came back after two years and by then Tabby and Falcon had left. You told me to erase your memory and I did. Axel took you away and the rest is history." She explained, so it all made sense. (Let me break it down for you.

He and Namine had grown up together in the Mansion, Namine had fallen in love with him but he didn't love her. At her 16th birthday party Roxas left for reasons unknown and everybody died after words. Two years after that Roxas came home wanting Namine to erase his memory and Axel was to take him back to the Organization. Namine erased everything except the fact that he belonged to the Organization, his birthday etc. Another three years pass and Roxas is imprisoned in Sora's head, to follow him and make sure he's safe, Namine seals herself into Kairi's head. Namine gets out because Axel needs Roxas to be safe in the Mansion Roxas is taken by Namine to the mansion where we are now.)

Roxas stared up at the wooden ceiling and sighed in happiness. Everything fit now, except his past. He needed to figure out what his childhood was like and maybe— just maybe— his flashbacks would be good to him.

How wrong he proved to be.

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That night, Namine fell asleep in Roxas's arms. The last thing she remembered was Roxas talking about how Axel had always pissed him off all the time. Her heart was at peace, though. Roxas was back in her life again and everything was whole again. The feeling of his arm around her shoulder sends butterflies escaping from some unknown cage deep within her heart. And when he paused to breathe, and he started talking all over again, the butterflies fluttered out again.

But for Roxas, he felt awkward. Namine loved him and he didn't love her. Maybe when this was all over, he would fall in love with her. The only thing that stopped him from doing that was probably her face. There was one thing in her eyes that stopped him from swearing and sending out sarcastic remarks, something that kept him tame. When he tried to get her attention, she was sound asleep curled up into his arm. He couldn't help but sigh. She was chasing him. He could tell.

Sure, he liked her, but he didn't love her. Love was too strong a word. If he was given the chance, he'd do anything for her but he wouldn't love her. It was just… like that. Sometimes, people are like that.

Carefully, he picked her up. He couldn't help but notice the flowery smell radiating from her. It was something like… peaches. Paupu! That's what she smelt like. He took a deep inhale and exhaled happily. Roxas layed Namine on the bed while awkwardly trying to bring up the sheets and tuck her in.

He turned when suddenly he felt watched, he turned.

Oh, great. Another fucking flashback.

His doppelganger Roxas was sitting on the edge of the bed, pushing some bangs away from Namine's face, who lay there un-stirring. (Which do you prefer, stirred or un-stirred yogurt? Personally, I enjoy un-stirred. Why? Because you can add granola and drown them. Mwahahahahahaha.) Roxas leaned down, clad in his Organization cloak and kissed Namine's forehead.

"So you're really going to leave her?" Roxas jumped back to see an apparition of Axel standing in the door way. Roxas's clone stood up and looked down at Namine's sleeping form.

"I have too. Because of me she killed all those people," Roxas's blood ran cold.

She killed all those people… was he talking about the guests at the birthday party? Roxas quivered in fear and fright. Axel sighed and brushed some hair away from his face.

"Keith is… or was, a real prick, isn't he? Her own father telling such lies…" Roxas stayed silent. An alarm went off in Axel's head.

"He… he was lying, wasn't he?" Roxas turned his way and Axel felt revolution churn his stomach.

"You made love to her with the intent of revenge? Look, Roxas—"

"This isn't something smart people talk about when we're hovering over her, jackass. I'll explain once we're gone." Roxas took one last look at Namine who was sleeping peacefully on her side, facing them.

The REAL Roxas watched as his twin and Axel exited the room. He followed after them with the intent of finding out more. They were walking down the steps when Roxas caught up.

"Roxas I thought you loved her! I mean, all those times…" Roxas stopped mid way down the stairs. He was still clutching the banister.

"Axel sometimes love has to be given up for the sake of other things. Keith raped Tabby, I'm sorry it was the only way to get back at him. He blew his fucking brains out for Christ's sake. That's good enough for me," Roxas continued down the stairs.

"But you got Namine pregnant…" Roxas laughed and continued down the steps until he reached the bottom.

"Haven't you ever heard of a miscarriage?" Roxas said coldly. Axel's heart skipped a beat which made him cough. He could still vividly remember the time Namine fell down these very stairs. Axel looked up as to remember the time, and it was then did Roxas notice that Namine was standing beside him!

