Authors Note: Hey guys. Okay first of all thanks for the reviews. They helped me get through last weekend. Second if this chapter sucks i'm sorry. I've got a lot on my mind and this just sort of came to me. But as always please leave me reviews. The opening song in this is Leave out all the rest by linkin park and the second is called Gotta Tell You by Samantha Mumba. As always let me know what you think okay. My fave part of this chapter is the ending. I dont know why but i love it.
Chapter Ten: Leave out all the rest
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taking my beating
I've shared what I've been
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
"Ladies and Gentlemen you've been a wonderful audience. Drive safe and come see again." Hyde said as they waved to the crowd then walked off the stage.
"Steven once again you guys were wonderful."
"Thanks Jackie." Hyde said as he smiled at her.
"Alright I'm heading back to the dressing room." Eric said as he stared at Hyde.
"I'll go with you." Hyde said as Jackie watched them walk away.
"Oh crap," Eric said as he stopped walking.
"What's up?" Hyde asked.
"I'll be right back I have to go take care of something."
"Okay man here I'll put the guitar back." Hyde said as he took Eric's guitar and walked away.
Eric made sure Hyde was gone before he walked over to Jackie's dressing room and opened the door. After making sure she wasn't there he pulled out a copy of their cd and pulled out the linear. He set it down on her vanity then turned around and left the room just as Jackie was walking down the hall with Travis.
"Alright Jackie I'll catch up with you later." Travis said as he eyed Eric.
Once Jackie was inside the room and the door was closed Travis confronted Eric.
"Hey man what's going on?" Travis asked.
"Nothing, I'm just trying to make sure things don't go back to how they use to be." He said before he walked away.
Travis looked at Jackie's door as he shook his head. "There is way too much damn drama in this group."
Jackie sat down in front of her vanity as she fixed her makeup, when she noticed something sitting next to the mirror that hadn't been there earlier. She picked it up and smiled when she realized that it was cd linear to the high's last cd. She began looking through it when she noticed that there was a dedication on the song forever.
'To D.F, always P.P'
Jackie dropped the linear as she tried to comprehend what she had just read. Uncertain of the dedication she picked up the linear and went to find Hyde.
"Steven," She said when she found him putting guitars into cases.
"Hey Jacks what's up?" Hyde said as he turned around to face her.
"Um I found this." She said as she handed him the linear.
"You found it? Okay what's up?"
"The dedication…on forever, is that to me?" Jackie asked as Hyde looked at her.
"Jackie,"
"Because if it is…then I don't know what to think, because that could mean that you want something with me and…"
"Jackie-"Hyde said as he grabbed her shoulders.
"What?"
"It's not to you. Alright it's just not. So just stay out of it." Hyde said as he quickly stormed away.
Jackie watched him walk away as confusion took over her. She bent down and picked up the linear off the ground and put it inside one of the guitar cases.
"You finally saw it." Eric said as Jackie jumped.
"Oh my god Eric you scared me."
"Sorry."
"Yeah I saw it."
"I was wondering when you would."
"Is it to me?"
"It's to the past you really."
"The person that cheated and broke his heart right?"
"Yeah, and he didn't want you to know about it."
"Why not?"
"Because apparently he's over it and he never wants to be like that again."
"So what you're saying is that because me asking him was a bad idea because it brings back all those memories of what I did."
"Yeah, and he doesn't want to live like that again."
"So he's mad?"
"I imagine so yes."
"Great." Jackie said as Eric walked away.
The rest of the night Jackie continued to try to get Hyde to talk to her, but he would only stare at her then walk away. Jackie tried to get Eric to help but he would tell her that it wasn't his problem and walk to where Hyde was standing at that time. It was beginning to annoy her so she decided to call it a night and try again in the morning.
"Hey it's me." Eric said as he held his phone to his ear.
"Hey baby, how are things going?" Donna asked.
"Not so good. I'm really afraid that something is going to happen."
"Happen? What are you talking about?"
"I'm afraid that Jackie and Hyde are going to get back together."
"What? Eric isn't that what you've wanted for a long time."
"It use to be. But lately…seeing them on tour together again. It's just…I don't want what happened to happen to him again."
"Eric he's a big boy he can handle himself."
"But he can't. Donna whenever he's with her…he's with her. She takes over him and when she's gone…there's nothing left of him. He just becomes a monster."
"Eric, Jackie loves Hyde. If they got back together…she wouldn't hurt him again."
"But how can you be sure?"
"I know her Eric. She's my best friend."
"She was your best friend before and she still hurt him."
"Eric,"
"No, I just…I've put a stop to it."
"What'd you do?"
"Nothing, just it's fine. I love you, kiss Samantha for me." Eric said before he hung up.
Donna turned off the phone and stared down at her sleeping daughter. "Your father is an idiot." She said to the baby before setting the phone on the table.
