Boku tsumani: Sometimes I…

OV: Have what you want, but want what you have…

AN: This should be the chapter of revelation. Sneaking Nightmare, chap 12, has a purpose… sinister grin plot twist bunnies abound there…

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Umm, warning, lymon in this chapter…it's all Naruto's fault… well Sasuke helped…and Shikamaru allowed it! (more than lime, perhaps not quite lemon)

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They entered the office to a grinning Shikamaru, "About time you decided to get to work."

"Yeah that means a lot coming from the world's laziest ninja!!" Naruto retorted.

He took his position behind his desk and accepted the stack of papers Shika handed him. Naruto put Sasuke to work filing, sorting, and running errands. Sasuke took orders reluctantly, but he never complained. His eyes flashed that he felt mildly degraded to be stuck doing Naruto's bidding, however, he accepted even the most menial task without a word.

Eventually Naruto sent him to go pick up lunch from Ichiraku Ramen. He decided to take his break a bit early, and pulled his drawer open after Sasuke had left. He'd been after a ceramic jug of water he'd stashed in there the last time he'd worked, but as his eyes fell on a light blue folder he couldn't resist opening it.

He read through the whole thing, twice actually, before Sasuke returned. What he read made him at once sickened, incensed, and enlightened. He now knew all the gruesome details of Itachi's dastardly murder of his clan. He knew of Sasuke's progress through the academy, and during his Genin training. He also knew of anything that had occurred regarding Sasuke since he'd left Konoha's green foliage to run to Orochimaru.

Inside the folder were details concerning many battles and experiments which Tsunade had been able to gather information on. Naruto felt sickened when he read about Orochimaru's body transfer technique. He shuddered when he realized Sasuke had once admitted he'd gladly endure that in order to achieve the power to defeat his brother. Somehow Sasuke had overpowered Orochimaru when the time had come.

Naruto closed the folder with a snap and slipped it back into his drawer. He had a grin on his face, and was inordinately happy. He wondered if Sasuke knew just how much information they had gathered on him and Oro. He was at that moment offering thanks that Sasuke had prevailed, and he'd come home, finally. His smile was because Sasuke, his closest and most special person, had returned.

Sasuke stepped into the room at that moment carrying three boxes of ramen and extra sides of sweet cakes. The cakes were a gift from Teuchi and Ayame. He placed Shikamaru's food on the corner of his desk, and crossed to pull up a chair in front of Naruto's. He handed Naruto his ramen and opened his box allowing the steam to escape sending wafts of spicy broth and the starchy aroma of noodles into the room. He had discovered he liked spicy ramen, while Naruto went for the more traditional miso with grilled pork and egg, naruto, and vegetables.

Naruto watched Sasuke eat, following the chopsticks as the plunged into the depths of the box. He watched as the muscles of Sasuke's arm writhed beneath his skin as he grabbed a bunch of noodles, and followed their progress to his waiting open lips. Naruto licked his own lips making something sensual out of the ordinary action of eating. Sasuke was oblivious to his audience, but Shikamaru had noted that Naruto had yet to touch his box as his attention was distracted. He silently slipped out of the room to his own office next door.

Sasuke slurped his noodles and Naruto was drawn closer as he followed their progress. Sasuke paused, a drop of broth running down his chin as he noticed Naruto wasn't eating. Suddenly it was too much for the blonde to contain and he swooped in and swiftly licked the broth off Sasuke's chin ending with a gentle stroke across the unsuspecting lips. Mmmm, he tastes spicy, Naruto thought.

He sat back in his chair with a soft sigh. He then opened his own ramen and slurped it down in his typical rapid fashion. He'd been purposely hiding his face in his box as he ate and now peeked over its top as he lowered it to drink the broth. Sasuke was looking at him with an unidentifiable expression on his face. There was a glimmer in the dark eyes that Naruto couldn't recall ever seeing before. It was as if Sasuke had seen Naruto for the first time.

Sasuke was recalling something that had happened to him so far in his past he'd completely forgotten it. It was that moment when they had sat in the room at the academy for the first time. He was brooding as usual and simply waiting for class to begin. Naruto was being his typical loud annoying self. It was when Sakura and Ino were fighting over who would get to set next to Sasuke that Naruto's attention turned to him. He crawled onto the desk in front of the somber ebony haired boy and leaned right into his face where he loudly exclaimed how he couldn't see what was so special about Sasuke. Unfortunately for the boys Shikamaru had then taken his seat in front of them and inadvertently bumped him causing him to lean in further and his and Sasuke's lips join in an unforeseen kiss.