He was taken aback then he realized that it was only an apparition. A younger Namine was standing beside him, holding onto the railing. Her eyes had circles underneath her beautiful blue eyes which were puffy from crying. Roxas gave her a queer look but before he could say anything, Namine toppled over and tumbled down the stairs! Roxas moved quickly to snatch her hand as she gathered speed, but he only caught air. He watched helplessly as she rolled down the stairs, her cries of pain were left unheeded as she continued to roll at the bottom of the stairs and stop. She lay there for a second until she huddled into a small ball and screamed out in pain Blood seemed to shoot out from within her and wet the dark red carpet around her.

She lay still for a second then stood up crying. A huge clot of blood and membrane trickled down her leg and into the floor. Namine screamed.

Roxas took a step back in horror and gargled back some spit. He'd never seen anything like that before, sure, he'd seen girls have their periods with pads or tampons but he'd never seen a miscarriage or ever thought of one at all. Vomit snickered at the back of his throat and threatened to come up unless he looked away. Her image faded after she stood up and ran into the dining room.

Roxas's twin stared at the spot where Namine had lay, there was a large deep red colored splot on the floor which Roxas had not noticed before.

"You mean, she fell purposely?" Axel asked.

"Yes, because she didn't want my kid because she wasn't ready," Roxas said simply. Axel, who was standing where Roxas had once stood, glared at him with anger.

"You're a damned fool you are! Roxas she loved you, and you led her on for revenge! Can you get that through your head?" Axel demanded, Roxas was heading towards the front door and was opening it. In a blink of an eye, Axel was in front of him, grabbing at Roxas's shoulders, the expression of a madman on his face.

"Frankly, this doesn't even concern you, Axel. You're not my father," Roxas said coolly.

"You drove Namine to kill your father! You're a jackass, Roxas! You're a manipulative basterd with no Heart—"

"We're Nobodies! We're not supposed to have Hearts!!!" Roxas threw into his face. Axel said no more for he had lost his battle. After one fierce glare, Roxas went through the door to see Demyx who was leaning up agenst one of the pillars, tuning his sitar.

"As soon as I come back I'm going to make her erase my memory. It'll be the only way out," Roxas murmured and exited his home, abandoning a part of himself.

The memory ended. The authentic Roxas stood on weak knees. All this new information on his past was wreaking him, driving him insane. He turned around and headed back to Namine's room

He needed a hug.

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Sora took the yellow slip from the nurse and thanked her. His things were packed in a suitcase Riku had taken from his home. Kairi and Riku were waiting outside for him in the Jeep. Smiling, Sora exited the hospital and rushed towards the yellow Jeep. (Yes, yellow.) Kairi was in the back seat, waving and Riku was at the wheel. The radio was blaring 90's rock ballads, Sora put his suitcase in the back and slid into the front seat.

"How does it feel not having to call shotgun, Sora?" Kairi questioned from the back. Sora smile at her joke.

"Awesome, totally radical." He answered, Riku gave a hoarse laugh and turned out of the emergency zone and out onto the main road. Everything that happened next was a blur.

Riku had turned around look at Kairi when a long black car, resembling a hurse, crashed into Riku's side door at an intersection. Sora had seen it coming and tried to turn the wheel. Kairi had seen it too and grabbed onto Sora's arm, together, on impact they were thrown out of the car, through the windshield and out tumbling onto the hot pavement. Kairi landed on her left side and rolled a good three meters away from Sora who had just flopped and flipped onto his back. The sun was just peeking over the clouds; it was noon. Sora shut his eyes and let the darkness smother him and rock him to sleep.

A/N: Hey again!!! It is thy, .kittykute. And I have a confession to make. I've stalked all of the pages of those who have reviewed on my story. Lebrezie, I STOLE YOUR BUNNY!!!

Hehe… cookies. Anyways, any suggestions would be welcome, as always.

Weirdest thing happened today, there is this girl in the other 10th grade class, her name is Lola, (Yeah, Lola.) and she comes skipping into Gym class this morning and announces in the locker room, 'I don't have to participate in Gym because I'M PREGNANT!!!' I dropped my gym pants. Turns out she wasn't lying, she has a real bun in the oven. Personally I laughed. She's such a skank it's not even funny. We wear uniforms, you see and she hikes her skirt up so high you can see Mount. Rushmore from down here. She's been layed by every available guy, (Including my own boyfriend, which makes me edgy,) and to top it all off, SHE FLIRTS WITH ALL THE MALE TEACHERS!!!

I'm not over exaggerating or whatever but my Language dude, Mr. Barch, SHE'S ALL OVER HIM ALL THE TIME!!! Eww, it gives my the jeebies thinking about it.

Anyways enough of my crappy life and more or ROXASXNAMINE!!! I created an account on and if I ever find out how I'll post some poetry. I'm kittykute as I am here.

CRY AND NEVER DIE YOUNG

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