The next morning Jackie looked around for Hyde, until Travis told her that he went to do an interview and wouldn't be back till sound check. Jackie decided that the only way to get him to talk to her was to do something drastic so she walked over to her assistant and asked her for a little favor.
"Hey guys are we all set up?" Hyde asked as he walked over to Travis and Nick.
"Yeah man, we're ready. Jackie just got done." Nick said
"Okay where is she?"
"Dressing room…she said she wanted to take a nap before the show." Travis said.
"Good, lets get this check done." He said as he walked on to the stage.
"Jackie," Marissa said as she closed the door behind her.
"Yeah," Jackie said for her seat in front of her vanity.
"They're ready for you."
"Okay thanks." Jackie said as Marissa left the room. Jackie picked up her microphone headset and took one last glance at herself in the mirror. "Prepare to be amazed Steven Hyde." She said as she got up and walked out the door.
"Good luck out there Jackie." Travis said as Jackie nodded to him. She looked over at Hyde who was talking to Eric.
"Thanks Travis I'm going to need it." She said before she got on stage.
"Wow you guys have been great." Jackie said as she smiled at the crowd, "Well we've come to our last song of the night. Now I know you guys were expecting 4 in the morning or something else from my album. But tonight I have something I really need to do. I need to apologize to someone who means the world to me. He's one of my best friends and I wrote this song a long time ago and recorded it as a demo but never used it. So as my apology to him, I'm going to sing it, it's called "Gotta Tell You,"
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Your love for me came as a waterfall
Flowin' inside me like never before
Your love for me, somethin' I didn't see
But baby, I know better now
When you walk in the room that very night
A special feelin' just burst inside
It was only you, nobody else
But baby, I know better now
Don't wanna love you if you don't love me
Don't wanna need you when you won't need me too
Don't wanna tell you this now, but it wouldn't be
right
If I didn't tell you this tonight
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
And now you're back inside my house again
I'm tryin' deeper to explain
'Cause baby, I wanna get it on
And baby, you're the one for me
But now that I have got you all alone
After all this talkin' on the phone
I should be strong, there's nothing wrong
I'll tell you this is where you belong, where you
belong
Don't wanna love you if you don't love me
Don't wanna need you when you won't need me too
Don't wanna tell you this now, but it wouldn't be
right
If I didn't tell you this tonight
Don't wanna love you if you don't love me
Don't wanna need you when you won't need me too
Don't wanna tell you this now, but it wouldn't be
right
If I didn't tell you this tonight
It was just something in your eyes
That made me realize
But now I hear voices deep inside
Tellin' me, tellin' me
Don't wanna love you if you don't love me
Don't wanna need you when you won't need me too
Don't wanna tell you this now, but it wouldn't be
right
If I didn't tell you this tonight
Don't wanna love you if you don't love me
Don't wanna need you when you won't need me too
Don't wanna tell you this now, but it wouldn't be
right
If I didn't tell you this tonight
Jackie thanked the crowd then walked off the stage in search of a certain curly haired man. "Marissa, have you seen Hyde?"
"He's getting things set up."
"Did you see him when I was singing that?"
"Yeah, and he just kept staring at you."
"Well at least he finally looked at me."
"What happened between you two?"
"A lot actually and it's more history then it is anything in the present."
"Well I hope things work themselves out."
"Me too." Jackie said as she walked over to her dressing room.
"Jackie are you in here?" Hyde asked as he opened the door after the show.
"Yeah, what's up?" Jackie said as Hyde came in and closed the door.
"Listen I need to talk to you about that dedication."
"Steven, I shouldn't have-"
"Jackie wait…alright that dedication…it was to you. But it was the you that hurt me. The one that broke my heart. Not this you. So when you saw that…I just reverted to form and I remembered everything."
"Steven, I shouldn't have asked you about it. I should have just left it alone."
"No it was about time I explained it."
"Listen Steven, about everything that's been going on between us…"
"Jackie, I've been thinking and-"
-Knock- "Hey Hyde you in here?" Eric said as he poked his head in.
"Yeah man what's up?"
"I was wondering if we could talk."
"Uh can it wait?"
"No actually."
"Fine I'll be right there." Hyde said as he turned and looked at Jackie. "I'll be back in a few."
"Alright." Jackie said as Hyde squeezed her shoulder then walked out.
"Yeah man what's up?" Hyde asked as they walked into the band's dressing room.
"Okay I've been good about this and I haven't said anything, but I just I have to now."
"What's up man?"
"I don't think it's a good idea for you to be getting back together with Jackie."
"Wait weren't you the one who was pushing for me to be with her again. You told me you'd never seem me happier than when I was with her. And now you're saying that you don't think I should."
"Yeah,"
"Why?"
"Because I don't want to her to hurt you again and you lose yourself."
"Forman…what the hell?"
"Hyde we almost lost you. You almost died after she hurt you and I don't want that to happen again."
"Eric its not going to happen."
"What makes you so sure?"
"Because I'm not getting back together with Jackie,"
"What? But I thought?"
