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Miley's Pov
I woke up and Lilly wasn't next to me... I put my pajamas on even though I didn't sleep in them, and went downstairs. The most beautiful girl in the world was stting on my couch... watching tv with Jackson as if she was part of the family... that's good. Really good.Just in case... give it time Stewart, don't freak her out. Oh god she turned around... and she's smiling at me. What do I say? Do I act the same? Is that what happens after you do it for the first time? Act like nothing happened... Oh god I'm bad at this. I fake a smile because I'm nervouse, and I ask Lilly to come upstairs with me...
Once we get upstairs, I decide I'll flirt a little before getting to the point. "So I see you eventually changed into your pajamas?" I said as I pulled at one of her buttons on her shirt. "Mmmm, I don't think Mr.Stewart would apreciate it if I walked around your house naked, he'd probably go blind." She replied as she rolled her eyes. She's so cute when she's being sarcastic. "I don't know... He might try to steal you from me, you look pretty damn good." I felt a little burst of confidence and grabbed her hand, making her step closer to me... Was it this hard to breath a minute ago?
"Miley!" She gasped and opened her mouth slightly. "You are such a potty mouth. When did this happen?" She grabbed my waist and stroked my side with the tips of her fingers. "Ummm, well, sometime between your tongue touching mine and then me screaming at the top of my lungs while you were just being your amazing self and making me leave this stupid world and connect with the one and only love of my life for the first time ever." I looked into her eyes dreamily, I couldn't help it, it was just so easy to get lost in those baby blue orbs. "That was your first time too?" Lilly looked shocked, I wonder why.
"Uh, yeah, why? I hope you didn't think that I would just go around doing that with everyone." I said a little too sarcastically... oops I hope I didn't hurt her feelings. "I just thought that you and... " She stopped talking, scared to mention him, but right now it didn't matter. "No, no,no, I wouldn't ever do that with someone other than you. Actually.. can I tell you something?" I wanted to tell her soo bad about those feelings and prove to her that I really do love her more than I could ever love Nick. She nodded so I led her to the bed and we sat down.
"Okay... Well, I just want you to know that, I didn't just realize that I loved you last night, I already knew. I was actually going to tell you a long time ago, but Nick interrupted us and I cold never build the courage to try again. I told him and he said I should give up because I shouldn't jepordise a friendship like ours and I didn't. The day that he died..." I stopped to take a breath, and then continued. " The day that he died, he tried to get me to go further with him and I stopped him because I didn't want to do that with anyone but you. I figured it was impossible, but I wanted to wait for you in case I actually had a chance, and what do you know... it happend."
I let it all out and she listened. I saw tears forming in her eyes... "Miley... I... Wow. I can't believe you waited for me. I love you.. So much." Lilly leaned in and kissed me. And then kissed me again. I kissed back. I tilted my head and wrapped my arms around her neck. She moved forward a little more and ended up laying me down, then ended up on top of me. Her tonuge was stroking mine and I felt so good that I really, really wanted to repeat what happened last night, but what if she doesn't want to? What if she thinks I'm secretly a sex freak or something? How would I even make a move to signal that I wanted to? I don't think that if I just say,"Make love to me Lilly." it will work everytime. Maybe it'll turn her on if I just say fuck me... she seemed to like it when I swore earlier what the heck... why not try again?
Confession number five
Miley is the reason that I killed him... It was worth it