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Sorry for the delay couldn't think of anything.

The songs I used were Avril lavigne's Why, tomarrow, and naked, and Kelly clarkson's Sober.

EDWARD'S SECRET IS FINALLY REVEALED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sober

Bella's POV

We sat in the Porche, driving away the problems that had arrosed. Forgetting about the past and focusing on the present, going down the black asphalt as fast as we possibly could. Angela would laugh and chat animatedly with Alice and Edward while I was forgotten miles away. The only thing that made sure that I was here was the song pouring slowly out of the radio. I had realized that I never really knew Edward's secret but I didn't bother ruining everyone's good moments. I was cuddled up next to Edward but he hardly even reconized my body next to his.

"Bella!" Alice screamed as I threw up all over her floor.

"Sorry Alice. I'll clean it up," I coughed. Alice pulled over while everyone hopped out. Everything was moving too fast and spinning, I tried breathing in but found my lungs weren't attached to my body anymore, still moving at fast speeds down the road. Another round of nausea came and I tried keeping down what was left in my stomach.\\

"Bella, I'll clean it." Alice said after a nudge from Edward.

"It's fine. Just let me find my lungs." I said breathlessly

"Bella, get out of the car." Edward said sternly.

"Bella, don't worry. You'll be okay." Alice said her optomtisc-self resurfacing.

I got out of the Porche grasping Alice at first, then falling on the wet ground. The road was empty except for the random and large semi-trucks. Angela leaned infront of me blocking the rain that was falling on my face. My head pounded as I grasped the fact that I wasn't sick untill just then. Edward whispered into his cellphone, his back to me. I had the strangest guess who he was talking to and would've bet everything I had that I was right. Alice tossed out the bag full of my body fluids and ushered us into her car.

Edward, with the cellphone still attached to his ear, sat where Angela had. Angela sat next to me, an open and ready bag for me. Edward groaned in the seat infront of me while Alice glared at him, obviously not pleased about what he was doing. Angela stroked my hair lightly comforting me with her somewhat cool hands. A strange guilt that I hadn't felt in a while consumed me, tears streaming down my face. Silent and graceful tears spilled over my eyelids.

I stared out the window, completely slient and watched as the clouds let their pain out. Alice sounded like a motorcycle when Edward whispered something into the cellphone. Although not intimadated by Alice he suddenly stopped and glanced behind his seat to glance at me. His face was somber, or maybe contemplaiting on something. Edward didn't look at my eyes suddenly ashamed and Alice had a triumphant grin, that disappered when something was screamed into the phone.

My eyes drifted shut on the way back to Forks and memories of before invaded my mind sucking up all the happiness. Soon my lungs felt like they gave up during the time when James attacked me. As James lurched forward, I shot up my, cold sweat dripping down my face. I sighed in relief when we were pulling up to Angela's house. I knew they would both abandon me, Alice would run to Jasper while Edward would be claimed by Tanya who still, after so long, was still here.

I climbed out of the car when we reached my house. I went to walk inside, after saying thank you to them both, but Edward caught my arm staring deeply into my eyes trying to find something within them.

"Alice, I'm not going home with you okay?" Edward said not looking away from me.

"That's fine." Alice said with a big smile on her face.

We walked towards the house silently. Edward hardly let me go when I went to unlock the door, we went inside and settled on the couch.

"What's your secret Edward?" I asked laying my head on his chest.

"Tanya likes me and you already know that, but," Edward said trying to muster out the words," I don't like her back and I never have but some stuff... happened once. It was an accident and way before you were born."

I nodded, I could understand him, I didn't have anything to hide but people make mistakes even if they aren't all the way human. "She was on the phone wasn't she?"

"Yeah." Edward barely choked out.

"And you were going over there weren't you?" I asked knowing the answer.

"Yeah." Edward whispered ashamed.

"But you didn't." I said attempting to make him feel better.

"But I shouldn't have even thought about it."

"Your a person and people make mistakes."

"Don't try and make me feel better." Edward said standing up.

"Then what am I supposed to do. Sit here and watch you self destruct?" I asked sitting up on my own.

"Anything then what your trying to do for all I care."

"No, I'm not going to let you control my decsions."

Edward sighed and sat down next to me again and sighed.

"What are you thinking?" Edward asked.