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Okay, here it is, chapter 5 finally. I actually had some trouble with this one. I had it all written but then changed my mind and decided to change it all around.

Thanks again to Capt. Ritter for the help and useful advice. The second good tip in a matter of days. I hope this doesn't have as many run-on sentence which I have a tenancy to write. Thanks again to all those others who have reviewed this so far. Gives me the motivation to keep writing.

Tell me what you think and enjoy…

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John sat there for a few minutes taking in everything that Ford had said to him. He knew what Ford said was true and he knew he had to deal with his problems. He told Ford that it was about how he was raised but that was in the past. He needed to move on. He needed to open up to someone at sometime. Everyone already knew about his little temper tantrum that he had in his room. And Teyla…….Teyla deserved an explanation. I need to tell her what is going on. She deserves to know.

John looked both ways. There were no doctors or scientists or anything in sight. He turned so that his feet were hanging over the edge of his bed. He slowly stood up. A smile appeared o his face as he realized that all his strength in his legs had returned. He pulled the IVs out of his arm and began to walk foreward. He found his clothes and changed out of his johnny so he would be presentable.

After getting changed, he started out of the room. Nobody was there at the moment to stop him so he continued. All he could think about was Teyla and how much he needed to talk to her. Miserable? Ford said that she was miserable. I didn't want Teyla to be miserable because of him. That's not what he wanted. He just didn't want to tell her anything at the time. While walking deep in thought he didn't notice that Elizabeth walked by.

"John……" She said stopping and turning around to face him. "What are you doing out of the infirmary."

"Listen……I'll go back when I get finished with what I need to do." He said. He left it at that and kept on going. He stopped at Teyla's quarters but there didn't seem to be anyone there.

"She's out on the balcony." Elizabeth said. John nodded and started towards the balcony. He had to talk to her.

He walked for what seemed like an eternity, Ford's words running through his head over and over again making him feel more and more guilty by the second. When he got to the balcony and opened the door, sure enough, she was standing at the edge. She was leaning on the railing to look at the ocean. She didn't turn her head or anything. He slowly walked up and leaned on the railing beside her trying not to startle her much.

When he looked over at her, what he saw shocked and broke his heart. The guilt already so present in his system started gnawing at him more and more. She closed her eyes and a couple tears dropped.

"No…….don't cry Teyla." John said in a very soft voice. She didn't notice at first until John put his hand on her shoulder.

"John……what are you doing out here?" Teyla said a little in shock as she stood up strait. She frantically wiped the tears from her face as she fought a losing battle to regain her composure.

"Are you okay?" John said in a compassionate voice. He could see the confusion on her face. "I came here because I needed to talk to you about something."

Teyla had her mouth open and was about to say something when John started talking. "Teyla…….I…." Suddenly a wave of dizziness crashed through his body making him stumble back a few feet.

"Oh my god." Teyla said as she walked over and grabbed his arm. "Are you okay?" She asked but she was answered with a blank expression. "John?"

"Teyla……..need to talk to you." John said finally regaining his balance.

"No……you need to go back to the infirmary." Teyla said in a firm voice. He knew she was worried about him but he had to talk to her.

John started to walk foreward when he dropped to the floor holding his head. He yelled out in agony as the pain returned to him full force like it did before. This caught Teyla by surprise. She thought that McKay had the device off and that it only had this effect on him when it was on.

She knelt down in front of him. John had his head cradled in his hands and his eyes squinted shut in pain. "John…….what's happening?" she asked.

"McKay." John said before screaming in pain again. Teyla didn't know what to do for him. The only thing she thought would help was to get Dr. Beckett.

"John…." She said trying to get his attention. He didn't respond. She put her hands on his cheeks and tilted his head so that he was face to face with her. "John…….look at me."

John opened his eyes to look at Teyla. "John…….I need to go find Dr. Beckett." He gave her a look of understanding. She reluctantly let go of John's face and ran out the door.

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"Oh no." McKay said as he frantically searched the top of his desk for the device he found in the lower levels of the city. "Where did it go? It was right here just a little while ago." He kept searching with no success when Weir walked in.

"Rodney……what's going on?" She asked as she watched him rustle through everything on his desk.

"It's gone." McKay said

"What is?" Weir asked fear what his answer would be.

"The device." McKay irritably said. "It was right here on the desk and now its gone." He ran a hand through his hair in frustration. "You know what that thing does to Colonel Sheppard. Weir touched her radio.

"Dr. Beckett……are you there?" She said.

"This is Beckett……what's going on?" He said as he walked into the room that John had been in. He stopped and stared at the bed thinking the worse.

"The device is gone." She said. "If someone turns that on, Colonel Sheppard may be in trouble."

"Tell me about it." Beckett said as he looked at the bed in the infirmary. "Colonel Sheppard is missing too." He walked back out the door when he ran into Teyla.

She stumbled back after colliding with him.

"Teyla, are you okay?" He asked not knowing about what had happened to John on the balcony.

"It's John." She said breathing heavy from running all the way to the infirmary. "There is something wrong with him." After hearing the words out of her mouth, he ran for the door with Teyla on his heels.

Together, they both sprinted the entire way from the infirmary to the balcony. When Beckett opened the door, John was laying there unconscious on the floor.

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So there it is. Some of you said you wanted more whumping……is this what you wanted? Hope you like it.

To be continued…..