Although they had both been shocked at the action, the kiss had lingered for more than just the mere second it should have. It was only when they realized what was going on that they broke apart. They had both yelled about violation and whatever, but Sasuke remembered thinking that it hadn't been a bad situation. His mouth turned up in a slight grin; something that had been happening with disturbing frequency since his unplanned return.

Naruto queried what he was thinking, and Sasuke admitted nonchalantly, "I was remembering our first kiss."

The immediate blush on Naruto's face convinced Sasuke that he hadn't been the only one who had enjoyed tat kiss from long ago. A look of understanding crossed both their faces as they realized they had both been secretly attracted to the other since then. Naruto's expression revealed that he had only just realized it. Sasuke's showed that he had realized it but had tried to deny the attraction.

Their eyes met across the expanse of Naruto's desk. "When we were training, I used to watch you," Sasuke confessed. "You were always so exuberant and had such energy. Your eyes always shone with excitement and energy. You were like sunlight glinting on a dancing wave with your blonde hair and blue eyes." He wasn't averting his gaze; he was looking at Naruto with a pleading look in his eyes to be accepted.

Naruto voiced his admission, "I used to watch you too. You were always so toned and your pale skin shines in the sunlight, and even more so at night. When we were on missions I would watch you sleep. I didn't understand what I was thinking; I just knew I liked to watch you."

He paused, "When you left Konoha I was devastated. I had lost my most precious person. You were always there, and it was hard to accept that you could go and leave me behind."

He looked directly into Sasuke's eyes, "I've missed you Sasuke."

Sasuke stared into Naruto's eyes, the same expression from his pale face reflected in the tan visage before him. "I missed you too, I'm actually glad to be back," he admitted grudgingly.

Naruto reached across his desk and grasped Sasuke's hand. He kept his hold as he rounded his desk and stood in front of the raven haired man and used it to pull him to his feet. He stood in front of him blue eyes fusing with black. He felt himself being pulled into the depths of Sasuke's eyes and followed the urge. They gazed into each other's eyes as finally their lips met. Naruto was amused at the spark that danced in Sasuke's dark orbs. Sasuke was engulfed by the longing for affection he saw in the cerulean abyss before him.

Their eyes slowly closed and their bodies moved of their own accord to meld together. Naruto pulled slightly back, not enough to break contact, just enough to repeat the earlier gesture of running his tongue across Sasuke's lips. Sasuke shivered and slightly parted his lips allowing the knocking visitor entrance. A soft moan sounded from someone as Naruto's tongue probed and danced over the surfaces of Sasuke's mouth. He tasted the spicy broth from the ramen Sasuke had eaten earlier.

A soft "Unh," sounded in Naruto's throat as he felt his tongue being challenged and Sasuke began his own exploration of Naruto's lips and mouth. Their tongues danced together, the rough surfaces rasping, sending waves of pleasure jolting down both men's spines.

They pulled apart, Naruto taking in as much air as he could to prolong his need to breathe for as long as possible and allow them to lengthen the next kiss. Sasuke panted and inhaled deeply as he felt soft pressure on the back of his head from the hand Naruto had tangled in his hair, encouraging him to rejoin Naruto's impatiently waiting lips.

This time as their lips touched a spark of electric chakra passed between them. Naruto's eyes popped open, but the smile he saw reflected in Sasuke's eyes and the arched eyebrow informed him that it was merely a taste of Sasuke's passion. The thought ran across Naruto's mind of wondering what sex with Sasuke would be like if just kissing him released that little burst of chakra.

Naruto grabbed Sasuke's waist with his other hand and pulled their hips together completing the joining of their entire bodies. Sasuke wrapped his leg around one of Naruto's and slipped his other thigh between Naruto's knees. His hands wandered over Naruto's body caressing, grasping, feeling. He wanted to feel Naruto's skin, and that robe was just in the way, so he roughly pulled it off. Naruto's hand had to untangle from his aphotic locks to allow the sleeve to slip off, and he helped Sasuke remove the offending garment with a flick of his hand.

Instead of regaining his hold on Sasuke's hair Naruto slid his hand down the length of Sasuke's body. He liked the feel of the skin under the tight tank top, and his hand slipped beneath the fabric to gently but firmly rake Sasuke's back with his nails, leaving four running lines of redness from his waist to his shoulder.