"I can't get back together with her." Hyde said.
"Donna it's me." Jackie said as Donna answered her phone.
"Hey Jackie, what's up?" Donna asked.
"So I found this dedication to me in the linear of The High's last cd."
"Oh…you found it?"
"Yeah…wait you knew about it?"
"Yeah I think everyone who knew you two like that did."
"Oh,"
"Did you ask Hyde about it?"
"Yeah and he got angry and blew me off. So I asked Eric about it but he wasn't much help either."
"You asked Eric?"
"Yeah, why what's up?"
"Jackie there's something you should know." Donna said as she told Jackie everything that Eric had told her.
"Oh my god, are you serious? He's the one that."
"Yeah, Jackie you have to understand his side."
"I know Donna. Trust me I know. But Eric has been…the only one here that's stood by me through all of it and now… I have to go talk to him."
"Alright, just call me later."
"I will bye." Jackie said as she hung up and went to find Eric.
"I thought you two were." Eric said as he stared at Hyde.
"Eric I can't get back together with her. I cant do that to her. I cant take away from her life like that."
"What do you mean?"
"She's just started her life and her career and if I got back together with her again…then that's all it would be."
"You mean she'd just be about you."
"Yeah…well maybe not totally but she'd be concentrating on us and not her music. And I don't want to take away from her music because she's so talented and she deserves everything she's gotten from this."
"So you're not going to get back together with her because you don't want her to give up on herself."
"Yeah, and that's why I think it'd be a good idea if I spent less time with her during this tour."
"I see."
"I love her…don't get me wrong Eric I do love her. I just don't want to ruin her." Hyde said as the brunette who had been listening on the other side of the door ran off with tears streaming down her face.
"I get it man." Eric said as he walked towards the door.
"Eric, I'm not going to lie to you. I've thought about it a lot. I'd love to be with her again. I miss the things we use to have together, but I…"
"No I get it man. Just…I get it." Eric said as he walked out.
Jackie ran into her dressing room and began throwing things into bags, when her phone rang.
"Hello." She said as she picked it up and went back to packing.
"Did you talk to him?" Donna said.
"No, I didn't have a chance to. He was talking to Steven."
"Were they talking about you?"
"Yeah, and I um…Donna…I'm leaving the tour."
"Wait what?"
"I just…I can't do this. After everything I've put Steven through and our past…I just…this was a bad idea."
"But Jackie-"
"Listen I have to go. I need to go let Marissa know." Jackie said as she hung up.
"Hello," Eric said as he answered his phone.
"Eric what the hell happened between you and Hyde?" Donna asked.
"Um…well we talked about him and Jackie mostly. Why what's up? And how did you find out I talked to Hyde already."
"Jackie told me. She heard you two and now she's leaving."
"What?"
"She's leaving the tour because she thinks it was a bad idea from the start."
"Jackie is just leaving."
"Yeah now go stop her." Donna said as she hung up.
Eric quickly ran to Jackie's room and nearly ran over Marissa who was walking out.
"Is she in there?"
"Yeah but she isn't in a good mood." Marissa said as she quickly walked away.
Eric opened the door and walked in as Jackie quickly spun around and glared at him. "What the hell gives you the right?"
"Jackie, wait-"
"No, what the hell were you thinking. You ruined everything. Everything was fine before you got all scared that I would ruin Steven again. Eric you know me. You know how badly I felt after I hurt him. Do you honestly think I could do that again?"
"Jackie,"
"No! Eric I could never hurt him like that again. I don't have it in me. I just I can't."
"Jackie I was worried about my brother."
"Eric I love your brother with my whole heart. He's everything to me. But I know why he doesn't want to be with me. I know the truth. I could have handled it. I could have been with him and kept with the music. But he wont give me the chance. And that's fine. I can handle that. But I want you to know…that I love him. More than you'll ever know. He was my world and now I have to let him go." Jackie said as she grabbed her bags.
"Jackie, wait-"
"No, I need to do this. I'm sorry." Jackie said as she walked out.
Eric walked out of her room and nearly collided with Hyde.
"Damn, where'd you come from?"
"She heard us didn't she?" Hyde asked.
"Yeah, she did."
"Where's she going?"
"She's leaving the tour Hyde."
"What?!"
"She said she couldn't handle this and she's leaving." Eric said as Hyde stared at him then ran towards the parking lot.
Jackie loaded her things into the limo then took one last look at the tour bus. "Good bye Steven," She said as she got into the limo.
"Jackie wait!" Hyde yelled as the limo began pulling away. He stood there until he couldn't see the limo anymore as Eric walked up behind him.
"Hyde-"
"Just leave me alone okay." Hyde said as he walked back inside and Eric stood there wondering if maybe…just maybe if he wished hard enough he could go back in time and fix what he had done.
A/N: So what do you think? I love that linkin park song by the way. It's on their new album, 'Minutes to Midnight'