"Anemone! You got orders waitin!"
"All right, all right." I shouted back. As I walked through the drunken men I swatted hands away from my body. Mayu, one of the waitresses and a coworker, slapped hands with me as I passed; I grabbed the note as we did. I sighed as I traded trays for a full one. Man cheered as I walked back into the crowd.
"Eh! Anemone, when're you gonna sing?" a drunk man asked as I set his beer in front of him.
"When you all aren't drunken bastards." I said swatting his hand away from my hip. The rest around the table laughed.
"Then you'll never sing!" the man said in despair.
"That's not my fault now is it?" I set the rest of the mugs down and rushed through the crowd. I stepped over the low rail to get into the kitchens. Sighing and taking a few deep breaths I unfolded the note.
Hey girl! Come up to our room for a bit when your break comes. I'll get you a cookie!
I heard my name being called, groaning I walked over to it. The red face of my boss was redder than normal.
"When the customers demand it what do we do?" he asked finger jabbing my shoulder. I sighed.
"Give it to them." I mumbled.
"Then what are you doing down here?!" he shouted. "Get up on that stage!" he turned then turned back, looking at me. "First change clothes. There's a new outfit in you're closet." I sighed, it was probably going to be really, really skimpy.
I stepped into the separate room locking the door behind me. I walked over to another door and opened it. Inside there was a deep midnight blue fabric. My heart fluttered slightly when I brought it out. Old man's wife still has it in her. She had always made my outfits. Too old to walk very much she sewed like lightning instead. She disapproves of the skimpy outfits so she tries to cover as much as she can. She had really outdone herself this time though. When I pulled it apart it looked like two really long scarves. The fabric, or fabrics, silks and a strange see-through one, draped over me amazingly. I wrapped it in a complicated way around me as the written instructions told me to. I applied a bit more make up and was ready to go on. I went out a back door to the stage. Spotlights were already on, marking my spot on stage. My heart was ready to burst. The drunken men cheered as I walked into the warm light. I thought for a minute of a song. When I squinted I could see out a window. I saw that it was snowing. Memories of a tall handsome man flooded my mind. It was the first snowfall then, when he left without a word. A song started singing and I realized it was me singing. I closed my eyes and really listened to the lyrics.
It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull
Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far, far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue
Can you hear me out there?
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me?
I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes
But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear
Anyone out there hear me now?
Will you hold me now Hold me now my frozen heart
Kiss my lips
And maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now my frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will
The men cheered as they heard the end. Tears filled my eyes and I bit my lip to keep them away. They started shouting again, giving out song names and telling me to keep going. I smiled and started another song, really putting my heart into it.
Monouge na kimi, hitomi ni utsuru hoshi
Matataki haruka tooi, iku kounen no namida
Come be as one
Come be as one
And fall in love
In love, in love, in love
Touch it touch it now
Touch the tears & the rainbow
Kako ni te ni haireta monosashi wa mou sutete
Touch it touch it now
Touch the tears & the rainbow
Ai no mama kanjite
Ame no sasayaki, mimi wo katamukete
Soko ni kakusareta, nanairo no himitsu
Come be as one
Come be as one
And fall in love
In love, in love, in love
Touch it touch it now
Touch the tears & the rainbow
Niji no naka ame ga taiyou ni kuchidzukeru
Touch it touch it now
Touch the tears & the rainbow
Just the way you are
The boss was smiling a grimy smile. He nodded to me and I left the stage relieved.
"You're done for tonight." He grumbled. I nodded and nearly ran to the dressing room. I stole a glance from a mirror and stopped dead in my tracks. I walked back slowly and stared at myself. I really did look beautiful. My long silver hair seemed almost to sparkle like starlight. That was impossible though it was just my imagination. My hair couldn't sparkle; I hadn't put anything in it, right? Frowning I grabbed my clothes and took another door out and climbed the stairs on the side of the building. I knocked twice and waited for a few seconds before scratching at the door. It swung open and Mayu stood with her mouth open. She stopped mid speech and stared. I giggled a little and moved under her arm to get inside, it was freezing. She shut the door quickly.
"Well hello hot stranger." Mayu whistled and I blushed. "That old woman has out done herself." I nodded.
"It feels wonderful on me too." I twirled and the trails of fabric circled me as I stopped.
"I wanna try it on!" Mayu whimpered. I laughed.
"It's pretty complicated to put on but I think I can remember." I pulled on some of the cloth and it slid off. I put on my normal clothes and turned to help Mayu. After three tries we finally got it on right. Mayu squealed and ran to the mirror. She smiled and slowly started to frown I stood behind her looking at her too. "What's wrong." I asked. She sighed.
"It's not as pretty on me." She pulled the fabric and changed again.
"What do you mean?" I asked, confused.
"You've never noticed?" her tone sounded surprised.
"Noticed what?" I asked sitting on the floor crossed-legged.
"Whoa." She laughed. "I've watched you sing sometimes. Haven't you noticed that's the only time everything is completely quiet?" I opened my mouth to speak but Mayu stopped me. "I mean you glow when you're on stage! You seem to come alive when you're up there. You practically sparkle. It's the only time that happens, when you sing it's like magic." I stared at the floor, digesting her words.
"Really?" I asked quietly. Mayu laughed.
"Hey I may not be the most honest person in the world but I don't have a reason to lie about this." We laughed. "Truthfully I admire you so much." She said sincerely.
"Whoa, mushy moment." I giggled as Mayu smacked me. "You must be pretty tired."
"Yeah well so should you." Her face was concerned again. "Are you okay?"
"Yep, why?" I asked.
"Well it's the first snow." She said slowly. I winced and laughed humorlessly.
"I'm fine really." She didn't seem convinced but dropped it anyway.
"Well time for bed." She climbed onto a dirty mattress on the floor. I followed her example on my own mattress. I wrapped the thick blanket around me and snuggle into the sheets. "Goodnight." Mayu whispered.
"Goodnight." I replied. Though I knew I wouldn't sleep. Her words had really surprised me. I also knew I would have those painful memories replayed if I closed my eyes. So instead I sang softly the last song I had sung earlier. The lyrics seemed to get to me and tears dripped onto the sheets to leave a dark, wet spot.
A/N: second chapter uploaded today. ugh it's late and now i'm really tired. so goodnight. oh wait i don't own the songs. they belong to olivia lufkin. they're pretty cool if you ever want to listen to them the first one's winter sleep and the second is tears and rainbows. i'll use more of her songs later too. anyways review please. bye. hope you enjoyed.