Sasuke threw his head back with an "Auughh," and Naruto took the opportunity to explore the exposed flesh of Sasuke's neck. He roughly shoved the pale man back onto his desk and bent down to his waist kissing and nipping and sucking the pearlescent flesh as he went up Sasuke's body, pulling off the tank top with a smooth motion and tossing it somewhere. Naruto noticed that when he bit Sasuke he would flinch, but moan with pleasure.

He smirked and nipped Sasuke's neck causing him to grab Naruto's head forcing him to apply more pressure to the sensitive skin. Naruto took the hint and began to attack the smooth flesh with vigor. He sucked Sasuke's neck and licked his earlobe. Sasuke could only lean against the desk trapped by Naruto's body, head thrown back, back arched in ecstasy.

Naruto ground his pelvis into Sasuke's and pulled him towards him to stifle the moan that threatened to escape from his lips with his mouth. For once Sasuke was entirely content to allow Naruto to take the lead in something. He followed Naruto's subtle nudges, caresses, and gestures without opposition. He was content to be Naruto's Uke.

There was still, however, a part of him that couldn't let Naruto beat him completely in this challenge of giving pleasure. So eventually he pulled Naruto's mesh top off and grabbed a handful of Naruto's hair and yanked his head back. He then proceeded to lick the now revealed neck from earlobe to shoulder and back again. When he reached the ear he released the breath he'd been holding and noticed that Naruto arched his back in response to the rush of air flowing past his ear. Sasuke tested this again by nibbling Naruto's ear and breathing just naturally through his nose; which happened to be positioned over the apparently sensitive organ. Again Naruto arched his back grinding his hips into Sasuke's groin.

A loud moan greeted the action as Sasuke received the delicious pressure against his engorged manhood. "Ahh, that feels sooo good," he hissed in Naruto's ear. Whether in response to the words or the breath behind them blowing across his ear Naruto thrust against Sasuke again. This time he deliberately ground their pelvises together forcing their stiffened members to come into complete contact beneath their clothing.

This time they both moaned together and Naruto molded his body against Sasuke's, every exposed inch of their heated flesh pressing together. They thrust their hips together eventually finding a comfortable rhythm, lips locked together again in a passionate kiss. Sasuke broke apart first emitting a, "Na-ah-ru-u-u-to!" in time to their rhythm. He tried again, "If-w-e-don't-sto-op…I'm-nuh-not-go-oh-ohhhh," the plea ended in a throaty moan as Naruto ruthlessly increased his pressure. He knew what Sasuke was feeling, he had almost reached that point too, and they hadn't even dispensed with their pants yet!

Naruto smirked evilly, "Don't-stop," he ordered, then recaptured the luscious lips that were wasting prime kissing time trying to talk. They mashed their lips together, tongue thrusting, darting in and out resuming the dance of the French. Naruto had his hand on Sasuke's lower back and he urged him to press his hips harder, faster, rocking to the left, back, forward, grinding to the right. Every time their bodies connected another jolt of electric chakra passed over them. Suddenly Naruto grabbed Sasuke's ass tightly and arched his back, an uncontainable growl forced from his lips as he thrust once, and again, harder, harder, then in one slow strong movement pressing their groins together as sweet release arrived for both of them. Sasuke voiced his own, "Grahhhhh!" at that same moment, his head thrown back.

Sasuke flopped back onto Naruto's desk and Naruto collapsed on top of him. They were both gasping for breath, and a trickle of sweat rolled down Naruto's forehead to splash onto Sasuke's shoulder where his head was resting. Sasuke splayed his hands across Naruto's chest gently massaging the sensitive pectoral muscle, thumb toying with the erect nipple.

Neither of them spoke, they merely lay there. Eventually Naruto began to snigger. The snigger turned into a chuckle, which escalated until he was flat out laughing. When Sasuke had the audacity to ask what was so funny, Naruto's laughter, which had been abating, resumed full force.

Finally controlling himself, Naruto eventually confessed the logic behind his euphoria, "Ummm, how are we going to get to my rooms without being seen to clean ourselves up?" A chuckle slipped out, "Especially you. I can cover up with my robe, but you only have your short jacket." Naruto's face had an amused smirk.

Sasuke wasn't angry that Naruto was laughing at his expense, he was now suddenly occupied with trying to discern a way this would be possible. Finally he hit on an idea.

"You go put your shirt and robe back on; I'll grab my tank top, wherever it is, and jacket. Once we're dressed I'll walk directly behind you. You, as you pointed out, can conceal behind your robe. I can conceal behind you," he revealed his plan.

Naruto shook his head grinning. That might just work. He wasn't about to mention that the marks he'd left on Sasuke's neck would still be visible. Sasuke didn't disclose that Naruto had been marked also, but he also thought the marks would probably be hidden by the robe, and so why mention them.

Once dressed they escaped to the living quarters. The only other people they passed were Naruto's guards, who were too well trained to admit if they saw anything.

Inside the main room with the door closed Naruto approached Sasuke. He playfully nipped at the other man's neck, "So who gets the shower first?" he inquired.

Sasuke replied with a, "Mmmm, share." Muttered into Naruto's neck which he had now began gently attacking.

They left a trail of clothing behind them from the front door, through Sasuke's room, and into the bathroom. First fell Naruto's robe, again. Then, Sasuke's jacket and tank (which incidentally had been located hanging from the overhead light in Naruto's office,) were tossed aside. These were followed by Naruto's mesh shirt, Sasuke's jeans, Naruto's pants, and just outside the bathroom door Sasuke's boxers. Naruto was the last one with anything on, but that was reconciled just inside the bathroom door.

Sasuke forgot about showering as he greedily took in every inch of Naruto's readily available tanned flesh. He reached out a hand to trace the pattern of the seal over Naruto's navel, causing an involuntary shudder to pass through Naruto's body.

Naruto replied by placing his hands on Sasuke's shoulders and luxuriating in slowly touching every inch of chalky skin. Sasuke shut his eyes and relaxed into Naruto's caresses. They kissed roughly and passionately, and he responded to gentle pressure urging him to step closer and pressed their nude bodies together. Naruto deepened his kiss, and Sasuke felt his flaccid manhood stir again. The sensation of something hard pressing into his stomach alerted Sasuke that he was not the only one who had been aroused again.

Naruto pulled him toward the shower and stepped inside never allowing their lips or bodies to break contact. Sasuke gracefully slipped in with Naruto, pulling the curtain closed behind them. They parted at the chest just long enough to allow Naruto time to turn the water on, adjust the temperature, and direct the spray.

They then spent the better part of two hours exploring every inch of flesh, and making good use of a bar of soap to make that first introduction go a little easier. Sasuke was definitely the Uke. Naruto was gentle with him, caressing, loving, and taking his time so as not to hurt his Sasuke any more than necessary. They experienced orgasmic rapture over and over again, neither one being able to get enough of the other.

When the water turned cold they finally relented and shut off the spray. They climbed out of the stall and Naruto sensuously towel dried Sasuke, who returned the pleasure. Amazingly they were able to retreat to their rooms to get dressed in clean pyjamas without incident, although Sasuke definitely wasn't walking as freely as usual.

While alone Naruto went over the events of the day in his head. He had a broad smile on his face when he replayed their long, erotic shower. Sasuke had admitted he thought he was definitely falling for Naruto. Naruto didn't yet admit that he'd already fell.

Sasuke was picking up their clothing when Naruto emerged from his room. Blue eyes met black and they both smiled. "It's good to see you smile," Naruto commented. "You are so handsome, but I especially love to look at your face when you smile. Most of all, I love it when you smile for me."

Sasuke shrugged and replied simply, "I haven't had much to smile about before. You give me something."

Sasuke thought, sometimes, I used to dream of this. I keep fearing I will wake up and find that once again I am just dreaming. He looked at Naruto with a humbled expression. Sometimes, I guess, you do actually get what you wish for. I don't ever want this to end, I have everything I could want.

"Naruto," Sasuke began, "Arigato." He said with so much love in his eyes Naruto had to just stop and look at him.

Finally he crossed the room, placed his hands on either side of Sasuke's face, looked him in the eyes and replied, "I would do this all again if I knew it would turn out like this. But… don't you ever leave me again," he ordered, and he kissed him.

Sasuke's mind raced; sometimes, I think I can see my future. Today I know my future. Sometimes, I think I am strong enough. Today I know I am with you by my side. Sometimes, I fear my insignificance. Today, I know I am loved by you and it is enough.

He slipped into Naruto's arms and rested in the warmth of his embrace. I'm home.

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Ummhmmm… I have nothing to say. Sasuke and Naruto took over my mind …and fingers, and made me do it! Umm, I mean they did it! (Wait, that sounds worse…) but Yay they're together… for now… Uhh, heh, gotta go!

-Kneise